A/N Get ready for a ride. Things are going to be different than y'all expect them to be.

Chapter 6

In the hospital they check out Olivia. Her clothes are putted in bags and she gets a hospital gown on. But when they want to take the bags Olivia stops them. She tells them that she will take care of them herself. Alex and Casey want to object but one glare of Olivia stops them. The ADA's think that the Detective is a little on the edge because of the attack and decide to let it go for the moment. They don't know they couldn't be more wrong. That things are about to get worse than they could ever think of. Olivia looks back at the nurse.

"Is there a place where we can talk without any camera? The three of us I mean." Olivia asks, pointing to Alex, Casey and herself.

"Yes there is, but.." The nurse says.

"Show it." Olivia says, sternly.

"Yes, Detective." The nurse answers.

She knows better than to argue with cops. Olivia picks up her badge, cellphone, holster with her gun and the evidence bags and they walk out of the examination room and to a small office. Alex and Casey are walking behind them starting to think that there is something the strong Detective didn't mention earlier. And obviously she doesn't want it recorded. The nurse opens the door and Olivia steps aside to let Alex and Casey go first. She nods at the nurse and waits till the nurse nods back. A silent agreement of 'you don't know I'm inside here'. Then Olivia walks inside and closes the door behind her taking a deep breath before she turns around to face Alex and Casey. As soon as Olivia turns around, Alex speaks up.

"Are you gonna tells us what's going on and why you are acting so strange?" Alex asks.

"Yes I am. And what I'm about to tell you and ask you two, you're not gonna like it, not at all. But I want the both of you let me finish first." Olivia answers, looking at Alex and Casey.

Both Alex and Casey nods. Taking a deep breath again, Olivia knows there is no turning back and that she is about to drop a bomb in both ADA's laps.

"I hoped, against better judgment, that this day would never come. As I told Alex earlier I know the two men that are in custody now. There names are Johnny Bishop and Michael McCaid. I haven't seen them since I was 15 and hoped I never would see them again. And by arresting them, the rest of my life is planned. Because they are not just rapists that raped and tortured our six victims. Very short explanation, when I was 15 years old, I was in a corrupt youth facility. But when I came there I didn't know that. Without going into details, all the cases we have handled and you have prosecuted I have seen it back then and they happened to me. I have seen even worse than we ever have seen professionally. And the only reason I'm still alive is because I never talked about it and always have kept my mouth shut. So long story short, with them having arrested, I have a price on my head for the rest of my life, that is if they don't find me of course. It doesn't matter anymore if I keep my mouth shut or not, they will think I opened it anyway. I want one of you to call Cutter and ask him, no let me rephrase that, demand from he to get you both removed from this case. I don't want you to take this case. Tell him it is a conflict of interest, which is true technically, because of me. And I want you to do it as soon as I'm done talking. I can't express how sorry I am for destroying your lives. I'm so sorry for destroying your life again, Lex. As for me, I'm going to call Hammond. If I want to stay alive I have to disappear yesterday. I made a arrangement with him a long time ago. All I have to do is call. Again I'm so sorry for destroying your lives." Olivia says.

To say that Alex and Casey are shocked is one way to say it. Both most of all they are shocked to hear what Olivia has been trough as a teenager. And being in Witsec herself, Alex realizes that she won't see Olivia ever again. That Olivia will be in Witsec for the rest of her life. Casey also realizes it. Being the prosecutor of the Connor case she knows exactly what this means for Olivia. And after a split second she realizes what this means for Alex. Alex snaps out of her shocked state when she realizes what Olivia is saying.

"I'm not going to lose you again, Liv. I'm not going to lose you for the rest of my life. I'm going with you. I don't care how we are going to arrange it, but I'm going with you." Alex says.

"Alex, I can't ask you to hide for the rest of your life. That isn't fair to do. Because that's what I'm going to do, hide for the rest of my life. I now I'm gonna miss you like hell, but I can't ask that from you." Olivia says softly.

"I thought I would tell you this at an other moment, in a different setting. And with just the two of us. But I don't have that luxury now. I love you, Olivia Benson. I always have and always will. Without you in my life it's meaningless. So I tell you it one more time, Detective. I'm going with you." Alex says softly.

Looking down at the floor, Alex hopes that she just didn't ruin her friendship with admitting to Olivia that she loves her. Casey smiles at hearing Alex love declaration. Despite the situation she is happy that the blonde ADA finally told it. The redhead turns her head to look at Olivia. And knows by the look on the Detective's face that she loves Alex just as much as the blonde loves her.

"The last part of your speech I expected a while ago, should this day ever come. So I told Hammond that if I ever needed to go, that you were coming with me. Told him that's the deal, non negotiable. As for the first part, I love you to Alexandra Cabot. From the moment I looked into your eyes for the first time. I just wanted it to be your choice and for you to be sure of it. Going with me, I mean. That's why I kept you of for a moment. And don't ask why I didn't went into Witsec earlier. That is something between Hammond and me." Olivia says, and turns to Casey after saying this.

"Casey, you call Cutter. I don't want to worry about you more than I already will. Please step back, do it for me and for Alex." Olivia pleads.

"You really don't think I stay here without the two of you, do you? You are not the only one in trouble anymore. Alex and I are too now. So I tell you this, Detective. Not only will I call Cutter to tell him we step back, when you call Hammond you tell him I'm going with you too. I know I need to hide too. And I'm not going to do that all by myself. Besides Dakota needs someone to talk to when you two are going to be all cheesy, once we are somewhere safe." Casey answers.

"Why do I have to be friends with lawyers? Don't answer that, Novak. Fine, I know I'm not going to win this so I safe us all time. I call Hammond and tell him that you are going with us too. Any other demands, Counselor?" Olivia asks.

"Nope, that will be all Ma'am, Detective Benson I mean." Casey says.

"Just to be clear, you both do know we don't go to our places to collect some personal belongings? Hammond will be here, probably half an hour after I call. Assuming that he isn't outside of New York. We don't have time for that, and it is far to dangerous. We go like this." Olivia asks.

Both women nod. They know what their decision means. And Alex couldn't care less. The only thing she wants is to be with Olivia and for them to be safe and alive. She knows the drill. And wouldn't have done it for anyone else but the brunette Detective.

"Alright, Casey you call Cutter first. After you're done, I call Hammond. It's for the best we stay here. I just wished I had some clothes to put on. Oh well I have other things to worry about." Olivia says.

Casey calls Cutter. Their conversation is short. Olivia had hit the nail on it's head when she said it would be a conflict of interest. Cutter couldn't do anything else than agree. Casey had to mention Olivia's kidnapping. She didn't tell him anything else and certainly nothing about what they were going to do. As soon as Cutter heard that Olivia was kidnapped he said he would take this case himself. About 3 minutes after Casey called they were finished. And Olivia call Hammond.

"Hammond, Benson here. It's time. I'm at St. Mercy. How fast can you be here?" Olivia asks as a greeting.

"20 minutes, tops." Hammond answers.

"Alright. Just two more things. You have to go to my apartment and get my daughter. I just got custody last week. And I have two ADA's coming with me. Things are blowing up in our faces. That's all I can say right now. See you in 20." Olivia says.

"Fine, see you in 20. I know there is nothing I can do about it but get the three of you out of there. I send someone to your house. Is she alone at home?" Hammond asks.

"No. Carmichael is with her. So good luck with that." Olivia says, smiling to herself.

"Oh hell no. Thank you, Detective." Hammond says sarcastically and ends the call.

Alex and Casey can't help it and laugh out loud as soon as the call ends.

"I feel sorry for the poor Agent that is going to your apartment." Casey says.

"There is no way that Carmichael is going to let Dakota go without a fight. I don't think she is gonna let her go with the Agent alone. I agree with Casey, poor Agent." Alex says.

"Why did you think I said good luck with that? I know that Tex isn't going to let Dakota go alone with that Agent. I don't know what she is gonna do, but don't be surprised that when we are arriving at the safe house, that Carmichael will be there too." Olivia says dryly.

It's quiet for a few moments.

"I'm so sorry for all of this that's happening. When I saw them I tried to call the op off. But my equipment failed. I wouldn't have let them walk but I would have try to prevent this to happen." Olivia says softly, feeling guilty.

"This is not your fault, Olivia. You didn't know that it were them we were chasing after. There is nothing you could have done. I know you blame yourself, but don't do it. Alex and I both agreed with the op. We are in this together. You didn't chose your past to happen and you didn't chose for this to happen. And I certainly don't blame you!" Casey says.

"I don't blame you either, Liv. There is no way you could see this coming. We didn't have one shred of evidence to know whom they were. The op was the only thing we could do. And you are certainly not to blame for result of it. It is nothing like it was with Velez and Zapata. There is nothing you could have done to prevent this. At least this time none of us is harmed like back then. So get it out your pretty head that this your fault. I know it's gonna take us a lot of time to convince you otherwise. But this is how it is. And not some version you have set into your mind." Alex says.

"Thank you both for not blaming me. And you're right, Alex. It's gonna take you a lot of time to convince me. But I'm just glad you aren't mad at me." Olivia says.

It stays silent after that. There is nothing more to say about it at this moment. And they all are preparing themselves for getting their world's upside down.

18 minutes after ending the call Olivia gets a text message from Hammond, asking where exactly they are. Olivia text back, explaining where they are. 1 minute later there is a knock on the door and Hammond saying to don't shoot that its him. Olivia looks at Alex and Casey and opens the door.

"Alright, let's go. We should be at our destination for tonight in half an hour." Hammond says.

Olivia, Alex and Casey nods. Casey to gets the bags. And two minutes later they are in a black SUV on their way to a hotel for the night.