Miss insensitive writer is back!
This is a reflection of Rukia. I don't know if you remember chapter 6, A frozen ocean of rain. This chapter retakes the 6th one, but it is written from Rukia's perspective.
Enjoy!
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jenny.v - thank you so much
saiya-jinPan140, i'm glad you liked the "dying" scene. I really tried to make it look tragic.
star133, already thinking of "they lived happily ever after ending?"... but the ending it's still far. I'm only close the half of this story. So there is still a lot to write about. thank you for the review.
MugetsuIchigo, maybe she's not dead ... but a little tragic moment won't do any harm to the story ..i think...
Guest, for a second, when i wrote the other chapter i though the same way as you... ( are you the same person who said this story should end as a byaruki? i)
purplepam, yep... the chances are still 50 - 50 :D
Araiae4u, ooooh, another byaruki supported! Wonderful!
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Byakuya, you told me once that we, people, are like the falling sakura petals.
"Our existence is as ephemeral as the beauty of the flowers. That's why we must be prepared to die at any moment but at the same time we must live as If the death does not exist. We should make count every second of our fragile and short time… Take the example of the sakura petal that falls facing the end in its most beautiful manner. Learn from that petal, Rukia, how to live beautifully and die proudly ..."
Byakuya,tell me, have I lived beautifully? Have I lived enough? Because all I can feel now it's fear… and pain.
I see clearly the face of the man who approaches me. He calls 'Beautiful Kuchiki Princess'. Am I beautiful, Byakuya? Am I a Kuchiki Princess? … Wasn't I always Rukia?... Just the simple Rukia?… The man pierces me with his eyes as if I were naked and I wonder if he really wants to kill me or just rip my clothes off. I guess both…
Byakuya,I feel a huge hole in my chest and I'm afraid it's not from the man's sword. Was I always this sad? I am afraid, my dear… I really am, because all my senses are numbed and I can't feel my body anymore. Tell me, am I really dying?
My eyes are wide open. I don't even have the strength to close my eyelids. I feel like falling and I can see the sky, the trees, the rain...and him! Byakuya, I see him coming to me and he has that expression on his face. It's the one I can't stand to watch! I wish I could close my eyes so I won't face those scared and worried amber eyes. I hate it so much when he's worrying about me!
Oh, Ichigo! Don't get close! Don't came after me!... Tell him Byakuya, oh, please, just tell him to leave me behind! I can't stand to see him hurt because of me! Not anymore!
But he won't listen to any of us, won't he? … I already see him taking me in his arms, even though I can't feel his touch. Oh! And how I miss his touch!
And how I miss his smile!… The rain made him remember the worst moments of his life so for long time now, I wished to do something about it. I wished to take him out in the rain once and give him a beautiful and happy memory, so that when he would think of the rain, he won't remember the pain, but only the moment he spent together. The afternoon he carried me on his back, while I was holding the umbrella for both and I whispered in his year: "The rain it's so beautiful… and you make me so happy." But in the end I have shamefully failed. Not only that I caused him another horrible memory, but I made the rain fall harder than ever…
An ocean of rain surrounds me… and it's frozen by my broken zanpakuto. With my eyes wide open I see how the rain drops turning into ice and the ice turning into a storm… And behind all this, I see his lips moving, calling repeatedly my name…
Byakuya, have I lived beautifully? I doubt, because all that I leave behind it's a frozen ocean of rain. I have failed. I wished him happiness but I constantly broke his heart. I knew how much he hated the rain… and yet I made it start again. I am ashamed… and scared…
Strange memories are crossing my mind. I suddenly remembered how Renji looked when he was a child… I remembered also the day I left Izunuri to become a shinigami and the one I stepped in the Kuchiki manor for the first time… I remember Kaien- dono's face and I have the strange feeling that I'm closer to him than ever… but he's dead. This means that I'm also...
Oh, Byakuya… am I really dying?
I keep hearing Ichigo calling me, but everything around it's getting darker. It's like someone it's pulling a curtain over my sight.
"RUKIAAA!" he yelled. "RUKIA!"
Don't worry Ichigo. I'm alright. Don't worry… I will not die today…
"RUKIA!"
No, not today…
Not today…
"RUKIA!"
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But then everything went black.
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I've tried something different. This reflection o is about Ichigo but it's addressed to Byakuya... i think this tells a lot about the relation of the three main characters.
Anyway, let me know what you think :)