Soooooo sorry for the late update . I've been.. well, busy. Anyway, this chapter is kinda.. meh.. But! Please bear with me . I swear, it'll get better!
Matt: Why did you change your name?
Mello: And of all names, why did you change it to Matt's name?
Matt: What does MJ mean anyway?
Me: You'll find out soon enough~ ^^
Mello: I don't like it... .
Matt walked into the café, hands in his pocket. A cigarette hung from his lip. He could use his car to go to the café, but he chose not to 'cause he needed time to think. He needed a lot of time to sort things out in his head. Clearly, everything's just out of whack. The day he found out that his wife was dying, was the same day that he meets his first love, who by the way, left him at the orphanage which cause him to- Nevermind. Seriously, how was all this normal? And no, this is not fate. It's just a coincidence. Yeah, that's it.
The redhead grunted and threw the cigarette away. He grabbed the mint that was in his pocket and ate it. He might smoke, but that doesn't mean he like the taste that sticks in his mouth after taking one.
Anyway, back to reality, he just remembered that Roice was talking to Mello earlier. Which was not only strange, but also, well, should he say… Unfortunate? Not that he didn't want to see the blonde again but… Okay, maybe part of him didn't want to see Mello again. He didn't hate him or anything. It's just that seeing the blonde reminds him of the past. The pain he felt. However, what's done is done. He can't do anything about it now.
Matt stood in front of the café. Well, here goes nothing. He was about to open the door, but the closed sign stopped him. If it's closed then… Where's Mello?
"Hey." The said blonde greeted.
Matt turned to his left and saw Mello leaning on a motorcycle. Was he that late? "H-Hey…" He said. "Did you wait long?" He asked while scratching the back of his head. He walked towards the blonde.
"Not really." Mello answered. He jumped a little when Matt reached to touch his cheek.
"Liar." The gamer said. "Your face is already that could." He withdrew his hand and put it inside his pocket. "So…" He averted his gaze and stood beside Mello.
"So.." There was an awkward silence.
"… Wanna take a walk?" Matt asked, trying to shoo away the awkwardness.
"Yeah, sure." Mello replied.
They walked away from the café to some quiet street. All that can be heard was their footsteps, and maybe, Matt's heartbeat. He was as nervous as fuck. Mello wasn't any different though.
"So how've you been this past ten years?" Matt asked.
"Fine, I guess… Been here and there." Mello said with a shrug. "What about you? Seems like you're pretty happy."
"Y-Yeah… I guess… It wasn't the same without you thought." Matt said, trying hard to keep it natural.
Mello blushed. "I… Feel the same." He said. "Must be nice to have a family huh?"
"It is… What about your parents?" Matt asked. Though he didn't get a reply. Mello just looked away. "I see… Sorry."
"It's fine." Mello said. "Your kid's cute. He looks a lot like you."
The redhead smiled. "I've been told. So what did you two talk about?"
"That's confidential." Mello said as he rolled his eyes.
Matt frowned. "He's my son! I have the right to know." He said and crossed his arms.
Mello laughed faintly. "Childish as always…" He muttered. "Well, to tell you the truth, Mr. Daddy, we didn't really talk about anything. You got there before we could talk. But the way he introduced himself was the same way you did. It's actually funny."
"Well I am his father."
The stopped talking for a few seconds, but the silence wasn't awkward like before. It was the comfortable kind this time.
"What about you, Mels, found anyone yet?" Matt asked.
"Well… I have a cat."
"S-Seriously? Mello, it's been ten years. Don't tell me you don't have anyone you're with."
"Jeez, I'm sorry. I'm not that good with socializing like you."
Matt sighed. "You're hopeless without me aren't you?" It took him a few seconds to realize what he said. He looked away, he had a feeling things would get awkward again.
Mello was taken by surprise at what Matt said. It was true though. "Yeah, I am." He said. "I had to go to the store myself so I could buy some chocolate. Not only that, it's also cold at night. And, it's always quiet. It took some time to get used to it."
Matt smiled. "Lucky you survived." He said. "…It's all your fault though." He stopped waling. "you wouldn't have had such a hard time if you hadn't…" He said, almost whispered.
Mello stopped on his tracks too. He looked down. "I know…" He said. "I'm sorry, Matt…" He faced the redhead who was silently sobbing. His heart fell at the sight.
Matt pulled his goggles down to his neck and wiped away his tears. "Shit… Why am I crying?" He cursed.
The blonde hugged the other, his arms wrapped tightly around him. "I'm sorry, Matt. I'm so sorry." He said, his own tears now falling.
The redhead buried his face on Mello's chest. His hands clutched on the other's shirt tightly. "You jerk…"
They both stood on the sidewalk, hugging each other under a light post. A few moments later, rain started pouring down on them.
Matt pulled away and wiped his tears. Not that it made any difference. "Really… At a time like this? Seriously?"
Mello smiled. "I guess someone's watching us." He said.
"That actually sound creepy in a way." Matt said.
"Idiot. Let's head back."
"No… Let's stay here a bit longer. It's been a long time since I stood under the rain."
"Hey… Want to know something?" Mello asked after a few moments of silence.
The gamer looked at Mello. "What is it?"
Mello leaned close to Matt's ear and whispered, "… I still love you." He stayed there, not moving away.
Matt stood in shock. Mello still.. loves him? He smiled. "I don't believe you." He still loves him after ten years of separation? That's just not possible. "Besides, I have a wife and a child, Mels."
The blonde moved away. "I knew you would say that. But I'm telling the truth."
"Really now? Prove it then." Matt said. "And no, a kiss won't satisfy me." He added.
Well that was one option down. "Fine then. Just give me time." Mello said. "But what if I do manage to prove it?" He asked.
"If you really love me, then you won't have to ask for anything in return."
"That's true… Tell me… Do you still love me, Matt?" The blonde asked.
Matt didn't answer the question. "What about we head back?"
"Not until you answer me."
"Then I'm walking back. Goodbye." Matt turned around. He was about to take a step until Mello spoke.
"It's okay if you don't love me now. I'll just make you love me up to the point that you can't even sleep without me."
But I do love you, idiot. "D-Don't get so confident." Matt said.
"I think you forgot who you're talking to, Matt. I'm always confident." Mello said, emphasizing the always.
"So you think I'm the kind of person that goes and cheats on his wife?"
"But do you really love her? I can tell how you're feeling, Matt."
Matt turned to face Mello and slapped him. "Really Mello? You can tell how I'm feeling? Then tell me, do you know how much it hurts me to know that everyone I love comes to a point wherein they have to leave me? Do you know how much it hurts? I'm always the one being left behind. I'm just so sick of it."
Mello stared at Matt with a confused look on his face. "What do you mean?"
Matt swallowed the lump that was forming in his throat. "Sakiko's dying, Mello. She's dying…" He said as warm tears started streaming down his face.
The blonde was shocked. Really shocked. Matt's wife was dying? "I'm sor-"
"And you dare ask me if I really love her? How could you?"
"I'm sorry, Matt. Sorry…" Mello went to hug the redhead but his hand was slapped away.
"Don't touch me. I'm leaving." Matt turned around and walked away.
"Matt…" Mello kicked the wall, water splashing everywhere. He placed his head against the wall. "You're such an idiot, Mello. You're an idiot."
The next day, Matt went to pick Roice up from the kindergarten. And he didn't expect to see Mello sitting with Roice on the swing.
The child spotted his dad's car and waved hello. "Daddy~"
Matt waved back with a smile. He saw Mello looking at him but just ignored him. He turned off the engine and went out the car. He walked towards the two and smiled. Well, he smiled at Roice. "Hey, kiddo, how was your day?"
"It was great, daddy! And I met Mello too! He was the guy from the restaurant." Roice said with a Matt-like grin on his face.
"That's good, then. Why don't you say goodbye? Mommy's waiting at home."
"Alright! Goodbye, Mello!"
"Bye…" Mello said with a smile.
"You go to the car first. I'll say hi to your new friend."
"'Kay!~" The child skipped to the car, using both hands to open the door.
"What are you doing?" Matt asked.
"I just happened to be passing-by. I saw him, so I said hi."
Matt sneered. "Yeah, right." He said as he rolled his eyes."
"Look, Matt. I get that you're mad at me, but I'm really sorry okay? I didn't know what I was thinking."
"Why are you acting like this anyway? Saying sorry and stuff. That's not the Mello I know."
"Because if I act like the way I did before, I'd lose you, Matt. And now that I've found you, I never want to lose you again. Even if you're mad at me or chase me away, I'll still be here. I'll never leave you."
"Daddy!~ What's taking so long?" Roice called out from the car window.
"I gotta go…" Matt walked away and went inside the car.
"I'll never leave you..."
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OH! And, I have a question~ When I finish this fic, (and I'm far from there) should I make a sequel but this time, about Roice's love story? I've been thinking about it... And I just wanted to know if someone's willing to read it if i do make a sequel. Another question, should I make him straight... Or gay? . I'd appreciate it very much if you answer my questions! :D
'Til next time~