Yay, another chapter! I said that I'll update every other day but I guess I just wasn't good enough to be able to do that along with my other stuff. School is hell afterall. But anyway, thank you for the reviews everyone! I really really really really appreciate it! w
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The redhead sat on the couch with his foot tapping on the floor continuously. He reached for his pocket and pulled out a cigarette. Sure, it wasn't that shocking for Mello to join the mafia since it's him. But to actually join and be the leader at that, that was just too disappointing for Matt for it to be expressed in words. So he just looked intensely at Mello, waiting for him to speak up and explain everything to him. Asking questions would take forever so it was much better if the blonde would just tell the whole story.
Mello took a deep breath. Matt was staring at him so fiercely, he was sure it felt like he was being cut up. He didn't know how to start. "Matt… I…" He paused. "I'm sorry if I went to your house without you knowing. But, I just had to talk to her. I'm not gonna tell you what we talked about but, I'm pretty sure she'll tell you so… There's nothing to worry about."
Matt arched up a brow at the last statement. He started laughing like he was about to be crazy. "Nothing to worry about?" He laughed again. "Are you sure about that?" In almost a second, his expression changed again. This time, he looked like he was about to kill someone. "Mello, you're in the mafia. You're their leader. There's nothing to worry about? Who are you fucking with? I have a son Mello, and I also have a wife, who's actually dying. And what's more, you went to our house! My house. Who knows if someone dangerous followed you there and then did something to my family? What are you gonna do, say another sorry? How could you be so reckless? It'd be alright if it was just me, but no, you just had to go and put my family in some kind of danger as well. "
He knew. Mello knew that Matt was going to say something like this. He predicted it. Well it was true, all of that might be true, but, Mello wasn't that stupid to actually put someone he loves in danger. As fast as a snap, the blonde went from being sorry, to being serious. "I think you're forgetting who I am, Matt. Do you actually think that I would let something like that happen? Just because we've been away from each other for a long time, doesn't mean I've gone all stupid. Don't underestimate me."
"That's exactly what I'm worried about, Mello. You're you. You will never change. You will always attract danger, you'll always get in trouble just like you used to in the past."
"And you were with me back then. You always stood by my side no matter what. What's the difference from now?"
"The difference is, before, I had nothing to lose. But now… I just can't risk anything. I just can't." The redhead's eyes started to water, but he held his tears in.
"What do I have to do to get you to trust me?" Mello asked.
"… I don't know." Matt said. "But what I do know is, the only person that I can trust right now is my wife. At least she's been honest to me and not keeping any secrets."
At that statement, Mello almost wanted to laugh. But he knew it would be immature. "And how do you know that? How do you know she's not keeping anything from you?"
"Of course I do, she's my wife." Matt looked suspiciously at the blonde. "Why are you asking me that? Is there something I should know?"
"As a matter of fact, there is something." Mello knew he was going to regret this at some point, but it was the best thing to do.
Matt took off his shoes and walked inside their house. He looked like his life just got sucked out of his body.
"Welcome home." Sakiko greeted with a bright smile. And it just hurt the redhead more.
"Where's Roice?" He asked.
"He's taking a nap." Just then, her smile slowly disappeared because she knew for sure that something was wrong. "What's the problem, dear?" She asked.
Matt looked her in the eye, pain evident in his face. "We need to talk." He said.
The two went to the living room, Matt sat on the couch and Sakiko was just across him. "I'm guessing this is about the guy who went here yesterday. I'm still not ready to tell you what we talked about, sorry." She said.
The redhead rested his back on the couch and took a deep breath. He didn't know how he was going to start this. He didn't know how he was going to tell Sakiko that it was alright and that she didn't have to put up with this act anymore, that he knows the truth now. He decided that he should start from the very beginning. "As you know, I was an orphan before. I stayed at a pretty special orphanage that only accepts gifted students whose mental capabilities were above normal. To make it short, all of us there were pretty exceptional."
"Yes, I remember you told me that some time ago. But I don't see the point of telling me this story—"
"Let me finish," Matt interrupted and Sakiko just gave a nod. "Yes, I did tell you that, but I didn't tell you everything. " He paused. "I had a best friend, we were always together and no one could separate us. He could be violent at times just 'cause he was always second and not first, but I admired his undying determination to be the best. He always did his best, and sometimes more. He would always surprise me with the things he does. And before I knew it, I was already in love with him. The person I'm talking about is indeed the blonde haired guy that came here and talked to you." Here was the hard part. "Look, I'm sorry that I didn't tell you about him and the rest of my past. I just felt like it was unnecessary to tell you. But, it seems like I've been proved wrong. Deep inside of me, I was hoping that one day, he would find me and things would be better between us again. I've always been denying it, but I've always known that I was never able to let go of him. I never stopped loving him. And because of this, I couldn't give you all of my love and I'm sure you knew because if you didn't, you wouldn't have…" Matt lowered his head.
Sakiko didn't know how to feel. She was shocked, hurt, and all in all, she was confused. Matt wasn't angry even after he knew about what she did. In fact, he looked like he was the one who was sorry when instead, it should be her. "I'm sorry, Matt. I guess he told you huh?"
"Yeah."
"I was right. You were still in love with someone from the past. I knew this, and yet I still let us go on. And it's brought the both of us pain. I guess we're both at fault here." She said with a sigh. Somehow, she felt like a big weight has been lifted from her chest. The two of them both did something they weren't supposed to. Matt loved her even though he knew he was still in love with Mello, and Sakiko fell for another guy even though Matt was already her husband. And despite the fact that she did something that was much worse, Matt still understood why she did it. He was the cause of it after all. If only he wasn't so half-hearted with his feelings for her, maybe she wouldn't have cheated on him.
"Hey, I want to let you know that you're still my wife and that I'll be with you 'til the end right?" Matt said. And by that he meant that he was going to support her until her last breath. Of course, Sakiko knew what he meant.
"Yes, thank you Matt. This is the reason why you became my best friend and why I fell in love with you."
Matt just gave her a warm smile. He'll make sure that she'll spend the rest of her days with nothing but a smile on her lips.
Five months later…
Sakiko lay on the hospital bed, it was almost her time. Matt felt like his heart was being ripped to pieces. He held her hand tightly and even though she was about to pass on, Sakiko was still calm and she gently rubbed her thumb on the back of the redhead's palm.
"Can I ask you something, Matt?"
"Sure, anything." Matt replied, forcing a smile.
"How are you and Mello going?" She asked.
The redhead was stunned by the question. She was dying and still, she wanted to know about this?
"Of all times, why are you asking me that now?"
"Just answer me."
"Well, he calls from time to time to ask me how things are going. And he comes and see me sometimes, but he always does this when I'm not at home so you were never really informed. Why are you asking?"
"Have you told him yet?"
"What's there to tell?"
Sakiko sighed. "I guess you haven't. Matt, I'm pretty sure we both know that I'm almost at my limit and—" Her voice slightly cracked. Tears fell down her cheeks but she did her best to hold it back. "I don't want you to feel so alone when I'm gone. You should go and tell him how you feel. I mean it."
"I… I don't know if I can…"
"Of course you can. And you will. I'll haunt you if you don't." She said with a smile.
"Hey, don't joke like that. It's not funny at all." Matt said with a frown.
"Sorry, but it's better than looking like an idiot from crying right?"
"You say that but you already are."
"At least I'm still smiling."
"Yeah, I guess…"
"I love you, Matt. You're the greatest best friend anyone could ever ask for."
"I love you too."
Huzzah! So what do you guys think? Was Matt too soft on Sakiko? Well, that's what I think but I can't have her yelling at her. I just can't see him doing something like that to a girl. .
Please feel free to suggest something if you have any ideas in mind. That is, if you want to keep the story going. I'm slowly running out of ideas, as hard it is to accept for me.
As always, please review! (: