Miss insensitive writer is back!
Well, at lest one of us changed their opinion on Haruna, haha. Anyway the story goes on. :)
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-loverukia, i started an chapter for I'll find you in another world... hope it will be done soon :)
-itsruby, should i take it as good thing? :)
-ra7matigorti2 Haruna will continue to help him get Rukia back :)
-SchelmaAnimeFan, glad i made you change your mind :)
-ngoknguyen3004 you are partly right. He let his guard off and acted out his character... but i'm sure he will come to his senses when he'll wake up in the morning.
-tokiluvnonu, you're flattering me, haha
-andyantopia, haha. well everyone has the right at an opinion.
-purplepam ... nothing can make you change your mind, right, haha.
-star133 YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSS! i can't wait for him to heal completely!
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Renji
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The one sided love
I spent two week s trying to find that "chappy necklace " . I even learned to use internet so I can make a special order in order to get it. That is because I love her.
But , tonight I'm giving up on her, along with the idea that one day, a change of heart will make her turn her big violet eyes to me and say : "Thank you for waiting me all this time". Starting this moment I will stop waiting for time to go back to the moment when we were children. For more than 60 years I've told myself that I'm the man who can't be moved… but it seems that now, I found somehow the power to leave all this behind.
That is because I never wanted to be the bad guy. It's enough that I'm stupid… I don't want be also to jealous.
It might be strange, but when I see Rukia happy with Ichigo, I'm also happy. So why would I hope to destroy that happiness? Moreover there must be something better waiting for me out there. I hope I'm not misunderstanding myself. There is nothing better in this world than Rukia, but if she would never lean over my heart and embrace it, wouldn't I be justified to call "better" someone who'd actually heal my heart?
Someone who went through all these feelings before I was born. Someone who had succeeded in healing his own heart…
I heard what Urahara said about the Kazuki blade, about Oza… but Haruna Ryoing didn't seem like a bad person. Maybe she was easy going… maybe she had slept with dozens of men, but that was not for me to judge.
Right after I returned to Seireitei, my feet, uncontrollably took the path that was leading to Miss Ryoing's house.
Unlike Rukia's or Taicho's, Haruna's reiatsu was not a pleasant one. It made all around her feel heavy. Secrets and regrets. Haruna's reiastsu was exactly like the feeling that brought up the memories that you missed then most along with the ones that hurt you the most.
I reached her house and I approached her room. I wanted to see her… and hear her hallucinating stories…
That strange creature with grey eyes… with loose and sheer clothes … I can already see her long and black hair, sliding into her wide décolletage ( but never wide enough to let me guess the shape of her breasts.) Her sensual lips are hypnotizing me, but her sharp tongue is always turning me off. When she talks to me she always looks like she had a couple of glasses before. I guess that's part of her charm...
A drunker and a liar! She always seems to ger herself in troubles… and half of the things she's telling me I suspect them to be lies. She was in love once with Taicho… I believe that this is the only honest thing she had told me. Even so I wish to see her. What if tonight, just like me… she had decided to leave her one sided love behind.
But then, I suddenly stopped…
I was near Haruna's room, when her reiatsu suddenly changed…It suddenly took a familiar scent.
Kuchiki…Taicho…
He was there… Inside her room. His reiatsu was strong, mixing with Haruna's and slowly it was overwhelming hers in a protective and lustful embrace.
I didn't need words to understand what has happening there, beyond the porch… beyond the closed door in front of me.
I took a deep breath, trying to not judge anyone… trying to not let this affect me. After all why should I care? And yet…I feel sorry for her…I feel sorry for me…because these one sided loves never heals!
She told me dozens of times that she got over it, but I know she was still in love with Taicho. It made me think that until a certain point, i'm the same as her… I would also never be able to forget Rukia…no matter how hard I'll try and lie to myself.
It's such a bittersweet love, my friend… but I'm glad that at least one of us is comforted tonight.
I took a step back ready to leave the Ryoing's house, but then in the moonlight, I saw a silhouette cowered on the porch next the closed door of Haruna's room. It was a man and he seemed to be crying. I stayed still, starring until the man noticed me and raised his chin.
Goroza…Ryoing?
He glanced at me with a helpless, hurtfully expression and my eyes widened.
"She's deliberately letting him devouring her… and I can't do anything for her…" Ryoing Goroza said.
Hearing his words I feel like this night was slowly turning into a hallucinating twilight. Ryoing Goroza frowned as he look closer at me.
"I know your face…" he added. " Byakuya' lieutenant…Haruna is fond of you…"
Fond of me? No. He was misunderstanding. I took a few steps back. What was happening here, in this house… what I left back in Karakura earlier… it all seems so unreal. I needed to get away!
Without saying a word I shunpo-ed to my house.
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Ryoing Goroza
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The man who just wanted to help
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I am a noble man. Strong and ambitious, but I was misfortune enough to be born in a family that had three sons among which I was the second born. The first one was Oza, then I came, while Nanakuma was the youngest. Becoming the head of the Rioying family was not destined to happen. I had to struggle in order to obtain that status. When I finally obtained it I thought that power was the only thing I wished… but then I got married and had children.
I have never known what a "husband" supposed to mean, but I definitely know what"a father" is. This is something I learned when my first child was born. It's true that I have three children, but I've been father only for one. When I look at Haruna I see myself among with all the things I wished I could be. She is a better version of myself, so how could I not prefer her in front of the others? I wished for her to have all the things I didn't have. As a son of the Ryoying family, the second one in the hierarchy of the Kuchiki clan, the highest position I could get was the "The head of the Ryoing family"… but Haruna, as a women could get into the family I always yearned for: the Kuchikis. When I heard that Ginrei's daughter in law gave birth to a boy I knew what I had to do. The little Byakuya was to become Haruna's husband, so that Haruna herself could be the head of the clan. Glory and greatness that is what I was planning for my daughter. 'But what about love?' I've asked myself. 'What about true love? The one I've never felt.' And then I saw the way my little Haruna was looking into little Byakuya's eyes."This must be fate" I've told myself. The love was there before they could even acknowledge it. The day when the engagement was agreed along with the day when the wedding date was fixed were the happiest day of my life… even happier than the one in which I become the head of the Rioying family…
The time when my children were off to the human world to have fun while I remained to plan their wedding, was one of the best time of my life. I never expected for things take such a turn in the end. I only wished for them to taste together the happiness and the glory. I thought I was helping them…
I slowly start to remember how all this nightmare begun…
I was at the Kuchiki manor with Ginrei, checking the guest lists for the last time, since the invitations were about to be sent.
"I received a letter from Haruna…" I suddenly said.
"So did I, from Byakuya…" Ginrei replied. "Byakuya was quite formal. He only said that they're in the Dominican Republic, that everything is going well and that he's coming home in two weeks as it was planned. I wonder if your daughter gave more details in her letter…"
I grinned. Of course she gave me details! Even more than I wanted to read.
"Actually, she described how…" but here I stopped. I wasn't sure that Ginrei would have liked to hear that the alcohol, dance and making out parts, no matter how romantic Haruna made them look in her letter.
"Well, speak now!" Ginrei replied, starting to lose his patience.
"Well…they're having fun… that kind of fun, If know what I mean…"
Ginrei's eyes widened angrily.
"Well I guess it's alright since they're going to be husband and wife in a couple of months…" I immediately added so that Ginrei won't start a speech on the necessity of the virginity before wedding.
Ginrei lowered his gaze to the guest list.
"Yes I suppose you are right…" he finally said and after a pause in which he stood silent and thoughtful, he added: " Byakuya and Haruna look happy together even though this is an arranged marriage. They found love despite all the nobility rules and this is a rare thing… I wish to protect what they have together"
"I couldn't agree more" I replied happily.
"That's why I think that it would be better for their happiness if Byakuya will not become the 28th leader of the Kuchiki clan."
My eyes widened, as the blood rushed in my veins, but Ginrei, calm and composed as usual, continued:
"I have thought about it for a long time now… These two children have a chance to a beautiful life. If Byakuya becomes the head of the clan his primordial responsibility will be to protect the pride of this family … He could no longer be a husband to Haruna and their marriage will slow turn into a cold and loveless one, just ike any other noble marriage… I'm finally decided, Goroza. Shojun, my son, will be the 28th leader of the Kuchiki clan"
And that's how the nightmare begun.
I had only two weeks until Byakuya and Haruna will return from the human world. I needed to make Ginrei change his mind. But how? I called for my brothers and had a family council since it was for the family interest so that Haruna will marry the head of the clan. Nanakuma agreed with my position, but he admitted that he had no power in the council. Oza told me that it will be a bad move for me to vote in the council against Ginrei's decision. It will make him believe that I chase power more than his grandson's happiness. Oza was getting on my nerves with his words, but I knew he was right.
"So what do you propose I should do?" I asked him, while we were both walking In the art gallery room and he stopped in front of the glass beyond which the Kazuki sword was exposed. He stood there silently and thoughtful for a while. Then he suddenly said.
"I wonder …have you ever used this?" and he pointed the sword. I frowned annoyed. That is what I hated about my older brother. He was always daydreaming, suspended in his own world. He never had a practical sense, but he was wise and because of that, I needed his mind clear in that moment. I had more important matters to discuss wish him, than his fascination for the Kazuki artifact.
"Of course I never used it! I'm not a criminal!..." I replied him trying to hide the fact that I was slowly losing my patience. "So once again, what do you advice me to do?"
"Convince the elders to oppose Ginrei… convince someone powerful in the council to vote against him" he answered with his eyes still lingering on the sword. And that was the moment that strange idea crossed my mind.
"Why won't you vote against Ginrei? You are powerful enough…"
Oza looked at me with a bored air.
"Why me? I don't care about who will be the next leader… as long as it is a Kuchiki pureblood,there is nothing to worry about."
A slight smile appeared on my lips:
"If you vote, I'll give you the Kazuki sword…"
His eyes widened.
"Don't try to buy me, Goroza… I'm not like you!"
But in the end he did vote as I asked him. It wasn't because of the Kazuki sword, but because I managed to convince him that Shojun was not ready to become the leader of the Kuchiki clan. Unfortunately Ginrei didn't like Oza's opposition and above all he didn't appreciate his insistences. During the council meeting I remained silent and imartial, but the conclusion was not very pleasant for my brother who was cut off from his rights and privileges. Practically he was banished from the Kuchiki clan. It didn't affect me, because I've never liked him too much, but his banishment didn't help me either. Shojun was still to become the next head of the clan… and I had to do something about it.
I decided to take the matter on my hands. So during the night, one week before the children's return, I did something I've never done before: I broke the glass box in which the Kazuki sword was put and I took it. Holding It I decided to pay a late visit to Kuchiki estate.
"What is the meaning of this?" Ginrei asked me.
"I'm sorry…" I said while holding the sword. "But he's my brother after all… and it's all my fault for all that happened. It was I who told him that Shojun-san is not ready to be the next leader… and you shouldn't be mad because we both know this is true…Shojun is a good lieutenant, but he hasn't been trained to become the Kuchiki head. "
Ginrei frowned and approached taking the sword from my hand. I didn't riposte.
"Goroza, you are right…but this issue will be solved. Shojun will be trained for the next ten years: he will take part at all the council meetings and slowly take over the administration. I will personally prepare him"
I displayed a relieved smile. It was a fake one, of course.
"My brother should also hear this…" I said.
"Oza doesn't need to hear anything… he has been banished so that he will be an example for the other Elders who oppose me and my family. If I will withdraw my word and restore Oza, how week my position may look among the Elders? And how long will it take until everyone will turn against Shojun?"
I leaned my lead and nodded.
"You are right… It's impossible to restore my brother's position. But at least can't we figure out a compensation" I said.
"A compensation?" Ginrei asked thoughtfully.
"Oza has always been curious on this sword…" I said pointing at the Kazuki blade. "I'm sure he will never use it, because that man couldn't hurt a fly. He doesn't even know to hold a katana…so I though this sword could be the compensation"
Ginrei frowned. 'Perfect!' I though. He swallowed the gudgeon.
After I left the Kuchiki estate I headed to my brother's house and handed him the so yearned sword, along with my apologies for what I compelled him to do in the council. He took the sword and told me that he didn't hold any grudge against me, because after all I'm his brother. We made peace and I returned to my home.
But that night I didn't close an eyelid. I've waited… and waited… and waited… until sometime during morning, a servant from the Kuchiki manor came and asked to present myself there, because… Shiojun and his wife had been found dead in their bedroom. Both killed by the Kazuki blade. I didn't say a word. I slowly got up from the chair and followed the servant.
I found the Kuchiki manor in a totally disaster. All the elders were present, all the servants were crying and somewhere on the halls, Oza's voice kept yelling: "I didn't do it! It's a conspiracy!"
But who could have believed Oza is innocent when he was the only person who had that sword during that night? How could Ginrei suspect someone else when he was the one who entrusted me to hand him the blade?
I've approached and looked at the two corpses. Shojun and his beautiful wife. "Such a waste…" I thought for a second and then I turned around, leaving the manor.
Back then I thought I was doing a good thing for my children. I never though it will turn out this way… With a Haruna that hated me and a Byakuya devoured by grief.
So many things changed after that morning… Happiness begun to look like a faraway midsummer night's dream. The years that followed have been a nightmare.
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I bet you all are like "Ooooh, still not ichiruki?" ... but if if you are patient i have a string of ichiruki chapters already prepared. But before describing what happened in Karakura during that night , i still have Byakuya's POV. I will try to update fast so that we'll get faster to the ichiruki moments.