A/N: Okay so Hey guys if you reed the hints that I gave for this chapter in Chapter 8 then you know I said it this chapter will be intense. I'm just going to be honest if any readers dont like Blood, Violence, Depression or Suicide then I will convince you not to read this chapter. But If you want still want to read it but not the Voilence part then I would let you skip a little down the middle. Okay thats Is all I have to say Now Onto Chapter 9.
Kim Pov
Right when I told Jack I was going to reveal his secret I left the hospital. I didn't even check on my brother or my mom I just had to leave. I needed to take my mind off of things Today was just to much to handle.
I drove a lake or pond so I could just think there. I finally spotted a Lake I parked and went by the lake I sat on the sand with my knees up. I watched as the water moved back and forth with a peaceful pattern.
I Kept thinking of my family what was going to happen my dad was the one who worked my mom was just a stay a home mom. How will we pay the bill? How will my mom handle all these problems? All these questions pop up with my family and everything.
I shed a hard tear to think about the guy who killed my father. Who would do this to a innocent person Your about to do the same thing No what are you talking about Im not killing anyone. You are going to expose a innocent persons secret, Oh Jack who cares he made my dad die he deserves it. No he didnt he ''asked'' you to stay, it wasn't a demand and you called your dad to see if he does have cancer, Listen I dont care what you say nothing will change my mind this time.
Even if he reveals your secret what secret do I have The fact that your dad died are you ready for people to know Of course not I'm not even ready to tell my friends. Jack doesnt even know my dad died I wouldnt speak to soon about that. I shook my head not really caring what my brain told me.
After thinking and watching the lake and my dad, I drove back home not the hospital its to hard to be in the hospital. Once I made it to my house the lights were open so My mom and brother must be home.
I open the door to my home and walk in then I heard a shatter of glass breaking, I walk to see my mom yelling at Ben.
''Look! What You Did!, Are You That Stupid You Broke The Picture of Your Dad!.'' She yelled loudly I watch to see the frame of my dad be broken.
''Im sorry Mommy, It was accident'' Ben quietly said with tears on him, Then My anger boiled when I see my mom slap Ben across the cheek hard.
''Hey'' I yelled to my mom, Moving Ben away ''You don't Touch Ben Okay, He said it was an accident'' I told my mom angrily, I notice her eyes were blood shot I have never seen this side of her. I felt something clutching me I looked down at Ben who look so scared
''You do not Speak That way To me, I was giving him a punishment for breaking a frame of your father'' she yelled at me and then looked at Ben with much anger.
''Doesnt Matter, You do not Touch your Kid I swear If you touch him again I will'' I pause thinking of something but nothing came up.
''Will what Kill me, Like you did that to my husband You killed him.'' she said bitterly
I felt a tear coming down But all I see is my mom angry. and then it happened so quickly my mom slapped me really hard, then pulled my hair I had the strength to pull my self up at her level. I spitted at her then pushed her away and she landed on the table edge hurting the side of her. I heard loud crying I turned around to see Ben hiding behind the t.v. crying.
''Shut up!, Shut Him Up!'' she yelled loudly I saw her grab her car keys.
''Where are you going'' I yelled and saw her at the front door ready to go.
''I'm leaving you I cant stand to know My daughter Killed my husband I have a killer in my house. Im never coming back ever'' She said finally leaving through the door, I locked every door to make sure she wont come back. Then I ran back to Ben with his hand on his ear and was still crying.
I clutch down and spread my arms out he saw me and stopped crying and ran fully to my embrace and started to cry on my shoulder, The thought of everything with my mom and dad made me cry too on Bens back.
''Kim'' Ben said quietly still in my embrace
''Yeah'' I whispered back
''Did You really make dad die'' he said still crying
''I'm so sorry Ben, But I think I did'' I cried loudly
We just stood there both crying in each other, Now it was my responsibility to take care of Ben by my self and I will make sure we get through this.
*5 days Later* (Still Kim's Pov)
I was in hell, I have been missing school to take care of Ben. A 3 year old is hard to take care. I try not to go overboard or show any range. Sometimes he wouldn't sleep. He yells in his sleep ''Dad'' and ''Mom'' I couldnt do anything about it.
I havent heard anything about my mom yet. I dont really care anymore she left us. She blamed me and half of it was right, I did make my dad die it was still my fault well that was my opinion.
Right Now It was the afternoon and I didnt really get that much of a good sleep so I try to make Ben sleep first so I wont have to worry about anything.
''Ben, Ben You have to sleep come on buddy I know you didnt sleep at all yesterday at night'' I told him trying to put him to bed.
''I'm not tired'' He said then yawning loudly
''Ben you look tired just try to sleep'' I said softly
''No''
I had a idea I got Ben up and carried him downstairs. Then I grabbed my car keys
''Where are we going'' He asked
''Just for a ride'' I said leaving the door
Once Ben was finally asleep in his car seat I drove back to the house, Driving around the subdivision was very help. I gently took Ben out of Car seat and picked him up. I made sure he was still asleep when I walked in the house luckily he still was.
I went upstairs and put him to bed and made sure he was comfortable. Then I heard it a door opening I went wide eyes I thought I locked the doors. I went to my room quietly and grabbed my pocket knife and put in my back pocket of my shorts.
I went down the stairs and saw no one in the living room. I started to go further and saw a shadow in the kitchen I grabbed the pocket knife and made sure the blade was up.
Once I was close to the kitchen I saw it anyone who saw it would be devastated. My mom she cutting her full arm with a knife blood everywhere it dripped and dripped from the counter and I went worried, but all she did was kept cutting roughly I might add.
''Mom'' I said and she looked at me but now was cutting her other arm not even paying attention to me.
''He's Dead!, He's Dead!, He's Dead! Why Him!'' she yelled still cutting the blood still spilling
''No mom what are doing stop! Stop'' I said running dropping my pocket knife trying to grab the knife but she had a firm grip on it
''I need it I need it, the pain is not gone. He's Dead He's Dead!'' she said trying grab the knife all to her self.
''Mom Stop now, This Isnt You Stop it Please'' I begged grabbing the knife as hard as I could
''No'' she yelled pushing me with force. Then she Kept the Knife blade on her palm with one on top of the other. Then she squeezed the blade with her palms the blood was dripping from the end onf the knife to down her wrist.
I ran back to my mom and slapped her as hard, she flinched and knife dropped then I took the knife from the floor and ran to the other side so she wouldnt try and grab it. But she just took another one out of the drawer and started to cry hard but didnt cut yet
''You know I love you and Ben right'' I nodded ''I Love your dad so much and I was depressed when I found out he was dead, I didnt mean to slap Ben or You but I needed the anger out but now I need the pain out. I didnt want this to happen but it needs to happen'' she said moving the new knife by her heart.
''Mom wait please dont do this, I can help you just dont do this, Ben he yells for your name at night and I cant do anything to bring you to him, Mom please just put the knife down and well fix this we love, we need you, Mom I need you dont do this'' I said letting tears drop from my face
''I wish it was easy, I wish but I cant take it anymore I need to see your father I am so sorry please dont hate me what Im about to do'' she said finally plunging the knife in her heart. I screamed so loud when she fell to the ground, I clutch down to her and saw her eyes still half open. I called 911 to tell that my mom is commenting suicide and they told me they will be on there way soon.
I tried to control the blood thats was coming out her heart and now her mouth, I saw my mom's eyes still open half way.
''Mom dont close your eyes. Please the ambulance are coming don't close your eyes'' I said crying holding onto her hand she just gave me a small sad smile
''I Love you and Ben'' she said closing her eyes fully and I panicked tears spilling more and more
''No, No, No Mom Wake up, just wake up'' I yelled Then I heard sirens
The paramedics came in right with a stretcher I took the knife out if my mom's heart and tried to make the blood stop I had my mom's blood. The paramedics told me not to do anything. They put my mom on the stretcher and a heart meteor next to her I notice there was no heart beat.
''Why is there no heartbeat'' I told the paramedics still crying
''Im sorry by all the blood she lost on her arms, her heart was to weak'' They told me
''She's dead oh my god'' I cried putting my hand on my forehead.
''Im sorry'' they finally said and put a black tart on her whole body and took her out and in the ambulance.
''Kim'' A sound came up and I saw Ben awake that was by the stairs, I ran up to him and picked him up and led him downstairs where I was greeted by a women.
''Hi I'm Anna and I have questions for you'' the ginger hair told and I nodded
''Can you tell me what happen here'' she asked and I realized I had Ben still in my arms.
''Hey Ben, can you go and play with your toys Ill be right in okay'' He nodded and gave me a hug and I returned it when I finally put him down I saw him running inside, I tried to wipe my tears but it wouldnt stop.
''Im sorry um whats your question again'' I told the lady half smiling to her
''Its okay, I just have a few questions to ask you'' she asked smiling
''Okay''
''Um Miss Crawford who are you currently living with'' I went to a realization I had no one now
''No one, My dad died 6 days ago and my mom made a decision on suicide today'' I said a tear spilling looking down
''Im sorry, and Im sorry for this but you cant stay here with no one living here you have to be sent to another person house'' she said and I went into shock.
''Wait your going to put me and in a stranger house I dont think I want that'' I told her
''Im sorry miss it has to happen, but I will sent a letter to the government about the household and he will chose a family with an only child thats lives near you area, for now you can stay in your house but by next week you must pack up'' she told me
''Okay but what if me and Ben dont like the family or the household'' I asked her
''You can talk to the senator about moving you to a different household'' I nodded at her
''Im sorry what happen to your family'' she said and left leaving me with a decision that has to be done
I walked back to the house and saw the blood not gone yet in the kitchen the paramedics are almost finished with the investigation.
I walked into the living room where Ben is playing with his action figures having fun. I smile to see him playing but then I have to tell him the bad news.
''Ben Can you come here I have to tell you something Important'' I said ready to tell him the story God I hope everything will go smoothly.
Okay so what did you think guys? How was this Chapter? I hoped you guys really like it. I know I made it pretty sad for Kim and her family but thats where Chapter 10 helps so just wait and see what I have for. Now like I said before This chapter was my favorite Chapter I wrote, I loved it of course it is sad but once you guys read more chapter you will see how it becomes to happy than sad. Okay so You guys give me some reviews and Ill give you hints.
Chapter 10 Hints:
-Kim tells Ben the News
-Jacks Parents set him over the limit
-Jack found the answers he needed
-Kim is Furious
-A Kick Moment Happens
Okays so thats was all the hints so hope you guys review this chapter okay see you next time :)
-Kristina