WARNING there is some swearing I apologize if you are offended.

"But Cassie that's just asking to be killed! Brandi help!?" Aya started to panic I chose to ignore.

"I'm sick of this. I'm sick of the games. I never wanted to be here. Hell I could have been in the capitol right now with my little sister knowing that neither of us would have to go through this crap ever. "

"Cassie. I could be at home with my daughter. Aya could be at home with her mother and father. None of us wanted to be here and its likely none of us standing here in this clearing are going to survive this."

"Well then let's die fighting. They want a show? Then let's give them one."

"No." I span around. Aya was backed against a tree my bow in hand.

"What are you doing with that? Give it back!" I tried grabbing but Aya just ducked out of the way.

"You're crazy Cassie if you think I'm going to let you walk in there and try and kill those careers at least without taking time to think of a suitable plan and until you calm down, I don't trust you." And there it was. I was shocked. Here little Aya who nearly died and we save was threatening me. And then it hit me. Trust. I no longer trusted myself to live and so I was willing to go on a suicide mission which would make it easier for someone to kill Aya and Brandi. Our mismatched alliance was falling apart and all because of me.

I sank to my knees. Thorns from the brambles hidden under leaves digging into my legs.

"I'm sorry." I whispered.

I could feel a hand on my shoulder and another on my elbow pulling me into a hug a single tear made its way down my cheek and onto Brandi's shoulder.

"We're all afraid of death Cassie. I don't want to lose my daughter. Aya just wants to go home. But only one of us can come out of this place alive and I want it to be one of us. I'm willing to die to help you and I know you'll do the same. But rash decisions like running in there all guns blazing isn't going to help. We need the calm and collected Cassie who always has a plan ready."

"I… I don't know if I can be that person anymore."

"I believe you can."

"I do too Cassie. Here's your bow back by the way. I'm sorry I took it, but I couldn't let you run off"

"I can try. Perhaps it would be best to move on. I think we need to rest"

"And there's our little leader back" Brandi smiled at me, clapping me on the back as I clutched my bow. I tried a small smile back but inside I knew that I was screaming.

I'd scream out loud if I thought it would help. But here, everyone hears you. But nobody listens.