I woke up to my music alarm again and just laid there listening to the song.
You know how the time flies
Only yesterday was the time of our lives
We were born and raised in a summer haze
Bound by the surprise of our glory days
I hate to turn up out of the blue, uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me, it isn't over yet
Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you, too
Don't forget me, I begged, I remember you said
Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts Instead
I had a few moments of silence before I remembered what I had to do today.
All the guys were going hunting so all the girls were going to Poppa Carlisle and Nana Esme's house. I NEEDED to figure out all the weird stuff that was going on. The electricity was weird enough but what I was more confused about now was my parents' reactions last night. Then I heard a sound coming from downstairs. It sounded as though my mother was having a conversation on the phone but trying to keep it quiet even though she was upset. I snuck halfway down the steps so that I could listen better.
"I really am trying to work on that, if it is what she wants than I want to be ok with it too but…"
"Yes, I understand… no… Edward's still angry, but you have to understand!"
"I don't have any problem with it eventually, but she's 16 for god's sake!"
"Yes, I know, but you can't be trying to influence her!"
"Let her make her own decision!"
"Ok… yes, I know…no, I'm not mad, just trying to do what's best for her!"
"Yes, I know…ok, Jake…yes, ok…bye."
Holy crap! What was that about… ugh! This was all too confusing. So apparently Jake is trying to influence me and Mom wants me to make my own decision. It's not like we have been breaking the law, or doing drugs, or something. And Dad is angry and apparently with a good reason…
"Hey honey!"
I looked up to see my mom looking at me with a half-worried, half-happy smile on her face.
"Hey Mom…who were you talking to?" I asked trying to sound innocent.
"Oh no one…you ready to go?" She replied apparently buying my ploy.
"Yeah let me just grab my purse," I answered as I turned and slowly walked back up the stairs.
"I can't dwell on this. I won't worry about it until I have a chance to ask Mom today," I told myself, "I just wonder if I should ask everyone, or wait until it was just me and mom…maybe I will just see how it goes."
Fifteen minutes later we arrive at their house and are greeted by Aunt Alice, Aunt Rosalie, and Nana Esme. When we get inside we all sit in chairs in their living room just to catch up. After a few minutes Alice insists on playing a board game and runs out of the room to get one before anyone an object. When she comes back in and sets it up I know that I have to bring it up now or never. This is the perfect situation, playful, like it's no big deal. After about fifteen minutes of intense competition, Aunt Rose turns to me.
"Nessie, you've been really quiet. Is something going on?"
When I don't reply for a second, Rose looks at my mom and my mom gives me a sympathetic smile.
"You know you can tell us anything, right?"
I do know that I just don't know how to do this. But I don't say that, instead I reply "It's hard to tell other people something when you don't understand it yourself."
That causes them all to give me confused looks.
"Ness, just remember we are here for you. We will help you through everything, and we will never judge you, but if you aren't ready to talk about it we will always respect that too," Nana Esme expressed as she reached over to pat my hand.
I took a deep breath, "No, I think I do need to talk about this, It's been nagging at me for a couple days now."
I paused, but no one said anything knowing that I was just composing my thoughts.
"Ok, so I will just start from the beginning…well, the other night after Jake and I went to Super Adventure Land…I fell asleep in the car coming home…and…well, he carried to my room and tucked me in and kissed my forehead…which isn't weird! I mean he does that all the time…"
I realized I had stood up and was pacing. I stopped and looked at them all; they each had almost the exact same face. One that was a mixture of anxiousness, worry, anticipation, and despite it all, some sort of knowing.
"I took another deep breath to calm myself before I continued.
"Except this time it was different…like…right where his lips touched my forehead…it was like…well, electricity. Like I was being shocked, but in a good way. It felt…nice."
Now all of their faces except my mom have lost all the worry and anxiousness from before. I could even tell a hint of a smile was forming on Alice's face. I wanted to ask about it but now that I was telling my story it felt good to get it out and I wanted to finish.
"I didn't know what to think, so I tried putting it out of my mind. Then at the club when Jake and I were dancing, every time we touched I felt the same electricity. I realized that I wanted it to keep happening, almost like was becoming addicted. Then again after we went to the beach, he hugged me goodnight. Again, not weird, he always does this, except this time it was different. The electricity actually left me breathless! I just don't know what to think about all of it." I decided to start with this much and ask about the reaction later.
When I finished I saw that Rose and Alice were grinning hugely and Esme was offering a reassuring and calming grin as well. Only my mother looked as though someone had just told her the most shocking news of her life. After a second my mom recomposed herself and looked up at me as she patted the space beside her. I quickly went over and sat next to her.
"Renesmee," she cooed. "There is something that your father and I have to tell you later but we can work some of this out now, ok?"
I studied her face carefully. "Ok," was all I could think of to say.
She smiled at me and that at Alice and Rose her were practically jumping out of their seats.
"Go ahead," she sighed at them.
They looked at each other before yelling at the exact same time "YOU LIKE HIM!'"