A/n: Sorry for the long update. I wasn't sure how I wanted to take this chapter, but here it is. Enjoy!
Chapter 11: Regionals and Original Songs
It has been a couple of weeks since Landon joined the New Directions, and I had the 'talk' with my father. Since then we have all been pretty busy with getting ready for regionals. Coach Sylvester made up some lie about us, and apparently wrote to My Chemical Romance, and now we can't use sing for one of our songs. That was a pretty major blow to us. But true to Rachel's fashion, she steps up and once again suggests that we perform original songs, and like I predicted, she got her way.
I am glad that I have been working on one of my own since she brought it up the last time. From what I have heard of her songs so far, they are nothing to be impressed with. I also brought Quinn and Landon in on it as well. I just want to make sure that it would be nothing short of amazing, and with their help I think we have done it.
We are going through a couple of the other's songs that they have come up with, but let's just say that they leave something to be desired. The only one who has come close is Mercedes. Her performance was great, the song had a strong message, but it was too in your face. I think we are all heading in the right direction.
Rachel has been pretty AWOL since Mr. Schue gave us the go ahead to start writing. She must be working on her song alone. So without her, we end up writing 'Loser Like Me.' Which I have no words for. It is most defiantly an anthem for our group. I love that we all put something into it. When it came time to give out solos for it, almost everyone who wanted one got one. It is a song representing all of us, so I think that it's right that all of us sing it.
After we are done figuring that out, I decide that it is time to share my piece that I have been working on. Quinn steps up with me to help sing it. This song is called 'Your Light.'
[Kurt]
The tears I cry into the darkness
Are not for you, but for my sanity
Though I put on a brave front
I'm slowly dying from insanity
[Both]
I search for love, I search for peace
In this crazy journey we call life
I crave for passion, I crave for you
Please let the light shine through
[Quinn]
I'm so confused, I just don't get it
This isn't the life I was meant to lead
Every time I see the Darkness
I end up crying myself to sleep
[Both]
I search for love, I search for peace
In this crazy journey we call life
I crave for passion, I crave for you
Please let the light shine through
[Kurt]
Here in this moment
I see the dark
The light is so far away
[Quinn]
If you come closer
Into the dark
Your light will find a way,
to me
[Kurt]
I search for love, I search for peace
In this crazy journey we call life
[Quinn]
I crave for passion, I crave for you
Please let the light shine through
[Both]
Please let the light
Oh, Please let the light shine through for me...
It starts really soft and slow. The first two verses and refrains are similar. But the last verse picks up, and changes from melancholy to something with a spark of hope.
After we are finished with the last note, the room is silent. Everyone is staring at us and some of them have shocked expressions, while others seem to be waiting for more. Mr. Schue steps up; he is one with a shocked look on his face, "You guys… that was AMAZING!"
That is when the rest of the club comes to their senses, and start cheering. "When did you write this?"
"Well, it is something that Quinn, Landon and I have been working on for a few weeks. I was just waiting for the perfect time to share it."
"Well I defiantly think that this song with the one you guys just came up with is going to put us over the top! Now we just have to wait to see what Rachel comes up with."
I know that whatever it is better be amazing, because if it is anything like 'My Headband' or 'My Hairbrush,' we are sunk.
While getting things from my locker I notice that Brittany walks up to Santana and tries to talk to her again, but Santana just blows her off. Brittany looks so hurt, and I know that Santana is hurting too. She just tends to take her hurt out on others, instead of dealing with it herself. As Santana walks off, I follow her. If I can talk to her one-on-one again, maybe I can help her.
She walks into the auditorium and sits down. "I know you are following me Kurt. So you might as well get in here and say what you think you need to."
I step in and go to the row of seats before her and lean on the back of one crossing my arms across my chest. "I just wanted to say, that I know it's hard. But pushing Brittany away isn't going to help you. She really does care about you."
"If she cared so much then why the hell is she still with four-eyes on wheels? I am way hotter than he is."
"She is with him because he treats her nicely. He treats her like a human being. Most people in this place have called her stupid or dumb at some point. There are only a handful of us that haven't. Artie happens to be a good guy, and she sees that."
"Well I still think that she is making a mistake."
"Okay, well that is your opinion, and you are entitled to it. But in my opinion what you are doing to Sam is wrong too. I know that you are 'dating' but you are just leading him on."
She stands up and takes a very defensive and defiant stance. "You have no clue what you are talking about. Troutymouth makes me very happy. We are happy together. Just cause you wave a rainbow flag all over the place doesn't mean I have to."
I stand up and start to walk away. "Well if you ever feel like being honest with yourself, what I told you before still stands. If you need to talk, I am here."
I walk out of the auditorium feeling sad. She may not be ready to face the truth, but it will get out. The truth always gets out.
Walking through the hallways has been easier lately. Landon and I always make sure to be in someone else's company. Usually Quinn's, but Puck has been hanging around with her quite a bit. I don't know if she asked him to or if he just took it upon himself, but he has even walked with me a few times.
Azimio still makes his threats when I am alone. I still get shoved into the lockers, and the random slushies do appear, but it isn't anything that I can't handle. What is surprising me the most though, is that David is not seen in Azimio's company anymore. He still wears the letterman jacket, but he no longer plays the part of jock. I have noticed that he seems to be losing weight, but not in an unhealthy way, more like he has been working out, or just trying to slim down. I am not sure what has brought on this new change in him, but I am happy that it is happening. He seems happier and calmer now. I have even seen him talking to Landon a few times.
I don't know what to make of it, and I haven't asked Landon what they talk about either. I know that since he is new here, he needs to make friends, and I am not one to dictate who those friends can be. I just hope that he is careful, and that David doesn't try anything funny. I don't think that he would, but I am still unsure. As much of a target that I am, Landon is one even more so. He has this vulnerability about him. I know there is something that he isn't telling me, but I am not sure what it is. I know that he will tell me in time, but until then I think that it will remain a mystery.
I haven't heard from 64 for a few days, and although he wasn't ready to meet in public I wanted to invite him to the regionals competition.
To Guest64: Hey, how have you been lately?
Guest64: Not bad. I actually have been making some new friends, and have been reconnecting with my mom. I am pretty sure she knows, but she isn't asking me about it.
To Guest64: Most parents know before you do. It's just in their nature. But if she isn't pushing, and isn't trying to set you up on dates with girls, she will probably be okay with it. What about your dad?
Guest64: I am not sure. He works a lot of late hours, so I don't see him very often. I don't know how he will take it.
To Guest64: Well like I told you before, when you are ready to come out, you will. If you ever need to talk about it or need any help just let me know.
Guest64: Thanks. How are you doing?
To Guest64: I am alright. Actually I wanted to invite you to something. I am in a show choir and we made it to Regionals. It isn't too far away and I would like it if you were to come. I know that you may not be ready to meet, but this is a way for you to sort of meet me.
Guest64: I'm not sure, when is it?
To Guest64: It is this Saturday. The whole thing will only be like an hour or two. There are only three groups of us performing, and we have small breaks in between each group. You wouldn't have to come and introduce yourself or anything. Just knowing that you are in the audience would be great!
Guest64: I am not sure if I can make it. But if I can I will let you know alright.
To Guest64: Okay that sounds fair. I will text you the information. And no pressure okay, if you are not ready then you don't have to come.
Guest64: kk
I really hope that he can come. I really want to meet him but if he needs some time I can understand that.
It seems that I am doing an awful lot of waiting lately. I didn't used to be this patient with people. I guess like everyone else around me, I am growing up. When did that happen?
So Rachel ended up writing a pretty amazing song. I would never admit that to her of course, but it is amazing none the less. Her song will be first, mine second, and then the big group number is third. When I presented my song to everyone, they just assumed that I was going to be the one singing it. But I thought that it might be a tad too emotional for me to truly do it justice. Instead I decided to give my part to Landon. I know that his and Quinn's voices with work well together, and neither one of them have solos in the big group number. So this is their chance to shine and really show that we are a Glee club brimming with talent.
…
Aural Intensity is up first. This is the group that Coach Sylvester had been grooming for the last few weeks. And while their voices were good, the song selection was obviously directed to the judges. I think that their rendition of 'Jesus is a Friend of Mine' was good, but definitely not appropriate for this venue.
We miss the next group that is up and I can't remember their name. We are all in the green room getting ourselves ready. We are all running over our lines, and working out any last minute kinks. Then we are up.
…
Rachel delivers and amazing performance. I am reminded that although she is one of the most annoying people I know, she is also one of the most talented. And it is that attitude and ambition that will get her far in whatever she does. But again, I would never admit that out loud. Then Quinn and Landon take my song exactly where I knew they could. They both put the power and emotion in it that it needed. I am so happy that they were the ones to sing it. Lastly the whole group goes out and it's time for 'Loser Like Me.'
[Tina]
Yeah, you may think that I'm a zero
But, hey, everyone you wanna be
Probably started off like me
You may say that I'm a freakshow
[Santana]
(I don't care)
[Mercedes]
But, hey, give me just a little time
I bet you're gonna change your mind
[Brittany]-(All)
All of the dirt you've been throwin' my way
It ain't so hard to take, (that's right)
[Santana]- (All)
'Cause I know one day you'll be screamin' my name
And I'll just look away, (that's right)
[All]
Just go ahead and hate on me and run your mouth
So everyone can hear
Hit me with the worst you got and knock me down
Baby, I don't care
Keep it up and soon enough you'll figure out
You wanna be
You wanna be
A loser like me
A loser like me
[Finn]
Push me up against the locker
[All guys]
And hey, all I do is shake it off
I'll get you back when I'm your boss
[Finn]
I'm not thinkin' 'bout you haters
[All Guys]
'Cause hey, I could be a superstar
I'll see you when you wash my car
[Kurt]- (All)
All of the dirt you've been throwin' my way
It ain't so hard to take, (that's right)
[Puck]- (All)
'Cause I know one day you'll be screamin' my name
And I'll just look away, (that's right)
[All]
Just go ahead and hate on me and run your mouth
So everyone can hear
Hit me with the worst you got and knock me down
Baby, I don't care
Keep it up and soon enough you'll figure out
You wanna be
You wanna be
A loser like me
A loser like me
A loser like me
[Artie]
Hey, you, over there
Keep the L up-up in the air
Hey, you, over there
Keep the L up, 'cause I don't care
[Sam]
You can throw your sticks, and you can throw your stones
Like a rocket, just watch me go
Yeah, l-o-s-e-r
I can only be who I are
[All]
Just go ahead and hate on me and run your mouth
So everyone can hear
Hit me with the worst you got and knock me down
Baby, I don't care
Keep it up and soon enough you'll figure out
You wanna be
You wanna be
A loser like me
A loser like me
Just go ahead and hate on me and run your mouth
So everyone can hear
Hit me with the worst you got and knock me down
Baby, I don't care
Keep it up and soon enough you'll figure out
You wanna be
You wanna be
A loser like me (A loser like me)
A loser like me (A loser like me)
A loser like me
After we through the confetti slushies the crowd that was already going nuts, just went crazy. I think they liked it.
We went back to the lobby, to wait it out and it didn't take long for the judges to decide. We got back on stage and the announcer didn't even bother with second place, and the runner up. Just went straight to the winner. When she said that the New Directions won, I was frozen in place for all of two seconds before I was jumping up and down with everyone else. It was amazing! We won, and with our own music! My day couldn't get much better than this.
…
After we all got back on the bus to go back home, I check my phone. I left it on the bus and never got a chance to go out and get it. I see that there is a text from my dad telling me congratulations and one from Carol as well, saying how great of a job we did. There is also one from 64.
Guest64: So I made it, and I saw you perform. I am pretty sure I know who you are, just from the way you described yourself. And I just have to say that you were amazing! Those songs were sooooo good! Did you guys write them? Congratulations on the win too! You so deserved it. You guys were sooo much better than either of the other groups!
I am just on top of the world right now. He came to see me. I feel my face start to flush a little bit. It must be from all the excitement that today has brought. I think that we might stand a very good chance at Nationals. If we do more original songs that could give us the edge we need to win over those judges. Even If we only make it into the top ten, that would be enough for me. I send a text back to 64 telling him all about it. It is actually more than one text I send him paragraphs and we text almost all the way home. We celebrate too, and nothing can bring us down right now.
'Your Light' by me
'Loser Like Me' by the cast of Glee
Okay, so a few things…
Don't judge my song too harshly. I needed to put one in here, but I wasn't' sure of what to do. This is a song I wrote about a year or so ago. Hope you all like it. Secondly, I always thought that Rachel singing 'Loser Like Me' was wrong. She had nothing to do with writing it and yet she still managed to get the solo. I know I like to bash Finchel. I really don't like them, and I hate that they get to be center stage all the time. So I think that splitting the song between all the people who did help to write was the logical thing to do. Plus I think it would sound amazing if they sang it like that.
And lastly as I have said before, this is only going to be the first part. The next part will take place during the summer and the third will be their senior year. I have a lot of plans for the whole thing, just have to hang in there with me.