Thank you guys for the reviews last time, really made me smile xD. In this chapter, prepare for a little bit of a heated tussle and some crying :) Also this chapter has a lot of dialogue and not much descritpion, but that's how I write :D Enjoy!
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Chapter six
It's been a week since Keith's pub, a week since my encounter with Naomi in the toilets. A week, it's been a whole fucking week and Naomi hasn't even fucking looked at me. Is there something wrong with me? Normally girls come running back to me after a few days, but yet Naomi has done fuck all. A knock sounds at the door and Panda's head pops in. I look up from the computer and smile.
"Hey Panda" I push my glasses up my nose.
"Hey Emily. There's a Mandy waiting here for you" Mandy? Who the fuck is Mandy?
"Send her in" I stand up and brush off any dust on my black pencil skirt. Heels click across the floor as she walks in. I look up; a confused look crosses my face. Haven't I seen her before? This 'Mandy' has black hair, Indian colouring, nice curves and great tits. Oh fuck. It's that girl I left at my flat.
"You look sexy in glasses" she smiles at me. I smile weakly back, fucking hell, why does she have to be a clingy one. How am I going to get rid of her?
"Thanks" I look her up and down. She's wearing a navy blue floral dress that stops just above the knee and black heels. Wow, she's not trying hard at all.
"Not so bad yourself" I add. She looks down and grabs some of the material.
"Oh, it's just something I threw on before I left the house" Like hell it is I nod then grab a random folder, trying to look busy.
"What is it that you came to see me for then Mandy?" I ask flicking through the pages not taking any of the information in. She moves closer to me and runs her hand up from my hips to just under my breast.
"Nothing important. Just wanted to see you" I nod, completely unfazed by her touch. He hand brushes lightly over my breast.
"I couldn't stop thinking about you" she whispers what I think is what she thought was seductively in my ear, but it sounded like she was gargling on her own spit. I hum in agreement; I pick out another folder and start to 'read' from it. Mandy pulls on my earlobe with her teeth then starts to kiss my neck. I turn the page in the folder, still not being turned on by her touches. Her hand rises up under my blouse, travelling over my stomach then grabbing hold of my bra clad breast. I turned another page, when is this girl going to realize that I'm not interested. She rubs my nipple through the bra, obviously trying to make it hard, she grunted into my neck slightly when it did not harden. Her hand moves out from my blouse. Thank fuck, she's realised now.
My thoughts were thrown out the window when she takes the folder out from my hands, places it back in the shelf, then pushes me back until I sat onto my desk. She grabs my legs and wraps them around her waist; she kisses down my neck until she reaches where my blouse starts on my chest. She rips open the buttons and kisses my collar bone, making her way down to the top of my breasts.
"Mandy" I whisper trying not to alert Panda. Mandy, however seemed to think that was me moaning out her name and it seemed to spur her on. Her hand raises up my skirt, she pushes down the cup over my breast.
"Mandy" I try again; she doesn't seem to hear and starts to try and make my nipple hard with her mouth, it does nothing for me. I push on her shoulders lightly, but her hand rose further up my skirt.
"Mandy" My voice rises a little higher; she continues her attack on my body. I shove her off me the same time my office door opens and Naomi's head pops in.
"Emily is it okay if-oh" Her eyes widen at my exposed tit and a very horny Mandy.
"Get out" I bark, Naomi frowns and starts to leave "No! Not you Naomi" I turn my head to Mandy, she's glaring at Naomi, if looks could kill, Naomi would be dead on my floor right now.
"Mandy get the fuck out of here!" Mandy stays routed on the spot. Naomi walks in but keeps her head looking away from me.
"No. Why should I leave? We were just getting started" Mandy shouts. I shake my head and laugh bitterly.
"No, you were. I wasn't. I don't want to fuck you Mandy. Yes we fucked before, but that's all it was. A drunken fuck. I'm telling you this, if I was sober, no way would I have gone for you" I spit. Yes I'm being harsh, do I give a fuck? No. Mandy looks like I stabbed her in the stomach, her face suddenly hardens as she stares back at me.
"Fuck. You" she hisses before storming out of the office. I blew out a breath. Naomi's still looking away.
"Naoms, you can look now" she moves her head to look at stares at my chest before looking down nervously.
"Emily, your uh tit is still hanging out" she says nervously. I look down and notice that my tit was indeed hanging out. That's embarrassing; I quickly cover it up and start to do up my buttons.
"FUCK!" I shout. Naomi flinches and turns to look at me.
"You all right?" she asks. I shake my head a pull of my blouse.
"She has literally ripped all my buttons off" I look at the now button-less blouse then at the floor. All my buttons are all across the floor. I huff loudly and walk to the door and pull it open.
"Panda" I call. She comes skipping over to me with a smile. I can't help but smile back, hers are so contagious.
"Yes Emsy?"
"Could you get me another shirt please?" I hand her the blouse, she holds it and stares at it intently.
"How did all the buttons come off?" she asks innocently. I shake my head
"It doesn't matter. Could you scavenge a shirt of Katie please, she normally has spares" she nods before skipping off towards the elevator. I sigh, close the door and lean up against it. I smile at Naomi, fully aware that I am now topless in front of her.
"So Naomi, what was it that you wanted?" I ask. Her eyes move from my tits to my face to my tits then my face again. A blush appears on her face when she realises I just caught her ogling at my chest. I raise my eyebrow and smile at her
"See something you like?" I wink at her. She blinks a few times before replying.
"Huh? Oh right, I was just wondering if maybe you'd like to um..." She shuffled uncomfortably, not meeting my gaze.
"If I'd like to what?" I ask turning so my shoulder rests on the door.
"Wouldyouliketogoonadatewithme?" she says so quick I almost missed what she said. I frown; no one has ever asked me out before. What? I just fuck girls, I don't date them.
"Sorry, what?"
She rolls her eyes and takes a deep breath before looking at me "Would you like to go on a date with me?" she asks more clearly, I stare at her with my best blank expression.
"Don't make me ask again" she pleads. I sigh and scratch my head. What do I do? Say yes? No? Maybe? Before I could answer, a knock sounds at my door. I open it and see Panda holding a leopard print shirt.
"Katie said you can wear this, but she said 'If you lose it she'll hunt you down like a fucking dog'" I laugh at Panda's attempt at Katie's voice. I take the shirt and pull it over my head.
"Thanks Panda" she smiles and walks back to her desk. I turn round to Naomi who's still waiting for my answer. If I say yes, what do I do? Fuck, I need some advice.
"I'll let you know" I answer quickly before running out of my office and down towards the one person who'll help me out.
The office door opens, she takes one look at me and steps aside letting me walk in. I start pacing in front of her desk nervously; gracefully she moves round and sits down at her desk.
"You're nervous" she states. I scoff and stop my pacing for a moment
"Really?" I ask then begin my pacing again. Her blue eyes scan me for a bit before a smirk pulls at her lips.
"It has something to do with Naomi, doesn't it?" she asks casually. I stop my pacing so suddenly I almost trip over my feet, I hold onto her desk to keep myself steady.
I stare at heer dumbly "How'd you know?" Effy smirks again and leans back in her chair.
"I know everything. No I don't, but I watch people Emily. Everyone's body language gives them away if you look closely enough" I huff and slump down in the chair.
Effy is quiet for a while before she finally says "What's going on Emily?" I look up at her ocean blue eyes staring at me with so much concern. I run my hand through my hair
"What do you know about dates?" I ask, Effy looks taken back by the question, obviously startled that it came out of my mouth.
"It depends on what you want to know"
"I have this friend, she's never dated anyone. Just fucks everything, doesn't do relationships since a certain incident in her life. Then someone she likes asks her out. She's so confused as she's just flirting with this certain person so she can fuck her then win a bet she had with a friend, but yet she feels like, she feels that she doesn't want to just fuck this person then move on.
She feels like that once she does, she won't be able to leave this person. She doesn't normally care about people's feelings, but she's realised that she cares about this persons feelings more than anyone else's in the world. What does she do? She's just left this person with an 'I'll let you know' and she doesn't know what to do" I look down at the ground not wanting to look Effy in the eye.
"Am I wrong in assuming this 'friend' is you, and 'her' friend is Cook and the 'person' is Naomi?"
"No you're not. How did you know?" I ask. Effy smirks at me
"Normally when people start with 'I have this friend' they are talking about themselves but are too scared to actually say it's their problem. I know that you and Cook made a bet on who can bed Naomi first. And going by what you just told me, Keith was right." She leans forward on her desk and rests her head on her hands.
"How did you know about what Keith said to me?" I look up at her.
"I overheard you. Well actually, I listened in on the conversation. Plus after that night I discussed it with Keith. He's worried about you Emily, as am I. We are worried that this will blow up in your face, we're worried that you'll be in more pain than you were with what happened three years ago. We want you to be careful and not just think of this as just some silly little bet; this involves someone who you obviously care about. I mean, at Keith's when you sung that song to Naomi, it was more than an apology, you wanted to show your feelings without even realising that you are"
I wiped a tear away that had rolled down my cheek "What do I do Effy? I'm so fucking scared. I don't want a repeat of last time. I can't go through that again"
Effy stood up, walked round her desk and crouched down next to me in the chair. She took my hand and wiped away another tear "I think you need to go for it. Sometimes, being scared is just what you need to be so you know how you feel. I promise you this Emily; last time will not be repeated if I can help it."
"But what if it gets too much for me? What if I lose control of my emotions? Do I run? I can't lose control of myself anymore Eff, not again" I squeeze her hand tightly.
"Emily, you can't control everything. Sometimes, you have to lose control for the best. It won't be like how it was with Ben. He was stupid and a dick, but he's gone now and you can't let him hurt you anymore. I thought you were Emily fucking Fitch? No one can hurt you" Effy gives me a genuine smile, only Freddie, Cook and I are ever lucky enough to see her smile. I nod, I know she's right, Effy's always right. I stand up and smooth my hair down.
"Thanks Eff. How'd I look?" I ask. She looks over me for a couple of minutes before moving forward and wiping away mascara from under my eyes and straightening out Katie's top. She hooks her finger under it and raises her eyebrow at me.
"The buttons on my blouse broke off" I say sheepishly. She doesn't say anything else but just nods her head. She opens her office door for me; I look out and see Naomi and Panda talking animatedly together.
"Don't leave her hanging. Go and win your money" Effy whispers before smacking my bum as I walk out. I turn round to her and give her a playful scowl before she closes the door.
Calm down Emily, Naomi is just another girl you have wrapped round your pinky. But she's not; she's much more than that. She won't hurt you, not like Ben or her.
Panda and Naomi haven't noticed my presence yet and I realise they are talking about me; I hide behind the wall so I'm out of sight but within earshot.
"Do you think I've scared her off Panda?" I hear Naomi's voice say
"Are you bonkers? Of course you haven't, well maybe she's scared herself off" Panda's lively voice fills the empty hallway
"What do you mean?" Naomi sounds confused
"Something bad happened to Emsy a few year back, really shook her up proper." Panda states her voice softer
"What happened?"
"That's only for Emily to tell you, not me" I smile at Panda's loyalty.
"I really like her Panda" I can hear the smile on her lips.
"Of course you do. It's Emily. Even though she can seem like a selfish bitch slag..." I frown slightly, is that how I come across? "...She's actually the total opposite. Completely whizzer and selfless Emsy is. She just has a lot of walls that need breaking through. She was so different before the incident, ever since then she's had these walls up around her. For protection I think. Only Eff, Cook and I have been able to get through them. Even Katie hasn't broken them down, but they don't have the best of relationships. But trust me Naomi, once you break down the barriers, you'll see the real Emily, the one who was my best friend in college. She is still that Emily now, but just the walls keep her caged in. I really hate what he did to her, what she also did to her and how she encouraged it. Disgusting."
I smile at the fact that Panda still thinks of me as her best friend. She really is a hell of a lot smarter than she seems to be.
"I never thought she was a slag. When I first met her I thought she was a bitch. But then I saw the way she spoke to you at Keith's, and how kind she was to you, I expected her to keep up the bitch façade but she was a friend to you, she was so sweet. My heart melted at the way she treated you"
"Emsy is far from a slag. She's just very broken; she needs someone to fix her. Maybe a certain blonde with crazy blue eyes" I laugh at Panda's attempt of being subtle. I decided that now was good time to make my presence known. I push myself off the wall and made my heels click the floor loudly so they knew I was coming. Panda beams at me from her desk chair as I walk through, Naomi looks up and smiles weakly.
"Hey guys. Naomi, I'm sorry for running off earlier" I bite my lip anxiously
"It's fine. Panda and I were just busy chatting" she smiles at Panda, Panda nods in agreement.
"What did you talk about?" I ask in an I-didn't-just-hear-everything-you-just-talked-about voice.
"Nothing, just busy gossiping" Panda chirps in. I smile at her then give put on a playful stern look
"Now, Pandora. Gossiping won't get you anywhere in the company now will it?" Panda stares at me genuinely worried for a moment then realised I was joking and smiles. I kiss the top of her head and turn to Naomi.
"I just need to think about a few things if that's okay?" I ask sheepishly. Naomi nods and stands.
"I better get going and start some of my won work. Bye Panda" Naomi walks of back to her room, I watch her until the door closes.
"You like her" Panda states matter-of-factually. I smile down at her
"Yes I do Panda"
And it scares the living shit out of me
So you have had a little clue to Emily's past, and how Naomi really thinks of her. And of course that Emily isn't exactly how she appears to be. I wonder what caused that. Hmmm...
The next chapter will be uploaded sometime next week.
Cheers xx