Okay guys, if yo hadn't seen my last change in a chapter then I'll explain it now. Due to a reviewer who said that they would report me for using song lyrics in my fics, I have had to change the chapter that feature the songs in them.

So, in order Emily sings these songs, listen to them while she sings them but you wont be able to follow along. Okay, the songs used in this chapter are: Homecoming-Hey Monday, Into Your Arms-The Maine,Breakeven-The Script, Can't Stand It- Never Shout Never and Sal Paradise-Futures.

Again, thanks for the reviews. Oh and PREPARE FOR SOME ANGST!

Disclaimer: Don't own Skins or any of the songs used in this or any other chapter.

I feel my palms clam up as we wait nervously behind the curtain. I fiddle with my ring that my dad had given me, remembering to be calm and not be scared. Jen sits on an amp, tuning her guitar, her hair is styled perfectly like always. The side of her hair that isn't shaven is gelled up into a perfect Mohawk, her slowly fading red fringe flowing across her forehead. Her red painted fingers-talented fingers-expertly pick at the strings.

Liam is up against a wall, his drum sticks tapping a rhythm on his legs as his head points up, his eyes closed. Tina stands next to him, pretending to tap keys on his arm whilst she nibbles on her lip nervously.

Jen places her guitar down then stands up, making her way over to me with a smile on her face. She wraps her arms around my waist and pulls me into a hug. My hands snake up around her neck, letting my head fall to the crook of her neck, breathing in her scent of spearmint. She pulls back and places a chaste kiss on my lips.

"Don't worry, we'll be great, you'll be great" Her sweet American accent fills my ears. I sigh, looking down.

"I know, but I'm still really nervous. All my friends will be here tonight"

"They'll support you"

"But what if they don't? I don't care if the crowd hates us, if my friends enjoy it then I'm happy" Correction, if Naomi likes it I'll be happy...shut up brain.

I continue looking at my shoes, kicking the toe on the ground, Jen's fingers lift my head up.

"Hey, you're amazing, you are amazing at singing and the songs are amazing. You'll be fine" She smiles before leaning in and catching my lips in hers. I smile when I feel her tongue run against my lip, opening my mouth to grant her access. Our tongues battle for dominance, mine wining allowing me to explore her mouth.

"Nice just what I like to see" We break apart and see Harry standing next to us, a big Cook like grin on his face.

"Urgh Harry, I'm your sister for fucks sake" Jen says disgusted, moving out of my embrace to push him.

"Still hot" he shrugs "Come one guys, Liam, do your thing" He grabs his guitar from the stand and stands by the stage.

Tina and Liam both walk up, Liam gives Tina a kiss on the cheek before making his way onto the stage, sitting down behind the drum kit. The crowd start to cheer as he starts his solo.

Jen squeezes my hand before grabbing her guitar and pushing Harry up the steps followed by Tina who sits down at the piano. I take a deep breath before walking up onto the stage, the sound of cheering overtaking my senses. I walk up to the mic and scan the small room. I see Cook sitting with his arm around Naomi, Effy next to them with Freddie next to her, Katie sits next to Panda trying to calm her down. Thomas is next to her, smiling adoringly at Panda before trying to calm down a locked on JJ.

I swallow, take my mic out of the stand and nodding to Kayla who plays the keys on the piano.

I tap my foot to the drums that come in along with the guitars.

When the chorus plays, I jump up and down, around the stage. I jump up and down to the drums beat, getting the crowd to jump with me. I motion to my neck

I lock eyes with Naomi before breaking our contact and scanning everywhere else.

I jump down into the crowd, they all separate for me as I walk down the aisle up to Cook. I grab his hand.

I tug him up with everyone else and run into the crowd. I let go and Jump up onto the stage.

I point down at Cook who had moved to the front with everyone elsesmiling at him. He winks at me, then pulls Naomi close to him, dancing with her

I grab on the strap of Jen's guitar and pull her closer to me

I push Jen away as she gets into the guitar solo, I bang my head banging, whipping my hair about.

The drums and guitars stop, leaving the keys and my vocals

I stop moving, the music stop for a bit before Harry come sin, hitting the drums with the guitars.

Cheers and applaud fill the room, I laugh putting the mic on the stand and laughing into it, trying to catch my breath "Thank you! We are Runaway Retreat. How about a bit of The Maine?"

Tina starts playing, the notes drifting off her keyboard, filling up the room. After a few beats, Jen, Liam and Harry all come, creating the rocky intro to the song. I grab onto the mic, getting ready for my part. They stop, leaving Jen playing the guitar as we come to the verse.

They stop playing and I point to my mouth, smiling

Naomi did make me change my way, well she didn't make me change my ways, I chose to change them. Actually, I did it unconsciously, I didn't think about other girls as I kissed her, I didn't look at other girls as I walked by her side, I didn't stop to stare at a girl's ass in the office as she spoke to me.

I catch Naomi's eyes, begging her to let me come back to her. For her to forgive me, she wasn't the only one who fell apart that day. I hope she realises that. I take the mic out off the stand and make my way down the stage. I walk towards the bar and causally lean against the side.

Luckily, there was a girl sitting on the stool near me. I look into her eyes and half smile at her, making her swoon. I smirk at her as she blushes under my gaze.

The girl shakes her head vigorously. I shuffle along the bar, getting closer to her. If only she knew I wasn't singing about her, but a blonde haired, blue eyed beauty only a couple of feet away from us.I grab her hand and help her off the stool, I pull her gently so she's standing next to me, I smile at her as I gently rub my thumb over her hand. I pull her so she's flush against the front of my body, I bring my hand up and gently stroke her cheek with the back of my hand as I sing the next line.

I let go of her hand and start walking backwards, still singing to her.

I jump onto a spare table as we get to the bridge, I look over at the table with my friends, smiling at them. Cook gives me a thumbs up whilst Effy just smirks. Naomi sends me a glare, as if she's trying to push me off the table with her gaze.

Liam and Harry stop playing, leaving just Tina and Jen playing. I jump down off the table and make my way back to the stage.

I jump back onto the stage, smoothly placing the mic back into the stand as I sing the last part.

As the last note rings out applause fills the club, I nod our thanks "We're just going to have a break now" complaints fill the room "Don't worry, we'll be back" I smile then follow the others of stage.

"Well done guys, we did great!" I congratulate them.

"They really enjoyed Home Coming" Liam says, a big smile on his baby like face.

"You did great babe" Jen says kissing my cheek and slipping her hand into mine. I nod then smile.

"Drinks on me! Just tell the bartender to leave it on my tab" I announce.

"FUCK YES!" Harry celebrates fist pumping "Come on double d" Harry says, flinging his arm round Liam dragging him to the bar with Kayla holding tightly onto Liam's hand.

I laugh at them then drag Jen over to the gangs table. "Sup bitches" I greet them. Cook bellows out laughing whilst Katie glares at me.

"Excuse me?" She asks, I just ignore her and slide in next to JJ pulling Jen next to me.

"Hi Emily, Jen" JJ greets, Jen flashes him a smile, causing JJ to look down into his glass.

"Hey J" I say smiling at his shyness

"Great performance" Effy says

"Thanks, Ems here is our little star" Jen says throwing an arm around me. I notice Naomi stiffen at Jens use of the nickname she used for me.

"Top fucking right she is! Emilio, do you remember when You sang Only Exception at Uncle Keith's pub?" Cook asks, a smile on his face. Naomi's grip tightens on the glass she's holding.

"Yeah"

"So fucking good. You should've been there Jenny, Emilio would have made you wet as a ocean"

Jen smiles seductively "She already does that" I jump slightly when I feel her grip my thigh under the table.

"Urgh, gross, please don't talk about my fucking twin sisters sex life in front of me" Katie says, her face scrunched up.

"Just because everyone knows everything going happening in yours" I shoot back at her. Before she can reply, Harry slams a tray of shots down on the table.

"SHOTS!" He and Cook shout at the same time. Liam and Kayla pull up chairs to sit on, Liam wrapping a protective arm around Kayla.

I go to take a shot, but before I can, Harry grabs one and throws it back then slams the glass down on the table, then grabs another doing it again. Cook watches in amazement as Harry downs five shots without hesitating.

Cook laughs as Harry belches then howls "You my friend are top notch" Cook says, moving up to let Harry slip in.

"Not bad yourself bro" Harry says as he watches Cook repeat his actions.

Harry goes to take a shot but Jen grabs it out of his hand and chucks it back "Hey! That was mine!"

"You've had enough" Jen says back. I smile, shaking my head.

"We've got to get back" I get up and grab Jen and Harry's hands, dragging them to the stage.

Jen switches her guitar for her acoustic as does Harry, they both grab stalls and sit on them. They give me a thumbs to show they're ready. I wait for Kayla and Liam before grabbing my own stool and placing it in front of the mic.

"Hey guys, we're back" A round of cheers sound the room "We've got a few more songs to sing for you"

Jen starts with the strumming patters, slowly the other join in creating the tune for the song. They all die out leaving Jen playing. Tina comes in with the piano as I sing; she soon stops, again leaving just me and Jen.

Liam joins in with the drums, as well as Harry. I look out at the crowd and spot Naomi, she's smiling at Cook as he whispers in her ear. Jealousy boils within me.

I never did think about Naomi whilst we were 'together' I've watched Cook for the past couple of days, he's not his selfish young lad persona anymore. He's kind, loving and selfless. He's always asking Naomi's opinion before he decides himself.

Whilst I was away, I spent so many nights just staring up at the ceiling, wondering what Naomi was doing at that moment, was she sleeping? Dreaming of rabbits running round in a field? Or was she having a nightmare? Was she thrashing about in bed but no one was there to keep her safe, to wrap their arms round her protectively, no one for her to hide her face into their chest. I've even stayed awake thinking about her after Jen and I did an all nighters.

I take the mic out of the stand and sit down on the stage, my legs hanging over the edge.

I look back at Naomi and Cook, they're both watching me. Cook's watching with a proud smile on his face, where as Naomi's watching with a solemn look on her face, it's like she's angry at me for singing this song.

Jen sings the backup

I jump up not my feet again. I point out into the crowd then back at me, grabbing my head like I'm in pain. I pretend to grab a suitcase and throw it away. I watch as Naomi's face darkens, she realizes what I'm saying. Again, I'm blaming her for my pain, when really, it was my fault.

They stop playing, leaving Jen and I again. I look at Effy and see she's staring at Cook in a similar way I must be staring at Naomi. Watching the love we lost love someone else.

I start to bounce on the balls of my feet as the music builds up again. I place the mic back into the stand and hold onto it tightly.

"Thanks guys. This next song is a song very close to me, I wrote this myself, and I hope you guys like it" I turn round and pick up my black Yamaha f370 and place the strap over my shoulder. Jen brings out her American Vintage '62 Stratocaster, Harry replaces his acoustic with a couple of shakers.

I give Jen a quick peck before turning to the mic "All right guys, first things first. Can you all copy this rhythm for me" I snap my fingers then clap. I snap them again then clap. I snap one more time before double clapping. I then double snap then carry on the pattern from before. Everyone catches on and starts to repeat it.

"Okay keep that pattern going"

I start to strum the guitar, letting the rhythm cover me

Kayla plays the keys whilst Harry joins my rhythm with the shakers. I catch Naomi's eye and try not to flinch at the gaze she's giving me. I plead with my eyes for her to listen to every word I'm singing

The tempo builds up as Liam and Jen join in

I shake my head, still watching Naomi.I hope she listens, I wrote this before I ran away. I wrote it to try and get most of the feelings I have for her out of my system, hoping for it to calm down the guilt I was feeling.

I watch as Cook makes waves actions with his hands then taps Naomi's nose at the end of the line. She looks away from my gaze and smiles at Cook, giving him a quick peck

We all stop, I strum a few chords whilst Kayla plays the keys

Liam drums back in as Harry shakes a few bells.

I motion with my hands to Cook that I'm looking at him, throwing him a quick wink

Jenna and I strum on out guitars, bringing her into the solo. I strum in the back ground as the crowd cheer for Jen's solo. She ends the solo, stopping all out instruments. I get the crowd to do the snap and clap rhythms again as I sing into the mic, clapping with them.

Liam taps his sticks on the edge of his drums, creating a rat-a-tap beat

Liam brings the others back in, the strumming of mine and Jens guitars getting louder.

I search Naomi's face, in search for any type of emotion. But she just sits there, her poker face on as she claps along with the others. I place my guitar down and wait for the others to sort their instruments out. One of the barmaids walks up to the stage, a smile on her face and beers on a tray.

I walk over and help her up onto the stage "These are for you" she says, passing me a drink.

I smile at her "Thanks" I take a sip and place it down, placing my hand into my pocket, rummaging for money. Her hand stops mine, I look up and she smiles, her smile resembling a sharks.

"They're on the house" She passes me a napkin. I look down and see she's written her name and mobile down on it.

"Look, Sophie...I can't take this" I go to hand back the napkin.

"I'm sure you can" Sophie replies, winking at me. I go to reply, but I feel and arm wrap round my waist and pull me into their side. I look up and see Jen giving Sophie daggers, her voice dripping with anger as she speaks slowly.

"She can't. She has a girlfriend"

Sophie doesn't seem to be the sharpest tool in the shed as she replies with "Yeah? Who is she?"

Jen grits her teeth together "Me"

Sophie looks between us, finally noticing Jens protective grip on me. She gives one final glare at Jen before setting the beers down and walking off. I step away from Jen and give her a quick kiss.

"Thanks"

Jen rubs my side "I saw her flirting and I just got jealous that's all"

I give her another kiss before walking back up to the mic.

"We've got one more song for you guys before we go" People boo, I laugh when I notice Cook giving a thumbs down motion. "Come into the middle for me, we're going to jump about" I looks over at Jen and smile as the crowd follows my orders. I turn back and see Panda and Cook are both at the front, staring at me eagerly.

I give them a wink before nodding my head to the band. Immediately Jen and Liam start to play. I grab the mic and starts to jump up and down, motioning for the crowd to follow. Hands fly up into the air as they starts to jump with me.

I start to walk across the stage, coming to a stop at the edge and turn to the crowd, I motion to my ears and the pretend to drive back to the middle.

The tempo slows down as we get to the chorus

I motion to Cook to grab my hand and pull him up onto the stage with me. I smile at him at get him to jump, he laughs, throwing his arm around me, grinning smugly into the crowd.

Cook starts to do actions with the lyrics. He turns so his back is to the audience then looks behind him then shakes his head looking forward.

He turns round and pretends to lock a door then throws a hand over his eyes pretending to block out sunlight.

He does more actions, each of them fitting in perfectly with the lyrics. He pretends to cradle a baby, then as the chorus comes up, he throws his arms around my shoulders and starts to jump with me, singing the lyrics as well.

As Jen breaks out into her solo, we get jumping again, dancing round the stage, Cook's whooping, the crowds jumping with us, cheering along and throwing their hands into the air, pointing up to the ceiling. I spot Naomi and Effy both dancing to the side. Naomi has her arms thrown up into the air, jumping about, her head swinging side to side with the music. I'm so mesmerized by how beautiful she looks, I almost miss my cue.

I start to clap my hands along to the drum, getting the crowd to do the same as I sing the next part.

We stop for a second before Jen and Liam starts up again, Jen going into a smaller guitar solo. I put the microphone further away from my mouth to make my voice sound further away.

I motion for Panda to join us as I bring the mic closer to my lips. I get the crowd to sing along, both Panda and Cook sing along with me.

Cheering and whooping fills the club as we finish the song. Cook bellows a massive laugh, picking me up into a big hug. I laugh as he sets me down. I watch as he looks for Naomi, he smiles brightly, jumping down off the stage, making his way through the crowd and hugs her close to him. He mumbles something in her ear, making her blush before he pulls her into a deep kiss.

I just stare at them, a lump in my throat. I shouldn't have this lump in my throat. I can't be jealous of him, I can't be upset by it. I love Jen...don't I? I growl, grabbing onto the mic tightly as Cook pulls Naomi closer earning a cute giggle from her.

I feel a tap on my shoulder, I look to see Jen standing behind me, a serious expression on her face. I smile tightly at her before she motions for me to follow. I sigh and follow her behind the stage and out of the stage doors.

She turns to me, her arms crossed, eyebrows furrowing. She nibbles on her lip, I watch as wave after wave of emotions fly through her eyes and wash over her face. Pain, anger, jealousy, sadness.

I go to speak but Jen holds her hand up, silencing me. I wait a little as she composes herself, she looks at me, her expression neutral. This is the first time I've ever seen her so serious, she's always got a smile on her face or a happy twinkle in her eyes, but this time, it's stone cold.

"Emily, I want you to tell me the truth...Do you love me?"

I blink my mouth opening and closing a couple of times "Y-yes" I stutter out.

Jen shakes her head, looking down she sighs "You don't"

"Yes I-"

She cuts me off "No you don't Emily. If you did you wouldn't have hesitated, you would've said yes straight away without a second thought" she stops and closes her eyes, holding back tears. I sniff and go to hug her but she takes a step back "Emily, when you sang the song you wrote, you sang it for her, didn't you? You wrote that song for her, not me"

I go to deny it, but I can't. I just slowly nod my head. A small whimper escapes Jen's lips.

"Do you love her?" Again, I nod my head, I hear Jen sniff, but I keep my eyes locked down the ground, not wanting to look at her "See, I knew it, but I didn't expect it to hurt this bad"

I stay quiet, my own tears falling down my cheeks. Every kiss, every hug, every smile we shared was a lie.

"I'm not angry at you" My head whips up to look at her. Jen sends me a weak smile "I knew all along you still loved her. I knew when you still did when you spoke about Naomi to me. You had this twinkle in your eye. But yet, I still wanted to go out with you, silently hoping that that twinkle for Naomi will be for me one day."

"Jen-"

"Let me finish, please. After today and after meeting Naomi, I know why you can't ever fall out of love for her. She is a beautiful woman Emily. She seems lovely" She takes a step towards me. " Today also made my decision up for me. Mum got in an accident back in America, Harry and I were flying out in a week. I was going to ask if you wanted to come with us, but I didn't because I needed to see if you were over her first. But you're not, and so I didn't ask."

"I'm so sorry Jen"

Jen smiles weakly "It's not your fault that you fell in love with her. You can't help who you fall in love with"

"I guess this is it? This is goodbye" Jesus Christ that was tacky

Jen nods, she takes another step forward and takes my hands in hers "Just promise me one thing"

"Anything"

"Although we're no longer together, please don't go after Naomi whilst she's still with Cook. Cook's a great guy, anyone can see from a mile away that he's happy and in love. I don't want him to get hurt because you made Naomi cheat on him"

I swallow thickly. I said anything to her, but I can't promise that. I bite my lip and slowly nod. Jen leans forward, placing a soft kiss on my cheek.

"I'll see you around Emily" she whispers before letting go off my hands and walking away into the car that Harry has turned up in.

I watch as she climbs into the passenger door, sending me a quick wave before they speed off.

I wipe my eyes, run my hand through my hair then walk in through the doors, making my way to our table.

Everyone watches as I sit down in my seat, reach for a shot glass and tip it back. I barely cringe at the taste as I reach for the next one. I tip it back and wipe my mouth, I look round at everyone. Most of them look worried, only one pair of eyes is looking at me with disappointment and anger. I furrow my eyebrows at them.

"What are you all looking at?" I ask abruptly. None of them look away, they keep on staring.

"Where's Jen and everyone?" Effy asks.

I laugh humourlessly "Gone" When I gain a questioning gaze from the raven haired girl I elaborate "Jen broke up with me. She felt as if I didn't sing the songs for her but someone else and that I don't truly love her. Jen and Harry are flying back to America today, their Mum's ill. She was going to ask me to join them, but after tonight..." I pick up another shot "That's not going to fucking happen" I tip the glass back, letting the bitter alcohol to make its way into my mouth. I swallow without wincing, placing the glass back on the table.

Everyone's still staring, I clench my jaw as my eyes lock onto Cook's arm that's hanging round Naomi's shoulders "Fuck this. I'm not going to mope around here like a fucking loser just because a chick dumped me" I shoot out of my seat abruptly, making JJ and Panda flinch slightly. I feel a bit guilty before I shake it off and make my way towards the dance floor.

I weave my way through the crowd, after we had finished the club got a DJ onto the mix table to bring some dance tunes into the club. Many people had congregated to the dance floor, gyrating bodies everywhere.

I stand in the middle of the dance floor, close my eyes and throw my hands into the air, swaying my hips side to side with the music. After a while, I feel a body press against me, hands lay on my waist. I look down and see small feminine hands holding onto me. I smirk, this is way too easy. I move back so my back is flush against her front, I start to grind into her. I spin round when I hear her moan in my ear.

It's the girl from earlier, the one I serenaded by the bar. She's smirking at me, her eyes dark with lust. I smirk back, quickly changing our positions so it's her back pressed against my front. We start to dance together as the music takes us away. I start to kiss and nibble on her neck, Jen long forgotten.

Naomi POV.

I watch gobsmacked as Emily latches her lips onto a random girl's neck. Only five minutes ago she broke up with the girl she claimed to love, well, she never really said but that's not the point. How can she just jump from one to the other. Oh right I remember, because she's a fucking heart breaker.

I'm furious, I'm angry at her for singing those songs. I knew all of them were either about me or for me. Especially when she seemed to conveniently catch my gaze and hold it for about thirty seconds, singing certain lyrics to me. How dare she ask for me to take her back? Especially when her girlfriend was so close by!

Don't get me started on when she sang breakeven. I can't believe she blamed me for what happened! How can she say I'm playing her and Cook about whilst she's there, practically eye fucking me whilst Jen was only a few feet away. I must admit though, that song she wrote was sweet. No Naomi don't! She wants you to think that.

I look to Effy who seems so calm about what Emily's doing, she looks back at me and smiles softly. She scoots closer to me, waiting for me to speak.

"Wha-How can you be so calm about that!" I ask pointing to where Emily is practically dry humping that skank from earlier. Not that I'm jealous.

Effy sighs, grabbing a napkin she starts to roll it up "It's happened before" I raise an eyebrow at her, she sighs again "The only other time she's acted like that" she points to the panting pair "Almost fucking someone where everyone can see is when she was AB Emily"

"AB Emily?" I ask

Effy nods "After Ben. Before Ben came around, Emily was a sweet, outgoing, kind, funny girl. She cared for others and always put them first, she was very open as well, always wore her heart on her sleeve, otherwise known now as BB Emily. After Ben, Emily broke down. She shut herself, tucked her heart away forever from everyone, she lost some of her sweetness, she became selfish and arrogant. She went out and partied every night, fucked every girl that threw themselves at her. Once she even fucked one on the dance floor, she couldn't be bothered to take them somewhere more quiet."

I look towards Emily, her head lifts up, her eyes settle on me. An evil smirk appears on her face before she starts to suck on the girl neck, still keeping eye contact with me. I look down, clearing my throat before looking back at Effy.

"Isn't that like how she was before?"

Effy chuckles darkly "No. She was ten times worse. AB Emily didn't give a fuck about anyone, not even Katie. They used to be really close, but after Ben Emily pushed Katie away. She blamed her for what happened, saying how she could've defended her more when she fought with their mum, how she could have forced her mum to take her head out of her arse. AAB Emily is the Emily you experienced 'After After Ben' and I think you may have experienced BB Emily at some point."

I nod, remembering the times she was sweet to me, when she would unconsciously takes my hand in hers if we were in the copy machine alone, giving me simple loving gestures such as cute small waves, big smiles and soft caresses.

"Don't get me wrong" Effy carries on "Emily can still be sweet and kind. But now" she nods to the pair "She's slipped back into AB Emily again"

Before I can reply, Cook sits back down from his pool game with Freddie. Emily chooses to sit opposite me, her body shining from sweat.

"Fucking hell Emilio, why so sweaty?"

Emily smirks "I've been having a bit of fun Cookie" she winks at him before gulping some of his beer down.

Cook chuckles, burying his face into my neck and gently kissing my neck. I smile softly at the small touch. His fingers gently run up and down my back, sending goose bumps running up my spine. Emily watches us, her lips pursed together, her eyes narrowed. I bite my lip and grab Cooks face, I attach my lips to his, quickly slipping my tongue into his mouth. He moans, his hand coming to the back of my neck as he deepens the kiss. We jolt apart when the sound of smashed glass hits the wall next to us. We look to Emily, her hand is still thrown forward from when she threw the glass, a pissed off expression on her face. We stare at her bug eyed. Her breathing is erratic as she glances at every face on the table. She finally looks at me, pain and anger flashing through her eyes. Oh hell no!

"Fuck this! Fuck you! Fuck both of you!" She shouts at us before storming out. Effy looks at me, nodding her head towards the door, Cook goes to follow her but I quickly pull on his t-shirt.

"No baby, let me go" I say softly. He nods sadly and scoots out of the booth to let me out. I shoot out as quick as I can and run out the door, looking for any sight of red hair. I spot her turning the corner abruptly. I sprint off in that direction, running until I'm in hearing distance of her.

"That's right, run off again!" I shout. I watch as she immediately stops at the sound of my voice, her body goes rigid, her fists clenching together.

"I'm not running" I just about hear her say, it was just above a whisper.

"Really? Seems to me you are. You run every time something becomes too difficult for you"

Emily spins round on her heel, her eyebrows her furrowed but her eyes are closed tightly shut "When have I ever done that?"

I chuckle dryly "Oh I don't know. Maybe after you fucked me, you jumped on a train the first chance you got. You ran from your pain of Jen dumping you by banging the next girl who spoke to you and now you're running. Again."

"I never ran from my pain of Jen"

"Yes you did Emily when you practically fucked that girl in there"

"I didn't run from Jen. I ran from you"

I look at her baffled, I did not expect that "What?"

"I reacted the way I did in there because I couldn't stand seeing you with Cook. I didn't fuck that girl to get over Jen, I fucked her to try and forget about you" She starts walking towards me, I watch as a few tears streak down her face.

"Did it work?" I snarl.

She looks down, shaking her head "No. It won't ever work" She looks up at me, wiping away her tears "It'll never work because no matter how hard I try to get away from you, you're always there. You're there everywhere I go every fucking second of every fucking day. I tried to run from you, but I couldn't. I kept on thinking about how you were doing, if you were safe or okay. I tried everything, I tried fucking every girl I met, didn't work. I even tried to fucking date another person but it wasn't the same. It will never be the same until I'm with you again Naomi! I love you so fucking much and it scares me!"

I laugh bitterly "You don't love me"

Her eyes blaze with anger, she takes a threatening step towards me "How can you say that? You can't feel my emotions"

"You have to be brave to fall in love and you Emily are not brave. You have a constant fear of your heart being broken so before it can be, you run. That doesn't show me that you love me as you claim to be. If you truly loved me, you wouldn't run away, you would be prepared to have your heart broken, you would stay here and watch me be happy with someone else. You would be prepared to have your heart broken piece by piece everyday as you watch someone who isn't you make me smile and laugh and blush and happy. You would love me enough to cope with seeing an arm that doesn't belong to you wrap round my shoulders when I'm feeling down, you'd watch as they kissed my tears away and make me feel safe when you can't."

It's only now I realise I'm crying too as the tears fall from my chin, hitting my shoe. I wipe at them and sniff. Emily just cries, letting her tears fall without wiping them away. She looks so broken, so hurt.

I shake my head and take a deep breath. I stand up straight and try to keep my voice even "Only then will I believe you love me" Without another glance at her, I turn on my heal and walk back to the club.

I let a few more tears fall as Emily's broken sob rips through, creating a small crack in the ice shell that has formed round my heart.

So. That's the new version. Should I just go back to how it was and see if they do report me? I don't know, but I do know I would like to keep writing so I'll probably leave it the same.