Hello again. No much to say. Thank you Jo, she always helping me here and thank you all for the reviews! Somebody asked me for brownies. We will see if you are good girls :P
Twilight= SM and LOTR -aka FF- in mine, just in case. But I would love having Aragorn or Legolas LOL :P
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CHAPTER 15
BPOV
Later that night, I woke up in Edward´s arms and it was a such a beautiful feeling, so strong, that I wanted to stay here and never let him go. I tried to move and look at his face. Edward was sleeping very peacefully and even asleep, his pouty lips were calling my name. I sighed remembering our night, everything was so bizarre, dancing, drinks, auctions. Teasing Edward. God, teasing Edward was the best and the sex after was a whole night of teasing each other and showing our possessiveness of each other. Yeah, definitely, the best.
The memories made me wet again. He could be so wild and sweet at the same time. So tender and rough. Slowly, I stood up trying not to wake him up. I went to the bathroom and looking in the mirrow I saw the hickeys on my neck and shoulder. I definetely belong to him. I wonder what his skin will look like when he wakes up. When I retunerd to the bedroom, Edward was lying on his back and I couldn´t resist coming closer and kissing his pouty lips. I admit, I was feeling a little bit turned on. Just a little bit. Fine, very.
Maybe a cup of tea would help to relax me, I thought. I didn´t make it to the kicthen, because another room caught my attention. Edward´s playroom. The door was ajar so I went inside and saw his piano, his guitars, and his records. Everything was there and the beautiful moonlight was giving the piano some kind of aura. There was a lot of music, a lot of new songs, and scores. He was writing a lot more now and one of his songs had my nickname. I shouldn't read it, even if my curiosity was killing me. The first time here, Edward played songs and I could only see him, so I didn't pay much attention to this room. I started walking around and I could see a lot of pictures on the wall. Then I felt his strong arms around my waist, my body relaxed and I leaned into it, melting, finding my home. Edward kissed my neck and it was heaven.
"I was alone in our bed and I thought I had to run and find you at Jake´s bar." I giggled.
"It was enough for one night." I laughed. "I couldn´t sleep anymore and before I jumped on you for more wild sex, I decided to make some tea."
"But this is not the kitchen. Wrong room, my Brownie Eyes." He kissed me on my shoulder and being strong was becoming complicated.
"I know, smart Pouty Lips." I smiled. "The door was open, it was like the peace, and the calm were calling my name. I didn't notice these pics before. They're your friends?"
"Yes. Those pics are from our tour. This one was in Italy, here in Germany, and this one London. This one was in Argentina, that night was hilarious. Demetri wanted to learn how to tango, but it was a disaster." He laughed.
His laugh, the way he remembered those moments, made me realize that Alice was right. I had to help him to find his road again. His soul.
"Have you talked to him lately?" I turned around to see him, with my arms around his neck.
"No." Edward ran his fingers in my hair. "It's been a while."
"No phone or e-mails?"
"Just some e-mails. I got one the last week. He's on the road." Edward smiled again.
"Hey, those are my words!" He looked at me. "Fine, our words."
"Demetri is going to do some shows around the States."
"And?"
"And, what?"
"He didn´t ask you to join him?"
Edward sighed and I felt him tense up. "He did, he always does, but I don't feel it's the right moment to come back. Let's go. You're freezing."
He changed the subject really fast, but I wasn´t going to let him. I could see his sadness, his indecision, but also his joy in remembering those times. I knew how he felt, I have been there, and I probably should tell him. We made it to the kitchen, and Edward was serious to the point I thought I might have crossed the line again. I gave him a cup of tea and we waited there. The moonlight was beautiful and the peace made this place absolutely perfect. Edward is stubborn, but so am I. His arms wrapped around my waist when I was cleaning the cups. He kissed my neck, and it was pure heaven. He is in a good mood after all.
"Can we go to bed now?" Another kiss, a sweet kiss, and I gripped his arms.
"Sure."
He picked me up off the floor, taking me in his arms. I put my arms around his neck, kissing him and tucked my head on his shoulder. Edward laid me on the bed as he kissed me. Finally he lay down beside me, looking at us, embracing. Being in his arms, holding me, this is heaven and I want to live here for the rest of my life. I sighed and Edward kissed the top of my head.
"You should do it again," I said, testing the moment.
"Do what?" he asked, pulling me closer.
"Remember when you told me to warn you when I decided to be pushy?" He sighed.
"Yeah." His tone was serious now, making me wonder if it was a good moment to try something.
"I am now."
"Okay."
"Edward, it's time for you...it´s time to come back to music."
"I am playing," he said while rubbing my back and that feeling was very distracting.
"But it´s not your music. Music is your life, your everything." I moved my face trying to look at him closer.
"Incorrect, my Brownie Eyes." He kissed my nose. "Bella, you are my life and my everything." I moved, placing my arm on his chest.
"I can handle that." I kissed him, giggling. "Music is the second best then. I know you love and enjoy being a doctor, that's easy to see, but it´s not your soul."
"Bells..." I put my finger on his mouth.
"Let me do this. I´m the pushy one here tonight. I know how you feel, trust me, I know. The pain, the fear, the insecurity, I know Edward. You have been writing again, don´t you see it? Your soul needs it. Playing music is always good for the soul."
"You gave me my soul back. I told you that and I write for you."
"Show me. Show yourself you can do it."
"I don´t know how, baby. The last time, when my songs were out there, it was a mess."
"It wasn´t your fault, it was that bitch´s fault." I heard Edward chuckle at my comment. "Your songs weren´t the problem. You talk as if those songs were a disease. It won´t happen again, never. I´m here with you, I will be there for you, and don´t bring up the Bon Jovi song." We giggled and looked at each other. Edward sighed. "You know deep inside that you need this." My hand was on his heart and I gave him a sweet kiss.
"I´m not ready." He closed his eyes.
"You won´t know if you don´t try. I´m not asking you to make a world tour, just to take some chances in other bars, other towns. Sing the classic songs, but try something of yours as well."
"I don´t know."
"At least try. Please?"
"Why do you want me to play?"
"First, because I love you. Second, I see you. Edward, I see how happy you are on stage, how you enjoy playing, how your songs give hope and joy." Edward touched my arms and took my face into his hands giving me a kiss. He rested his forehead on mine and I could feel his indecision.
"I get it, but I'm still trying to figure it out. Why do you want me out there? Are you getting tired of me?" he teased me.
"Never! Never! Never!" I giggled and pushed him on his back kissing him.
"Are you blackmailing me?" Edward asked between kisses.
"Hmm. Nope." More kisses and our touches started to get more hot. "I just want to make love to you," I said, my voice unsteady between our moans and his hands on my hips.
"I still think that this is blackmail." He squeezed my butt, and in one move my leg was wrapping his hip making me moan when I felt his hard erection.
"Not now." I giggled.
"I will think about it. You will join me? You will be with me if I do this?" I looked at him and his eyes, his beautiful green eyes, were yelling at me, please.
"Of course! I wouldn´t miss it, but if you decided to make a world tour we could have a problem. I have no passport and I should be asking for permision for a leave of absence at the college." I joked.
"Step by step, Brownie Eyes. I will try." He kissed me again and my heart melted.
"You will do it?"
"Try. The word is try."
"It´s enough for me. It´s another big step, Pouty Lips, and I´m very proud." I crushed my lips on his.
"Sometimes, I think you know too much, but you don´t tell too much. Am I right, Brownie Eyes?" he teased me.
"Err, maybe." I decided to kiss him more to try to divert his attention.
"I love kissing you, but now tell me how do you know how I feel?" I kissed his neck. "Stop distracting me." I giggled.
"Fine." We sat down on the bed and I wrapped my legs around his waist. "Are you sure you want to talk? Because, I have a better idea." I came close and with my hand I teased his cock.
"Talk now and I will fuck you later," Edward groaned and I laughed.
"My story is not a big deal."
"Then why are you trying to avoid it?" He took my chin, giving me another kiss.
I sighed in defeat. "It´s been a while since the last time I talked about it. I´m surprised Alice or Emmett didn´t tell you anything."
"Maybe because you have to tell me just like I did."
"Fair enough." Here we go, I thought. "After my parents divorced, I was in the middle of them. Renee wanted me with her, but at the same time she didn´t want me around since Phil was with her. Charlie tried to take me to Forks, but I wasn´t ready since I was in high school. When the year ended, I decided to come here. Renee was happy, Charlie was happy, and I felt relieved. Starting my studies here was complicated at first. I was feeling alone, but Alice and Rosalie helped me a lot. The only thing I did was study, keeping my head focused to end everything and move on. College was a huge change for me. Being away from my parents was really peaceful. I was really good in my classes, and before the end of my degree, I got a job. I was so happy, finally I had money, a career, my place..."
"Then what happened?" Edward asked, running his fingers in my hair.
"I worked too much, sometimes forgeting to eat or sleeping really bad. My parents started to fight again and I never knew the reason. From one day to another, I got sick. There were weeks when I was totally and completely disposed, spending all day throwing up and then the next day was worse. I felt like a bulldozer had crushed me . Other weeks, I felt dizzy, like everything was spinning. I was exhausted, but doctors couldn't find anything. Until one day at college, all the symptoms were combined, but with the addition of great anxiety, fear, and a cold sweat. I thought I was dying. That moment was awful. I couldn´t stop trembling and feeling chills all over my body. There were days I couldn't leave home in fear. With all that, I again did a consultation with a doctor and he said I was experiencing depression and should see a psychologist because my symptoms resembled panic attacks. I also had to change my pace and lifestyle. I didn´t want to change anything, but my body and my mind were exhausted and coming back to Forks was the best idea to start over."
Edward kissed me and rested his forehead on mine, giving me strength to go on. "The only thing is, that returning to Forks made me feel like a total failure. Therapy helped me see differently. It was time to change, to find another meaning to my life, not take things so seriously, and enjoy every moment. When I got the opportunity, I confronted Renee and I talked to Charlie. My mom didn´t talk to me for a while, but I had to be selfish for once in my life and think about me." Tears were falling on my cheeks and Edward rubbed my face, taking them away. His lips on mine made me feel as if I was in heaven, safe, protected.
"And you say I´m a fighter." He kissed the top of my nose, a soft sigh escaped me. "That makes two of us, we are fighters, Brownie Eyes."
"You, more than me." I smiled, leaning my head on his shoulder.
"Circumstances were not the same, but we took the same road and now look at us, here together without secrets. We are healing each other and maybe that was the reason why life bring us back." I kept staring at him trying to understand his meaning. What if that was true? What if we had to go through all this to be together?
"Hey." I felt his knuckles caressing my cheek and I instinctively relaxed into his contact. "What are you thinking, Brownie Eyes?" Without opening my eyes, I got lost in the warmest feeling of us being together. Like a normal reaction, my forehead rested on his forehead and a sigh came from me. Edward wrapped his arms around me, protecting me, showing me how much he cared about me, how much he loved me. "Are you ok?" His voice sounded worried. I opened my eyes finding us face to face, his beautiful green eyes were dazzling me, but I gave him a eskimo kiss letting him know everyhing was okay.
"I´m more than okay. I had an epiphany moment that took me away for a second." My arms held him closer. "I love you, you know?"
"Hmm. As I love you." Another sweet eskimo kiss followed, making me giggle. "Tell me about your epiphany."
"It's amazing how fate works. Even when there are obstacles in the way, fate always brings us to the starting point."
"Or a new begining," he said, kissing me. "All the pain in this world won't stop us now. For we have each other. All the hate in this world can't tear us apart. This love is forever," Edward started to sing and my heart melted one more time. "Do you know that song?" I shook my head.
I was so empty
Self loathing
Before you awoke me
Lived in transgression
Feasted sin
Destroying all I stood for
For we have each other
All the hate in this world can't tear us apart
This love is forever
Before Edward stoped singing I kissed him again, but joined him in the lyrics.
All the pain in this world won't stop us now
For we have each other
All the hate in this world can't tear us apart
This love is forever
All the pain in this world won't stop us now
"We definitely should sing more together, Brownie Eyes." He winked at me and I couldn't stop laughing.
"No way! You are the singer in our family." Edward froze at my comment. "What?" I ran my fingers through his hair.
"You said 'our family'". I smiled.
"Yes, I did. Your family has been part of my life always, and you, of course, belong in that thought." I winked at him, and in one move my back was on the bed with Edward on top of me.
"I love that sound." He nuzzled my neck and I couldn't stop giggling.
"I love you." I kissed him while wrapping my legs around his waist and his erection made me moan.
"Love you too, my pushy Brownie Eyes." His hands started to take off my shirt, my panties were the only barrier now.
"You are very pushy, Pouty Lips." I teased him, kissing his neck while with my hips I held him closer making him groan.
"Really? Sounds interesting." His hands were on my back until he grabbed me by my waist, pushing me on the bed.
"I´m working on it, if you let me, of course." I teased him with my hips.
"So you want to be in control now, Brownie Eyes." Slowly my shirt was off and my skin started to be alive from his touch.
"Are you real?" Edward was sucking my nipple with his tongue and massaging my other one. "God, it´s too good to be true. Fuck!" Edward teased my clit and crushed his mouth on mine.
"I´m very real, Brownie Eyes, and I will make you scream my name all night." I wrapped my leg around his hip feeling the burning sensation growing inside. "Tell me, it feels good, doesn't it?" I moaned.
"Soooo good... fuck!" In just one move, he entered two fingers inside me. "Fuck." With his mouth he traced my body, waking every part of my skin.
"You are always so tight and wet for me." His whisper turned me on more, his moves inside me were making me come, but I wanted him.
"Edward," my voice came out as a moan and he sucked my bottom lip. "I need you inside."
"Shh. Just feel this." His fingers found my spot and electricity ran through all of my body.
"Shit! Edward, I can´t..."
"Let go. I can feel you."
"You are killing me..." I arched my back when the orgasm hit me. "Fuck, Edwarddddd!" I screamed and fell on the pillow. I was flying, the pleasure surrounded me and his kisses on my neck brought me to reality.
"Damn, Pouty Lips," I said, still breathless, opening my eyes.
"I know." Edward smirked and I punched his arm.
"It's your turn, Pouty Lips."
"No." I frowed hearing his answer. "That was for you."
"Hmm." I kissed him, pulling his body on mine and his hard erection pressed on me. "I want more," I whispered.
"You are insatiable." He laughed and turned us over with me on top now.
"Always for you." His hands were on my hips and I leaned down to kiss him. God, I love his lips.
"It's always going to be like this?" I moaned.
"How?" Edward asked, pulling me closer, filling me.
"Like this..." Our moves were making us moan loudly. "Confession time in bed, and the best sex ever?" Edward thrusted and I decided to take control, riding him.
"I think...fuck..." we kissed desperately. "Fuck! It will be better."
"Better? Oh, God." His hands didn't move from my hips and our movements began to grow faster.
"I want to live inside of you," he said breathlessly.
"Ohhh, Edward. I´m close." I moaned feeling my orgasm coming. "Touch me."
"Here?" He pinched my clit and I was lost.
"Fuckk!" One touch and I was his again. I kept moving until Edward came. We were exhausted, tired, but happy and relaxed. Edward caught me in his arms. Sweaty or not it didn´t matter, still we tried to catch air, but never breaking our connection.
"You feel so good, Bella. I meant it when I said I want to live inside of you." He kissed me and started nuzzling me.
"Not a problem for me, but we need to go out eventually." I giggled. After a moment of silence, Edward sighed, I could feel his heartbeats so I looked at him and kissed him.
"What´s wrong, baby?"
"Bells, you...?"
"I... what?" I kissed his chin, his jaw, trying to relax him.
"Would you like to live with me? To move here?" I put my arms on his chest and rested my face on them.
"Are you...?"
"I mean, you don´t have to, but I like being with you like this, waking up with you, showering together, sharing our time here..." Edward was nervous and I couldn´t stop smiling. I kissed him making him stop.
"You are too cute when you are babbling." I laughed.
"Sorry, I´m not used to doing things like this."
"Thank God! Or I would be worried." I joked.
"You have an answer?" Oh, tease him or not?
"Ohh, an answer? Hmm." I smiled, looking at his confused eyes. "And what about my house?"
"We can make arrangements. That house could be our home when we get married."
"Interesting. Sooo, you want to marry me?"
"Yes." Marriage? Change the subject
"Are you sure about the moving? Because there is no turning back, Pouty Lips." Edward chuckled. "No regrets, you are stuck with me."
"There is nothing that I want more." He kissed me and I melted, if that is even more possible. "So?"
"You still need my answer?" I teased him.
"Brownie Eyes," he warned me and I giggled.
"Yes, yes, yes. I will move in with you." Edward took my face in his hands and kissed me, leaving me breathless. In a second, I was beneath him covered by his beautiful body and receiving more kisses on my face.
"You are evil making me wait. Do you think it's a good idea?" I giggled while wrapping my legs around his waist. "I will punish you."
"Promises and more promises."
"You bet."
One thing was clear, never make a bet against Edward. He punished me, yeah. Made me beg, but who cares.
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I think Edward and Bella danced Tango lmao They song they´re singing "This world cant´tear us appart" from Trivium, it´s heavy metal but you can find anothers version. So, Bella had something to tell, now what? Hmmmmmm
See you soon!