Hello again, I took my time to give you this chapter since I was on the road too. A little road trip. I miss my vacations already. Thank you for reading my story. Thank you Jo since you have the hard part to "fix" this lol
Twilight belongs to SM
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Chapter 20
BPOV
Marriage. Was I ready to take that step? It's crazy. I had never thought about it. Not even in my dreams. Since my parents divorce, and them putting me in the middle of their problems, marriage wasn´t a possibility for me. What if I made the same mistakes? What if I am like them? I don´t want to be like them. You can be happy without any papers. So why was Edward thinking about it?
"BELLA!" I jumped hearing the scream.
"WHAT?" I yelled back.
"Where are you, Bells? I have been talking for at least ten minutes and you're not listening." I sighed.
"I´m here, Alice. Take it easy on me, at least for one day. Where is Rose?"
"She took Julie for a nap. Are you still thinking about getting married to Eddie?"
I groaned.
"I take that answer as a yes." She giggled.
"It's not funny. My mind isn't stopping for even a second."
"That's the problem. You think too much," Rose said, joining us on the couch. We were all at her house this afternoon talking about everyhting and nothing. After Edward´s show, we were trying to find other places for him. Trying was the perfect word.
"Bella, my brother didn´t propose to you yet. Relax."
"Yet." I murmured.
"Alice is right. Bella, I know what the problem is, and let me tell you something; stop. Stop thinking too much, and trying to analyze it all. It's not a mathematical equation. You love him. He loves you. It's simpler than one plus one equals two.
"Rose-"
"Shush. Let me finish. Bella, you are not your parents. They made so many mistakes, but that doesn´t mean you will do the same. You're smart enough to see it. You're living with Edward already. You know every single detail of his life. When you found out about his past, you could have run, but you didn´t. You know why?" I shook my head. "Because you love him. You love him more than your parents loved each other. So, don´t compare your life with your parents."
"Rose, I think you are being a little bit pushy right now," Alice said sitting next to me.
"Maybe, but Bella needs it. A touch of reality always helps." Rose smiled.
"...rather a slap, I would say." I crossed my arms and hugged myself.
"But it remains true," Alice followed.
"Remember when I got pregnant and my parents didn´t want me?" I nodded. "What did you say to me?" I saw where she was going with this.
"Be happy?"
"You can be so frustrating sometimes, Bells." I smiled. "You said I didn´t need them, that you all were my family, and I wasn´t going to make their mistakes because I had you, all of you. Now, look at me. I have a wonderful daughter, a wonderful, but sometimes pain in my ass husband, and you. All of you are my family. I have no regrets. It's the same with you, Bella. We are your family and Edward will always be there with you."
"Besides, it's not the death penalty. Edward loves you, and yes, it is just a paper, but take it as his way of showing you how much you mean to him."
"How can you speak about marriage like that? I mean, both of you are not married." Alice and Rosalie shared a look and smiled.
"Maybe it's because of the way I was raised. Mom and dad have no problems with us living in sin." Alice winked and I couldn´t contain my laugh. "They lived together before they got married. We have their wisdom." Alice´s surety never stopped surprising me. She is smart, but sometimes she's too much.
"In my case, Emmett and all of you helped me. My family is not any better than yours, Bella. My parents have been married for a long time, but they are pretending. You can´t see love like I see looking at you and Edward or Alice and Jasper or Esme and Carlise. Hell no! There is emptiness, coldness, and sadness." Rose sighed and crushed on the couch.
"What should I do? I´m so confused!" I hid my face in my hands. Immediately someone pushed me.
"Bella, he didn´t ask you yet." Alice rolled her eyes.
"He did." I crossed my arms back around me.
"Oh, please. Bella, my brother is trying to get you. It is like making you know his intentions. When he asks you the real proposal, you will know."
I frowned. "So, he going to give me clues? Pieces of crumbs to follow like Hansel and Gretel?"
"Yeah, and then he will eat you alive." Rose laughed.
"Brownie Eyes, remember?" I joked.
"Ew, stop. I don´t want to know about my brother`s sex life!" Alice twisted her nose in distaste.
"Get out of here." We jumped on her laughing.
EPOV
"I asked her to marry me," I said and took a drink of my beer.
"You did WHAT?" Emmett yelled.
"He asked Bella to marry him," Jasper repeated casually, like it wasn´t a big deal.
"What did she say?"
"Emmett. We are alone drinking at his bar. What do you think?" Jasper`s calm could be really frustrating sometimes.
"Dude. You are so screwed." Emmett laughed.
"Thank you guys for your support and comforting words," I said sarcasticly.
"Why are you surprised about her answer?" Jasper asked.
"Just in case, she didn´t say no."
"Oh."
"She just..." I couldn`t find the words.
"...froze," Emmett completed my sentence.
"I´m screwed." I asked for another beer.
"It's a normal reaction, if you ask me." Jasper looked at me in seriousness.
"Enlighten me, please." I sighed.
"Bells didn´t have a good example of a healthy relationship. Her parents scarred her for life." Jasper and I froze listening to Emmett.
"Even Emmett understands." Jasper got a hit on his head. "Fuck. It´s true. You don´t have to be smart to see it."
"Thanks, dude, for the faith you put in me." Emmet hit him again.
"Such a sensitive bitch, dude." Jasper laughed. I drank my beer thinking about how to make this right. Bella had told me about her unhappy upbringing with her parents.
"I´m not her parents."
Jasper and Emmett looked at me surprise.
"I mean, I`m fucked up, but not in that way. I will never treat her like that."
"We know that. The question is, does Bella knows that?" Jasper had a point.
"I guess I will have to show her, right?" Emmett and Jasper clinked their bottles trying to chear me up.
"You are the cheesy Cullen. I´m sure you can handle it." Emmett laughed and I shook my head.
"I need a plan."
"You do need a plan," Jasper agreed.
"Sex?" Emmett opened his mouth and this time the hit was for him. "Hey! Sex is a good plan."
"It is, but a little part of it. I can´t be fucking around. Love is not just about sex."
"See? I was right. You are the cheesy one."
"Shut up." Jasper and I both hit him this time.
"My plan starts tonight." I announced.
"Good luck, my friend." Jasper gave me a high five.
"And good fuck, too!" Emmett joked.
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Emmett can be clever, some faith :P Ideas about plans?
Give me, give me, give your thoughts lmao
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