Hey guys, okay I know I'm late with the update, but only a few hours so that's cool isn't it? I hope it is
All-righty, thanks so much for the reviews on the last chapter. A few were wondering about if there is some Ceffy development coming soon and the answer is yes, not so much in this chapter though.
The POV changes in this chapter so you can have an insight into a certain Characters head and see their thoughts on recent events.
Disclaimer: I do not own Skins
I hope you enjoy reading this!
*song lyrics used are from the Maine's song Inside of You, and yes, it is used in a past chapter
*EDIT* Okay, so I was wondering if any of you guys are good at Photoshop? If you are, could you be like the best person ever and create a book cover for this story for me to use? I'll give you credit for it. If so, PM me and I'll give you my email so you can email it to me, I WILL LOVE YOU FOR EVER!
I stir about in the bed, my face rubbing into the pillow as I try to move out of a lock that is wrapped round me. Panic starts to stir in me and I thrash about more, trying to desperately get out of the hold. It reminds me of the grip Ben had on me, how he pinned me down so I couldn't move. I start to whimper, not liking having to feel the same feeling from all those years ago.
"Emily, Emily" I continue to stir, the grip around me becoming stronger.
"No" I whimper.
"Ems, sshh, it's me. Calm down sweetie, it's only me" I hear them whisper in my ear, but I can't place their voice to a face as the pounding of blood in my head is over powering my senses. They pull me closer against their body, gently rubbing my arms in comfort.
"There was a new girl in town, she had it all figured out" They softly sing in my ear. Keeping my eyes closed, I turn in their arms, gripping onto their t-shirt. They start to gently rock me, calming my heavy breathing.
"I'll state something rash, she had the most amazing..." I feel their finger tip my chin up, my eyes lock with the gorgeous blue eyes I love so much "..smile" her lips pull up into her stunning smile, showing her pearly whites.
I sniff then tuck my head under her chin, letting her voice gently soothe me "I bet you didn't expect that, she made me change my ways" she kisses the top of my head, I snuggle in closer to her. My tears start to fall, making her t-shirt wet "With eyes like sunsets baby, and legs that went on for days..."
"Sing with me Ems" she gently coaxes, pulling me closer to her.
"I'm falling in love, but it's falling apart" I sing, my voice hoarse from sleeping and panicking. "I need to find my way back to the start" I feel Naomi smile against my temple and press a kiss to it.
"When we were in love, oh things were better than they are. Let me back into..." she sings. I feel myself calm down a lot, the panic I felt earlier washing away from me.
"Into your arms" I sigh, snuggling impossibly closer to her. "I sang that to you, y'know?"
"I know" she says, kissing my head.
"How?"
I feel her shrug "Just had a feeling" We stay silent for a few minutes, just enjoying each others company.
"Not that I'm enjoying this, but why are you here?" I ask, nuzzling against Naomi's neck.
"You didn't come into work for the past two days. I asked Katie if she knew, but she said she didn't know. So I came over to see you"
"I was asleep for two days?"
"Well, you woke up screaming last night, but once Luce and I calmed you down you were fine" She pulls me closer, nuzzling her face into my hair.
"Luce is still here?"
"She moved in apparently"
"Naomi, I swear I didn't know and there is-" Her laughing cuts me off, I move back and look up at her, furrowing my eyebrows in confusement I ask "What's so funny?"
She shakes her head and bites back her smile "You. Ems, you've been passed out for two days, of course I know you didn't know about Luce moving and I know there isn't anything going on between you two. I trust you and I trust Luce. She spoke to me when I arrived and I just knew that she cared for you as a friend. In honesty, I'm glad she's moved in, you're going to need a friend now more than ever" She says, kissing me chastely.
"You know you're my friend too, and I have Effy and...Cook" I say, my voice becoming sad when I mention my lost friend.
Naomi smiles softly at me "I am, but you need another friend who can't do this" she kisses my neck "Or this" she runs her hand up my leg, gently toying with the bottom of my shorts "Or.." she brings our faces close together "This" she kisses me deeply, interlocking out lips before pulling away. "You need a friend who will just listen to you. Effy...she's got too many of her own problems at the moment what with having to appear in court against Freddie. And Cook..well..."
"Wait, Effy has to appear in court?"
Naomi nods "Freddie's lawyer demanded a court session to try and lesson his sentence seeing as he apparently didn't get a fair chance or some shit" she glares down at the bed sheets angrily.
"When is it?"
"Today"
I shoot up in the bed "What! I need to go and be there for her I need-"
Naomi gently tugs on my arm, bringing me back down onto the bed next to her. She wraps her arms round me and pulls us close together "No you don't. You need to stay here and be my pyjama's. She's got someone there with her anyway"
"Who?"
"Cook"
Cook POV
I sit nervously outside, my knees bouncing up and down rapidly. I run my thumb over the tattoo on my right hand's thumb knuckle. It's nerve racking being on this side of the doors. It's scary on the other side, standing in the court, waiting for your fate. Trust me, I know. But at least on that side, you knew what was going on. This side...I know fuck all.
I wish Emilio was here with me now, she'd know what to say to calm me down. She knew what to say to Paddy when I had to go into court in College. He was a mess when I went in, but as I came out, he was calm. She kept him and everyone else calm.
But she isn't, and why? Because I was a dick and she slept with my-at-the-time-girlfriend. I can't even begin to describe how angry I was when I heard them. I was ready to punch my wall and break my hand. I almost ripped my pillow to shreds as I restrained myself from hitting things.
I wasn't angry at them. I was angry at myself. I was angry at how I didn't notice it. How did I not notice the way Emily looked at Naomi? How did I not notice the way Naomi looked at Emily? I'm such an idiot.
If I had noticed before, I would've ended it with Naomi and let Emily win her back. But I didn't. Why? Because I was too busy looking at Effy. I was too busy caring about Effy and how she felt. I didn't notice the looks between Emily and Naomi because I was too busy giving the same fucking looks to Effy.
So, I didn't move out because I couldn't stand to be near Emily. No, I moved out because I couldn't stand to be between them anymore. If I stayed in the apartment, they wouldn't be able to be themselves with each other whilst I was there. They wouldn't be able to re-build their relationship again as they both would be ridden with guilt.
I needed to stop doing that so the only option was to move out. Let them get closer again. I don't want to stop it. Sure, I loved Naomi, but I wasn't in love with her. Just like she wasn't in love with me. Both of us had our hearts taken by someone else. Someone we couldn't have.
But I had to say all those things to Emily to let her move past her guilt and try to be with Naomi, instead of putting it on hold to wait for me to get better. I knew that's what they were planning to do. It's just like both of them. Being selfless in order for me to fix myself instead of fixing each other.
I just regret it all now. I need Emily again. I miss my wing woman, I miss having someone to laugh and joke about with over girls or football. I miss all of it.
There is a part of me that is angry at Emily. I feel betrayed by her. She broke the bro code by sleeping with my girlfriend. She hurt me, not for sleeping with Naomi, but for not stopping to think about how I would feel when she did. Yeah, I'm happy they're together, but it still hurts. It hurts knowing it took for them to stab me in the back for them to get together.
Why Naomi didn't break up with me even though she felt the way she does with Emily I'll never know. That's what hurts the most. Just knowing that Naomi loved Emily all this time, but yet she didn't end it with me. She didn't think to break up with me BEFORE sleeping with my best friend.
The court doors open and Effy walks out, her eyes red and puffy from crying. I'm immediately out of my seat and pulling her into a hug. She clings onto me, crying heavily into my shoulder as I gently rub her back, calming her down softly.
"I need a cigarette" she says once we pull away from each other.
I quickly fish through my pockets as we walk out of the court. I hand the packet over to her as she clambers into my car.
Once buckled, I start off down the road, my gaze flicking to Effy occasionally. She's quiet, not like that's new for Effy, but I expected her to say something about what happened, especially as she walked out crying.
"Do you want to talk about what happened?" I ask as we pull up outside of her flat.
She flicks the fag away and shakes her head "Not now" she turns in her seat and smiles weakly at me, her eyes still red. I've never seen her look so down since the day we stopped Ben from attacking Emily. "Thank you for coming with me Cook" she says placing a hand on my thigh.
I stare down at it, swallowing thickly as I feel the heat of her hand burn through to my trouser leg. "No problem" I say, not moving my eyes from where her hands lays. I wish she would move it up further. But now is neither the time or place for that. I gently take her hand off of my thigh and clasp it in my own "You know I'm here for you Eff right?" I ask, running my thumb over the back foe hr hand.
She smiles weakly at me and nods "I know. You're a good friend Cook" My heart plummets at her words. That is not what I wanted to hear. But what did I want to hear from her? A declaration of love to me like Naomi did with Emily? No. Then why does it hurt so bad to hear those words.
I nods at her and pull my hand away from hers and place it back on the steering wheel. I keep my eyes forward, waiting for her to leave. When I feel a soft pair of lips on my cheek, I can't help but blush and smile softly.
"Thanks again" I hear her whisper before the opening and closing of a door sounds through the car. I finally turn my stare from the window and watch her walk into the flat, her door closing softly behind her.
I sigh and turn the ignition on. Friendzone it is then.
Emily POV
"Rise and shine Sweets!" I hear Luce say before my vision is blinded by the bright sun.
I groan and sit up, a groggy Naomi sitting up beside me as we both glare at Luce "Luce what the fuck are you-" I stop talking when she walks over to us with a tray stacked with waffles and pancakes.
She smiles at me and places the tray over our laps and hands us plates "I'm serving you two breakfast in bed." She smiles and walks off towards the door, she pauses "After you have finished, have showers and get changed" she goes to walk out, but again pauses "Alone" she winks then walks out, shutting the door behind her.
Naomi grabs a waffle and pours loads of syrup on it before stuffing half of it into her mouth. Her eyes widen in surprise and she shoves the rest of it into her mouth, despite not finishing the first half.
"Baby, finish chewing the first bite before you take another" I say, tapping her cheeks lightly.
She blushes then quickly swallows "Ems, these waffles are amazing, here have some" she says, cutting another waffle and bringing it close to my mouth.
I raise my eyebrows but take the piece. My eyes widen at the delicious taste in my mouth "Oh my god!" I say, already reaching for another waffle.
Naomi nods smugly "I told you" she grabs a pancake and starts digging into that, shoving more into her mouth, making her cheeks puff out like a chipmunk. With her hair a mess as well, she does resemble a chipmunk closely.
"Naoms, you look like a chipmunk. I think I'm going to call you that for now on. My little chipmunk" I say, squeezing her puffy cheeks.
She quickly swallows "Can you call me Theodor?" at my questioning look, she elaborates "From Alvin and the Chipmunks"
"Bit of a mouthful, how about Alvin?"
Naomi shakes her head, putting another waffle into her mouth "Theodor's cuter"
"Or how about Naomi so then I can keep all of my teeth?" Luce asks from the door way "Seriously, I think I've lost most of my teeth just from watching you for five minutes" She says, walking in. "You ate quick" she says looking down at the empty tray.
I furrow my eyebrows "I only had-Naomi" I turn to playfully glare at her, seeing her mouth is still full from the food she ate.
"What?" she says around the chewed up waffle "I can't help it if they're so good"
"Charming" Luce says, scrunching up her face "You go shower and get all that syrup off of you" she says pointing to Naomi "And you, come with me into the kitchen so I know you're not tempted to join her" she says, smirking at me before walking out with the tray in her hands.
I glance at Naomi but she just shrugs and gets out from the covers and heads to the bathroom. I stay in the bed and bite my lip. I'm so tempted to join her right now, maybe if I go in there quickly then Luce won't noti-
"Emily! If you don't get here in three seconds than I am banning you from seeing Naomi for a week!" Luce calls out.
I scoff and scoot out of the bed, heading straight for the bathroom "One!" I hear her call out, I shake my head and grab onto the doors handle "Two.." I start to twist it "Two and a half!..."
I pause. What if she's serious? We all know that when someone starts to count to three, they're are being serious, especially when they get close to three.
"Two and a quarter"
Fuck! I quickly let go of the handle and run into the kitchen, skidding to a stop next to Luce as she washes up pots and pans.
"It's funny, I didn't actually think that would work" Luce says, smirking at me as she scrubs at the pot in her hands.
"So are you gonna be my mum for now on?" I ask, leaning against the counter.
Luce smiles "Think of me more as a...nanny. Except I'm not being paid" She says "Now, help me dry up and then once Naomi's finished showering you go and shower then I want you both sat in the sitting room" she says, throwing a dish cloth at me.
"You're joking?" I ask, grabbing a glass and drying it.
"No, I am not"
She wasn't joking. When neither of us entered the sitting room after my shower, she walked into my room, grabbed me by the ear and pulled me away from Naomi and sat me down on the settee. When Naomi sat next to me, Luce walked over and sat herself between us, she said it's to make sure we don't so any funny business with her in the room as we watch the TV.
During Lunch, she made us sit on opposites of the table and kept her feet outstretched between us so we couldn't play footsie with each other, then she made Naomi wash up whilst I sat in the sitting room. She didn't allow me to watch TV as I didn't eat my crusts! I'm seriously beginning to think about kicking her out. I don't understand why I can't sit with my girlfriend whilst watching TV or whilst she's reading. It's unfair.
"This sucks" Naomi says as she dries up the plates I'm washing after our dinner that Luce cooked. Luce is sat in the sitting room, watching Coronation Street as we clean everything up.
"I know. But if she wasn't such a great cook I would kick her out"
"Oh god I know! Her risotto was to die for!" Naomi says moaning a little as she remembers the gorgeous dinner Luce cooked for us.
I drop the pan I'm currently washing into the soapy water and look around "She's not here at the moment" I say with a smirk, taking my hands out of the water.
Naomi pauses and looks around as well before settling her eyes on me, a smirk of her own appearing on her lips. "Are you thinking what I'm thinking?" she whispers.
I step up to her, trapping her between me and the counter. I place my sudsy hands on the counter either side of her body and lean in "I think I am" I whisper, promptly attaching my lips to her plump ones. We both moan at the contact and soon deepen the kiss. Our tongues battle against each other for dominance as I push my hips into Naomi's.
"Break away" We both groan and move apart, looking towards Luce.
She stands in front of us, her hands on her hips "You have a job to do. Try and refrain from attacking each other" she says.
I growl "Luce, you can't tell us what to do, we're adults. We can do what we like!"
Luce levels me with a glare that matches the one my mum used to give me, shutting me up completely "I know you are. But like I said before, I'm going to be like your Nanny and look after you. Meaning, I'm going to be your Mum and Dad at the same time as well as being your friend."
"Can't you be more of a friend though! Let us sit next to each other, let us cuddle and kiss! We're not going to make out in front of you for Christ sake!" I say, placing my hands on my hips.
Her eyes soften at my words "Fine, you two can act all couple-ly together and be disgustingly cute, but if it starts to become heavy petting and the kisses become more than innocent pecks then you go into your room. You're still going to do chores as well, I'm not going to do all the housework. Also, you have to ask my permission to leave the flat. If you don't, I won't hesitate to ground you. Clear?" she asks.
We both nod and she smiles at us "Great. Carry on" she says before walking back into the sitting room.
Naomi goes to pick up the dishcloth again but I take it from her and chuck it to the side. She furrows her eyebrows at me but I just take her hand and start to lead her quietly out of the kitchen.
"Em-" I silence her with a finger to the lips. I shake my head at her and reach for our shoes and my keys. I quickly place my shoes on and wait for Naomi to do the same. When she's done, we quietly start making our way past the sitting room towards the front door.
"What are doing? Didn't you just hear her?" Naomi hisses as I silently open up the door and pull her out. I quietly shut the door and lead us to the stairs.
"Yes, but I'm not going to take any of that. We're both adults and I'm not going to let her treat us like teenagers" I say as we run down the stairs to the main entrance.
"Aren't we acting like teenagers now? Going against her wishes like she's your mum?" She asks as we exit the building.
"Emily! You get your arse back here or so help me!" We look up and see Luce looking down at us, scowling at me.
"Come on Naoms, live a little" I say, wiggling my eyebrows before taking her hand and running off down the road.
"Emily, what if she chases us"
I laugh joyously and shake the keys in my hand "She won't, I took her keys. If she leaves the building she won't be able to get back in"
Naomi just laughs and runs beside me as we make our way down the street. I have never felt more alive or reckless than this moment right now.
I love it.
Okay, so I hope you guys enjoyed this chapter. I promise I shall carry this onto the next chapter sometime next week You'll experience Mumma Luce in that chapter as well :D.
Thanks for reading!
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