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Chapter 25
BPOV
The last few weeks had been very interesting and very stressful, too. Being part of Edward´s state tour was really exciting. Edward had started to defeat his fear and his songs were becoming a success which was a great surprise for him.
How could he think people wouldn´t remember him? I joined him as per what he wanted, but of course, I wanted it, too. I was with him for some of his shows around Forks since he couldn´t get the whole license from the college.
Maybe people wondered what I was doing in the middle of the men. My presence didn´t bother them, they were so into their music and the shows and didn't pay attention to me. I enjoyed every moment of taking pictures and recording videos. It became very pleasant to do it and even without notes, my story book was coming together. With every pic there was a story behind it, an experience, or just a quote from the guys in that moment. Every single detail coming from the shows and from the fans.
My idea hadn't been to make a book, but Edward had insisted on it, and that gave me the courage and the confidence to publish it. My first book and it was all about him.
He was doing fine and we were trying to make things easier for him, too. As Edward used to say baby steps. The family supported him by helping in different aspects of his tour. Alice was the one searching out places, cities for the shows. Jasper and Emmett were part of technical group and every night they joined him onstage and the tour, too. They liked to mix their "jobs."
Rosalie was busy with Julie, but she helped Esme with her PR team, speaking with the media, arranging interviews, and making a blog. Media was their thing and Edward was more relaxed about it. On the other hand, Carlisle and Jenks took care of the legal part. This time my Pouty Lips was protected in every possible way and nothing escaped his dad and lawyer's eyes.
Against my will, I had to come back to Forks and back to college, but with a decision to leave it behind and give my full attention to my hobbies that probably wouldn´t stay hobbies. Writing, taking pictures...Edward saw in those a way for me to express myself, they were another aspect of myself, and he didn´t think twice when he found another job for me.
"You're amazing. I can´t believe you just think of this as a hobby. You can do so many things with this talent, love." Edward ever since he had seen the pics and my writing was very excited.
"Thank you, Pouty Lips, but I can´t think of it any other way. It´s a hobby. Even if I wanted to make it big, I don´t have the money, and it takes a lot of time, too. I would be quitting my job. I can´t afford it." I looked at the table seeing my pics there.
"Then, I'll help you, Brownie Eyes," he said, wrapping his arms around my waist. Edward had the night free after four shows.
"No way. Edward..."
"I'll help you, don´t be stubborn." He kissed my forehead and I sighed. "Baby, you've been helping me since the day we met. Now it's my turn to support you." I shook my head and Edward took my face into his hands. "Look at me." I saw his beautiful eyes and couldn´t resist him. "Now you will listen. I love you with everything I am and I want to help you. Just like the way you did for me."
I sighed. "How I can resist your beautiful eyes, my Pouty Lips?" Edward smiled. "I said it out loud." I hid my face on his chest. "Are you sure you're just a musician? You can´t just dazzle people like that." His lips were on mine making me speechless. "Okay." I breathed out. "I´m dazzled and you can do whatever you want with me." I giggled. Edward started laughing and I punched his chest.
"You'll accept my help, Brownie Eyes?" Puppy eyes time now. Seriously, the things he does to me.
"Fine. But stop dazzling me."
"It's not magic, you know. It´s love."
"Aww. You're so cheesy." I kissed him, wrapping my arms around his neck.
"I love you, what can I say?" He teased me.
"Hmm. I love you, too." I kissed him again and this time I felt his hand touching my body slowly until he reached the bottom of my jeans. "Your friends are next to us." I couldn´t stop kissing him.
"I don´t care. They can´t hear us." He quickly left me without my shirt and sucked my nipples. "They're busy..." I felt his tongue. "...with music..." Without kissing, Edward leaned me against the wall. My pants fall to the floor and Edward took my leg around his hip.
"Edward." His lips were on mine again and I wrapped my leg tighter. "It feels so good." Edward filled me and we both moaned feeling the pleasure. "Fuck me harder. Please..." He started moving hitting the spot while I clawed my nails on his back.
"Like this?" I moaned and Edward grabbed my other leg. "You want me to fuck you?"
"Yes, please." He thrusted harder moving in and out. "More..."
"Brownie Eyes, your pussy is addicted."
"Fuck. Your cock, fuck."
"Hey, you two! If you're done fucking like rabbits, let´s get some food!" Emmett yelled at us from the other side and we laughed, exhausted.
"Go away!" Edward yelled back at him and kissed me. I giggled.
"Food service, again?" I teased him grabbing his ass and squeezing it.
"Again and... again."
That was sort of the beginning of my book. Almost three months ago at the first of Edward´s tour. I spent some time with him, but now he was on the road again and I was missing him terribly. Now I was almost ready to publish my first photo book with all the places we had gone on tour. It was amazing how much the fans loved seeing Edward´s journey, the stories behind every picture, the meaning of every song.
Excitement was around the family and this new beginning for me, but at the same time it was exhausting. Without Edward at home I didn´t cook which is always a bad decision. Eating whatever you find is not a good idea and not healthy either. I was sick some days and today wasn´t an exception.
"Bella! Do you want me to make something? Or we could order some food. I´m starving and Julie is sleeping." I ran to the bathroom and started to throw up again.
"Fuck." I hate being sick. I. Hate. It.
"You should see a doctor, Bells." I looked at the door and Rosalie started to laugh. "Or maybe not. A pregnancy test will be enough for now."
"A what?" Great. Another thing to make me stress.
"You're going to tell me that you didn't think that a possibility?"
I sat on the floor and sighed.
"Actually, I didn´t."
"You don´t want a baby?"
"I don´t know. Never thought about it." I had talked about it with Edward after Julie was born. We had decided that we wanted to be parents, but there hadn't been a decision about the time. "I can´t be pregnant. I had my period last week." Rosalie walked with me to the bedroom and kept talking.
"You should see a doctor anyway. It could be stress, but also a baby. So many women have their period and they are pregnant without knowing."
"You're enjoying this, aren´t you? Pushing and pushing me." I threw myself on the bed suddenly feeling really tired.
"Now you know how it is to be pushed. You do it with Edward all the time." Rosalie laughed. Deep inside I knew Rosalie was right.
"Fine. I'll call for an appointment. Would you come with me?"
"Sure. I'll be there with you."
"Not a single word to Alice and especially to Emmett. He would tell Edward and I don´t want him worried."
"Promise." Rosalie walked to the living room quickly. "I'll call my doctor now!" she yelled from the other room.
"Oh, God," I groaned hiding my face on Edward´s pillow. What if it's true? Being done with college and making this new hobby a job could work, but what if Edward doesn´t want it?
"Shit! What the fuck?" Rosalie was staring at me laughing. "Why did you punch me?" I pouted.
"Because you're freaking out without a reason." She sat down on the bed with me. "Look. I know Edward will love you having his baby and I know you'll be a terrific mother, like a great mother, of course."
"How can you know that? My family record is not really a good example."
"Neither is mine and that´s one of the reasons. The other is even more important. I see you with Julie, and I couldn´t be more happy to have you and Edward as her Godparents. She loves you so much. By the way, your appointment is on Monday at 9 AM. Now tell me about your books, I´m seeing pictures around the house."
I sighed.
"I can´t pick up 30 or 40 pictures for the book. I want them all."
"And why don´t you pick some pics of Edward´s concerts? You could make two books and sell it at his shows with his music. Then you could have the road free to make another with the trip pics. Maybe a road storytelling?" I looked at her and thought about the idea. It was simple and I was surprised I hadn't thought of it before.
"It´s a great idea. The first should be a backstage book."
"Exactly!"
"With funny stories?"
"Ohhh, that would be amazing!"
"I can do that." I sat down and everything started to spinning. "Fuck." Rosalie smiled and stroked my back.
"I don´t want to push you, but Julie will have a cousin."
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The weekend went slow, very slow. Even more than I could possibly imagine. The idea about being pregnant stayed with me and my anxiety was killing me. Edward hadn´t come home yet, he was supposed to be here Thursday, but he knew there was something up when we talked. He was worried about my look, almost angry with me because I wasn't taking care of myself. Of course I started to cry. Of course he was even more worried.
"I miss you," I sniffed.
"I miss you, too. Just a couple of days, two days, and I'll be there to take care of you. We're going to see a doctor, Brownie Eyes," he said.
"No!" I said out loud. "I mean, Rosalie will go with me on Monday. It´s just stress. Don´t worry, please?" I asked him trying to calm down the situation.
"Are you asking me not to worry? Are you serious?" His voice was rising and my tears were ready to fall again. "If something happens to you who will make me brownies?"
I smiled and cleaned my face. "Oh, you just love me for the food. Very nice, Pouty Lips. Very nice." I teased him. Edward let out a deep sigh.
"Bella, I don´t want anything to happen to you. You can't ask me to not worry when you're far away. I can´t help it."
"Edward, I'm fine. I'll be fine. Now tell me, how is everything on the road?"
"It´s fine. I'm bored since you aren´t here."
"You need your music not me, Pouty Lips." I giggled.
"But you inspire my music."
"I'll inspire you when you get home," I teased him again and he laughed.
"I'll take that promise, Brownie Eyes. I need to keep moving, love. Please, take care of yourself, okay?"
"I will. I'll see you soon."
"I love you and call me when you see the doctor."
"Bye, Edward. I love you, too."
Since Edward and Rosalie wouldn´t stop talking about my health, I needed something else to do. My books and pictures did the job and by the end of the weekend I got all the stories and images sorted for each book. It was awesome. Everything was done. My editor was going to be happy with the result, I think, even more when I told him about just one book, because I was going to give him two. With nothing to do I was in trouble. Now, it was time to face reality.
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She is or she is not? This tour looks like a year on the road LOL I will be waiting for your reviews. The end of this story is coming, maybe two more chapters.
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