And here we go again...
Poor Kid, poor Law... I promise it will be ok. Don't worry my dears...
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When I sat up in my bed that morning, I was forced to lay down again by the sudden pain flashing through my head. Oh damn… Good morning, head. No I didn't forget you exist. No need to make your existence so painfully fucking apparent.
No matter how much I wanted to see Kid, I wouldn't make it to school like that. If I was lucky he would bring over some homework again; or he would just drop by to see why I didn't show up. A shiver ran through me when I realized that he might not come at all. That he just might not care…
But he did care about me, didn't he? I took a shuddering breath and slowly sat up. Pain was hammering through my head and I groaned. I needed to tell my mum why I wasn't going to school again. She would be so fucking pissed…
In the end I was banned to my bed for the millionth time this month. And I had nothing to distract me from thinking about Eustass Kid. Staring up at my ceiling blankly I went through the events of the last few days. What a mess.
I closed my eyes when my thoughts arrived at the day before yesterday. If he hadn't asked, how far would I have let him go? Why didn't he just get what he wanted? He was good in what he had been doing that night, really good. If he would have touched me, teased me some more, I might have let him do everything.
I imagined what it would feel like to have his hands touching me, lips placing soft kisses on my skin, tongue licking over my chest southwards. Going deeper while his fingers would open my belt, pulling my remaining cloths off… His tongue licking over my…
Without me realizing it I had drifted to a dream state when my mother knocked on the door. I just had enough time to pull the blanket over me before she came in. She looked worried and according to her I looked a little flustered. Well, guess why?
She would be off for the rest of the day and nearly didn't stop apologizing for letting me alone. This was the final proof then that she could really tell if I was faking or not. Damn! I told her to just go and that I would be perfectly fine until she finally left me with my little problem. I heard the apartment door slam shut and relaxed a little. Did I really get a hard-on just from thinking about… Sinking deeper into the pillow I let out a heavy sigh. Yes I did. Fuck you, Eustass Kid!
I managed to get through the next hours without thinking too much about the redhead and his hidden talents. I was reading a book when I heard the door bell and my heart skipped a beat. Kid… Without the shadow of a doubt I knew that it was Kid standing in front of the building. Carefully I got up and over to the door. My headache had gotten a little better but was still bad enough.
"Your homework!" Kid greeted me when I opened the door for him and I rolled my eyes. "Nice to see you too…" I mumbled, still somewhat dizzy from the pain ghosting through my head. Kid forced me to take a few steps back, entering the apartment after me. He closed the door and with a swift move pressed me against the next wall. My headache was protesting and I groaned, squeezing my eyes shut.
All pain was forgotten though, when I felt his lips on mine. His body was pressed flat against mine, keeping me pinned against the wall. "I missed you…" he murmured between two kisses. His hands were roaming over my body already and I gasped when he bit my shoulder. Shit…
I felt him grinning against my skin before he licked over my skin and made me lose focus. "Kid… Wait." Afterwards I couldn't remember where I had taken the concentration from but I had it. Softly I pushed him back so I could stand normally again. "Kid. We need to talk about this.." He paled and I felt my heart clench. If I lost him now I wouldn't know what to do. I needed him so much, but I was just not going to give all this up for a little fun.
We ended up in the living room, sitting awkwardly beside each other on the sofa in complete silence; and for once it was an uncomfortable silence. I sighed lowly, not knowing where to start. I shot a quick glance at Kid and took a deep breath.
"Look.. I'm just not going to… let this continue. I can't." His head snapped up and he looked at me with a wary expression. Was this hurt? "I don't know about you, but this is more than just fun for me. I'm not gay… usually." The corner of his mouth twitched a little at this statement. "I know it's ridiculous and stupid. But I really like you and if this is just… If this doesn't mean anything to you, then this is the end."
He slowly raised his arm, pulling me close and buried his face in my hair. I heard him breathe deeply, felt his racing heartbeat. "I'm sorry…" I murmured. He shook his head, placing a kiss on my temple. "You haven't done anything wrong. I'm the idiot, ok?" Giving me a last kiss on the cheek, avoiding my eyes all the time, he got up. Before I could even think about something to say he was out of the apartment and probably flying down the stairs.
With a little effort I made it to my bedroom, shut the door behind me and slipped back into my bed. I squeezed my eyes shut and grit my teeth. I hadn't noticed how attached I got to him. I had noticed that he meant a lot to me. But that I actually liked him so much that his rejection felt like the end of the world was still a little surprising. "At least my headache's not the worst thing now…" I muttered and suppressed a sob.
Don't shoot me, please.
I promise I'll solve this mess somehow. Somewhen...
Why do I get the feeling that this story will drag on until Silvester (if not longer)...?
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