Sorry for the late update, I guess...

I fell asleep on my sofa before I managed to even finished writing this.
I moved to a new place two weeks ago, and everything is still a mess and I need to do so many things...

Disclaimer: All Oda's

Enjoy!

The man with the scalpel leaned down. On his table, fixed with strong bonds lay a blond haired male, naked, except for his boxers and screamed. The doctor calmly cut into the other's flesh, drawing an artistic pattern and drawing blood. The victim turned his head, blue eyes fixing on me. "Killer!"

I woke with a start, covered in cold sweat. It was late morning and the same nightmare had just woken me for the tenth time today: Law, dressed up as a surgeon and with a mad grin on his face, cutting open my former best friend. I shook my head and got out of bed. Law was up before me, as usual, and the smell of coffee filled my flat.

After a short visit to the bathroom – the dark shadows under my eyes were worse than Law's – I joined my boyfriend in the kitchen. Absentmindedly I took the cup he held out for me, my thoughts still circling around my dreams. Killer…. I hadn't wasted a single thought on him for ages. But apparently watching horror movies provoked odd nightmares of my first love to appear out of nowhere. And of course there was the fact that I'd seen some long-haired blond boy around the city the day before yesterday. I hadn't even checked if it was Killer. It was unlikely that he would want to speak to me, even if it had been him. We hadn't spoken since I confessed my feelings for him. The episode seemed like something from another life, like something someone else had done.

"You ok..?" I looked at Law and shrugged. "Nightmares…" He smirked. "Yes I gathered that, after you woke me up three times with your shouting. Killer, really? Wouldn't have thought you're the type for nightmares after horror movies." I shook my head and considered my options. I could come up with a lie, Law didn't have to know about Killer. It was an old story, and a painful one.

The image of Silvers Rayleigh popped up in front of my inner eye and I thought better of it. There was a long-haired blond man on the loose in the city, a guy who could be my perfect opportunity to do something really stupid. And if the man I'd seen really was Killer, the likeliness of me doing something ridiculously idiotic was even higher than usual. Rayleigh would probably have my head for any stunt I could pull, though.

"Killer used to be my best friend." I murmured finally, not able to meet Law's eyes. "Is he the one you were telling me about on New Year?" I nodded. I really didn't want to think about this. Not about the hurt I had gone through when Killer just left me standing there; not the days after when I had desperately tried to contact him. Not the months to follow, when the whole school avoided me. Not Killer and his long blond hair and broad smile, always half hidden behind a scarf and long strands of blond. Not the moment he nearly crushed me in his embrace after we had won that stupid bet. Thinking about Killer made everything hurt, even after six months of being separated. Thinking about Killer made me doubt my relationship, myself and everyone around me.

I didn't want to think about another man when my boyfriend stood in front of me with. Closing my eyes I sighed. Then I felt Law's hand on my shoulder, silently asking me to look at him. I forced my eyes open and met his dark eyes. "It's ok, you know." I raised an eyebrow and made him smile. "We all have a past. It's ok if he's still important to you. As long as you stay with me..." Despite his soft words, I could see doubt in Law's eyes.

Carefully I placed my cup on the table and stood up, bringing my eyes level with his. Wrapping my arm around his waist I pulled him close. Once more I had to close my eyes, as I leaned my forehead against his. "I love you…" It was nothing but a whisper, but I was sure Law had heard me.

He cupped my face in his hands, pressing his nose against mine. Out breaths mingled and I could almost feel his lips on mine. Somehow I was glad he didn't kiss me in this moment. It felt like it would have ruined something, though I couldn't place what it was exactly.

I was lost in the moment, not willing to break the contact and at the same time unable to move forward. Time seemed to stop around us and I briefly wondered if we could stay like this forever. Of course we couldn't. The sound of my mobile kicked us out of our small world and back to reality. I placed a chaste kiss on his temple and grabbed for my phone.

Unknown Number… I furrowed my brows and opened the text. Quickly scrolling to the end of the message to check if there was any name, indicating who it came from. I nearly dropped my phone when I saw the signature. Hey Kid. I am sorry for what happened. Wanna meet on Friday and try and fix it? I miss my friend. Killer.

Law carefully picked the phone from my hands and read the text. He paled, making his usually dark skin look an unhealthy grey, and looked at me. I must have stared right through him and somehow he managed to wait patiently for my shock to pass.

"I didn't think he would keep my number…" I murmured finally, unable to really comprehend what had just happened. Law tried to take a step back but I held him tight. I knew if I let go now, we might lose each other in the storm that was approaching. "Don't leave me alone with this one." He nodded and leaned against me, head resting on my shoulder.

"Do you want to go?" His calm voice startled me. "Dunno… Maybe. If you would come along." "Hm…."

The kitchen fell silent, out breathing the only sound that could be heard. "If you don't want me to meet up with him, that's ok." It wasn't. Not really. The idea that he could try to keep me away from my friends was somehow terrifying and I had a pretty good idea of what I'd do should he ever do that to me. But Killer is a special case, a nasty little voice in the back of my head murmured.

It was true. Killer was different from any other friend I had. He used to be my best friend and was and still is my first love. Meeting him again could irreparably damage my relationship with Law. Not meeting him would make it even worse. "Will you come with me?" I willed my voice not to tremble, all the while staring at into space.

"As if I'd let you alone with him." Law sounded slightly grumpy and snuggled a little closer. I smiled, placing a soft kiss on his head.

This is a very tender chapter, and I like it because of that.
Having a relationship is never easy, and with ghosts of the pasts showing up suddenly, ir can become very dangerous...

The inspiration for the very still moment in the kitchen come from a fiction over at Animexx. It's called Diamonds and Rust. A Harry Potter fiction I quite like but never managed to finish reading. But the feeling of the scene is very similar and while writing it I was reminded of the beautiful piece of work.

Diamonds and Rust is in german, but if you understand the language and like Harry Potter, I'd advice to pay it a visit.

Reviews are always much appreciated!

I'm not quite sure when the next chapter will be up. Hopefully tonight, but maybe only tomorrow afternoon.
I will upload soon-ish though, don't worry.