Thanks for all who reviewed last chapter, love you guys! As my four year old would say, here's lotsa smoochies. She cracks me up. Some of you have voiced concern that Edward hasn't "freaked out" over Bella's past, mental state, drug overdose, etc. and at this point in the story I just want to say that they just got together. My Edward, isn't as tightly wound as some other writers make him out to be. He knows what happened with the overdose and just accepted it for what it was. Is he worried about the flashbacks and what happened to Bella in her past, of course he is, he'd be crazy not to be worried, but right now, two, three days into them being together he's just happy to actually have her for his own.
BPOV
"What are you doing here Alice? I thought I was perfectly clear when I said we were done." I spat at her. She was ruining my good mood and damn it I just wanted to bask in the happiness of Edward and I's date. He really is just so amazing and I never thought someone could make me so happy.
"We need to talk about this Bella."
"NO! We don't. I have nothing else to say to you so GET OUT!" I stomped into my room and slammed the door, hard. I went into my bathroom and get ready for bed, washing my face, brushing my teeth and changing into my pajamas. When I came out Alice was sitting on my bed and it made my blood boil. "What about Get Out did you not understand?"
"Come on Bella, talk to me. Jasper isn't talking to me anymore, Rose is pissed at me and only let me in because I begged and cried. Jacob and Paul even told me to get lost." She started crying then but I couldn't find it in myself to care. I didn't move towards her, just stood there glaring at her. What did she want me to say, "oh Alice, everything is going to be fine, you're forgiven." HA, not gonna happen. She managed to stop her blabbering probably realizing that her crying fit wasn't going to get anywhere with me, wiped her eyes and took a deep breath.
"I'm so sorry Bella. I should never have kept on talking to him once I figured out who he was. That was…wrong of me."
"YA THINK Alice? Look, I don't know what you want me to say here. I can't forgive you for what you did; I just….I can't Alice. You need to go." I sighed the last part at a loss of what else to say. I was still mad, but I was also sad about losing one of my best friends, but no matter how sad I was I still couldn't just let go of what she did.
"I know Bella, but can you please just listen to what I have to say then I'll leave. Please!" Alice pleaded her voice cracking as she did. I couldn't talk, afraid of either crying or yelling at the top of my lungs at her which I was sure would wake everyone in the building up, so I ended up just nodding. I could listen to what she had to say, not that I owed it to her or anything, but I wanted to hear what made her do what she did.
"Let me start by saying that I am truly sorry for what I did, I can't even tell you how sorry I am. When I figured it out I felt sick, I even threw up, but Bella, I knew he was it for me. When I met him at the airport it was like there was this pull, and I know you know what I'm talking about, because you've said you've felt the same way towards Edward. It's not something I can just turn off, even though I tried. I stopped calling him and texting him, but then he initiated contact again and no matter how hard I tried I couldn't ignore him anymore. The week that I we had no contact was the worst week of my life Bella."
"So what, you expect me to give you brownie points because you stopped talking to him for a week? What the hell Alice?" I screamed, not caring at this point if I woke the whole damn building up.
"NO, of course not! I just want you to understand where I was coming from." She said calmly.
"What I understand is that my best friend went after my boyfriend and didn't see anything wrong with carrying on a relationship with him while we were together. THAT is what I understand."
"I know. I know, I'm a horrible person, but you have to know where I was coming from. I felt connected to him and I couldn't stop thinking about him. Anytime I talked to you I could tell that you just weren't that into him and it made me mad. You went on and on about Edward and how no matter what you felt for him you could never act on it because you were so afraid of getting hurt, but you never once talked about Jasper or how great he was. It was infuriating, here you have this amazing man who tries and tries to make you love him and all you can think about is his best friend. Don't get me wrong Bella, I understand the pull to Edward, I do, but don't you think if you felt that strongly about him you should have cut Jas loose?"
"Oh, okay, so you're pinning all this bullshit on me and my insecurities, that's just fucking fantastic Alice. Why don't you take a good long look in the mirror and tell me what you see? I may not have been that into Jasper but I told you, plenty of times that I wanted to make it work with him. Sure I was scared, but Jasper is a good guy and he made me feel wanted and beautiful and he was good for me. As much as I agonized over Edward and how I felt about him I tried my hardest to make it work with Jasper, not knowing that you two had been "talking" over the last couple of months behind my back. And you know what really kills me here Alice? What really does me in is that if you had just talked to me about this when it first happened then I would have realized then that Jasper wasn't the one for me and that maybe you two were better suited for each other. I would have broken things off with him and things would have been so much easier, but now, we have this fucked up situation where my supposed best friend went behind my back and did God knows what with the guy I was with." I was crying now, not able to keep all the emotions I was feeling contained.
"Guys, it's late. I think you two need a break here. Mr. Morgan is banging on the walls because you two are so loud." I gave Rose a look basically telling her she was off her rocker if she thought I gave two shits about Mr. Morgan and his precious sleep. "Yeah, yeah, I know, but you two are talking in circles here. I think we all need some sleep and things will look better in the morning." Alice was crying on my desk chair, but at Rose's words she stopped. Realizing Rose was right I agreed to continue this conversation later. I just wanted to sleep, I was already pissed off that Alice had ruined my blissful state after my date with Edward, but I was hoping I could get back there if she'd just leave my room. "Ali, why don't you sleep on the couch and I'll make us all some breakfast in the morning and we can talk like rational adults. Okay?" Alice nodded, Rose turned her attention to me, already under the covers in my bed. "Okay?" I nodded too and switched off the light as they both left my room. I texted Tay to tell her to come over tomorrow morning for the big showdown and she replied almost immediately that she'd never miss a good whipping. That girl was seriously fucked in the head.
I fell asleep rather quickly much to my surprise, but my dreams were overrun with images of Alice and Edward doing things behind my back that would make Tanya cringe. Yeah, it was bad and I woke in a cold sweat and even angrier than I was last night. Great, I thought, this is not going to be a good day. I showered quickly and made my out to the living room. Rose was already in the kitchen and Tay had just let herself in. "Morning girls." She greeted us. I noticed Alice was nowhere in sight and I hoped she had taken the hint and just gone home. My hopes were squashed when she came out of the bathroom, steam billowing behind her. "Ally cat, how they hangin backstabber?" Tay yelled.
"Um, fine. Thanks. I'll…uh be back in a minute."
"So what the fuck is going on here? I came back from the store last night and heard yelling. To be honest at first I thought you and Eddie boy were going at it like you were in the hallway, but then I heard Alice's voice and figured you were either having some sort of angry threesome or the two of you were fighting." Tay popped a strawberry that Rose had just cut up in her mouth as she stared at me expectantly.
"What the fuck is wrong with you?" I asked, even though I knew full well what was wrong with her.
"What? Her hand was on another strawberry, but Rose slapped her hand away before she could take it.
"Tay, seriously, don't take another strawberry or you'll lose a finger." Rose scolded, I laughed, Rose was dangerous, God help you if she was wielding a knife.
"Alright, alright. I thought for sure getting some regular sausage stuffed in your pink taco would make you less, I don't know, tightly wound."
"You are so crass. Why am I friends with you again?" Rose asked, Tay was crass, but that's why we loved her.
"Because I'm hot! And hey, you've got quite the mouth yourself Rosie, don't act like what I says offends you." We all burst into laughter and then Alice walked into the kitchen.
"What's so funny?"
"Nothing." "Tanya was being funny." "I'm fucking hungry, lets eat." We all answered at the same time, take a wild guess at who said what. Alice frowned, she was going to have to get used to being out of the loop.
Breakfast was delicious, but awkward to say the least. Everyone just sat there and eyed each other. I don't think any of us were sure what to say so we didn't say anything. It was weird, we were never like this. Once everything was cleaned up we all went and sat in the living room. The silence continued for a few minutes until Tay spoke up. "Alright, this is ridiculous. Alice, what do you have to say for yourself?" Alice sighed, but all eyes turned to her.
"Look, I already apologized numerous times to Bella last night and…."
"Whoa. You think just because you apologized that's going to make everything better? Who are you kidding Ally? What you did was just despicable. If I were B I would kick your ass into next Wednesday."
"NO, I don't think an apology is going to make it better, but what else can I do here? It's not like I can take it back." Alice wailed.
"Okay, Alice I think that maybe you and Bella need to talk this out rationally. You were both getting too worked up last night and from what I heard you weren't getting anywhere. How about we start with why you kept talking to Jasper after you figured out he was Bella's boyfriend." Rose interjected; she was always the voice of reason.
"Like I told Bella last night I knew I was in the wrong continuing to talk to him after I found out, I even stopped all contact with him for a week, but he was relentless in trying to get me to respond to him and finally I had had enough, I was miserable and crying all the time and it physically hurt not to speak to him so I gave in. Ever since I saw him that day at the airport I have felt this inexplicable pull towards him, like we're two magnets being drawn together.
"When Bella told me last night that if I had talked to her about it she would have broken things off with him, to be honest the thought never even occurred to me. I knew she had a thing for Edward, it was obvious the way she talked about him and I don't know, I was angry for Jas because here he was dating her and all she talked about was Edward. Bella, you said you were trying with Jas, but if you were really giving your all to the relationship like you said you were he wouldn't have felt the need to find comfort in someone else. Be thankful it was me and not some other girl."
"Be thankful it was you? What exactly should I be thankful for Alice? It's not like you fucking TOLD ME like a friend should, it might as well have been a stranger! You know what; your holier-than-thou bullshit is really pissing me off. I told you last night that I wanted to make it work with Jasper, and I did, I tried and I thought everything was going well. Edward and I were just friends and nothing else until Jas went and broke things off with me for another girl. I knew that I was in the wrong by being with him and having these feelings for some other guy, I KNOW THAT and I felt awful about it, but I was scared and Jas was safe."
"IT WASN'T JUST SOME OTHER GUY BELLA; IT WAS JASPER'S BEST FRIEND FOR CHRISTS SAKE! How do you think that made him feel? He knew about your feelings for Edward and he still tried to be with you because he liked you so much and wanted things to work out. You have no idea how many times he sat on the phone with me practically in tears because the girl he was with didn't love him as much as he did her." Alice's face was red with anger and I felt like I just slapped in the face by her words.
"Whoa, whoa, whoa! Let me just interject here! I know for a fact that Jasper wasn't that invested in this thing with Bella, so don't be spouting off about how he loved her and shit Ali, because that's not the truth. They were both in this half heartedly. The fact of the matter is that you went after him knowing full well that he was with Bella." I looked at Rose like she had two heads, what the hell did she mean she knew for a fact that Jasper wasn't invested in what we had? Sensing my confusion she answered the unasked question swirling through my head. "Bella, Emmett said that Jasper told him that you two would always be friends, but he didn't see a long term future with you. He was well aware of how Edward felt about you and how you felt about him, so he knew it was only temporary between you guys. I'm sorry."
"When did he tell you this?" I asked, trying not to get mad because she hadn't said something sooner.
"Last night. We were on the phone having some hot phone sex before you two started fighting and he heard everything and then told me about what Jasper said."
"Oh my god Rose." I whined. I really didn't need to know what they were doing on the phone.
"What? He's gone and we both needed a release. There's nothing wrong with that, right Tay?"
"No way! Demetri and I do it all the time when we aren't with each other. It's hot!"
"Okay, I'll take your word for it." When I looked at Alice she seemed uncomfortable, I didn't want to know why. The thought of her and Jasper doing that made my blood boil. It would do me no good to actually hear that it happened. "So he wasn't as into our relationship as I originally thought he was, good to know."
"Alice, do you have anything else you'd like to say?" I asked, trying to bring us back on topic. I was pretty much done with this conversation though and wanted to retreat back to my room and write that song I had in my head back at the hospital.
"I just…I just wish that this never happened and I don't understand why Jas would tell me that he thought he loved you when he told Emmett that he didn't see you guys as long term. I just don't understand. And Bella, I really am so sorry that I didn't say anything to you before a couple of days ago. I should have told you, I know that, but I love him, so much I can hardly breathe when I'm not talking to him. We've only seen each other once since I've been here and now he's not talking to me and I feel like my heart is breaking."
"Well boo-fucking-hoo Alice! You keep saying you're sorry you didn't tell me, but sorry doesn't count for much when you broke my heart. Did it hurt when Jasper broke things off with me? Yes, it did, but it also made me examine what I was doing so I was grateful to him. I opened my eyes for the first time in a long time. But you, my best friend for how many years did this horrible thing and kept it going for two months without any regard of how I would feel. I thought I knew you but this just proves to me that I don't, so no, sorry doesn't cut it. I might be able to forgive you one day, but that day is not today." I got up, walking towards my bedroom, but stopped, not wanting to be rude to Rose or Tay. "I have to work on a song. I trust you two will see the home wrecker out?" Rose nodded her eyes big and mouth wide open. Tay hopped up off the chair and followed me.
"Bella! Please!" Alice sobbed as she watched my retreating form. I didn't wait for anything else to come out of her mouth; instead I stormed into my room and sat on my bed. Tanya was hot on my heels and shut the door, taking a seat next to me.
"It'll be alright B. I know it hurts now, but the pain will lessen with time. You'll forgive her, that's just who you are B." Tay rubbed my back, soothing me as I cried. She was right, I would forgive Alice eventually. The truth was that I never fully gave myself to my relationship with Jasper, like I told Edward; my heart was always with him, always. I suddenly felt the need to talk to Jasper and apologize for all the things I did wrong in our relationship.
"I need to talk to Jasper." I said mostly to myself. I was actually surprised when Tay answered me.
"No, what you need to do is work on that song that's been playing in your head then call that hot piece of man and have him ravage you. Oh and you might want to go to work since it is Tuesday and all."
"I suppose you're right. Thanks Tay, you always know the right things to say." I was grateful for her friendship now more than ever. She may be crass and hard to take sometimes, but she is an amazing friend.
"It's a gift, what can I say?" She snickered and kissed my temple. "Work on your song baby Bell, I'll talk to you later." Once the door was closed behind her I started working on the song. It was a long process, but I was happy with my progress when Rose knocked on my door and told me I needed to get ready for work at Eclipse. She didn't mention Alice for which I was thankful, I jumped in the shower and got myself ready. I did my hair, put on a bit of makeup, dressed in a pair of skinny jeans and a tank top and considered myself ready to go.
"Bella, oh my god, I'm so happy you're here. Are you okay? What the hell happened?" Angela ran over and hugged me like she hadn't seen me in ages when I walked into Eclipse.
"Hey Ang. I'm fine and I really don't want to get into what happened right now. I have so much to tell you, but I'm late as it is and this stuff isn't going to set up itself." She offered to help me in exchange for details on the last few days. I agreed, but kept out the messier bits.
"EDWARD CULLEN! You're dating Edward Cullen now? When did this happen?" She screamed, every head in the bar turned and looked at us, thankfully there weren't that many people here yet.
"Ang, could you keep it down? And yes, I'm dating him, he called me his girlfriend and it happened at the hospital. He's very sweet." I told her everything that happened since then and she gushed about how cute we were and she couldn't wait to see how he acted tonight. When I got to the part about Alice and her betrayal she was angry, but told me that sometimes love makes you crazy and you do things that you normally wouldn't do. I agreed, just look at me and Edward, but was that really an excuse to stab your best friend in the back?
"Welcome to Karaoke night at Eclipse. I hope you all are ready to have a great time this evening." I went on about how it all works and twenty minutes later we were well under way. I don't know if it was the rose colored glasses that I was currently donning because of Edward, but everyone seemed to be singing really well. Emmett sang "Suck my Kiss" by the Red Hot Chili Peppers and it was damn funny. Rose did exactly that after he got off stage.
EPOV
Emmett had just finished singing some classic Red Hot Chili Peppers and I have to say he did a good job. Rose thought so too, if her running up to him and sucking his face was any indication. I had yet to go up, but was looking forward to singing the song I picked for Bella. She seemed a little down today and I didn't like it. When I left her last night she was so happy so I had to question what the hell happened between then and now to make her look so distraught. When Rose and Em came in they were all over each other, Em had been out doing his thing in New York for the past few days and just got in this morning so they no doubt had some time to themselves this afternoon.
"Edward, you're up." Bella said into the mic, looking directly at me. The crowd cheered as I walked up to the stage, a few girls tried to grab me, but I just walked right past them and straight to my Bella.
"Hey baby, you okay?" She gave me a sad little nod and even though she was certainly not alright I let it go, I had a song to sing for my girl. "This is for you baby!" I looked right at Bella when I said it so everyone could hear. Bella bit down on her bottom lip and I had to suppress the groan that wanted to come out. She has no idea what that does to me.
The music started and I could see the beaming smile on Bella's face, she knew what song it was, since she was the one working, but I didn't know if she knew all the words to it.
I know you've suffered
But I don't want you to hide
It's cold and loveless
I won't let you be denied
Soothing
I'll make you feel pure
Trust me
You can be sure
I didn't bother looking at the crowd for the next part, it was all for my girl. I wanted more than anything for her to know that I was here for her no matter what.
I want to reconcile the violence in your heart
I want to recognize your beauty's not just a mask
I want to exorcise the demons from your past
I want to satisfy the undisclosed desires in your heart
You trick your lovers
That you're wicked and divine
You may be a sinner
But your innocence is mine
Her sly smile at that last part was the best part of my night. I was thrilled that I could make her smile when she was so obviously down. I know some bad shit went down with her in the past and as much as I wanted to erase it, all I could do was let her know that I would accept it and every part of her, she just needed to open up to me.
Please me
Show me how it's done
Tease me
You are the one
I want to reconcile the violence in your heart
I want to recognize your beauty's not just a mask
I want to exorcise the demons from your past
I want to satisfy the undisclosed desires in your heart
Please me
Show me how it's done
Trust me
You are the one
I want to reconcile the violence in your heart
I want to recognize your beauty's not just a mask
I want to exorcise the demons from your past
I want to satisfy the undisclosed desires in your heart
Everyone in the bar was on their feet clapping and whistling for me and I have to say that I didn't hate it, but none of it compared to having Bella run up to me and jump into my arms. She kissed every inch of my face saying "Thank you" over and over again until she reached my lips and gave me the best damn kiss of my life.
"I'm glad you liked it baby." I said once we had broken apart.
"Can we talk later?" She asked.
"Sure baby. Whenever you want." I kissed her forehead ready to let her go, okay maybe I wouldn't say I was ready to let her go, so she could get back to work.
"Tonight, at my place. Rose will be at Emmett's so we have the apartment to ourselves." She winked and smacked my ass as I was heading for the stairs.
"That sounds promising." Back at the table Rose and Emmett were all over each other. "Can you two get a room, you're making me nauseous."
"Fuck off Eddie!" Emmett managed to break away from Rose for all of two seconds to tell me off. Rose however didn't even bother, choosing to flip me the bird instead of speaking. These two were made for each other.
"Uh, hey. Can I talk to you guys for a second?" Jasper was suddenly standing in front of our table; looking past him I saw Bella and her eyes were wide as she noticed him. Jasper looked behind him but quickly looked back. The intrusion seemed to be the only thing that broke apart the two love birds. The three of us gave the others looks trying to gauge the others reaction. Personally I was still mad, but I guess it wouldn't hurt to talk to him; we've been friends for a long time.
"Sure, have a seat." Jasper sat down at the only available spot, next to me.
"I know you guys don't want me here after everything that went down, but I am so fucking miserable." I was about to say "good" but Rose gave me an angry glare as if she could read my mind, so I kept my mouth shut. He did look like shit, his eyes were bloodshot and puffy and his hair was a mess, almost like he just rolled out of bed and didn't bother brushing it, very unlike him. "I didn't know, about Alice. Edward you suggested that maybe Bella's best friend and the Alice I was getting close to were one and the same but I just couldn't believe it was possible, but then Alice told me that she was Bella's best friend and she knew after the second conversation we had that I was Bella's boyfriend and… FUCK! We got into this huge fight and I haven't talked to her since she left my apartment."
"Why did you tell Alice that you loved Bella?" Rose asked point blank. I hadn't heard this before and wondered if he had actually said that or if Alice was just trying to stir things up.
"What? No, I told her that I could have loved Bella, but things just didn't seem right, her head was somewhere else most of the time. I never said I actually loved her, it was far too soon for those kind of feelings anyway."
"It's not too soon if it's the right person Jas." We all looked up and saw Bella standing there fidgeting, she didn't look mad, more sad for him and I wondered what that was about.
"Bella, I know I've already said this a thousand times to you, but I'm so fucking sorry. I never should have kept on talking to Alice while we were together. Once I figured out I had feelings for her I should have ended us, it wasn't fair to you." Jasper looked like he was on the verge of crying, I had never seen him like this, ever. I had no idea this mess was essentially eating him alive. Rose, Emmett and I scooted over, Jasper followed and Bella sat down next to him. I poured him a glass of beer and he took it, giving me a barely audible "Thanks" then proceeded to down the entire glass in one gulp.
Bella was watching me over Jasper's head, I smiled at her. She was worried about Jasper, that much was clear by the look on her beautiful face. My phone, sitting in my pocket was vibrating, indicating I either had a call or a text message, I pulled it out and there was a message from Bella. It said. "We need to tell him about what we did while he and I were together." I responded immediately with "Now's not the time." Her response came a second later. "Agreed, but we do need to tell him. He isn't the only one who did something wrong here.". I typed out a quick response and sent it to her. By now Emmett and Rose had noticed our conversation. "I know baby. We'll tell him. You mean everything to me." The smile on Bella's face as she read my text could have lit an entire city block, she was absolutely beautiful.
"Jasper, I know that you're sorry for what happened, but I wanted to come over here to say that…I've forgiven you." Every one of our heads snapped up and stared at Bella, certain we were hearing things. "We've all done things that we aren't proud of and as much as it hurt that you were talking to Alice for two months behind my back and forming a relationship with her I don't honestly believe that you knew it was her. I wasn't the best of girlfriends, I know that and I'm sorry too." She gave him a hug, leaned over and kissed me then hopped up out of the seat. The current song was almost over and she had to get back to work. "Just talk to Alice, I know she's miserable without you too." Then she was gone, back up to her place on the stage to introduce the next singer. She's the best person I know, hands down.
"Holy shit. She just forgave me. That girl is fucking amazing." Jasper shook his head in disbelief at what just happened. To be honest I didn't think she was going to forgive him that quickly, but thinking more about it, she's right, we kissed while they were together and that's pretty bad.
"That's Bella. She never holds a grudge." Rose stated.
"I'm gonna go. Thanks for talking to me you guys. I'll see ya."
"See ya." We all said as he got up to go.
"Well that was strange. I didn't think Jasper was going to come here and then to have Bella just up and forgive him, it's just so fucking surreal. That girl is really something else Edward." Emmett drank the rest of the beer in his mug and poured himself some more. I could tell that he was just as impressed by Bella and her big heart as I was. As Jasper so eloquently put it, "the girl is fucking amazing."
"I know. I'm one lucky bastard." I mused.
BPOV
Seeing Jasper here caused some conflicting emotions. I was hoping to talk to him about things, but I was also a bit angry that he was here so soon after everything that had taken place. What shocked me more than anything was that Edward and Rosalie actually let him sit with them and talked like adults. I decided to act like a grown up too and sit down with everyone while the latest singer butchered the Beatles. Much to the surprise of everyone, judging by their facial expressions, I let Jasper off the hook. I told him I forgave him and advised him to talk to Alice, he looked like hell and I just figured it had to do with him and Alice not talking. The song ended and it was back to work, I only had a couple of requests left, which meant that soon it was going to be my turn again. I had to think of something great to sing. I saw Jasper leave and when he was almost at the door he turned and gave me a small wave, I returned the gesture and introduced the next singer.
I decided to lighten up the mood in this place and sung "Alcohol" by Bare Naked Ladies, the whole crowd was up off their seats dancing and singing along with me. It was funny as hell to see all these drunken people getting into the song. It did exactly what I wanted it to after the last few singers did these somber songs, the mood was just depressing in this place. When I got back to my post there was a huge stack of requests and it made me smile despite the crazy things that have happened in the last few days. Was it really only six days ago that Jasper and I broke things off? Yes it was, to top that off it was only three days ago that Edward and I decided to give us a try, making the day one of my happiest, but all that was smothered the very next day when Alice broke my heart. It doesn't seem possible that all this has happened in that short amount of time, but it has.
Edward walked me to my car, helping me put all the equipment in the trunk, gave me a searing, sensual kiss and told me he'd meet me at my place in half an hour.
Back at the apartment Tay was waiting for me by the door, anxious to hear how things went tonight. I told her about Jasper coming and me forgiving him and she said she was proud of me. "I know that forgiving Alice is going to take a lot longer, but you're such a good person B, you could never stay mad at her anyway. Don't give me that look; you and I both know it's true." She had said. The knock on the door was her signal to leave, when she opened the door there stood Edward looking just as delicious as ever. "Be good to her lover boy or I'll rip your balls off." Tay had put the fear in Edward's eyes as she left and I had to laugh at the look on his face. Who knew a grown man would be scared shitless by a girl.
"Don't take this the wrong way, but that woman terrifies the shit outta me." I grabbed him, pulling him into me.
"You poor baby. Did the mean scary 5'10, one hundred fifteen pound woman scare you?" I was making fun of him, Tay couldn't hurt a fly, in fact she screams like, well a little girl, anytime she sees even the smallest of spiders.
"Don't make fun, she's scary. I think my balls just retreated back into my body." I laughed, I couldn't help it.
"Oh pshh, she's harmless. I'll protect you, don't worry baby." I nuzzled up to his back, taking a breath and smelling his wonderful musky smell. "You smell good." He hmmed but didn't say anything further, he did however expose more of his neck so I could get better access and damn it I took it. My lips pressed into his pulse point and in return his grip on my hips tightened, it hurt, but in a good way. My nose ran up his neck, my tongue following along the path, occasionally sucking at certain spots. I trailed a path from his neck to his jaw, then to his chin. I stopped there, wanting nothing more than his kisses. We kissed in the doorway just for a few minutes, not deepening it any further than slight touches of our tongues.
"Didn't you want to talk about something love?" He asked when we broke apart.
"Did I? I can't remember." There were things that needed to be talked about, mostly the situation with Jasper, but right now I was just enjoying being in our little bubble.
"I am fairly certain it had something to do with telling Jasper about us, but I could be wrong." My bottom lip jutted out, much like his did at the hospital a few days ago, I'm sure he pulled it off better though. "Hey, don't pout, that's entirely unfair."
"I know, but I wanted to keep kissing you and ignore our problems for right now." I was whining like a petulant child, hoping it would work in delaying him.
"If we get this discussion over with now then we can have the whole rest of the evening to ourselves without this hanging over our heads." Why did he have to make sense? It's just not fair.
"When you put it that way…" I hugged him tighter to me trying to delay the inevitable, but I gave up quickly realizing that it was better to get it over with so we could get back to our bubble. "Fine, if we must." I was whining again, Edward was going to start thinking he was dating a toddler if I didn't cut it out.
"Let's go sit down. How about some wine?" In the kitchen I got out a bottle of red and two glasses. Edward was already sitting on the sofa when I walked into the living room. He took the bottle from me as I sat next to him and deftly opened the bottle before pouring us each a glass. "So about telling Jasper…I think I should do it..alone."
"What? No! I think I should be the one to tell him. I was dating him after all. If you tell him then he might hit you." I think my voice went two octaves higher than what a dolphin could hear at that point, but there was no way I was letting him tell Jasper about us without me there, in fact if I had my way I'd be the one telling him without Edward around at all.
"And I'm his best friend, and so what if he hits me, I could just hit him back for what he did to you. Besides Jasper hits like a girl."
"Okay, let's compromise." His quirked eyebrow was indication enough for me to continue with my proposed plan. "We go and tell him together. I can't let you go and do this alone; it's just as much my responsibility as it is yours." More mine, but no way I was saying that.
"I think I can handle that." He took a long draw of his wine, and then placed the glass back on the table. "That went better than I expected."
"What did?"
"Our first fight."
I laughed, almost spitting out the sip of wine I had just taken. Fight, he thought that was a fight? "That wasn't a fight babe."
"It wasn't? I thought…ah damn. I was hoping to get the first fight out of the way so we could have some of that make-up sex I've heard so much about." This time I did spit out the wine. I think from now on I just won't drink anything if he's talking. Good plan!
"We haven't even had sex yet, how can there be make-up sex?"
"I don't know. I thought maybe you'd find me irresistible if I conceded to something you wanted, well admitting I'm wrong is supposed to be a turn on too."
"Who the hell have you been talking to?"
"Emmett."
"Figures. I said with a huff. Stupid Emmett putting these ridiculous notions in my man's head. I was going to have to have a talk with Rosalie. "When do we tell him?"
"Well, my next day off is Saturday, is that okay?"
"That's fine." Relieved I took another sip of wine, watching him out of the corner of my eye, he'll probably say something funny then wine will go flying, so I needed to watch him. "Can we get back to the kissing now?"
"Impatient are we?" Unable to decide whether his cocky smirk was sexy or irritating I jumped him, literally. Somehow I managed to find myself in a very familiar position, straddling his lap. "You're killing me Bella."
"Good." It was just a whisper before my mouth resumed its attack on him. "Someone has to wipe that cocky smirk of your beautiful face." Kissing along his neck again I could feel myself getting wetter between my legs, I started grinding on him needing some sort of friction to get some relief.
"Holy….what are you doing to me woman?" The feel of his erection growing harder and harder under me made me grind harder, faster, I could feel the stirring of my orgasm starting in my abdomen. "Oh God, so good baby. Don't stop."
"Never." I whispered, then immediately went back to kissing him. His tongue probed my mouth and I could taste the sweetness of the wine on his tongue as he caressed mine with soft circular motions. It was divine. Our grinding grew more intense, our breathing becoming more and more erratic as we both drew closer to the edge. Edward thrust himself into me and the second time his cock hit my clit I came, loudly. After a few more thrusts, while I rode out my orgasm, Edward came too in a loud almost roar, I've never heard a sexier sound in my life, I was on the verge of begging him to be inside me, but I held back.
"Fuck Bella. That was…there are no words for what that was." I agreed, there were no words, so instead of saying anything all that I could reasonably get out was an mmmmm. I sounded like a moron, Edward and his cock literally thrust my ability to talk coherently right out of me. I started laughing, giggling really, the man was talented and he hasn't even been inside of me yet my brain will no doubt be a puddle of goo when we finally do have sex. "What are you laughing at beautiful girl?"
The question just made me break into a full on laugh. I was shaking and gasping for breath, Edward groaned and it made me laugh harder, which I didn't think was possible, and then he started tickling me.
"Stop laughing."
"St…op tick…..hahahahaha…ling me." Before I could blink he had my flipped over so I was on my back and he was hovering on top of me. Thankfully his fingers had stopped their torture on me so I was able to at least attempt to settle myself down.
"Now, what was so damn funny?"
"I don't know. I just started giggling because I didn't know what to say after you said there were no words for what we just did except for mmm, it was like your penis turned me into an idiot. When you asked what I was laughing at I couldn't hold it in anymore, not that I was doing a very good job of it in the first place, but you know what I mean. Don't you ever just get the giggles?"
"Being the manly guy that I am I am going to have to say no, I have never gotten the giggles. By the way, I think you're adorable and I like turning you incoherent." He leaned down, our noses touching, he leaned in a little more until our lips were pressed against each other. His eyes stayed open as he placed one, two, three chaste kisses on my lips. "Mmm, you taste so good."
"You do too." I kissed him again, just to get another taste.
"As much as I don't want to bring us down, I'm dying to know what happened last night to put you in such a bad mood tonight."
"UGH! Do we have to talk about that right now?" I was in such a good mood after such a crappy day, well past 24 hours if you think about when the crappiness truly started.
"Please?" He gave me that damn pout then added a little eyelash batting at me. Damn him and his sexy persuasion.
"Fine! Just so you know, that's not fair."
"What's not fair baby?" Oh he knew what he was doing; he was just playing dumb now.
"You know perfectly well what you were doing. I'll let it go for now, but you can't pull out the sexiness anytime you want to get your way. It just isn't right." Edward's face lit up like a god damned Christmas tree, smug bastard. "Stop with the smiling."
"I like it when I win, what can I say?" With a little wink he composed his face and I told him all about what happened with Alice last night and this morning. "What the fuck? That woman has a lot of nerve."
"I know. It's like I don't even know her anymore. I called her a home wrecker when I was walking into my room." Despite everything that happened I felt awful for what I said to her, her sobs that followed me were etched in my memory. Big picture, she was right, I didn't give everything I had to that relationship, doesn't mean I forgive her, far from it, but I could at least look at how I was partly at fault for my relationship's demise.
"Baby, don't cry, okay? I know this hurts, but we will get through it. Tanya's right though, you will forgive her eventually just like you did with Jasper tonight. You, Bella Swan are the most amazing person I have ever met." He kissed me, hard and passionately, which only solidified his words. Eventually he had to go home, having to work early in the morning; I went straight to bed, feeling the drain from the past 24 hours finally catching up with me.
I'm going to go hide now. I'm not sure if it was the showdown you were all expecting, but it's what was planned. Just a little further into the characters, Bella is the type of person that doesn't hold a grudge, especially not with one of her best friends, that's just now how she is. That was reiterated numerous times by both Tanya and Rose throughout this chapter. How long she holds onto this anger towards Alice we'll just have to wait and see.
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