Wow, long time no see, right? It seems I finally got my writing groove back, hopefully it stays, and I've missed this little creative outlet. I won't keep you here long, I just want to thank everyone for sticking with me even though it's been forever since I updated. I feel like I say this a lot, which I probably do.
Anyway, here's the newest chapter….enjoy and tell me what you think at the end.
The past month has been..well, it's been insane. I've been working some crazy hours, helping my dad out at the hospital because a couple of doctors up and quit on him without notice, being the dutiful son that I am I threw myself into the lion's den to help pick up the slack where I could. Thankfully he has been interviewing replacements nonstop for the past couple of weeks and he's narrowed down his choices, so the torture should end fairly soon.
Bella's been busy too, doing her regular work at the bar as well as her normal lessons over at Peter's store. To add to all of that she's been recording at the studio that Bryan found. I am so proud of her, but I also miss her like crazy. Sure we spend every night together, whether it is at her place or mine, but that's all we have. Don't get me wrong having her in my arms every night is amazing, but I miss having deep conversations with her while we eat a meal together or hell just sitting on the couch watching The Big Bang Theory or one of the many other shows we enjoy together. I know this won't last forever, the being apart all the time, but it doesn't make things any easier right now.
On the plus side she's been so unbelievably happy lately; nothing seems to get her down not even the situation with Alice. I really wish something would happen with that, either forgive her or stop being so angry at her, she doesn't need that kind of stress.
I'm working on some patient notes in my office, which honestly I've been doing a lot of lately when I'm not at the hospital or seeing my own patients, it's been getting backed up, but tonight it looks like I will be all caught up and will have to find something else to keep me occupied while Bella's working. I've tried to convince her to let me pay her a visit while she's at the studio, but she's adamant about me not hearing something new that she's been working on until its "perfect".
My phone starts ringing just as I put the final note on my last file.
"Dr. Cullen."
"Well hello there sexy." A smile instantly lights up my face with the sound of her sultry voice.
"Hello to you too my tempting songstress."
"Where are you baby? I thought you were coming over tonight?" I look at the clock and I see that it's an hour past the time I said I was going to meet Bella at her place.
"Sorry Bella. I just finished up the notes on my last patient file. Time slipped away from me. I'm going to lock up here and be right over. Do you want me to pick up some dinner?" It's the least I could do for keeping her waiting for an hour.
"That sounds great, how about that little Italian place across the street from your office? I've been craving that mushroom risotto like you wouldn't believe." I laughed and readily agreed to pick it up.
"I'll see you in a few baby." She told me she loved me before we hung up and I said the same. I would never ever tire of hearing those words coming out of her mouth.
After calling in the order I cleaned my desk then locked up the office. I drove over to the restaurant and parked in the handy to-go parking spot they designated. Once in the restaurant I waited for the hostess to come back to her station. She was about Bella's age, with big fake breasts, bleached blond hair and clearly veneers on her teeth. She was also wearing so much mascara that it looked like she had live spiders crawling on her eyes, I attempted not to shudder but I could feel the chill running up my spine, I just hope she didn't notice.
"How can I help you sir?" She asked breathily. I'm sure she was trying to sound sexy but I it just came off like she was constipated. What? I'm a doctor; I know what that sounds like.
"I have an order for pick up under the name Cullen." The girl was staring at my crotch not paying any damn attention to what I had just said so I cleared my throat, you'd think that she'd be embarrassed for being caught staring, but no; the girl just smirked at me. "Pick up for Cullen, please."
"Yes sir." The girl sauntered off swaying her hips but I couldn't be bothered to pay her any attention because Bella had just texted me. Her words would always be more important than some slutty girl trying to flaunt her fake shit at me.
I miss you, please hurry home to me – B The text read.
Just picking up dinner now, will be with you very shortly baby – E
Mmmm, good I'm starving…and not just for risotto – B
Where was that fucking hostess? I had a hot girl to get to. I was just about to type a reply to my girl when the skank came back with my order.
"Here you are sir. That'll be $35.20, but I'd be happy to just give it to you." Again she was staring at my crouch licking her lips. Gross.
"I think I'll just pay for it, I don't think my girlfriend would appreciate you giving it to me."
She leaned over so I would hear her softly spoken words, but I really wish I hadn't. "She doesn't need to know how well I can suck your cock." That was it; I had had it with this woman.
"While that may be true I wouldn't be able to get it up for you to suck me off because I find you absolutely repulsive. Now if you'll excuse me I have an extremely sexy woman waiting at home for me that has no issue getting me hard with just a look." The girl, whose name I didn't even bother getting got bright red and she actually stomped her foot like a toddler. If I weren't afraid of this girl punching me I would have laughed my ass off at her.
"HOW DARE YOU!" She screamed, well more like screeched. Everyone in the restaurant was looking at us. "I will have you know that I am VERY good, you don't know what you're missing asshole."
"Is there a problem here?" A short balding man approached us, judging by the look on the skanks face I would say this was the manager.
"Why yes there is Mr.?"
"Moonfield, I'm the manager here."
I nodded in understanding. "Well Mr. Moonfield, I was just picking up a to go order and your hostess here propositioned me and when I kindly told her no thank you and that I had a girlfriend she did it again. I figured I needed to get my message across and she started screaming at me. Now I don't know what kind of hiring process you go through here, but I think you need to be a little more stringent on whom you hire." Mr. Moonfield was starting to look as red as the hostess was a second ago, he turned his angry gaze on the slut in question and I took that as my cue to leave. "I need to go, my girlfriend is waiting. Have a nice evening."
"Yes sir. You have a nice evening as well and to apologize for Maria's outrageous behavior please consider your next meal on the house. I'm here most nights except for Wednesdays and Thursdays so ask for me next time you come in. Maria here will also not be working here any longer so please do come back, we appreciate your patronage sir." He shakes my hand and I just leave without another word, I've said my peace and I needed to get home to Bella.
The drive to her apartment was short and she let me up as soon as I rang her. When I got up to her apartment the door was wide open, I'm sure she opened it when I called her from downstairs, but I didn't like her just leaving her door open. "Bella?" I called out into the empty open space.
"In the bathroom, I'll be right out." I made quick work of plating our dinners as I waited for Bella. I didn't have to wait long, she came out of the hallway and my jaw dropped to the floor. She was my wet dream come to life right here in this little apartment. "Hey baby. Smells good." I didn't say anything, hell I couldn't say anything. She was dressed in this absolutely sinful navy blue teddy. The part covering her breasts left absolutely nothing to the imagination and the part covering her stomach was sheer with a little lace covering the bottom. I could see the hint of lace panties in the same color underneath it all. I think I may have been drooling a little bit. "What's the matter?" Bella asks innocently.
"What. Are. You. Wearing?" My eyes hungrily appraised every inch of her body.
"What this old thing?" She asked me, her voice teasing, she knew exactly what she was doing to me. "Seems you have a little problem there Mr. Cullen." I growled in response. Little, HA, there's nothing little about me. "Did I offend you baby? You know I don't think you're little." Bella's sweet hand was on my crotch, groping my dick relentlessly through my pants. My head fell back while she worked me over, but sooner than I would have liked her hand disappeared and the heat of her body so close to mine was gone. When I opened my eyes she was getting our plates ready for dinner.
"What do you think you're doing?" I asked in mock indignation. Did she really think I was just going to let her grope me, making me hard as a fucking rock and then just stop? Not likely.
"Um, getting dinner. I'm starving Edward."
"The food can wait, I however, cannot."
"Consider it foreplay. No touching until after I have food in my stomach, I haven't eaten all day." I huffed, knowing I hadn't won this one.
"Fine, but after dinner you are mine." She smiled and took our plates to the table. I followed with a bottle of wine and two glasses.
Once seated I couldn't keep my eyes off of Bella's chest in that thing, I mean it was see through for crying out loud and her nipples were hard, just waiting for my mouth. I vaguely heard her saying something but I was entranced and couldn't hear a damn thing.
"…and then I said, sure I could do a threesome with you and Brad. I'm sure my boyfriend would have no trouble sharing me." Threesome? What?
"Uh, WHAT? Who exactly are you having a threesome with?" I asked her.
"Oh so that got your attention I see. You haven't heard a word I've said since we sat down." Bella was a little mad, I could tell by the sound of her voice but honestly how did the woman expect me to concentrate long enough to have a discussion when her breasts were hanging out begging me for attention. I dare any guy to try and talk when you've got that to look at.
"What did you expect to happen when you came traipsing out here dressed, or should I say not dressed in that?"
"Fine, you win that one. I'll go get my robe, and then will you talk to me?" I did not liking the idea of a robe covering her up but it seemed like she was actually serious about talking so I nodded in agreement. I had to wonder though why she would put that teddy on if she wanted to have a serious discussion, could she not see that it would be a problem for me to see straight much less form a coherent thought. When she came back she had a robe already on and her hair up in a messy bun, it didn't really help my situation. All I could think about was unwrapping my present. Damn it I needed to focus on something other than sex. My grandma in her underwear, Emmett's naked hairy ass, Jacob and Paul getting it on….yep all done. "Better?" Bella giggled.
"Yes. Now what did you want to talk about?" Dinner was actually really good now that I was distracted.
"Well I was talking to Tanya, Rose and Alice this afternoon and decided that I wanted to throw a dinner party, but my place isn't big enough."
"Whoa. Back it up, you actually talked to Alice?" This pleased me and shocked me at the same time. Those two really needed to work their shit out, they are as close as sisters and I know Bella really missed Alice but last time I talked to her about it she practically bit my head right off for even mentioning her name.
"Yes, I thought about what you said the other day and decided you were right. She is like a sister to me and I should just forgive her for what happened, I mean I forgave Jasper and he actually cheated on me. I don't know I guess I just realized how immature I was being." I can't see her face because she's looking at her hands which she's currently checking her nails or whatever it is that girls do, but the tone of her voice, it's just sad and resigned. I can't tell if this is actually something she wanted to do or did because everyone told her to do.
"Bella? Look at me baby, please?" When she finally lifts her head her eyes are glassy like she's about to cry. "Oh baby." I'm out of me seat kneeling next to her, rubbing her thigh to comfort her. "Did…did you? Shit." My hand automatically goes to the back of my neck like it does when I'm frustrated, how the hell do I ask her this without pissing her off? Her big brown eyes are looking right into my green ones, urging me to continue. It's in those brown eyes that I see that anything I say to her right now will likely upset her, but she'll forgive me. "Baby, did you forgive Alice because you wanted to or because everyone else wanted you too?"
"Honestly?" she asks, I nod because, yeah I want her to be honest. "I did it for you and me, nobody else. I know what you're going to say and I didn't do it to make you feel better, I just…I really thought about it after we talked and I know it hurts you to see me so angry with her and I'd do anything to take that pain away from you."
"Bella…"
"No, Edward, let me finish. I have so much going for me right now, so much to be happy about and I don't want what happened with Alice and Jasper to put a dark cloud over that. The fact of the matter is I've missed Alice, missed our friendship and whenever something amazing happens the first thing I automatically want to do is call Alice to tell her but I can't and that makes me sad. I don't know that we'll ever be the same as we were before all this happened, but we can build something new and I'm willing to do that." Bella takes a deep breath and I have to say it seems to help. She looks a lot better already. "Now, about that dinner party, I was hoping that since your place is so much bigger than mine…"
"What's mine is yours baby. Of course we can have the dinner party at my place."
"Thank you." Her beautiful blush colored her cheeks.
"No need to thank me beautiful." We continued eating dinner until we were both stuffed, then worked on the dishes, which thankfully was minimal since we got take-out and sat on the couch. Bella was practically in my lap, leaning into me, her head on my chest and my arm wrapped snuggly around her. It had gotten chilly so I grabbed the blanket from behind me and covered us up. We decided to watch a movie on TV but before I knew it I was waking up to bright sunlight streaming through the curtains in her living room. We had managed to lie down on the couch, which is good considering I don't think sleeping upright would have done anything good for my neck or back. The sun didn't seem to be too bright so I figured it was early enough that I could just hold Bella for a little bit longer before having to get up and go to work.
BPOV
I woke up to heavy limbs and wondered what was going on until I actually opened my eyes and there was my insanely hot boyfriend looking at me with such love I thought my heart was going to beat out of my chest. I had every intention last night of mauling him after dinner, but I guess all the work at the studio along with my normal responsibilities was really taking it out of me. "Morning."
Instead of responding with words he kissed me and not just any kind of kiss mind you, it's the deep passionate, definitely leading to other things kind of kiss. The kind of kiss that we really shouldn't be doing before brushing our teeth, but oddly right now I couldn't seem to give a damn, he didn't either if the moan and the hardening on my thigh were any indication. I was just about to relieve him of his pants when his cell phone rang.
"Dammit!" He reached over to grab his phone looking at the caller id; his other hand was still firmly placed on my boob. "Shit, it's my dad; I need to take this baby." I pouted but didn't say anything; it was all part of his job. "Hey dad, what's going on? Okay, can't Martin cover? Well where the hell is he? That lousy son of a… Just when I was about to get laid." I giggled at this one because he muttered it under his breath. "What? Nothing, alright, alright I'll be there in an hour. Yes that's the best I can do, I'm at Bella's and we just woke up. Okay see you in an hour then. Bye dad." When he hung up he threw his phone on the table next to us and resumed his assault on my boob, he was still hard as rock and grinding deliciously into my leg.
"Edward? Don't you have to go?" I asked sadly. I didn't really want him to go but he obviously had something he needed to do at the hospital. He started removing my clothing instead of answering me.
"I need to get you out of these clothes, fuck you, take a shower with you, fuck you again and then I'll go to the fucking hospital. Fucking Martin." His lips descended on my pert nipple now that it was free from my nightie making me moan like a porn star. "Mmm, you taste so good baby." My robe along with my barely there nightie soon found their way to the floor along with my panties while Edward played my body like an instrument. I was writhing and moaning as he worked me over and he hadn't even touched my pussy yet.
"More." I managed to get out.
Edward slammed his fingers into my soaking wet core working me over until I was right on the edge but then pulled away completely. I whimpered, my eyes squeezed shut, when I opened them to see where he'd gone he was standing before me completely naked, his beautiful hard cock calling to me so I sat up and took him all the way to the back of my throat. I sucked and licked him, swirling my tongue around the head at every pass. Now it was his turn to moan like a porn star. I could tell from his cries of pleasure that he was close and I also knew that he wouldn't want to cum in my mouth so I reluctantly took him out, my teeth gently scraping the skin as I went and laid back, legs spread wide. If it had been anyone else I would have felt self conscious about the way I was displaying myself like a hussy, but with the look of pure desire, lust and love coming from my boyfriend I just felt sexy. "I need you Edward. Please." He was over me and slamming into me almost immediately. God he felt so good.
"Bella, I'm close baby." He pinched my clit pushing me over the edge, his own release following right after mine. I was spent and sated; my limbs like wet spaghetti noodles with Edward sprawled on top of me. I knew it would only be a matter of time before he got up, not wanting to squash me so I enjoyed his weight on top of me while I could. "I don't know how, but it just gets better every time with you Bella."
"I know. I love you." I kissed him then, sweet and slow, I could feel him stirring again. I knew my man had some stamina, but holy hell he just had a rather intense orgasm, shouldn't he need time to recover?
"Let's shower; I need you again before I have to work." I giggled but followed him into the shower where we washed each other and made love against the cold tile wall.
Edward left all too soon after he had dressed, I missed him the second he had his hand on the doorknob. I had no idea that love could feel like this, it would be frightening if I wasn't completely sure that he's the one I want to spend the rest of my life with, it's fast yes, but when you know you know, right? My phone chirping brings me from my thoughts and I smiled when I see it's from Edward.
Miss you already baby. :* - E
I was just thinking about you and I miss you too. Love you so very much. – B
It was about time for me to get going, I had studio time to get to and my hair was a mess since I didn't have time to do anything with it after our shower, not that I'm complaining mind you.
And what exactly were you thinking about me? Was it dirty? ;) – E
Not in the least actually. – B
Well why not? Am I not sexy enough for you? - E
This made me giggle, yeah right like he's not sexy enough for any woman. I was just in the middle of replying to him when my phone chirped again.
And don't think I didn't notice that you didn't answer my question. – E
Dammit. I was really hoping he wouldn't notice. I wasn't quite ready to share exactly what I was thinking before he texted, thoughts of marriage would certainly scare him away at this stage in our relationship.
You know you're sexy as hell, I don't think I could handle any more sexiness. – B
I know, I still didn't answer his question, I know he's just going to keep pestering me so I fire off another quick text tell him that I have to go into the studio, to which he replies with a sad face. He's too cute.
The studio is bustling with people, but I spot Bryan right away, he's kind of hard to miss in the bright pink shirt he's sporting today.
"The wife bought it for me, don't give me that look Swan." I can't help but burst out into laughter. We had gotten to know each other pretty well over the past couple of months, so well that he's more like a brother to me then my "boss".
"I didn't even say anything."
"I know that look; you don't need to say anything." He walks over to the soundboard adjusting a few things here and there, looks at me then back inside the studio. I take that as my cue to get started. It was going to be a crazy day. I am at the end of my third take on the very first song, the one I wrote for Edward when Bryan cuts me off…again. I'm starting to get aggravated. "Bella, come on out, I have someone for you to meet." This confuses me seeing as I thought I had met everyone from the record company that I needed to. When I finally make it through to Bryan I stop dead in my tracks at who is standing next to him.
"Hey Bella, Bryan has told me a lot about you and after listening to you for the past hour I have to say I'm impressed." His hand was held out waiting for mine but all I could do was stare, I'm sure I looked like some crazed fan girl about to attack him, but I just couldn't move. I was literally looking at one of my all time favorite artists and he was talking to me, me Bella Swan. The sound of a throat clearing next to me pulled me from my awestruck daze.
"Sorry, hi. It's really nice to meet you. I'm a huge fan." I finally said, although I think I more like squeaked it. Rose and Alice are going to be beyond jealous when they hear about this.
"Why thank you Bella, I always love meeting fans and can I just say that I am now a huge fan of yours as well?" I blushed, obviously, I mean Adam freaking Levine was shaking my hand telling me he was a fan of mine. How awesome is that? Did I forget to mention that I was talking to Adam Levine? I think I may have died and gone to heaven.
"Thank you, that means a lot coming from you. So what brings you by? I'm not taking up your studio time am I?"
"No, no, not at all. Bryan actually asked me to come by because the band has been having a little problem and he thought you might be able to help us out." This just confused me, how was I going to help one of the most popular bands on the planet?
"Um, sure. I don't know what I could possibly help you with, but I'd be happy to try. What's the problem?" Adam and Bryan just looked at each other with big smiles on their faces. It made me a little nervous, they had cooked something up, I could just tell.
"Well, Bella, it seems that Adam here would like it if you opened for them on their upcoming tour." I felt my jaw hit the floor, no really, HIT. THE. FLOOR.
"Wh-what?" I stuttered, probably for the first time in my life. I was in shock, or maybe I was dreaming, this is completely something my brain would cook up while I was sleeping. I pinched myself, you know just to see and that shit hurt. "Ouch." Bryan burst into loud guffaws, already used to me, but Adam looked at me like I'd lost my mind. "Sorry, had to make sure I was actually awake." Adam laughed lightly, while Bryan was still being obnoxious.
"I actually had the band listen in on speaker phone and they all agree. We'd love it if you would open for us on tour Bella. It'll be only for three months to start. What do ya say?"
"Can I think about it?"
"Sure, but please don't make me wait too long, I'm not a very patient man." Bryan chuckled at this but didn't refute it so I told them I would get back to them by tomorrow. I needed to talk to Edward first.
Adam left, but not before asking me if I'd be interested in doing a duet with him, which of course I agreed to without any reservation at all, and I got back to work. We nailed down two songs before we had to go. I was on cloud nine all the way back to my apartment. Jacob and Paul followed me into the apartment with two huge pizzas and a case of beer.
"Are we having a party and I wasn't told?" I asked, not that this wasn't normal for them but I really just needed to talk to Edward.
"No, we have something to tell you Bells." Jake said as he put the pizzas down and the beer in the fridge.
"Oh yeah, what's that?" Paul was taking out the plates serving up the pizza; their plates were of course piled high while mine only had one piece.
"Let's sit down on the couch. Jake, grab a few beers, will ya?" Paul suggested. Jake yelled out a sure as we made our way into the living room. I started in on my slice since I was starving and waited patiently for them to spill the beans. Jake brought over the beers and sat next to Paul.
"We're moving baby girl." Jake just blurted out. I could tell he was excited and could hardly contain himself.
"That's great guys, where are you moving to?" I asked excitedly. They were always talking about buying a house in the burbs and maybe adopting.
"We'll still be in Seattle, only in a nice big house. Paul's parents bought us a house Bells, can you believe it?" I hopped up to give them both a huge hug, I was beyond happy for my friends. "I can't believe it myself. Escrow just closed and wait until you see this place B, it's freaking huge. 4 bedrooms, 3 baths, a huge kitchen with completely updated appliances. It's a dream come true B. Oh and wait until you see the backyard, it has a built in spa big enough for 10 people."
"Or three of you." I interjected then laughed my ass off, I cracked myself up.
"Haha B!"
"So when is moving day?" I ask with a mouth full of pizza.
"Two weeks." I nearly choke at this news. Two weeks, two of my best friends are moving in two weeks? Paul starts patting my back.
"I'm okay. Thanks Paul." I take a sip of beer to wash down the pizza that almost killed me before I try talking again. "Wow, that's great guys. So how far away is this new amazing house? You aren't going to move and never talk to me again are you guys?"
"Of course not B. It's only 15 minutes from here. We're already planning a house warming party, which you better come to or I will come over here and drag your ass to it by your long beautiful hair." Jake's always had a thing for my hair, he's even threatened to chop it all off in the middle of the night and make himself a wig out of it. It creeped me out the first time he said it since it was the day we met, but after so long of being friends I know he would never do such a thing.
"That won't be necessary Jake. You tell me when and I'll be there." My cell starts ringing so I excuse myself to go get it. It's Edward. "Hey baby."
"Hey sexy girl. I was just leaving the office and wanted to make sure it wasn't too late to come over. I really miss you." The way he said this made it very clear what exactly he missed and it isn't my sparkling personality, although I'm sure he misses that too, my man is just horny. God I love him.
"Mmmm, I miss you too. You better come over because I have some things planned for you."
"You do, huh? Well I guess I should haul some ass and get there." He says. I can hear the car door shut and the ignition start. I don't like him driving and talking on the phone so I tell him to hurry but to be careful as well. He chuckles but says he'll be here in 15 minutes, I guess I need to get rid of Paul and Jake now.
"Hey guys, Edward's on his way over so…" I stop there because really what am I supposed to say "hey guys you need to leave because my hot as fuck boyfriend is coming over to fuck me senseless", not happening.
"Say no more B. We'll just clean up and head on out." Paul gets up from the couch picking up the pizza and empty beer bottles on his way to the kitchen.
"Are you okay B, you seem a little…I don't know…anxious tonight." Jake's always been too perceptive for his own good, but I can't talk to him about going on tour before I talk to Edward so I tell him I'm fine, he gives me a hug then he and Paul head back to their apartment. Five minutes later the door opens and Edward walks in. He doesn't bother with saying hi, just drops his stuff, locks the door and rushes over to me. His lips are on mine in an instant and things quickly heat up. It doesn't matter that we just made love this morning, twice; I need him now, desperately.
Two hours later we're both completely sated after three round of hot and sweaty sex. My man has some pretty amazing endurance, what can I say? Even though I am totally worn out the offer from Adam is still ever present in my mind and I know I need to tell Edward or I won't get any sleep at all tonight.
"Edward?" He huffs like he usually does when he's almost asleep. "Edward, are you awake?"
"Wha, huh. Bella? Yeah, yeah I'm awake. What's wrong?" Shit, now I feel bad, I woke the poor guy up.
"Nothing's wrong, I just…" I trail off. Should I just let him sleep? I know he's had a rough day, but he sits up, bringing me with him. He rubs my arm soothingly with his big warm hands, so I take a deep breath and tell him. "I ran into someone today at the studio."
"Oh yeah, who?"
"Adam Levine." I tell him.
"Really? That's pretty cool; I know how much you love his music. That must have been surreal for you."
"Yeah I couldn't say a word when I first saw him, I was literally awe struck. He's so nice though, so down to earth. I didn't expect that."
"That's great; you never know how those rock stars are going to be. I'm glad he was nice to you, if he wasn't it probably would have put quite the damper on your little crush on him." He chuckles and so do I. "Is that what you wanted to talk about?"
"Sort of." Here goes nothing. "He actually asked me to go on tour with Maroon 5 as the opening act." Silence, there was nothing but silence. I was afraid to look at his face so I just stayed put and waited, his hand completely stilled on my arm too, yes letting him process this news was my best option right now.
"Um..wow Bella. I…I'm really proud of you." More silence, I stayed in his arms waiting patiently. "When would you leave?"
I thought for a moment and realized I didn't know when the tour would start, we never discussed it. "I don't know actually, he didn't say."
"Are you going to do it?"
"I wanted to talk to you first before I made a decision. He said it would only be for three months to start. I don't know if I can stand being away from you for that long though." I told him honestly. "Plus touring isn't something I ever saw myself doing." I felt him nod his head, he knew this wasn't something I initially wanted to do, but I had to admit to myself that touring with freaking Maroon 5 did sound like a dream. Would I be an idiot to not do it? Could we make it through a long distance relationship for three months or longer? Would Edward even want to or would he break up with me?
His voice was sad when he spoke again. "Can we talk about this tomorrow? I'm really tired and can't really think."
"Uh..okaaay. I guess it would do some good to sleep on it." Something was off with him and I had a feeling this news was going to cause a rift between us, I certainly hoped we could work around it, obviously, but his reaction wasn't giving me hope.
My mind was running in all sorts of what-if's as Edward started lightly snoring beside me. I think I finally found sleep at 4 in the morning and even then my dreams were of Edward and I not making it through this. I truly hope that my fears were unfounded, I can't lose him, it would break me beyond anything James ever put me through.
When I woke the next morning Edward was gone. There was a note by the now full coffee machine telling me he got called in and he'd call me later to talk, but it felt like he was avoiding me. I didn't hear from him for the rest of the day and by the time 11 pm rolled around I shut off my phone before shuffling off to bed. He'd come to me when he was ready.
Please review. I know I left a cliffy, but I won't leave you dangling there for long. Any ideas on what's going on inside Edward's head?