Im sorry this is so short. I'm not to proud of this chapter but eh. If theres something you didn't like please let me know. Please review and enjoy.
James stared at Severus with wide eyes. "W-well of course it was! If it wasn't then what was it?" He blurted out. Severus turned away from James's gaze.
"It was real…it happened when you fell unconscious." He whispered. James raised his eyebrows.
"W-well who said it?" He asked, worry dripping into his voice. Severus heaved a heavy sigh, rubbing the back of his head.
"I-it was…me." The blush came back to his cheeks, he stared at James, waiting for his response. James just sat their silently for a minute or two. Finally he broke the silence, laughing and smiling widely at Severus.
"Good one Severus!" He said, laughing still. Severus turned back to James, narrowing his eyes.
"I wasn't kidding James." He said, voice suddenly stern. "This isn't funny." James fell silent again.
"Are you serious?" He asked. Severus nodded.
"I'm sorry but it's the truth. Trust me I don't know why either but when I…attacked you…I couldn't bare the thought of loosing you. It just came out." He stared at James with pleading eyes.
Say something!
James let out a shaky breath. "So…are you in love with me?' He asked. Severus looked away again.
"I think so." He whispered. James narrowed his eyes.
"How? I've been torturing you for so long! How can you love me?" He shouted. Severus flinched, surprised by his sudden outburst,
"I…I don't know! I mean you have made my life a living hell but…I just don't know." He looked down at his hands, feeling completely humiliated.
James frowned, looking away. "Damn…looks like my plan failed." He growled. Severus looked up.
"Plan?" He asked. James sighed, staring at Severus again.
"Ya, my plan. Ever wonder why I picked on you so much?" Severus nodded. James clenched his fists and continued. "Its because I wanted you to hate me." Severus blinked, shock eminating on across his face.
"W-why would you want that?" He asked. James bit his lip, trying to think how to explain this.
"I...I wanted you to hate me because…I was in love with you. I tortured you for so long because I was trying to deny my feelings for you." Severus's eyes widened.
"W-what?" He shouted. James shook his head, turning away from Severus again.
"Its exactly how it sounds." He murmured. Severus leaned back, continuing to stare at James with the shock on his face.
"But why?" He asked. James sighed.
"I don't know. I guess…I admired you. I mean your so smart, talented, and to be honest I always thought you were cute. Even when you were yelling at me." James chuckled and continued. "Trust me I truly wish I knew how to understand these feelings, but I can't. Making you hate me seemed like the best way to deny myself and to keep you away from me. I...I was afraid."
"Afraid?" Severus asked. James nodded slowly.
"Afraid of rejection, afraid to be maken a fool of. I'm not very good at these kind of things as you can tell." He said, voice growing deep.
It felt like hours until Severus responded. "Now what?" He asked. James shrugged.
"Well from what we just said, I like you, you like me. Put two and two together." He blushed slightly, running a hand through his hair. Severus looked down at his feet.
"A-are you sure?" He asked, fear ebbing in his voice. James nodded.
"Do you want to be with me?" He asked. This took Severus by surprise. He sat there, clenching his fists.
Is this what I want? To be with him? What the hell is wrong with me? Why do I want to be with him so much!
Severus gulped, looking back at James smiling face. His chest grew warm, and he couldn't help the smile slowly forming on his lips. "Yes." He whispered. James's eyes grew soft.
"Alright, were together I guess." He said. Severus nodded.
"Now what?" He asked.
James opened up his arms in response. Severus hesitated but moved closer to him. James pulled him close, holding him tightly. Severus blushed, his heart fluttering.
"This is…new." Severus said. James chuckled.
"A good new?" He asked. Severus nodded, resting his head on James's shoulder, closing his eyes.
"Ya…really good, awkward but good" James smiled warmly, resting his hand on Severus's head.
"I'm sorry for all the times I hurt you." James whispered. Severus shook his head, resting his hand on James chest, guilt spreading across his face.
"Its ok, I'm sorry too." He said, voice filled with regret and pain. James took his hand into his own, staring into his eyes softly.
"Its alright Severus. Your with me now and I wont hurt you again." Severus nodded, resting his head back on James's shoulder and closed his eyes.
"And Severus?" He didn't open his eyes.
"Yes?" He whispered.
"Happy belated Birthday." He kissed the top of his head, making Severus heart flutter in his chest.
What was this feeling?
He looked up at James, he was smiling, expression soft and warm. And for the first time, Severus understood the feeling in his chest.
It was love
Yep their together now...finally! Now I can get onto the good stuff!