As The World Keeps Turning

Chapter 6

Amy's POV

Shortly after Reagan leaves for work, I lay in bed already missing her. I stare up at the ceiling, chewing on my bottom lip thinking about how great things are, well, for the most part anyway. My mind flashes to how Karma stormed out on me this morning. I realize now that anytime I bring up Reagan, she goes into some weird kind of mood, it's almost like she's jealous. But I know that can't be it so I quickly brush off the idea. Why can't I be happy? She's the one who shot me down in the first place, so why can't she give me this?

I sigh and rollover onto my side. My eyes wander off to the picture of the two of us dressed in Halloween costumes, and I feel a smile creep onto my face. I feel bad, and just as I decide to reach for my phone to call her, I hear the front door open and close, and the sound of footsteps approaching. I freeze, because no one is supposed to be home for at least two more days. Bruce and Lauren are at a pageant, and Farrah is at some meeting in another state. I'm about to grab for the lamp on the table next to me to use as a weapon when my door swings open and I let out a piercing scream.

Karma's POV

"Woah Amy calm down, it's just me! I'm sorry!" I hold my hand up and back off a bit to try to get her to calm down.

"Jesus Karma!" She pants.

"I guess it wasn't such a good idea to just barge in unannounced huh? I just wanted to come and apologize..."

Amy starts to settle down a bit, and pushes the hair out of her face, sitting up to get a better look at me. "What for Karma?"

"For running out on you earlier. I don't know what came over me."

She simply nods her head, looking a bit skeptical.

"I just don't know how to explain it Ames... Whenever you bring up Reagan, I get... Different." I shake my head, not really knowing how to continue. I look up at her to see if she has a response, and when I see she doesn't, I move on. "I want to see you happy. I do. But somehow I feel better when I'm the one who makes you happy, you know what I mean? I like to see you happy when we're just hanging out or watching a movie... Something like that."

"Karma what you just described is a dating couple. You've already made it clear that's not what you want, so why can't I have it with Reagan?"

"I... I don't think that's what I meant really... I just kind of feel like I'm going to become second best for you... I don't want to lose you, I almost did before. It's an awful feeling to be close to that again..."

Her eyes slowly start to soften and she scoots closer to me on the bed and takes my right hand between her two. "Karma. You'll always be first to me, no matter who I'm with. You'll always be my best friend. Also, you'll never ever lose me. In case you haven't realized, I'm pretty darn hard to get rid of." She cracks a smile and squeezes my hand lightly. "You're so important to me. I really just want you to be able to talk things out with me instead of just running out though next time..."

I sigh and smile lightly at her. I notice for a moment how warm and soft her hand feels holding mine, it's just so comforting. "I'm sorry for being jealous of Reagan, I guess I just want you all to myself..."

She laughs quietly and just smiles at me, still holding my hand in hers. "You know you can talk to me about anything, right?" She asks me.

"Yes I know..." I respond. But what I don't know is how to explain the way I've been feeling these past two days. It's like I'm so much more aware of everything Amy does and I don't know why. All I want is for her to hug me close and let me sleep over while we watch movies together and binge watch cookies like we've done for so long before this. I think about what she said about that idea sounding like a dating couple, and I can't help but also think that she may be right... Her eyes catch mine and I know I've been silent in my own thoughts for too long now.

"What are you thinking about Karms?" She asks.

"Us." I simply reply.

She's quiet for a minute, sorting through thoughts of her own. "What about us?"

My eyes shift downward and I shake my head slightly. "Just how we're a great pair." I feel a small smile form on my lips. "Can I get a hug? I'm tired of fighting."

Amy lets out a breathy laugh and pulls me into her arms. I love her hugs, I always do. But for the first time ever, I'm aware of the feel of her body against mine, and the smell of her. The fact that I'm thinking all of these things so quickly scares me and sends my heart racing, I don't know what's wrong or why I'm feeling like this after I've denied even the thought so many times.

She must sense my change in mood because she pulls back and takes my face between her hands and looks me in the eyes. "Karms you look like you've just seen a ghost, what's going on?" Her eyes are full of fear and concern, and the worry is causing a crease to form on her forehead.

I lean my forehead against hers. "I have no idea what's going on with me Amy... I feel so... Different and I don't know what to do or what to say..." I trail off.

"You don't have to say anything, we can just sit. Sometimes that can help."

I just nod, but I don't pull away from her embrace. I feel safe here, and leaving that safety is the last thing I wanna do. My head is reeling, and I feel like I have no control over my own body. I lift my forehead from hers and look her in the eyes. Before I can even comprehend what's going on, I lean in, and kiss her lips.

Yep. I kiss Amy.

Amy's POV

When Karma kisses me, I practically fall off the bed.

Karma Ashcroft kissed ME. And no one was even around to see it. She just did it.

As much as I don't want to, I pull back from her lips in shock. She looks terrified, and I can feel my stomach doing flips and my heart falling out of my chest.

"Karma..."

"Amy I'm... I'm so sorry..." Her lip stars to quiver and her eyes become glassy.

I know that she's about to cry, but I'm clueless as to what to say to her, I definitely don't want to make things any worse. "It's ok... But why did you do that Karms?"

"There's really one way I can answer that..." She avoids my gaze and chews on her lip, as if contemplating whether or not she should say anything more. "I... I really wanted to. I did. And I mean it." Boldly, the looks up and locks her gaze with mine.

I'm speechless. Nothing could've prepared me for this. Even though I dreamed that she would kiss me simply because she wanted to, I never thought it could actually happen considering the recent events. "But... Why now? Why when I can't? Why when you could've done this months ago...?" An image of Reagan floats through my head, but for the moment, I push it to the side. I have to deal with this now.

"It took Liam crushing my heart for me to realize that you've had it the entire time Amy." I can hear her breath catch in her throat, confidence wavering. "I've been going through these feelings since the night of your confession though... Every thing that we've gone through lately has solved another piece to the puzzle. I know that I'm too late. I know... But I just finished solving the puzzle when I burst through your door. I hope you can forgive me for this Amy..." I slowly begin to back off of the bed.

"Karma. Wait..." She reaches for my hand with almost a pleading look in her eyes.

I sit back down on the bed across from her.

"It's not really too late... Believe me, I've wanted this for so long. But now I have someone else who wants me, and I want her too. There's so much up and down with you that I don't ever really know if this is what you want... I'm not going to lose Reagan if you're not even one hundred percent sure..." Her gaze is clouded with a mixture of confusion, desire, regret, guilt, and love.

"I can prove to you that I want this... Only if you're okay with it though..."

Her hesitation paired with my inexperience with girls altogether slows time down significantly. Her eyes pierce into mine and she bites her lip a bit. She nods, ever so slightly.

I slowly lean towards her until I can feel her hot breath mixing with my own, and our noses are slightly grazing each other. My lips press to hers so lightly that it could've been confused with a whisper. I lean just a little further into the kiss so we can feel the smoothness of our lips touching. I pull back and meet her eyes, and all that's really left to see is passion.

I lean into kiss her again with more force, but still gentle, absolutely sure that this is what I want. She is what I want, what I need, and I feel like a complete idiot for not noticing this when there was no barriers in my way. This kiss now is different from any one that I have experienced before. I kiss her with passion that to my surprise, rips a light moan from her lips. The sounds only pushes me to kiss her further, and wrap her in my arms to pull her as close to me as possible.

She reacts in the best way possible to my every movement. Her body fits to mine in the most perfect way possible. This whole experience is like I've opened my eyes for the first time, and I couldn't be any happier.

Amy's POV

Kissing Karma is the best thing I have ever done. Even after her practically breaking my heart, I wouldn't trade this for anything in the world. To have her kissing me like this just feels so... Amazing. She's amazing. I'm floating on cloud nine, and I never want to come back down.

This experience with Karma continues to who knows what hour of the night. When we only stop because of exhaustion, both of us are glowing. We never went any further than passionate kisses and desperate cuddling, and I couldn't be any happier. We both get up for a bit to get something to eat and drink after our experience, but are quick to return to my bed afterwards. Neither of us really say anything, and we don't have to.

We snuggle into bed, and j take my rightful place as Karma's big spoon, and nuzzle my face into her neck. I can feel her fall asleep almost instantly, but just as I'm about to do so, my mind shoots over to Reagan, and my entire body tenses. What did I just do? How could I do this to her?

I squeeze my eyes shut and breathe in Karma's sweet scent as a crushing wave of guilt runs over me, leaving me weak and speechless.

*Wow. Now that was an exciting chapter. I know you guys were waiting for that so, you're welcome ;) But unfortunately, it can't end that easy. I can't wait to continue this story, I have great ideas for it. I hope you guys stick around! Things are about to get messy... Or are they?*