As The World Keeps Turning

Chapter 12

Amy's POV

Im screwed. So, so, so screwed. Wanna know why? Well, I thought it would be a good idea to dump Reagan right after she told me she loved me, that's just for starters though. I decided to make my best friend my girlfriend at the drop of a hat, even though she shot me down once before. At this moment, I feel completely stupid. After Reagan just poured her heart out to me, how can I even pretend that everything is normal?

It's Monday morning, and I'm supposed to be getting ready for school but my head is spinning. I can't get Reagan's words out of my head... How could I? I keep trying to push these thoughts out of my head but I just can't. When I finally make it to school, I try my best to avoid Karma so she doesn't see me so distracted, but instead I run into Shane. And I mean that literally. I pretty much body slammed him in the courtyard.

"Woah now, I know you missed me but you really don't have to tackle me. Just hug it out." Shane opens his arms for a hug and smirks at me.

I blink in confusion, then walk into his arms for an awkward hug, and he can definitely tell.

"Ok. You haven't said a word yet, and I already know that something's wrong. What's up?" He frowns at me.

"I... Uh. Nothing's wrong actually. Just kinda tired I guess..." I trail off.

He opens his mouth to say something more but the bell rings just in time. "Oops, I gotta go. See you later Shane." I say with a smile and quickly walk away. I guess I really was saved by the bell...

Karma's POV

When Amy didn't show up at my locker this morning, I couldn't hide my disappointment. I was so excited to see her, and she hadn't even returned any of my texts since I left her house Sunday morning. I feel my mouth twist into a frown as I wait for my history class to start. Shane eventually slides into the desk next to me and does a quick wave hello.

"Shane have you seen Amy?" I quickly ask.

He breathes out a laugh. "Yeah I did, she actually ran right into me. She seemed really flustered, and she didn't say much." He looks confused. "She might have been just running late or something. I don't know."

I sigh and pick up my pen as the teacher walks into the room to start class. I guess Amy will just have to wait.

Amy's POV

Around lunch time, I know that I can't avoid Karma for much longer. The funny thing is, I really don't even know for sure why I'm avoiding her, she didn't do anything wrong. It's all me. When the bell rings for lunch, I see her turn the corner in a flash of auburn hair and I can't stop the feeling of butterflies in my stomach and the smile growing on my face when we meet eyes. She smiles back at me and runs to hug me like we haven't seen each other in forever.

"I missed you!" She exclaims, and in the same breath "where were you this morning?"

"Oh I was just running really late. I overslept... I'm sorry I didn't get to see you sooner Karms."

She smiles up at me. "It's ok, I understand." She sweetly kisses me on the cheek and I can feel my face turning pink.

We make casual conversation throughout lunch until she asks me, "So what did you do after I left Sunday?"

"Oh uh, not much. Just some homework... You know." I stutter.

She cocks and eyebrow at me like she knows I wasn't telling the truth.

"Ok Ames..."

After lunch, there's a few more classes, then I meet Karma again at her locker. I go up to surprise her and hug her from behind and she lets out a noise so adorable that it made my knees weeks. I turn her around and slowly kiss her forehead.

"So Farrah is coming home soon. I have to meet up with her, and she wants to introduce me to someone I guess." I say to her.

"Well that sounds like a lot of fun doesn't it?" She throws a sarcastic grin at me.

"Oh yes Karms, loads of fun." I smile and shake my head. "I actually have to get going now, so I'll see you tomorrow ok?"

"Aw ok. I'll see you tomorrow. Text me ok?"

I nod, "Of course."

She leans up on her tiptoes to give me a goodbye kiss on the lips, and I leave her there standing by her locker.

Karma's POV

Right after Amy leaves, I pack up my own things and make my way to find Shane for my ride home. I swear that all bad things happen to me because who do I run into? Of all people? Yep. Liam. And it was the most awkward thing I've experienced in a while. He stutters out an apology and practically runs away when he sees its me, like I have the plague or something. Why can't we at least be civil? I shake my head and continue on my way.

Amy's POV

When I get home, I find a missed call from Reagan. I flop right onto my bed and groan. Can't I ever get a break? I've been thinking about this all day... Reagan and Karma. There's no doubt that I love them both, and that's why I have a serious problem. I don't want to have to choose between them. I won't them BOTH in my life, and I don't really understand why that can't happen. Reagan made some valid points about Karma yesterday. Karma really did make a surprise appearance in my life in the way she's in it now, and I know that she does change her mind a lot.

On the other hand though, I love her. I've loved Karma since I first laid eyes on her, and I know that it took me a long time to realize this, but that doesn't make it any less true, any less of a fact. The problem is, I truly can't compare the two. Reagan is... Different. She was so many firsts for me, and I loved every second that I spent with her. I know that she really does love me, and that's what I want. But with Karma... Everything is so new. I'm still afraid that at any moment, I'll overstep my bondaries and do something to push her away... I don't feel like that with Reagan.

I sigh again and go to dial Reagan's cell.

"Hey Amy." She picks up on the first ring.

"Hi Reagan."

"I'm sorry for barging into your house yesterday... That was uh, out of line. I don't know what came over me..."

"Rae please don't apologize. It's my fault that it even happened in the first place remember."

I hear her laugh through the phone, but it sounds sad. "Yeah true Shrimp Girl. So. Did you think about what I said?" She asks.

"I did think about it... I didn't know I had a twenty four hour deadline to let you know..." I drift off.

"You don't. But I just thought maybe... Um never mind."

"Reagan, I love you." I spit out the words like acid. I meant them, and that's why they were so wrong to say. "I love you, and I love Karma. That's my problem. I just don't know what to do..."

I can almost feel how sad her expression is on the other end of the phone. "Amy why can't you see that you're everything to me?" She whimpers.

"I do see that Reagan, I do. But sometimes I feel like that's what I've been for Karma for the whole time too."

"But she told you that she didn't love you in the same way. She TOLD you, but you're gonna believe her now? Did you ever think that the only reason she did it is because you were finally happy and she had no one? If this was really how she felt about you, why would it take Liam cheating on her for her to realize it? Come on Amy. Think. You're a smart girl."

I stare at the wall. I know she has a point. Everything she's saying makes sense. I just don't want to believe it. "I thought about it..." I whisper into the receiver.

"And?"

"And nothing. I don't know what to do." I sigh. "I miss you Reagan. I do. But now I have all these different feelings... Like I want to kiss you, but I don't. I want to be with you, but I've wanted Karma since the beginning. I don't even know how it's possible for me to choose something like this. I need to talk to her. Ok? I need to talk."

The other end of the line is silent for a moment. "Ok. Talk to her. And then let me know what you think." She pauses. "I want you to choose what you want, officially, because you never did. If you end up with her... Then I guess I'll have to deal with it. But I'm not going to like it, just a fair warning." Her voice sounds thick, like she's holding back tears.

"I'll talk to her ok? I want you to be happy Reagan, you know that right?"

"I'm happy with you Amy... Why can't you see that..."

My stomach flips inside of me. How did I get put in this position? From no one recognizing my existence to two people who want all of my love and attention? How does that even happen? "I see that Reagan. That's why making a choice is not an easy thing to do. I have to go ok? I'll text you tonight. Is that ok? I miss talking to you..."

I can feel her smile travel through the sound waves of the phone. "Yes you can text me."

"Ok. I'll talk to you later then. Bye Rae."

"Bye Shrimps."

I hang up the phone and just stare at it. I stare at the face pictured in Reagan's contact name, and I remember the night I took that picture. It was the night of the pageant... The night that changed everything for me. I quickly tap over to another screen into Karma's contact. Well, the only thing left to do now is talk to her about yet another mistake I'm making...

*Well I really hope this doesn't get too messy... The suspense is killing me, and that's extra funny because I'm the one making up the story haha. Anyway, can't wait for the next chapter! Oh and I'm about to take a super hard anatomy exam later today so wish me luck otherwise I won't survive to write the next chapter, no pressure :) (just kidding, I promise)*