Ch. 4

Robin waited at the train station for her train from Manhattan to Westchester to show up. There weren't many other people so she figured she would have a nice quite ride up. Five minutes into her wait on the train platform, Robin felt a tap on her shoulder. She turned around to see Barney standing behind her, with a small smile on his face.

"I thought about what you said, about Ted being there for me, and I knew I needed to come. Mind if I join you?" Robin nodded her head as the train pulled up to the platform. They both headed on and sat opposite each other so they were facing each other.

"So you had a change of heart?" Robin said somewhat sarcastically to Barney. He just nodded and looked out the window.

"Your daughter, she's a real cutie."

"Thanks, takes after her old man." Barney said with a smirk on his face.

"Gee, how modest you are. Shes four now right?"

"Yup, four years old already, and you only just met her this morning."

"Yeah, I've been wanting to meet her now for awhile." Robin lied through her teeth, but what was she going to say? ' I didn't want to meet the product of you making love to some sleazy whore you met at a bar.' Yeah that would not have gone over to well.

"I'm sorry about earlier, with me flipping out on you and everything. Its just been a very stressful month for me."

"That's okay, I just don't understand why you chose to take it out on me. I haven't even seen you since last year."

"To be completely honest, I was mad at you. But now I know there is no reason to be, I talked to Ted and he told me that you don't know."

"Don't know what? What is so important that I should know but somehow it seems everybody has failed to tell me?"

"At the beginning of the month, I got some pretty bad news. My mom passed away. She was the only person who came into my life and never left it, not even for a second. And then she did, just like that she left my life without any possibility of returning, and it hurt like hell. Everybody was there for the services, Ted, Tracey, Lily, and Marshall. Everybody except you. I thought that, even after everything we had been through you would at least come to my mother's services. I was so pissed. In all that was going on, for some reason I just wanted to see you, to have you tell me everything would be okay but you weren't there, and that just killed me inside. It was like I was realizing that I not only lost my mom for good, but that I had lost you for good too, and I just couldn't deal with that. And then two weeks later Ted tells us about Tracey. I just couldn't deal with losing so many people and that's why I shut down a little bit. It felt like everything that I had once thought would be permanent in my life was being taken away from me. But I know now that you didn't know about my mothers death, so I guess I cant be mad at you for that."

"Oh my god Barney I'm so sorry, I had no clue. If I had known you know I would have been there for you in a heartbeat. I am so sorry. This must all be so tough on you."

"Robin, it has been the hardest thing I have ever had to go through in my life. My mom was everything to me, I loved her so much. And on top of that I had to tell Ellie that her grandma wasn't with us anymore but in heaven. That was the worst thing I have ever done."

"Well, you don't have to go through it alone. You have all of us here for you."

"I know, I know, and thank you. It really means a lot. You set me straight earlier saying that Ted would be there for me. That's how I knew I needed to come today. He has been there for me, he has been the best friend anyone could ask for through everything. Now I owe it to him to be there."

"You're a really good friend, you know that right?"

"I try." Barney said with a devilish grin on his face. Robin smiled back, before getting serious again.

"And you know you don't have to worry about me leaving your life permanently. We have to much history for that."

"Yeah Scherbatsky, we do."