As The World Keeps Turning

Chapter 16

Amy's POV

After I leave Karma's house, I feel really... Satisfied. That might be weird to say, but it's how I feel. I actually feel 100% happy. Not to say that I'm not happy with Reagan, because I am. But Karma is different. It's like she completes me, and spending time with her is exactly what I needed.

I'm getting ready for my date with Reagan with a smile on my face, kinda rare from me. I'm especially excited because she said she made reservations at some really nice place in Houston. I put on a skater skirt and tank top... I wanted to look at least a little classy for the occasion. After I'm done putting makeup on and making sure I look halfway decent, I feel my stomach flipping in excitement and I wait for Reagan to pull into the driveway.

A few minutes later, I hear her truck and I run to greet her. I slide into the passenger seat and kiss her cheek. She smiles at me and says "Hey shrimp girl. Missed you."

I smile at her again "I missed you too! So glad to be with you now, I was excited all day."

She breathes out a laugh. "You really are adorable ya know." She smirks at me.

She pulls out of the driveway and we ride to the restaurant in silence, her with one hand in mine and the other on the wheel. When we pull into the parking lot, she gets out and walks around to my side to open the door for me, and escorts me inside. On the inside, the restaurant is truly breathtaking. I've never been here before but so many people have told me about how amazing it is so this should be a treat. Were seated in minutes and we end up sitting at a secluded little table in the corner.

I'm looking at the check after we finish our meals and actually get really scared at the numbers I see on the bottom. "Reagan... This place is so expensive... How can you even afford this...?" I stare at her in disbelief. I know that she really doesn't make that much between catering and DJing. Pulse she has to pay rent so I don't want her to waste her money on me.

She chews on her lip as if she's thinking about something. She eventually reached across the table and takes my hands in hers. "Actually Amy, I um, I have some news."

"What is it?"

"At one of my gigs a couple weeks ago, there was a talent scout there. I played some of the stuff I made and he loved it so much that he asked for a demo and showed it to some people where he works... They all loved it to and... Well, they offered me a huge job. They said I could actually be something someday."

"Reagan I'm so happy for you! Please tell me you took it! When do you start? I'm so excited!"

"I did take the job Amy... That's the problem."

I feel my smile fade just a bit. "Why is that a problem?"

"Amy. The job is in California..."

It's at that exact second that I feel something inside me break. I know where this is going and she doesn't need to say another word for me to know.

"Oh." Thats all I can say. All I can force to come out of my mouth. "Is it... Like... Permanent? Official?" I stutter.

"It's pretty legit... They even have an apartment set up for me there. I'm supposed to be leaving within the week."

"Why the hell wouldn't you tell me about this sooner?" I feel my anger flare up. This isn't fair. It's not.

"I didn't know what to do. But I need you to try to understand. I need this. This is what I've always wanted and now it's within reach..." Tears are welling in her eyes now, threatening to spill over. "I love you Amy, and this is killing me but... I think it would be best for us to break up..."

My mouth just hangs open. I can't believe she's saying this to me. "So you don't want to even TRY long distance?"

She shakes her head. "Amy I need you to hear me out. I've been thinking a lot about this. I want you to be happy all the time." She looks into my eyes. "Me being all the way over there won't make you happy. And it won't for me either. This is really an indefinite future... Maybe if things work out differently later on..." She's crying now. "I'm sorry... I sound ridiculous. I don't want to hurt you Amy. You should've chose to be with Karma, you need to know that. She loves you. More than I ever could. When I'm gone you need to remember that please..."

I can't really even comprehend what she's saying, it's coming out like a jumble of words. "You're just gonna... Leave me here? Reagan..."

"I'm not leaving you. I'll ALWAYS be here for you. That won't change when I move away. I promise. I love you to pieces but I just can't put you through any heartache by keeping you tied up in a long distance relationship... I can't stand to see you in that position. I don't want to lose you, but this is what has to happen. I need you to try to understand. Please..." She's begging me through her tears.

I do understand. And I do want her to be happy, of course I do. I let out a deep sigh. "I understand. It just sucks to hear Rae. I thought we had a chance to make it..." I feel my lip quiver.

"I know. We do have a chance, just not right now. I'll never stop loving you, we've been through so much."

"Yeah we have." My mind flashes back to a few months ago when she was fighting for my heart in my living room, in front of Karma exposing her true feelings. What happened to that?

She squeezes my hand gently. Please try to be ok. I just want to enjoy tonight with you."

I force a smile. "Ok Rae. Just for you."

The rest of the night was us basically just enjoying each others company, laughing and sharing jokes and memories. When she finally drives me home, I feel the sadness crawling back. We stand outside in the front yard. Reagan pulls me into a hug, and j can't hold the tears back any longer. I squeeze her tight and vaguely recall me saying something like "please don't go."

She's crying, I can feel her shoulders shaking under my grasp. She kisses my forehead slowly. "Amy, be good ok? I'll see you soon. And I'll text you all the time I promise." She tries to smile at me and wipes my tears away.

"Ok. I'll try." I feel the tears threatening to make an appearance again.

She starts to pull away and my feet feel rooted to the ground, but I also feel like I'm about to crumble. She leans in the kiss my cheek slowly. "I'll talk to you soon. Love you, Shrimp Girl."

Before I know it, she's gone and I'm all alone fighting for balance in my front yard. I burst into tears and start wandering in some random direction, no clue where I'm actually going.

My heart hurts. And I keep walking until I finally end up gazing at a familiar doorway...

*Lets just say, this chapter actually made me want to cry. Not gonna lie. Anyway, I hope you enjoyed it. Tomorrow should be interesting. See you then!*