I came down; knowing that everyone was up and about and I couldn't hang out in my room all day. Though that's what I truly wanted to do, be alone. I wasn't a social butterfly like my sister. I hated people, I hated talking to people, and I hated being around a bunch of people that I found annoying. I hated everything about my current living arrangements, except the only person that spiked my interest- Hiei.

Hiei wasn't like the other. Hiei didn't annoy me or bug me like the other. He didn't see reason in filling the quiet with meaningless talk that neither one of us find interesting. He saw the beauty in silence like me. He was comfortable in the silence that would come over us at time. We're both content in not talking, without something going on unlike the other. That's part of what first interested me in him.

"Oh, you're down! How did you sleep?" My sister asked the, moment I came out of my bedroom.

Sometime between 6:30 and & I had retreated to my room after growing bored with the movies and falling asleep to Hiei petting my ears. I don't remember much of what happened after I relaxed next Hiei as he petted me, other than the movie drowning out in the background and the constant motion of Hiei's hand.

"I didn't," I say coldly taking my spot beside her at the dining table.

"Are you going to eat today?" Kurama asked as he held a plate of pancakes in his hand on a plate.

"No, but my blood should be so I'll just take a cup of that heated up."

"Alright," Kurama said nodding his head as he went off to get me my hot cup of blood.

"How can you drink that?" Hiei asked sitting down next to me as I sipped at my cup of blood.

"Koenma forbid me from hunting in his forest. If I do he drains me to close to death," I tell him as I take another sip and try to hide the disgust off my face. The blood tasted bitter and there was a hint of something I've never tasted in blood before; was this the tasted of blood when it wasn't fresh. The only blood I ever had was freshly killed by me. Killing it myself could give me a thrill, but I did it because I loved the flavor of blood. This stuff though made me rather go without blood.

"Blood's blood, what does it matter if it's not fresh? Kurabawa asked like the idiot he is.

"It's stale, even after being heated up, it doesn't taste the same, and I would rather go without it. Unfortunately with Koenma draining me I need the blood to survive."

"What you not so big and bad now?" Kurabawa asked with that stupid grin of his.

"I can still beat you," I say taking another sip as if the off flavor didn't bother me at all.

"Yeah I'd like to see you try!"

"Alright baka," I say standing up from my seat.

"I thought you didn't fight girls?" Yukuse asked confused why Kurabawa was challenging me.

"She's not a girl, she's…" He couldn't find a way to describe me.

"Something else entirely," I offer.

"Yeah something else entirely," Kurabawa agreed causing everyone, but Hiei and me, to laugh.

"Alright now bring it and stare at the awesomeness of my sword!" A sword made out of just his spirit energy forms in his hand. I just look at it unimpressed.

"That thing couldn't hurt me," I tell him as I disappear before him and reappear holding his sword in my hand and crush it.

"See," I ask him as I then hold my own sword to his throat.

"Whe-when did you summon your sword?" He stuttered.

"Just now," I say stepping back and shielding my sword before Koenma could ever notice what I had just done.

You're still not a hundred percent are you? Hiei asks me telepathically

No I'm not. Is it that obvious? I ask him back through my thoughts.

No, but I can tell because you're putting up whit the taste of the blood, though you hate it.

You're also listening in on my thoughts aren't you? By the way I didn't get a reply from Hiei I knew I had caught him red handed.

As long as you don't probe to deep I'm fine, but if you do you may never be able to get out. You'll be trapped like the last guy who dared to probe to deep into my mind, unable to pull his mind back as he watched the horrors over and over again until the day I decide to kill him. Hiei visibly shuttered. Was he actually afraid of what he thought may lie in my mind? Had the things he saw already make him that unnerved by what I might be trying to hide from everyone else? The Hiei I've seen isn't unnerved by anything unless it came to his sister.

I knew of his dirty little secret that he kept from everyone. I knew all of their secrets. None of them knew mine of that I knew of their secrets. I kept it that way because I didn't want them to know me or anything about me. I needed to know their secrets though because if it came to fight I could just use my torture method and walk away without having to use any of my strength really.

"Desera we should go train for a bit," Yusuke propped.

"Sure," I say standing up and washing out the last of the blood in my cup before joining Yusuke outside and walked to the training ground.

It was funny seeing what Keonma considered a training ground. It was just a big arena with a grassy area around the center fighting ring. There was nothing to hit other than an opponent. It was so pathetic that I wanted to laugh, but I refused to let myself.

"So why don't we start with hand to hand combat. No swords or weapons," Yusuke says making the terms and I agree not seeing a problem with them.

Yusuke and I prepared ourselves for the fight and started at each other. We were waiting for one of us to make the first move and start the fight. All we needed was one of us to twitch and the fight would begin.

Yusuke's foot moved a fraction of an inch that was my queue. I ran towards Yusuke with the full intent of finishing this in one move, but at the last second me move out of the way. Yusuke brought his fist up and was about to hit me in the face, but I pulled back seeing the danger of this attack before he even displayed it. His fist shattered the cement around the area of his hit. I smirk.

"You're more powerful than you look."

"Well you should never judge a person simply on their looks, unless they're as good looking as me," Yusuke says as he shows me his 'good side'.

"So you are as weak as you look and slow?" I ask as I appear beside him about to attack him.

"Wow you're faster than Hiei!" He says barely dodging my attack.

""Hn," I say as I begin to attack him one after another without hesitating.

"What are you dancing?" Yusuke asks seeing the way I move so lightly on my feet and that I don't walk in just a straight line when I move my feet.

"I don't dance," I tell him as I continue to bombard him with attacks.

"No you just move with fancy footwork," he says sweeping my feet from under him. I fall to the ground and prepare myself to roll as I pop back up on my feet ready to fight.

"I just fight I don't do anything special," I say as I watch his dumb found face.

"How'd you do that?" He shouts.

"There's a reason I can take on an army single handedly."

"I didn't think this would be easy but I was hoping you would be easier to take down without that sword of yours. Guess I was wrong," he shrugs than charges towards me. I flip back and kick him in the chin, stunning him for a bit.

"Never under estimate, it was the cause of death for many."

"I know, now." I smirk at his reply.

"Desera you're going to fall off the edge!"

I turn my head to look behind me and see that I have plenty of room behind me. I quickly wipe my head around to see that Yusuke had just gotten all the time he needed to land a blow on me. I fly backwards for a bit before l land off of the ring and onto the grassy area that surrounded it, with Yusuke on top of me.

"Sorry about playing dirty, but it was the only way to get your guard down."

"Ass," I say glaring at him.

"I won didn't I?" he says shrugging.

"I'm not sure telling someone that they're about to fall then socking them across the jaw to make them fall winning."

"I do!"

"Well that's you not me."

"Now can I claim a prize for this?" he asks thoughtfully before looking at me.

"Yes, I can and I think you'll like this one too," he says before looking at me with a look of intent in his eyes.

"And what prize do you get for playing a dirty trick like that?" I ask him.

"This," he says leaning in and kissing me on the lips. I don't respond. I can't respond. My eyes widen in shock as I look at his closed one.

Why would he kiss me of all people? Just the other day I had tortured him with my darkness powers and now he's kissing me! I hadn't led him on in any way that I can think of. If anything I had led Hiei on by the way I laid my head on his lower diyafram and allowed him to actually touch me when I don't allow anyone. So why was Yusuke kissing me now?

"Sorry," Yusuke says as he pulls away from me and stands up. "I know how you hate to be touched, I just couldn't help it."

"Can I go; I need to think about something?" I ask looking at the woods just over these walls that trapped me in here with Yusuke.

"Yeah," Yusuke says sounding hurt and rejected.

I took off and began to run as fast as I could into the woods. I wanted to get away. I can handle killing people without mercy, watch my own parents killed before my eyes, take death without caring or fear, but I get kissed by a guy that I don't really know and don't care for too much and now I want to get away. I want to runaway like the scared little girl that I never allowed to come out. It was a side of me that I haven't seen since I vowed to protect Karen with my life.

I hoped on to a tree and go as high as I can and still be obscured by the trees. I didn't want anyone to see me. I wanted to be alone with my thoughts as I assessed the situation. No one had ever kissed me. No one had ever come in contacted with me before because everyone had always been afraid of me. I have always liked it that way. I was used to it that way, but Yusuke making contact with me hadn't left that same feeling that Hiei's had. So, was there a difference when someone made contact with other people? Did it mean that something was different between the two and the way I felt about them like my sister would always go on about from her love novels?

"You're thinking yourself in circles," I hear Hiei's voice from above me. I look up to see him on the branch above me sitting comfortably as if that was his spot, but with as much time he spends in the woods it wouldn't surprise me if it was.

"You're point," I ask not very happy that he was disturbing me.

"Stop it; it's giving me a headache."

"Well then maybe you shouldn't be in my head."

"Hn," he says turning his face away from me. After sitting in the silence for a bit I finally spoke up.

"Why did you follow me here if you knew I wanted to be alone? I even sensed you there watching everything, so you're not ignorant about why or what happened. So why follow me?"

"It doesn't matter," he says still not looking at me. I hop up to the branch above me and look at him, forcing him to look at me.

"What," he snaps and I just sit down and lean on him. I feel him stiffen under me, but it doesn't take long for him to relax and wrap his arms around me.

"Did you kiss him back?" I open my eyes and stare off into the distance as my eyes sadden. I didn't want to really talk about it.

"No, I was shocked and didn't want to." I spoke quietly, voice low and distant slightly.

"You wanted to kiss someone else." He didn't mean it as a question it was really a statement.