I creep down the stairs at about two in the morning. Everyone had long gone to sleep, but I wasn't tired. I almost never was at night time. The night was my time of rain and I could almost a whole month without a single wink of sleep. As it stood I spent most of my time staring at the ceiling during the night. The only problem is I'm extremely hungry right now. I didn't eat anything today except when I sipped at the prepackaged crap Koenma gave me. The blood was so disgusting I was half tempted to put up with human food if it meant I never again had to taste that horror.

I entered the kitchen and began to look for something good. All I could find was my packaged blood and human food. I open the refrigerator and find more human food and frozen meat. The meat looked descent right now as long as it was raw, but I learned from the blood that anything not fresh was not good. I continue my way to the pantries and cupboards in search for anything that would be appetizing and again I came up empty handed.

"Is there anything descent in this prison," I hiss to myself in aggravation.

"There's chocolate ice cream," I hear Hiei say from the entry way of the kitchen.

"It's been frozen so it can't be good," I tell him as I look at him with a blank look."

"I don't like human food either, but ice cream is one of the few descent things humans have." I watch Hiei carefully as he makes his way to the freezer and pulls out a small tub labeled chocolate ice cream with some brand logo. Hiei then makes his way to the cupboard containing the bowls and plates; he pulls out two white bowls. He side glances at me for a moment before grabbing two spoons kept directly below the plates and bowls.

"Try it," he says handing me a bowl full of the chocolate ice cream.

I look at the ice cream uncertain if I should. I hated almost everything about this world and of the human race. It didn't make sense to me how they could make anything good now. The ice cream produced steam in the air just above it because it was so cold compared to the surrounding air. The top layer of it was slowly forming a glossy cover because it was beginning to melt. The overall texture was something I've never seen before; it wasn't hard like ice or most frozen things, it wasn't free flowing like water but it turned into a water like substance. How could it say soft yet turn into water wasn't it supposed to freeze like ice if it melted into water?

I pick my spoon up carefully, still unsure about the chocolate ice cream. Slowly I scoop up some of it and bring it up to mouth. It melted almost instantly on my tongue. The flavors were so sweet and rich, but the ice cream itself was so cold that it chilled my mouth. Never before have I tried something so good and I never expected it to come from the human world.

"It's alright," I say not wanting to admit that I actually liked it something made by the humans.

"Hn," Hiei says not buying it as I scooped up another piece of it and ate it.

"How often are you sneaking down here?" He asks me as I lean back against the counter.

"This is my first time normally when I'm hungry I just go out and hunt. Stupid baby," I say grumble the last part under my breath.

"Give the bakas a try. They are extremely annoying but they're fighting to get to know you." It sounded so out of Hiei's personality that I had to double check that it was in fact Hiei that was speaking to me. It looked like Hiei, sounded like Hiei, Even had his same presence and smell that my noise could barely pick up from the other side of the kitchen. This was Hiei.

"Have you hit your head too hard falling out of a tree Hiei? I ask him before taking another small bite out of my ice cream. "They are scared of me, or at least most of them. None of my resent actions have given them any reason to like me and personally I like them being at such a great distance to me. Having people close to me only proves to be a burden."

"Why because you always run away when you start to get to close and you don't want to stay in one place for more than four days?" He asks completely serious as he took another bit of his ice cream.

"No because I can't stay in one place for very long and when I'm being forced to work for someone I have no respect for or have to take orders at all I don't want to stay. I have issues with someone telling me what to do and it's a month not four days."

"You've been thinking of running away since the day you got here."

"Yes because in the not too far off future I will have to deal with an army trying to kill me. Even here they could find us. I have seen them find us in the midst of a forest with tons of thousands of demons. What's to prevent them from getting us here?"

"You don't have to run."

"It's the only thing that keeps us from being found and forced to become a little toy soldier for the Kings."

"There is only one king now," Hiei says not seeming to really pay attention to anything.

"Since when?" I ask calmly. It was news to me, but I only spent a few years in the Makai and once I left I didn't bother to keep up with the politics of that place.

"A few years ago because of Yusuke."

"The half bread," I ask hiding my slight shock back.

"Yes."

"How?"

"He had a tournament held and the strongest demon becomes the new ruler."

"Hn, if I had known I would of entered. It would have been nice to kill the old Kings," I say chuckling darkly to myself.

"Hn," Hiei says upset because he hadn't won the tournament himself.

"We should both be heading back to bed," I say as I put my finished bowl into the sink and turn to head back upstairs.

"Night," I say walking past Hiei."

"Night," he says back.

I crawl into my bed when I get back up to my room, but I don't sleep. I'm not tired and I don't feel like going to sleep tonight. I was thinking of what Hiei had said to me. Do I really run because I don't want to get close to anyone? Running was the only way I knew how to make sure no one ever gets too close to us and I've learned that running after staying in a place for a month then no one can get close to us and Karen isn't to hurt about leaving the friends that she had made. It solved both the problems for us. It was the only way I knew how to function; run before anyone forms bonds, run before you get attacked, and when attacked fight and protect Karen. This is the only way I have ever known how to live.

"Desera," I hear Boton's voice call from the other side of the door.

"Yes," I call as I open my eyes and look at the door. I must have fallen asleep sometime last night during my train of thought because the sun was now up.

"Breakfast is ready if you want to come down and join us," she offers seeming sum what skittish to ask.

Hiei's words again played in my head, but it wasn't about me running away, but that everyone is trying to get to know me. Every day that I'm here and I'm not off in the woods they try to get me to eat with them and even when I'm in the woods if they are doing something different as a group they try to get me to join. They even went into the woods to search for Hiei and me because we had been gone all day and no one had seen me after I ran off the training grounds. Everyone did care and they did try to put an effort out to get to know me.

"Sure, but I'm not hungry," I say dethatched but I was still agreeing to join them.

"You should try some of Kurama's cooking he's an amazing cook!" Boton says happy and preppy like her normal self. She believed that she had made a break through with me and that we could become best friends. Unfortunate for her I have no plans of that and should be long gone before that chance even came up.

"Just because I'm coming down stairs during breakfast time does not mean I'm going to be eating," I tell her as she bounces down the stairs.

"I know but you are coming down to at least spend the morning with us. Maybe you could even join us going to a fair!"

"I'm not going to a stupid fair," I sigh as we get down stairs.

"But it would be so much fun! As it is Hiei is refusing to go with us and if you don't come then that is TWO people not joining us to the fair!"

"Boton you don't want to scare Desera away we just got her to come down and join us." Kurama says laughing light heartedly.

"I know but I'm just so excited!"

"You're warming up to them a bit, aren't you Desera?" My sister asks from where she sat at the dining table next to Kurama.

"No, I just decided to come down from my room," I tell her as I walk over to Hiei's window sill and sit down.

"You will move once I'm done eating," Hiei tells me as he sits down at his spot on the dining table.

"I might," I tell him not really caring if he became angered by this or not. I could sit where ever I wanted and he wasn't going to kick me out of a spot I wanted, even if it was his spot.

I could understand why Hiei chose this window sill to look out of. It had a really nice view of the mountains in the background of the forest. For here you couldn't see any of the training grounds. You didn't have to worry about anything interrupting the view of where the sun would sit and at night when you wanted to look at the stars you could easily see it from this one spot. To make it even better it was conferrable. Hiei had one of the best places in the house to himself and no one knew about it because the y were all so busy with the T.V or going off and doing something. No one knew the true beauty that surrounded them.

"Move," Hiei said standing over me. I turn my head and look up at him.

"I like it here," I state simply.

"That's my spot," he states still telling me with his undertone that I wasn't going to win this and I would move because the spot belonged to him.

"You know," I say turning my head back to the window, "you've found the best spot in the house. It's sad that the bakas can't understand the beauty you've found."

"It's my spot."

"Can I have it for just a bit longer?" I ask so calm and relaxed from looking out the window that I actually asked. I knew the spot belonged to him as well which is also why I asked. This wasn't my spot to sit in and while I took it without asking I know that it would be wrong of me to stay in his spot when he asked me to move.

"Did you just ask for something Desera?" Mt sister asked just as shocked as everyone else.

"First she comes down and now she is asking for something, there is no way that can be our Desera!" I t was Kurabawa who said that and again made me question how he even got put on the team. I was certain that this group had to have a GPA requirement and that Kuwabawa could not have passed it. What made him think I was there Desera. I do not belong to anyone. I was free to do as I wanted.

"Hn, have it," Hiei says turning away and walking off. I nodded my head as my way of thanking him and turned back to the window to enjoy the view.

"Sis, can I talk to you upstairs?" Karin asked as she tried to grab my arm and pull me upstairs, but stopped when she saw what I was looking at.

"It reminds you of there don't it?" she asked seeing why I was reluctant to leave.

"Yeah it does," I say holding back the slight smile on my lips.

"Of where," Kurama asks coming up behind Karen.

"Home," I say simply but left everyone except Karen confused.

"I'll leave you be," Karen says walking away.

"What is home," Kurama asks the question that was on everyone's mind. "I thought you said that you've never lived in one spot longer than a month with the exception of with your mother."

"It's not my place to tell you."

"I understand," Kurama says nodding his head.

"Do you want to go back Desera?"

"The next time we move away we'll live there and we won't be leaving."

"You miss it that much. We have to live somewhere very isolated if we do."

"The cabin should still be there," I tell her but never once do my eyes leave the view of the window.

"Oh, it's time to go! We have to go everyone!" Boton was happy and excited. It wasn't hard to tell by the way she was bouncing up and down from the sound of her voice.

"Alright Boton we're going," Yusuke says as everyone begins to shuffle towards the door.

"Bye Desera. Bye Hiei," everyone called as they left us to go to the fair and have fun of their own sort.

It took Hiei a couple of hours, but I was wondering when he would come down and ask me about it. It had to of been on everyone's mind and be bugging quite a few of them when they weren't being entertained by the fair.

"What is your home?" Hiei asked as he stood next to me. I didn't look at him as I stared out the window.

"The only other time I've been content like this. It was a time when I was relaxed and calmer. I wasn't so distant, but I spent most of my time alone." I answer still not telling him exactly what home was, but what home had done to me.

"As soon as this bracelet is off that's where I'm taking Karen to and running."

"The only other time," he asks catching that there has been a time when I was this relaxed before.

I nod my head.

"You've gotten me that relaxed a couple times before. It's rare though."

"Why didn't you stay?"

"You said the answer yourself," I say hating to admit that he had been right about me running. I will admit it though even while hating it because he was right.

"Do you plan on returning there soon?"

"It will protect Karen and I know she would be happier not running. We both know how to survive out in the wild and off of the land. She loved it at home as well. It was her favorite place alongside me. It will be for the best."

"For her or for you?"

"Her," I answer. "My feelings are not of my concern; they aren't allowed to be of my concerned."

"You should think more for yourself."

"I do think for myself, I just don't think of myself."

"What was it like there?"

"I'm not telling you everything."

"Fine," he says heading back upstairs and leaving me alone for the rest of the day.