Blankly I stare off not looking at anything, not reassuring the feel of coldness I should from the sunless, rainy day. I should be able to feel the bliss of being in the rain, but I simply feel it hitting me and rolling off.

"You pathetic excuse for a Darkness Twin!"

"Your choice of leaving her with the Urameshi team was wise, but my Twin is right this is unacceptable." I know that the Light and Darkness Goddesses are talking to me. I can hear the sound of their voices; I just can't hear what they are actually saying.

I've dropped so low. Hiei would be ashamed to call me his mate if he saw me now. That is if he doesn't completely hate me right now. After what I told him how could he not hate me? I told him I found a new mate and ran off again after he went out and searched for me. It had only been three months which is no time to us demons. I bet he hates my guts, I know I do.

I look up without the slightest sliver of emotion towards the two Goddesses. I could see that their lips were still moving, but I couldn't hear anything. Slowly I push myself upwards and turn away from the two Goddesses. I didn't know where I was headed, but I knew I couldn't stay here.

.::Hiei's POV::.

What she said couldn't be real. Desera couldn't have found a new mate already! It's only been three months! How could she have found a new mate already? She doesn't trust people enough! She's to dedicate to her sister for her to have! But yet she left her sister with us…

She couldn't had changed that much? She thinks things out before acting. She wouldn't do anything that stupid unless she thought it was for the best. When she watched them greet Karen she must have seen something and she knows how we can fight. There must be something she has to do so she left Karen with us so she could go off on her own. She just doesn't want us following.

"Hiei, Koenma needs us in his office." Kurama calls out to Hiei from the other side of the bedroom door. Without a word Hiei walks out of his room and slams the door behind him while storming past Kurama without a word.

Once the two of them get to the office Hiei leans up against the door as Kurama joins the others. Hiei didn't even bother heading over to the windowsill as he usually did.

He was filled with so much anger at Desera for running off again, for not even telling him why she was doing this, or what she planning, but most of all for pushing him away instead of bringing him along with her. Above all of that hate was the hurt and anguish that made him feel so weak. He wanted to go out and find Desera. He wanted to hold her again and bring her back to him. He has felt so wrong without her here. He never noticed what a difference she had made around this place, but even the rest of the gang felt it when they the twins left. Karin had always been around, but while Desera was distant towards everyone she formed a bond with everyone in the team and made a place here.

"Karen would you like to tell the rest of the team what you have told me?"

"Of course Keonma," Karen smiles sweetly towards Koenma before turning towards the rest of us. "Both the Darkness and Light Goddess came to me earlier today. Both were very upset with my sister because of her… lack of disregarded would be a nice way of putting what they felt. According to them she told Hiei to have me join you guys because she views this would be safest for me. They are upset with her though because her soul is shattered and she is now just an empty power shell." The calm composer that Karen tried to keep up dropped suddenly as tears begin rolling down her face.

"We have to save her, please! Desera has given her whole life for me. She's protected me and kept me safe our whole life. And now she's broken because she feels she can't do her job properly as long as she's in love. She never admitted it, but I saw it in her soul. She feels conflicted because she knows that she's supposed to protect me, but she wants to love you Hiei!" Hiei's head snaps up looking at Karen in shock. "Hiei she wants to be with you more than anything, but she feels that she can't do that as long as she's the Darkness twin and I'm afraid she's going to do something stupid. The Goddesses even heard her mumble to herself that she'd rather be dead then continue on this path because she's so shattered inside. We have to save her." At this point Karen has already fallen to the ground and is now crying so hard that she can't even speak.

Without a word Hiei turns his back on everyone and leaves.

"You're going after her aren't you?" Hiei turns towards the door where Kurama stood.

"I'm not going to let her kill herself or do something stupid. You've seen what demons can do when their soul is shattered." With that Hiei turns and is about to jump out the window.

"Hiei," Karen calls as she walks up and wraps her arms around his waist stopping him right before he jumps. "Please find her before she does something to herself. I don't care if you bring her back or not. I want her to be free, but just make sure she's ok. You don't have to do it for me, but she needs you." Hiei just looks down at her with a blank look in his eyes.

"If you want to help her go to fox where you belong," with that Hiei turns and leaves the Urameshi team with no intensions of ever coming back.

.::Desera's POV::.

Numbly I look out at the countless dead bodies before me. There was no joy in killing these pathetic weak AA demons. They posed no threat to me, but one attacked.

"Feed," I tell my dark tentacles while I walk around the camp ground.

"You're quiet powerful." I whip around at the sound of a young males voice. Instinct was to kill him, but I look at this teenage demon and stop. I feel paralyzed, but he hasn't done anything or made the slightest move.

"Who's your mate?" Automatically my hand goes up to my right collar bone area where three months and seven days ago Hiei marked me as his.

"No one anymore," I respond with a dead voice.

"I know how that feels. Mine left me about ten years ago." The strange boy pulls his red long sleeved shirt down to reveal where his heart is and a purple rose.

Looking at him I realize why I've wasted so much time with this demon; he had similarities to Hiei. He had black hair that spiked out in odd angels. An aura of deadliness about him, with dark crimson red eyes. From there the similarities end though. He was extremely tan, he carried no weapons with him, and he wore baggy black pants with a red shirt that exposed his shoulders and collar bone and sleeves that end just past his elbow.

"Come on," I motion to my darkness tentacles and turn my back to the odd demon.

"I miss him," I mumble to myself as silent tears slide down my cheeks. Every night since I lied to Hiei I find myself crying myself to sleep. It's so pathetic and I hate how weak I've become because I've lost Hiei, but I can never seem to stop myself from crying once I've started. The pain is so hard bare as I move on day by day. I try not to let myself become so weak, but without Hiei I feel so empty. It was never so hard before, but I always made myself believe that maybe I could get him back, but now I know I'll never be able to be with him ever agian.

"For the Darkness Twin you're acting a lot like the Light Twin." I whip around at the sound of someone's voice poised to kill.

"I'm not here to hurt you; I just know a shattered soul when I see one."

"What does it matter to you," I growl about to kill the odd demon from earlier.

"Because your mate is still out there and with a woman like you I'm sure he's out looking for you now."

"What would make you even believe such a thing?"

"Because you remind me of my mate who left me believing it was the best way to keep me out of harm's way and I'm still out searching for her and I won't give up until the day my mark is gone meaning she's dead or is someone else's." I drop my guard slowly as what he says registers.

He still loves his mate, though she a banded him. If she really was like me as he says she probably even said things to stop him from following her. Yet here he is searching for her and is ready to die in the process, just so long as there is a chance he could find her.

"What's your name?"

"I'll tell you after you eat something." I glare at his refusal to tell me.

"I'm fine."

"When was the last time you ate anything?"

"A little over a month, but I don't need to eat."

"How much?"

Who is this guy? No one ever pesters me this much or even asks how much I ate. People don't even tell me to eat, let alone force me to eat. Hell most people avoid me, yet here he is seeking me out and wanting to help me even. Then again I'm here and he's alive, well, and breathing.

"A small doe." I don't know if he even knows what a doe is, but judging by his response I'm guessing he does.

"That explains why you're pale even for a Darkness Twin. Unfortunately you've killed everything from a five mile radius so you'll have to get food the other way." I look at him blankly to hide my confusion. What other food method was he talking about? "You feed on my soul."

"No." I have done that once and only once and that was only because I could truly have died from the blow. I was hesitant to do that type of feeding with Hiei and so few knew of the move.

"How do you even know about that type of feeding?"

"Because my mate was the last Darkness Twin." I look at him shocked. How could that even be possible if he's been looking for her for 10 years? "It doesn't make sense does it?" I shake my head.

"Duana, was her name. It's very fitting for a Darkness twin since it means darkness. I met her while on the run from the Kings. At first she was going to kill me, but when I ended up protecting them from the guards she decided not to. But the reason you and your sister are the current Darkness and Light Twins is because Duana's sister, Aonani, died one day while we were together. She lost her powers that day and you and your sister were soon born thereafter. For about seven years I was able to keep her happy and bring her out of the fate that befalls upon most twins after her sister's death, but one day she said things that shattered me inside as she left. I've been looking for her ever since." I look at this demon unsure what to feel. I could feel the emotions trying to seep through, but I was so numb I just couldn't quite make them out.

"That is why you won't leave me alone and I remind you of your mate," I conclude as I look at him.

"Your sister is still alive so why did you leave her?"

"She's safer and can be happier with where I left her and she can be with a person that I approve to be the perfect mate for her and that she already loves. She also has max protection and I know no one that I've left her with will let anything happen to her. Plus I know Hiei's with her."

"Your mate is the Forbidden Child?" I nod my head.

"My name is Kaleb by the way."

"Desera," I reply as I stand up."

"Have you done this before? Since you're the mate of the pervious Darkness twin I'll trust you enough to feed from you and I'll help you find her."

"I have and thank you." I nod my head again in response. With a word of warning I close the gap between the two of us and bring my index and pointer finger to his forehead, entering his soul. Immediately I can tell that he's trained in this sort of feeding because he doesn't move anywhere close to my soul.

This is what she looked like. A picture of a purple eyed cat demon with white ears and purple hair appeared in front of me. She seemed kind and caring with mischievousness about her.

She's beautiful, I tell him as I stare at what the past Darkness twin looked like.

Don't let those looks foul you; she could be the most heartless, deadly creature ever to live. He spoke so admiring of her and at this simple thought of her I could see his whole soul brighten. At that moment I decide to pull out of his soul to look at him.

"How do you get through the pain?"

"I think of what Duana would say if she saw me if I was weak and I remind myself that I will find her."

"But I'm not looking for him, I'm running from him."

"I know how interval Darkness Twins can be, but why did you leave your mate?" I hesitate for a moment before I can bring myself to tell him.

"The first time I left was three months ago. We had been on a mission and had to hunt this demon named Stephen Hon. He had tricked me into believe Hiei thought I was cheating on him and now hated me. I had thought I had lost him and took my sister and left. As you've learned us twins are great at running. Six days ago he found me again; he and the whole group had been looking for us. I told him what had happened but he had no clue what I was talking about. The King's army attacked that same moment. Karen, my sister, ran out and was so over whelmed with joy to see everyone again. At that moment I realized that the only thing attracting those demons are me and that no one in the group would let her get hurt and they would be able to protect her. She'd have Kurama, who I know she loves and that he loves her as well. The selfish part of leaving was that I couldn't bare it any more. All my life I've been told I live and exist to protect and make sure at all times Karen is happy. I was never to do anything for myself, but I did. I fell in love with Hiei and that day I left I realized that with Hiei I could never be able to protect Karen properly and that if I had to chose between the two I'm not sure who I would choice. During that time away I also realized I'd never be able to live happily again without him. For a Darkness Twin to care about something as selfish as that I failed at my soul purpose in life." Kaleb didn't say a single word; somehow he just knew that there was nothing he could say to make it better or easier on me. Instead he just wrapped his arms around me and pulled me close knowing already that I was near tears.

.::Hiei's POV::.

I can't get a grasp on Desera's aura and my only lead it that she's somewhere in the Makai realm. For five days now I've been traveling without any sleep searching for Desera, but showing up empty handed. During one of those days I've found an army of the King's men dead, but the blood was soaked up by the ground and weren't killed by sword so it couldn't have been Desrea.