Sweet child of mine chapter 5

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"I was watched the whole time I was in heaven, and I knew that I couldn't step one foot out of line. I had rebelled once and I knew there where certain angel's just waiting for me to do it again. And I knew that there would be no more second chances if I disobeyed again I would be dead. There are not many things an angel is afraid of but that is one thing we all fear. When a human dies they get to move on to heaven to live in paradise but when an angel dies we are just gone. So I was going to fight all my new found emotions and guilt at leaving you on earth alone and do as my father ordered until Sammy called."

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Cas sat back on the bed and thought long and hard about the night Sam had called him back to earth and how it had changed his life forever. He knew he had to approach the subject carefully as he didn't want to reveal too much to the hunter. Sam had told so many things that night that the angel had never revealed to anyone…Not even Dean.

"Dean there is so much I wish I could tell you about that night but I cant…I do not wish to risk the future when we all have so much to loose.." Cas said while looking between Dean and his sleeping son.

"I will tell you what I can and then I have to rest Dean." Cas told him and it was true he did need to.

Angel's do not normally sleep but Cas was not all angel anymore… And that was something he needed to remember when they finally got some kind of plan together to save Sammy. He had always been one to rush in and consider the consequences later; he had relied on his angel powers far too much before he fell. But now he was as good as mortal and should not put himself in foolish danger. Cas knew that the instinct to protect Dean would still be running as strongly through him as it always had done. He had been responsible for Dean's safety and well being ever since he had pulled him out of hell… And he would always do everything within his limited power to make sure the hunter came to as little harm as possible. But that was the problem he did have limited powers at least the other Cas would be there and he knew that like himself no harm would come to Dean with him around.

"Its ok Cas just fill me in on what I need to know and skip the boring parts I really need food at some point today."

Cas looked at the dirty grey carpet guiltily he couldn't believe he had forgotten even the most basic human need .when was the last time Dean had eaten? It must have been a hell of a long time ago given the angry sounds coming from his stomach.

"Dean I can hear your stomach from all the way over here I think you should go and get something to eat now. You need to keep your strength up if we are going to get your brother back." He could see the protest written all over the hunters face… But Dean had taken care of him and his son for long enough, now it was time Dean looked out for Dean.

"I will be ok for a little while longer…" Dean said although Cas could see the discomfort the young man was feeling with every growl his stomach made.

"Dean just go please you need to eat and I need rest. I need you to be strong enough to get Sam back if baby Samuel and I are going to be able to make it back to our own time alive so we don't have to keep looking over our shoulder when we do get back home. Please Dean just do this one thing for me without us having fight. You can wake me as soon as you get back and I will tell you everything you need to know then I promise." Dean could see from the look in the angel eyes that if they where to fight over this there was no way on earth he was going to win.

"Ok Cas you win." Dean told him as he picked up his coat and keys and left the room muttering. "Stupid freaking hormonal angel's meant to be a Daddy but he sure as hell acts like a freaking mommy!" If only he knew…..

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The minute Cas heard the Impala leave the car lot he lay down on the bed. Even though he was bone tired he didn't think he would be able to sleep but as soon as he closed his eyes he was out dreaming of the night Sammy called to him…

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When Castiel had become human he had hoped and prayed so many times to be returned home but now here he was back amongst his family and he almost wished to be human again. He had spent all day watching Dean and he knew sooner or later he would be caught and he would be in more trouble then he could handle, but he couldn't even be bothered to care. "Let them catch me" he thought to himself because he knew that no matter what the punishment would be, if he could he would be right back to watching the young hunter.

Castiel just didn't understand why he couldn't watch over Dean he had done more for him then any other angel had done for a human in centuries. He had pulled him from the pits of hell and fought along side him in more battles then he could remember didn't that count for anything? All he wanted to do was make sure Dean was safe after all that was his job wasn't it? What he had been sent to earth to do…

When he had been caught watching over Dean the last time he knew he had pushed his luck as far as it could go. He was summoned before Raguel and given what was to be his final warning.

"Castiel you have always been a good obedient angel why has this changed? Why do I keep being told you are watching over the Winchester boy? This must stop now it is unacceptable for an angel to have such an attachment to one human when there are so many more out there that need your help…"

He just looked down at the ground, he knew there where more people out there that needed his help and watching Dean day after day as he grieved for Sam was just punishing himself but he just couldn't help it.

"Castiel you haven't answered my question." Raguel told him anger evident in his voice.

"I can feel his pain…" What else could the angel say? It was the truth he could feel Deans pain and it almost too much for him to bare.

"You cannot feel his pain! We are angels and as such we do not feel. Emotions are for the humans. I think you spent far too much time with the Winchesters down there and I think they corrupted you. So I have no other choice… you may not return to earth until you prove to me that you are worthy my brother."

Well if angels could not feel emotions he didn't know what was happening to him now. He was in the process of going through at least three that he knew of now, he was furious how dare they tell him what he could or could not feel.

And he was hurt that even after everything he had been through to protect the Winchesters they just dismissed what he felt for Dean as 'an unacceptable attachment'

But most of all he felt betrayed how could they pass judgement on him? It had been him that had stopped Uriel when he had been killing of the other angels, it was he that had stopped him trying to force every good angel to go rogue and join Lucifer. He had done his job on earth and also done Raguels's for him, it was after all his job to keep the angels on the right path not Castiel's but still he placed his judgement on him.

'Until I am worthy' how dare he deem me not worthy? I went through hell and back for my father and if anyone was worthy it was me.

After that day the angel had taken extra precautions he couldn't afford to be found out again. But he didn't need to see Dean to feel him…. Oh no all he had to do was concentrate hard.

Cas could feel it now, the gentle pull from Dean and the pain he was constantly in. The angel was so caught up in Dean and his pain he almost missed the voice as it called to him.

"Castiel"

The voice that had been calling Castiel sounded so like Sam it hurt him to hear it. So he tried to make himself busy and ignored it but it just continued calling getting louder and more urgent.

"Castiel please I need your help…"

After ten minutes he felt like his head would explode, the voice just wouldn't leave him alone. He knew it had to be another angel as no human's voice could call to him that clearly, not even Dean… What upset Cas though was the he knew the voice was coming from earth, somewhere very near the hunter and he knew he couldn't leave heaven to check up on the him and make sure that whom ever was calling was of no threat to Dean.

"I do not know who you are or what you want from me. Just leave me alone now or god help me I will make you." Castiel told the voice loud and clear. And he thought it had worked for all of five minutes.

"Castiel it's me Sam please answer me Dean needs you." The voice said so loudly in his head he dropped to his knees in pain. It really, truly did sound like Sam. But it couldn't be Samuel Winchester was dead.

"You cannot be Samuel he is Dead and if you go anywhere near Dean you will be to!" He told the voice with as much authority as he could.

"Cas just get your feathery angel ass down here now." The voice boomed and the angel felt himself being pulled through the air and towards the voice. And it left Castiel afraid no normal angel had that kind of power.

As he felt the pull to earth he began to worry…What if there where humans around? He had no vessel and humans couldn't take seeing him in his true form. And almost as if he had been reading his mind the other voice spoke.

"Don't worry Cas I have Jimmy here and he is more then willing to help you again." But Cas was being pulled far to fast into a quiet suburban area to voice any of the objections he had to using poor jimmy again. All he needed to know was the answer to one simple question.

"Is this what you want Jimmy?" And he just hoped he would get the answer he needed now because it was almost too late to stop his fall and people where bound to get hurt if his vessel said no.

"YES"

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Sam never meant to pull the angel so hard… He was still trying to get a handle on all the new powers he had acquired. He had started off trying to talk to the angel but he just wouldn't listen. Hell if he had been Cas he wouldn't have listened either how often does a dead friend call for your help? But he needed him here; he had things he needed to tell the angel but most of all he needed his help to reunite with Dean. There was no way in hell his brother would think he was him. No he would assume he was Lucifer escaped from his pit. Oh yeah and he knew just what his brother would do when he saw him… He would try and kill him.

Sam was pulled out of his thoughts when he heard Jimmy yell yes and in the next moment he saw Cas as he truly was just before he entered Jimmy's body. His first reaction to the sight of Cas falling towards him was to cover his eyes but as he looked he realised it caused him no pain. He couldn't believe he had just seen the angel in his true form he was beautiful…

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"Brother!" looking at Sam in disgust, it hurt Sam to see his friend looking at him with such hate filled eyes.

"Cas it's me Sam." The look on the angels Face told him that he wasn't ready to throw Sam a welcome home party just yet.

"Have you come to finish the job you failed to do last time we met? Because I can warn you if you take even one step towards that house I will make sure it is the last step you ever take."

Sam knew that the angel meant every word. Dean was in that house and he knew Cas would do everything he could to protect Dean. That's why Sam was here with him now… He had to warn him before it was too late.

"Cas honestly it is me Sam and I am here to help Dean not hurt him I promise you. Take a harder look at me use your senses and you will see I am telling you the truth."

It had been a long time since Cas had used his powers this way and he was nervous because he had to totally let his guard down and leave himself vulnerable. He took a few steps back and relaxed looking straight at Sam using his powers to search him.

The first thing he noticed was that the person in front of him was not completely human, hardly human at all he thought to himself as he searched the young hunter. Second was that there wasn't even a trace of evil lurking anywhere. This was Sam he could feel it now not just someone using him as a vessel like Cas did with Jimmy. The most startling thing though was that Samuel Winchester was now an angel.

"Sam?" The angel asked while looking at him with his head tilted a look of confusion on his face. And Sam could understand that he had been confused as well.

"It's good to see you again Cas." Sam told him and he meant it, god it was so good to be around someone he knew.

"And you Samuel" Cas told him taking a few steps closer.

"Cas there is so much I have to tell you and so little time but I need to ask something before we talk… Can the hear us?" Sam asked as he pointed up towards the dark starry sky.

"Not if we do not wish them to." He said and that was just fine with Sam there was not a chance he wanted them to hear what he had to tell Cas.

"I think you may want to sit down for this Cas." Sam told him as he pointed to a bench just inside the small park across the road from Dean's house.

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They had been Sat on the bench for almost an hour by the time Sam had explained how he came to be back amongst the land of the living. Cas had listened to every word without interruption as he told him how Death had rescued him from the pit. Sam could only hope that he would be this cooperative when he told him all the other things he needed to.

"I told you I been back two months and I… Well… I have been having visions since the first night I was returned. They started out pretty vague and some of them still are… But some are so vivid I feel like I am really there and some are that bad Cas that I just want to die again just so I don't have to see them again."

The angel was sat looking at Sam with eyes that showed such compassion that Sam wanted to bawl like the newborn baby he had seen in Cas's future.

"I wish I could tell you just what all of them mean but I am not sure myself. But one of the visions is really strong and comes to me every night and it is to do with you…. Cas you need to get out of heaven and stay off their radar, There are very few angels left up there that you can trust Uriel did a better job turning them then you thought. Cas they have a plan for you!"

Cas didn't look that surprised and that shocked Sam to his core.

"I thought they may have though I don't claim to know what it is." Sam took a deep breath he needed to calm himself before he continued…He had no idea how he should break the news to the angel.

"Some of the angels are royally pissed that their plan to use Lucifer failed and they hold you accountable .They think you should pay for it and they will make sure you do in the worst possible way…. They are going to make you fall and they will stop at nothing to make it happen…If there plan succeeds you will become the next Lucifer."

Castiel looked truly shocked; what ever he thought they had planned for him couldn't have come close to what Sam had told him. Sam could see the angel open and close his mouth a few times trying to say something but couldn't get it out.

"There is more if you don't want to know now I understand."

"No I want to know now Sam. I need to know what we are up against." And he was right to want to know but the problem was could Sam get through telling him? Did he want to relive that little snap shot of a vision again? He didn't know if he could if he wanted to keep his sanity.

"This vision was a little vague but I saw you in a motel room with Dean you where sat on the bed together you where holding a child when angels burst in the door and Dean…" 'Hold yourself together Sam' he told himself as he felt the tears threatening to fall from his eyes. Taking a seep breath he tried to continue.

"Dean jumped in front of you just as one of the Angels attacked and the next thing he was down on the ground…. Something snapped in you I could feel it and you placed the now screaming child on the bed next to where Dean fell. You took out your knife and laid waste to every angel in the room they didn't even stand a chance. The next thing I saw was you on the floor with Dean in your arms trying to heal him and crying because no matter what you did you couldn't get him to stop bleeding. He died there on the floor in your arms"

Sam stopped as he felt the angels arm go around his shoulders and couldn't help the tears that fell from his eyes.

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Castiel heard Deans car pull up outside the room but he was slow to open his eyes. He tried to rid himself of the dream that had brought back all the pain he had felt when Dean had died…

"Hi honey I'm home." Dean said as he walked through the door. Castiel was about to open his eyes when he heard something that almost stopped his heart.

"Oh hey Cas I'm glad you came back…Have you come to hear the rest of the story?" Oh god no Castiel silently cursed himself, How didn't he sense he was here?

"I think I know all I need to know already." He said as he left the room. He knew he shouldn't have invaded his future self's dream but he knew everything now and he would make sure he was ready.

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