It was late at night when Altaïr entered angry in his room, hitting the door behind himself. Quickly he take off his mantle and hood and threw it on the floor strongly...

"Stupid..." He said for himself "Idiot…"

Passing his hands on his hair and face, he sighed... he couldn't do anything now and knew he would have to wait until tomorrow to talk with Maria... sighing again, he tried to calm down...

Altaïr sat on his bed, but knew he was too wired up to get any sleep… if he would be able to sleep it would be later… right now, he had to do something and soon was pondering about exercises and writing…

Getting up, he picked up his journal and walked to his desk. Puling the chair, he sat down heavily and sighed. Then, picked up some ink and began to write…

Masyaf, 09 of October, 1191:

I can't believe in what I had done... but let's go back from the beginning...

After Safita, Maria had decided to come with me to Masyaf... from all the ways I had thought about trying to talk to her into coming with me, all it took was a menace of a Templar attack…

Well, let's see... we were on the way to Masyaf, when she started to do some questions, personal questions... it took me by surprise... I never thought about saying this things... I was quite reserved about my life... and I never thought she was so open... maybe, that's why I believed...

Well, after we arrived and had the reunion at the library, I took her to the women dorm. Arriving there, I didn't entered, but I talked to Aisha, the oldest woman there, to arrange a bed to Maria sleep at nights... I wanted her to be on one of the rooms of my quarters, but as she said it wouldn't be accepted by the others Assassins... Aisha promptly accepted my request and after Maria and I went to dinner... at the table we met the other members of the counsels: Malik, Raouf, Afif, Kalil and Farid... Malik, was still suspicious, at Maria and glanced at her a few times... I didn't say anything, but noticed that... I'll have a word with him afterwards...

After dinner, Maria and I had decided to go to the garden, behind the fortress... as it was night, we couldn't see the mountains or the valley below, but the garden was still illuminated by the torches and was still beautiful...

Maria looked around.

"It's beautiful..." She said. I nodded. "By chance, this is where Aisha the others women stay for you and the others Assassins?"

"Yeah..." I said, looking away and feeling my face redden… but I couldn't lie, she already knew that…

"And have you already done with someone?" She asked a few seconds later…

I just looked shocked at her.

"Close your mouth Altaïr you'll get flies on that…" She said sarcastically.

Seconds later, I just exploded...

"What kind of question is that?" I asked, my voice loud.

She jumped behind, scared...

"Sorry, I... sorry…" She said, starting to walk way.

But when she turned, I picked her hand. She looked back at me…

"Why do you want to know?" I asked.

"I'm just curious... you don't need to answer it if you don't want…" She said, turning around. "But If it's any comfort, when I was a Templar, I had a strongly intuition that several men wanted me, despite me passing by a man…"

I sighed and calmed down... looking away I said:

"Yeah, but it was just sex, but I never loved any of them as…" I said, but stopped myself before I could do any more damage…

Maria smiled.

"Ah, there is a woman who makes the heart of the Assassin beat faster, then…." She said.

I looked away but she knew that my silence confirmed it. She smiled.

"Good night, Altaïr…" She said.

But, as I didn't want her to go away, I did the last thing we both expected: I kissed her, hard!

As she fought to get away from my grip, I relaxed and started to kiss her more gently… Maria relaxed too and started to kiss me back at first, then she just pulled away…

I saw she was shocked and her eyes to get moisten ...

"Maria..." I said, but she just went away.

I turned to the side and punched the low walls of the garden with the sides of my hands, hard. I didn't care for the pain I felt on my hands…

"Shit…" I said out loud, then I came here, to the dorm…

That's what happened and now I'm alone and feeling angry at myself...

Altaïr stopped writing and looked to nowhere... after, he got up and walked to his bed, knowing very well he would get any sleep Tonight…