Thank you all for your lovely reviews they make me smile.
Gosh this one's a little sad too...there should be some good times coming up though!
Sorry if my editing isn't that great I didn't have time to properly proof read, I started a new job and I've been super busy.
~~~ Depressing Times ~~~
Later that day Sofia found herself sitting in a dark and dank bar downing her sixth drink in the last two hours. After collecting herself she drove out of the hospital and just went as far away as she could before she stumbled across this place and decided that she could just drink away her pain.
She didn't know what to do. She had not planned for something like this to happen. She didn't know how to tell Grace, she didn't know how to tell her parents she just didn't know.
She slammed down her empty drink and demanded a new one. The bartender was hesitant to serve her because someone looking that sad drinking so much in a short amount of time was never good.
"Honey I'm cutting you off" She told Sofia
"Give me my damn drink!" Sofia slurred
"No, and if you're gonna start something I'm gonna call the cops" She warned her
Sofia huffed in frustration and slumped in her chair furiously whipping away the new tears that had begun to fall. The bartender looked on and couldn't help but feel sorry for the poor woman.
"Is there someone I can call for you, to come pick you up?" She softly asked
Sofia just shook her head. The woman behind the bar noticed Sofia's wedding ring and suggested.
"What about your husband?"
Sofia just shook her head again
"I don't want Grace right now" She mumbled
When the bartender looked confused Sofia explained
"I have a wife. Not a husband"
"Oh...well I'm sure she would be worried about you"
Sofia didn't reply she just grabbed her phone out, pressed a few buttons then slid it over to the woman behind the bar.
"Call her" Sofia instructed
"Alright" The woman nodded before she picked up the phone and dialled the number.
About half an hour later an annoyed blonde came barging into the bar with a disgusted look of her face the place was a real dive. She quickly scanned the room until she found what she was looking for. Becky marched up to the half passed out Latina and demanded to know what the hell is going on.
"Sofia what the hell?" Becky pretty much yelled
"I needed a drink" Sofia mumbled
"It's three o'clock in the afternoon" Becky reminded her
Sofia just shrugged as if to say 'so what?'
"I'm calling Grace" Becky huffed and pulled out her phone.
Sofia moved quickly to take it away from the blonde and shoved it down her top. Becky just looked annoyed.
"Sofia, I will take my phone from your boobs if you don't give it back" Becky told her
"I don't want Grace right now" Sofia slurred
"Why? Sofia what is going on?" Becky asked now getting worried
The brunette was close to tears again by this point. Becky took a seat next to her friend and gently wrapped her arm around her shoulders. Sofia was like her Mami she could get emotional when drunk but right now Becky had never seen her look so sad.
"What happened?" Becky asked
"I...I c-can't have kids" Sofia broke down as she explained why she couldn't get pregnant.
Becky sat there a little shocked, she felt terrible for her friend. She knew how much Sofia wanted children, how she wanted to be the one to experience pregnancy and have a big family. Becky instantly felt guilty for all the times she had mocked Sofia about being barren while they had their 'fights' or told her she'd be a terrible mother. She didn't believe it at all. She knew without a doubt Sofia would be an excellent parent. It's why she was Max and Cooper's God mother after all. Becky pulled the crying girl into a tight embrace she didn't know what to say at a time like this so she just hoped her presence could be some kind of comfort for Sofia.
~~~ We Are Family ~~~
Maya and Toby stood side by side in the kitchen as they prepared the food for dinner that night. Ally was sitting by the counter helping too and telling them about her day and how she found a worm in the garden. Maya and Toby listened to the little girl and just smiled at how adorable she was.
Maya handed the chopped carrots over to Ally who put them into the pot ready to be cooked. She pulled a face at the vegetable making Maya laugh.
"I don't like carrots" Ally grumbled
"Carrots are good for you though." Maya told her
"But they're yucky" Ally cringed
"JellyBean likes her carrots" Toby added
"But that's because she hasn't eated lollipops yet" Ally replied
"And she never will. Lollipops aren't good for horses" Maya told her
"That's sad" Ally frowned
"I'm sure JellyBean doesn't mind" Toby chuckled
Maya placed the knife into the sink and turned the stove on while Toby finished cleaning up.
"Ally sweetie can you clean up the table and put your toys away please?" Maya softly asked
"Ok mommy" Ally replied and did as she was told.
Like before it totally blind sighted Maya to hear Ally call her mommy. She tentatively looked over to Toby who stood there a little frozen and clearly stunned by that outburst. It was an awkward few seconds before either of them moved or said anything.
"Did she just?" Toby asked
Maya hesitantly nodded
Toby didn't really know what to say.
"She um...she did it before. I didn't say anything because I wasn't sure if I heard it right and then I thought it was just an accident." Maya quickly explained
Toby just nodded
"Are you mad? We should probably talk to her about it so she doesn't get confused." Maya spoke fast
"I'm not mad" Toby finally replied
"You're not?" Maya asked in confusion
"Why would I be?"
"W-Well...I mean...you're her daddy and I'm...I'm just the woman who lives with you" Maya quietly spoke
Toby moved over to stand close to Maya. He gently brought his hand up to caress her cheek. It had taken a long time for Maya to stop flinching whenever Toby or anybody touched her. But she was getting better and was finally starting to feel more comfortable with physical contact.
"You're more than just a woman who lives with us." Toby spoke softly.
Maya looked into his eyes and like always she felt safe and loved.
"You're the woman I love and the woman Ally loves. I know you love her too" He continued
"I do...I love her so much. I love you just as much as well" Maya replied
"Then I'm not mad that she calls you mommy. As long as you're ok with it...I am too" Toby told her sincerely
"But what if..." Maya couldn't finish her question
"I lost you once Maya...I don't plan on losing you again" Toby replied.
Maya just nodded as a few tears began to fall Toby just gently wiped them away with his thumb and gave her a small smile. Maya took a deep breath before she slowly moved forward and closed the gap between them. It was the first time they had kissed properly since the Halloween party and it just felt right. It felt like home.
~~~ Mrs. Lopez-Pierce ~~~
Brittany came home from work that afternoon feeling great. She had discussed her ideas with Rachel about using some of her Glee kids in her Cheerleading routines and Rachel was more than happy to help as we're some of her kids. Unlike New Directions and the Cheerios Brittany's Sharks and Rachel's Golden Stars weren't fighting against each other. They were both pretty popular within the school and being in both was never an issue. It probably helped that Brittany and Rachel were so close and worked well with each other.
Brittany placed her bag by the front door and took her jacket off. It always amused her that after all those years of mocking Coach Sylvester for always wearing tracksuits she herself ended up doing the exact same thing. Only she thought she looked way better than Sue.
Just in her track pants and white tank top Brittany headed to the kitchen for a drink. She passed the living room and was a little startled to see her wife sitting there with Emily. She apparently didn't notice their cars outside.
"Hey baby" Santana smiled brightly and then got up to kiss her wife briefly on the lips.
Emily looked away and tried not to feel uncomfortable.
"Hey. You're home early" Brittany replied softly.
"Yeah I just wanted to get out of the office as soon as possible." Santana grumbled
Brittany just nodded and then gave Emily the smallest of smiles.
"Hello Emily"
Emily quickly looked up and tried not to look like a scared owl with her eyes wide in fear.
"Um...h-hello Mrs. Lopez-Pierce" She stuttered
Brittany tried not to giggle at the poor girl so she just gave her a small nod.
"Ok well I'll leave you two to it. I'm gonna go get dinner ready." Brittany informed them
"Alright. We shouldn't be too long" Santana replied.
Brittany entered the kitchen and looked for something to make for tea that night. Every now and then she looked over into the living room and couldn't help but smile approvingly at the distance kept between her wife and her assistant unlike last time Emily was pretty much hanging off Santana's arm. This time around she was sitting opposite her wife with the coffee table between them.
~~~ Young Love ~~~
Charlie and Ben were up in Charlie's room resting on her bed together cuddled up as they talked quietly about their day.
"How was rehearsals?" Charlie asked
"Good...better. Your advice really helped." Ben replied
"Of course it did" Charlie smiled
Ben just laughed and nodded
"Have you heard back from any of the auditions?" He then asked
Charlie's smile faded a little as she shook her head.
"Hey don't worry ok. It's only been a day and I'm sure you'll hear from one of them" Ben softly encouraged her.
Charlie just nodded and cuddled up closer to her boyfriend. Ben wrapped her up in his arms and placed several sweet kisses on her head. These sweet kisses soon turned into more as Charlie tilted her head up to capture his lips with her own. They shuffled down on the bed so they were lying down with Charlie hovering above him. She gently ran her hands through his dark hair she kind of missed his blonde hair now and couldn't wait for him to go back to his natural colour.
Ben was getting better at not being so nervous whenever he and Charlie made out. His movements became less shaky and more confident she still made him nervous but in a good way.
Charlie began to slowly rock her body against Ben's as their kisses grew deeper and more frantic. Ben pulled away panting and needing air.
"Are your moms home?" He asked
"No" Charlie shook her head while catching her breath.
"Ok then" Ben mumbled before he went back to kissing Charlie.
~~~ Night Out ~~~
Rachel stood by Quinn's desk as she and Mercedes chatted while they waited for Quinn to finish with a client in the other room. The couple had decided to go out for dinner that night for a change. They hadn't gone out in a long time just the two of them so both were looking forward to some alone time.
"Have you spoken to your dad recently?" Mercedes asked
Rachel nodded
"He said he was doing fine but I know this is just killing him. I really wish he would come live here" Rachel replied sadly
"Next time you speak to him tell him were all thinking of him and he's in our prayers" Mercedes replied
Rachel nodded and gave her friend a soft smile.
"How are you doing?" Mercedes then asked
"I'm getting there" Rachel sighed
Mercedes nodded and then decided to change the subject so Rachel wasn't all sad.
"So Quinn tells me you two have a special evening planned tonight"
Rachel smiled and nodded.
"It's been a while since we went out together. It'll be nice" She added
"Do you know where you're going?" Mercedes then asked
"No, Quinn wants to surprise me apparently" Rachel chuckled
"Aw...after thirty years you guys are still so adorable."
"Thank you Mercedes" Rachel smiled brightly
Her friend just laughed. Quinn finally came out of the small meeting room with their new client. She was a tall gorgeous brunette with legs that went for miles and her body was like a super model...in fact she actually was a super model. She smiled sweetly and thanked Mercedes and Quinn for their help and hospitality and informed them that she couldn't wait for her new place to be finished. Rachel watched the entire exchange and couldn't help but notice her wife grinning like a fool and blushing like a school girl with a crush. Rachel just rolled her eyes and shook her head at how obvious her wife was being right now. Once the woman was gone Quinn bounced over to her wife and kissed her on the lips.
"Oh so now you notice me" Rachel faked her anger
Quinn's face fell.
"What do you mean? I always notice you" She replied with a small pout.
Mercedes just chuckled from her spot by her desk as she subtly watched the pair.
"You were drooling all over that woman Quinn. I'm surprised you could see anything but her ass" Rachel added
"I was not drooling" Quinn argued
"I don't even remember the last time you looked at me like that" Rachel huffed and crossed her arms over her chest.
Quinn just looked super confused and Rachel tried her hardest not to start giggling at how flustered the blonde was getting as she tried to reassure her that she wasn't looking.
"I swear! I...I wasn't! She was just...super nice and...and I have to be nice too because it's my job. I need to bring in the clients and Rachel baby you know I think you're the most beautiful person in the whole world. I love everything about you. Your smile, your eyes, your boobs...especially your boobs! A-And your thighs and...and the way you love me." Quinn just kept going.
Mercedes and Rachel shared a quick look but that was enough to set them off into laughing their asses off. Quinn stopped her rambling and looked confused.
"Oh sweetie I was just kidding." Rachel said between her laughs.
Quinn got it now and was not impressed.
"Aww don't pout...those things you said were really sweet" Rachel chuckled
"You guys are mean" Quinn grumbled
"You're just too easy Q" Mercedes replied with a shit eating grin
"Yeah we'll you're fired and Rachel I don't even want to take you out anymore" Quinn replied
"Mmhm ok one I'm a partner of this company so you can't fire me and two..."
"We are going out" Rachel finished.
Quinn just grumbled to herself as she pouted.
Quinn's mood soon changed though as she and Rachel got into the car and she drove them to the restaurant. Rachel reached over to take her wife's hand as the blonde drove and placed their joined hands into her lap making Quinn smile a little.
"How was your day?" Quinn asked
"Good...though we seem to be having some drama with a few of my students" Rachel replied
"Oh?"
"Yeah apparently there are some issues between Bethany, Samara and Andy" Rachel replied
"Love triangle?" Quinn asked
"Who knows...all I know is that Samara is even more cranky than usual and I'm half expecting some kind of blow out" Rachel sighed
"Aww...teenagers...gotta love them" Quinn chuckled
"Thank god Charlie won't be one for much longer and the other two are adults now."
"We deserve some kind of award for getting through their teenage years" Quinn replied as she made the turn off for the restaurant.
Rachel just chuckled
"We were pretty lucky though. I mean yes there were a few times when it went a little sour but I think all and all they weren't so bad" Rachel replied
"I guess...I mean none of them turned into druggies and got pregnant at 16 or got into too much trouble" Quinn added
"I think we done good" Rachel added with a smile
Quinn parked the car and cut the engine before she leaned over to kiss her wife.
"We done good" She quietly agreed.
~~~ The Fine Art Of Poisoning ~~~
Brittany was ready to dish up dinner as she came into the living room to inform her wife. She was still working with Emily but it was getting late so Brittany thought it was time to stop for the day.
"San dinners ready"
"Hmm? Oh ok" Santana looked up from her laptop.
Emily scrambled to start packing stuff up trying not to be a burden.
"I've made enough...if you want you can stay Emily" Brittany offered
This surprised both Santana and Emily. Her wife gave her a questioning look to which Brittany ignored and just waited for Emily's reply.
"Um..."
"It's nothing special just some lasagne" Brittany added
"I..."
"Great! I'll set up a plate for you" Brittany smiled then headed back to the kitchen.
Emily looked a little scared.
"I mean no offense but...is your wife planning on poisoning me?" Emily whispered to Santana
"Honestly...I'm not sure...but just to be safe if you smell almonds...don't eat it" Santana replied
"Ook?"
"Cyanide smalls like almonds" Santana explained with a shrug
Emily's face paled which made Santana laugh.
"Don't worry. You'll be fine" She patted her on the back before she headed into the kitchen.
~~~ Confessions ~~~
After making sure Sofia wasn't going to go and do something stupid Becky dropped her off back at home before she headed home herself. Hannah gave her a questioning look wanting to know why she was home so late. Becky just replied with a look that said 'I'll tell you later'.
After dinner and putting the kids to bed Hannah made it her mission to find out why was going on. For a while now she had noticed a change in her wife. She seemed sadder or more quiet than usual. It worried her. At first she thought it was just because of Leroy's death but it wasn't that because it had started before that. And now she was coming home late and being kinda secretive...it kinda worried her.
Becky was sitting up going over some stuff for work when Hannah came in and settled down in their bed next to her wife. She waited patiently for Becky to finish whatever it was she was doing before she turned to look at her with questioning eyes.
"What's up?" Becky asked with a hint of nervousness.
"I was gonna ask you the same thing" Hannah replied
"I don't know what you're talking about" Becky stated as she put her stuff on the floor next to the bed.
"Bec...don't play games. What's going on with you lately?" Hannah asked
Becky sighed and thought carefully about what she was going to say. It wasn't like she wanted to keep things from her wife. She just didn't want her wife to get into trouble. She was far too pretty for jail.
"Promise you won't get mad?" Becky asked
"Why would I get mad?" Hannah replied
"Han just promise me"
"Fine, I won't get mad" The Aussie sighed impatiently
Becky then told her about her plan. How she sneaked into Valerie's classroom looking for something, anything incriminating. Hannah was none too pleased to hear about that.
"Did you find anything?" Hannah then asked
Becky took a shaky breath and nervously fidgeted with her hands before she finally told her wife what she had found.
"I found a bottle of pills...it...it was rohypnol" Becky quietly spoke
She looked over at her wife who hadn't responded or reacted to that.
"It's-"
"I know what it is" Hannah replied
Becky was worried. By this point Hannah would have exploded and went off about how she was going to murder Valerie while she slept but right now she just sat there.
"Hannah?"
The brunette looked at her wife, really looked at her.
"Were you...did she?" Hannah finally spoke her voice was soft and full of worry
For the first time Becky really thought about that night. About how some parts of it were fuzzy, there were things she couldn't remember. Like how she got home or what she and Valerie specifically did together. She knows they had sex but she can't really remember how or what they did. She had always put it down to being drunk. That it was the alcohol that blurred the lines but now...now she wasn't so sure. She remembers going into her office to get ready to go home, she remembers finding Valerie there and she remembers telling her that she was happily married.
"I don't know" Becky finally answered.
The sad part is she will never know for sure. It's way too late to test it, her memory is too fuzzy to remember and Valerie wouldn't tell the truth if her life depended on it.
Hannah felt sick. She felt angry. She felt a lot of things.
"I'm sorry I didn't tell you sooner" Becky broke the silence
Hannah just shook her head and pulled her wife in for a tight embrace. Holding her close and never wanting to let go. Becky couldn't help but well up as she held onto Hannah.
"I'm sorry Becky" Hannah sobbed
The blonde looked confused as she pulled back to see her wife in tears.
"I'm sorry for what I did to you" Hannah continued as her tears began to fall.
"You didn't do anything" Becky quickly replied as she wiped her wife's tears away.
"Yes I did. I...I kicked you out, I was so horrible to you...I...I filed for divorce!" Hannah replied getting upset.
"Hannah please don't do this to yourself." Becky pleaded
"How can I not? Bec you were..."
"We don't know for sure, we'll never know for sure" Becky cut her off sadly
"But there's a possibility." Hannah replied
"I know" Becky replied as her own tears began to fall.
Hannah pulled her wife in for another hug. The two sat there wrapped up in each other for a long time as they tried to process what just happened.
"She needs to pay for this Becky. I swear to god I will make sure she pays for this" Hannah broke the silence.
"Hannah please don't do anything stupid. I'm not losing you." Becky replied with a hint of desperation.
~~~ Date Night ~~~
After their lovely meal Quinn took Rachel out for a drive. They didn't feel like going home just yet so they just drove around with no real destination in mind. Well at least Rachel didn't have one in mind but apparently Quinn did when she parked the car and gave her wife a mischievous grin. Rachel looked around out of the car windows when it finally dawned on her where Quinn had taken them. She couldn't help but giggle to herself.
"Really Quinn?" She quirked an eyebrow
"What? We haven't been here in years" Quinn replied innocently
"Don't you think we're a little old to be here?" Rachel asked
"Never!" Quinn replied in horror
"Sweetheart we're fifty years old we do not need to be at Make Out Point" Rachel softly giggled
"Yes we do! Now get into the back seat I want to have my way with you" Quinn smirked
"I don't know…I mean you haven't even offered me your letterman jacket yet. And did you even bring protection? I can't get pregnant I'm a rising star" Rachel replied
Quinn just grinned and played along
"I'm sorry…I'll give you my letterman after I drop you home…and as for protection…trust me" Quinn replied with a smirk
Rachel couldn't help but laugh at that.
"I don't know…it's getting late and my dads…" Rachel stopped and her smile faded as she realised what she had said.
Quinn grabbed her wife's hand and held it close to her.
"Rach?"
"I'm sorry…I just…I miss him Quinn" Rachel replied sadly
"I know." Quinn replied softly as she brought her hand up to Rachel's cheek gently stroking it with her thumb.
"We can go home if you want" Quinn then suggested
Rachel shook her head and took a few deep breaths to stop the tears that threatened to come.
"Can we just…can we just sit under the stars for a little while?" She asked quietly
"Of course" Quinn replied with a small kiss to her wife's cheek.
Quinn got out of the car and grabbed the spare blanket that she always had in the trunk. She threw it over the hood of the car and then opened Rachel's door taking her hand and helped her out. They climbed up on top of the hood and snuggled up together as they looked up into the night sky.
~~~ Shit Hitting The Fan ~~~
Sofia came home late that night to a worried Grace who had been messaging her wanting to know when she would be home. Sofia was still a little intoxicated but after Becky made her drink a lot of water and coffee and even doused her with icy cold water she sobered up a little.
Sofia didn't say much that night and Grace was getting more and more concerned but didn't saying thing. After dinner Sofia sat herself down on the couch and just stared at the TV. Grace came over and sat next to her taking her hand.
"Sofia what's wrong?" She finally asked
"Nothing" She mumbled it was barely audible
"Sofia...please talk to me"
She didn't reply
"Did something happen at the hospital? Was it a patient?" Grace asked.
Sofia just shook her head she couldn't stop the tears that began to form in her eyes. Grace was at a loss. She hated seeing Sofia in pain or upset. She wrapped her arms around her wife and kissed her temple. That's when Sofia cried again that day.
"Shh...sweetie don't cry. Tell me what's wrong." Grace whispered softly
"I can't" Sofia cried
"Why not?" Grace asked
Sofia just shook her head and held onto Grace's arm that was wrapped around her.
"No Gracie...I can't...I can't have kids" Sofia cried into her shoulder
"What? What do you mean?"
"Those tests that I told you about...they not only test your cycle they test for all sorts of things...they test to see if your body is able to carry babies..." Sofia explained through her sobs.
Grace now understood and a wave of unexpected grief hit her. She knew how much Sofia wanted to have children and to be the one to carry them and now that's been taken away from her. She knew this would and has devastated her wife.
"I'm sorry" Was all Grace could say.
"It's too risky for me to...it's not fair Grace" Sofia sobbed
"I know...I know it's not but sweetie we can still have kids. We can adopt" Grace tried to look for a bright side in this bad situation.
Sofia shook her head and after a long silence Sofia looked up into her wife's eyes.
"Gracie..."
She really didn't have to finish that sentence because Grace already knew what she was going to ask.
"Sofia...I...I can't." Grace stuttered
"No...not cant...I can't. You can" Sofia stated
"Sofia please don't do this I don't want to fight with you right now" Grace begged.
"Grace"
"Sofia. No...no I can't get pregnant"
"Can't? More like wont. God Grace you're so fucking selfish!" Sofia yelled as she pushed Grace off of her and stood up in anger.
"Excuse me?" Grace asked as she stood up too after recovering from that harsh shove.
"You heard me." Sofia snapped
"Look I know your angry and upset but don't take it out on me! It's not my fault!" Grace yelled
"Upset? Upset? Fuck Grace I just found out that I can't have children and there's you this...this stupid fucking dyke who can and you won't because of what? Huh? Why? You know what you really are a fucking guy in this fucked up relationship!" Sofia yelled getting more and more angry and upset as she went.
Grace just stood there half in shock at what Sofia was saying and half trying to stop herself from retaliating because she knew that Sofia was just lashing out because she was upset but it was very hard not to say something back and it was even harder not to get hurt by what Sofia was saying.
So instead of yelling back Grace stormed out of the living room and into their bedroom. Sofia just followed her in there. Grace had an overnight bag out and began to shove some clothes in it.
"Where are you going?" Sofia yelled
"I'm going to my mothers!" Grace yelled back.
"Oh that's right I forgot. When things get hard little Gracie runs away" Sofia mocked
"Fuck you Sofia" Grace snapped as she zipped up the bag and brushed by her wife.
"Fine whatever I really couldn't care what you do" Sofia told her.
"Good because right now I don't give a fuck what you do either" Grace replied before slamming the front door behind her.
Grace didn't say a word when she stormed into her mothers' house and made her way up to her old room she just slammed the door closed and that was that. Rachel and Quinn looked at each other in confusion. They had just got back from their night out and were about to turn in for the night when Grace came storming through their house. They weren't sure if they should go check on her or not but in the end they decided to let her cool down before attempting to talk to her.
Sofia headed straight for the liquor cabinet and grabbed the vodka and just skulled it down. Not really caring about the way it burnt her throat. She drank till she passed out.
~~~ The Morning After ~~~
Sofia woke up with her head ready to split open and her stomach ready to turn. She had passed out on the floor and her back was killing her. She could remember everything about the fight she had last night with Grace and it just made her want to crawl into a hole and die. She hadn't been so horrible like that towards Grace since high school when Grace first kissed her. Sofia felt like a complete ass right now.
Slowly getting up Sofia made her way to the bathroom and splashed some cold water onto her face and rinsed her mouth out. She was glad it was her day off today.
Quinn sat on Grace's bed as she rubbed soothing circles on her daughter's back. Her daughter hadn't come down since she got there and her mothers were a little concerned. Rachel had tried earlier to get Grace to talk but she refused to say anything so now it was Quinn's turn.
"Are you ready to talk sweetie?" She softly asked
Grace just shook her head
"Gracie you and Sofia have fought before and you made up just give it time" Quinn told her
"She called me a dyke" Grace mumbled
Quinn was a little surprised
"She hasn't called me that since high school" Grace added sadly
"Baby you know she doesn't mean it. It's a Lopez thing. They lash out and say shit they don't mean" Quinn tried to reassure her.
"I know...but it still hurt...and all the other things she said" Grace mumbled
"What other things? What was the fight about?" Quinn asked
"It doesn't matter" Grace sighed
Rachel was down stairs when the doorbell rang. She quickly went to answer it as she dried her hands with the dish cloth. Standing on the other side of the door was a sad panda in the shape of Sofia Lopez-Fabray.
"Sofia" Rachel greeted her a little coldly.
She just sighed
"Aunty Rach I need to talk to her"
"You look like shit" Rachel told her sounding a little out of character.
"I know and I feel like it too. Please just let me in" Sofia replied
"You made my daughter cry"
"And I'm here to apologize" Sofia replied
Rachel just moved to the side as a way of letting Sofia in. The Latina gave her a small grateful smile. Sofia headed for the stairs but was stopped by Quinn who was coming down. The blonde just glared at Sofia.
Sofia made her way to Grace's old bedroom as a sense of Déjà vu hit her. She felt like she was sixteen again coming to apologise for hurting Grace. Only this time it was much worse. The things she said were horrible and she just wished she could go back and change how she reacted. Sofia gently knocked on the wooden door and waited for her wife to answer.
"I'm fine mom" Grace replied through the door.
"Gracie its me" Sofia told her
"I don't want to talk to you" Grace replied
"Gracie please...I'm sorry ok. I'm so sorry" Sofia placed her forehead on the door as she spoke.
Grace didn't respond. Sofia was about to say something else when the door opened and she nearly fell forward but she caught herself before she did. Grace just stood there with an unreadable look on her face. After a few seconds she turned around and got back into bed.
Sofia followed her closing the door behind her. She didn't even bother to try and sit on the bed so she knelt down on the floor and rested her chin on the mattress.
"Gracie I was an asshole. What I said and did was uncalled for and cruel and I didn't mean it. You know that right?" Sofia asked
Grace didn't reply she just laid there not even looking at her wife.
"I was just...I feel like I've lost something you know? I mean I know it's not the same but remember how the doctors told you, you couldn't play soccer anymore? How devastated you were? That feeling of having something ripped away from you and there is nothing you can do about it...The fact that I can't...that I can't g-get pregnant...I was just so, so angry and disappointed...with myself not you. Never with you." Sofia gently told her, her voice thick with emotion.
Grace tried not to let it get to her but she couldn't help but tear up at the sound of her wife's voice. She sounded so broken.
"I'm sorry for calling you a dyke and for calling you a dude...and for saying that your selfish...I'm just sorry" Sofia added sadly as she wiped her tears away with the bed sheet.
"Please say something...I really need my wife right now" Sofia cried
Grace rolled over and took in the sight of her wife she looked so tired and sad. She had never seen her like this before. It broke Grace's heart.
"I'm terrified" Grace mumbled
Sofia looked up slightly confused by that.
"Of what?" She asked
"That's why I don't want to get pregnant. It terrifies me. Having something...someone so helpless and defenceless to look after and protect. I'm terrified of doing something wrong of messing up...that and the thought of having something alive living in your tummy kinda freaks me out and then there's the horror of child birth" Grace rambled.
Sofia didn't really know what to say to that.
"I don't know if I could handle it Sofia. I don't want to disappoint you and I don't want to hurt you. And you know I would do anything and everything for you...to make you happy, to give you what you want...but this...asking me to do this...I don't know if I can do that for you" Grace softly cried.
Sofia looked down she couldn't help but feel disappointed and a part of her even hated Grace's decisions but she could never live with herself if she pressured or guilt tripped Grace into doing this for her. In the end it would tear her up inside and it would tear them apart.
"What do we do now?" Sofia hopelessly asked as her voice broke.