I do my best to keep my eyes away from Tobias during training. Ever since he left this morning, I have been thinking about all the things that I want him to do to me. I have never felt something so primal within me and it scares me. It scares me how much I want this…and him. After the other day at the amusement park, Eric has been on our case even more so than the first time we were down here training. It makes me nervous because I know that Peter is paying attention to me and I don't know what he knows about me and Tobias. I can't have him finding out or telling people, risking my place here.

Tobias told me before, that I belong here, and I really feel like I do. The feelings that I feel for Tobias are intense, but I wouldn't trade them for anything. I glance up as Eric enters the room and he goes to talk to Tobias, who nods. I turn my attention back to my punching bag, making sure that no one caught where I was looking. I bite my tongue and focus on the object in front of me, pretending that it's Peter's face.

"All right, huddle up!" Tobias calls out.

Everyone stops what they are doing and we call make our way toward the main part of the Pit. I don't know what this is about, but the way that Eric is smirking, it starts to make me nervous. I glance at Christina who is standing next to me, holding Will's hand and Al is standing next to me. I wish that he had chosen a different place to stand after the other day. I feel eyes on me and I look up, seeing Peter's eyes on me. I make to swallow past the lump in my throat before turning my attention back up front. I try not to make eye contact with Tobias, but it's hard for me to not meet his dark blue eyes. They draw me in like moth to a flame.

"Round one of training is over," Eric says, his voice cold and hard. It sends shivers down my spine. "From what I've seen, some of you deserve to be cut from training, but there are some of you that will end up sticking around for another round, against my better judgment." His eyes find me and I blanche under his stare. "The rankings will be up on the board behind me. If you don't see your name, the train will be waiting for you outside. You'll be leaving the compound within the next half hour."

He turns and walks away, and I feel my nerves spreading through my entire body. I close my eyes. This is it. This will tell me if I have made it. I don't think that I have ever felt so scared in my life. What if my name is not on that board? What if I have to leave? What if I never see Tobias again? I let out a shaky breath before opening my eyes. My eyes quickly scan the electronic board behind Tobias and the closer my eyes get to the bottom of the list, the more my nerves take over my body.

And then there it is. Second to last, is my name. "Holy shit," I sigh and fall to my knees. I can't believe that I've made it. All of the training and the getting my ass kicked, has led to this moment. But Eric had said round one was over. How many rounds are part of initiation?

I take a breath and sit back on my heels and look up at the screen. Al's name is right below mine. My status with this dorm is completely riding on how well I do on the second round.

"Okay, everyone," Tobias says. I look up at him as he speaks. "Congratulations to those of you who made it past round one. You guys have the rest of the night off. Round two starts tomorrow at eight. Don't be late."

I lay back on the ground and close my eyes.

"Tris, you coming?" Christina asks.

I glance up at her. "No," I say. "I just need to relax for a moment. Or several."

She grins at me. "You made it, Tris," she says. "It's going to be okay."

I nod. "I know," I say. "See you later."

She squeals as Will tickles her from behind and they run off together. I sigh and sit up. But what I see immediately makes me want to lay back down. Al and Peter and Tobias are all still in the Pit. Tobias is straightening up and Al and Peter…well I have no idea what they are doing. But I know what they want. I shake my head and stand up, brushing off whatever dirt that's collected on my backside.

"Hey, Tris can we talk?"

I stiffen as Al comes toward me. I turn to face him, my eyes wide. "No, I say. "No we can't."

"Why not?" Al asks, stopping in his tracks.

"Because I don't like you, Al," I say. "Not like that. And I can't do this again. With you too, Peter. You guys have got to leave me alone!"

I didn't expect to blow up at them. But the stress about seeing my name on the board and the risk of possibly losing Tobias. I run out of the Pit and up the stairs to the main entrance. Instead of out like I did yesterday, I run up toward the roof. I take a deep breath and let the cold air calm me.

A few moments later, the door opens and Tobias comes through. His entire demeanor relaxes when he sees me. "You okay?" He asks coming toward me.

I shake my head. "No," I say, reaching out. He takes my hand and I pull him in for a kiss. "I wish that we could tell people. I really do. I just don't want to risk getting kicked out. Because I can't bear the thought of losing you."

He wraps in in his arms and I rest my head against his chest, loving the way he feels. "You're not going to lose me."

"You don't know that."

"Yeah, I do," he says. "You're the best thing about myself, Tris. You're amazing and even if, by some chance you have to leave the dorm, I'd follow you."

I pull back and stare at him. "You'd do what?"

He looks down at me. "I'd follow you," he repeats. "I wouldn't care if you didn't have a place in the city, but you would always have a place with me."

I tug on his shirt and pull him down to kiss me. "You are the best kind of guy," I whisper against his lips.

"I'd like to show you the better parts of me."

I feel my desire dive down deep within me and I shiver under his gaze. "Yeah?" I ask.

"Yes I do," he murmurs before kissing me again.

I bite my lip and can't help but smiling at him. "Okay."

He looks surprised. "What?"

"Okay," I say. "Do you think we can get down to your room without being caught?"

He grins at me before kissing me again. "I'm sure that we can figure something out."

I let out a squeal that is completely my age before following him down the stairs.