Beetee wow. I eye them at breakfast seemingly shameless is Johanna but him not so much. He won't look at Katniss or myself. I don't judge either of them. The night is hard for someone who has been through what we have.

"How are things coming along Beetee?" I ask him

"Things are good enough. Working with Plutarch Heavensbee isn't the easiest of tasks, but I'm employed and busy. Which is a lot better than most."

"I hear that." Johanna says.

She feeds Spike bacon from the table and he eagerly laps it up along with scrambled eggs.

"So the two of you are tying the knot huh?" Beetee asks

"Yes. Hopefully the beginning of the spring." Katniss tells him. I slide my hand down to her knee and pat it.

"Peeta you're quite the talented baker if I say so myself. I thoroughly enjoyed the tasting."

"Thank you Beetee."

Breakfast continues that way the air heavy with awkwardness which Johanna seems oblivious of.

"Did we wake you guys up?" She asks grinning. Beetee turn bright red. She elbows him. "We're all adults here! Beetee likes to keep me company whenever he can."

"No, you were fine. I get it a little company goes a long way."

"I know it! Who else would understand him right? Enobaria would probably bite his cock off." She laughs out loud.

Katniss squirms in her seat. As does Beetee.

"We've all been through a lot." I say trying to ease the anxiety which has prevailed over the room.

Johanna stand and takes everyone's plates.

"Shoo! Get ready!"

Katniss and I return to our room. She removes her clothes and turns on the shower. Her skin supple, I long to carress. To kiss her, put her in my mouth. I follow her into the shower and spin her around.

"Peeta!" She says shocked.

I nibble on her neck up to her ear. I push her against the wall and stroke her nipples looking her in the eye as I do. Her face startled yet welcoming. She closes her eyes and sighs. I wrap her close to me in my arms and kiss her deeply. She allows my tongue into her mouth and we lose ourselves. When I've had enough I lift one of her legs and enter her. She seems surprised when I do. I lean her against the wall and push deeper into her. I soon feel her closing in around me. She squeaks, and moans. She whispers her orgasm in my ear. I whisper sweet nothings to her as I pump inside her. Pressure builds inside me and I come lingering inside her.

"Peeta, you know that I was part of it too. The Games that is."

My head is against the wall, hers on my shoulder.

"Yes. That's why you're so important."

"If we're getting married I need to know that you love that part of me too. That part that was involved with inflicting pain."

I withdraw from her and stair her in the eyes.

"If? Katniss I know exactly what happened. I remember you as a mutt all too vividly. I fight that because I love you. I know it's there I just choose not to dwell on it. Do you not what to marry me?"

I feel incredibly hurt that Katniss doubts her love for me. She feels I use her as an anestetic. She's more than that.

"Am I really that shallow? You're the one who used me for comfort!" I detest the idea that I don't know what I'm getting into. "I always loved you. If anyone should have doubts it should be me!"

I slam my hand against the wall and leave. I throw clothes on and trot down stairs. The prep teams arrive and I point up the stairs guiding them up the stairs. I nod my head to Beetee.

"Peeta! Peeta!" I can hear Katniss screaming. "Come back!"

Speaking of histronics. Venia comes down and tells me to calm her. Everytime something happens Katniss doesn't like she breaks down. Especially when she's upset me. I trudge up the stairs and see her there laying in the fetal position. Tears streaming down her face.

"Please Peeta. I don't have doubt."

I stand there staring at her from the doorway.

"Why do you have to push me away?"

"I don't, I don't"

"You're constantly coming up with reasons why we can't get married."

"I'm scared." She looks doe eyed. As though I'll strike her.

"I love you." I tell her. "Accept it."

"I do. I do."

"Then don't ask me if I love all of you. I do."

I pick her up off the ground.

"You have to get ready baby. TV today. Keep it together just for today."

"Okay." She says this flat and monotone. I nod the prep team in and trot back down the stairs pulling a cigarette as I do so.

"I thought Johanna was lesbian?" I hear behind me. Katniss is chirping away about Johanna and Beetee's affair. She's not okay. I meet Beetee in the living room. He looks up from his computer and smiles at me.

"Always working." He says smiling.

"Yea." I exhale.

"How's Katniss?"

"Day by day." I tell him.

Haymitch and Effie walk in who is again fully made up.

"Hello! Hello!"

I stand to greet her, kissing each cheek. Beetee greets Haymitch first.

"Big, Big day! We're filming the opening ceremonies where you will have front row seats. The focus will be on Johanna as this is her district."

A jingling comes down the hall Effie jumps onto a chair.

"This skirt is vintage!" She squeals.

Haymitch laughs hysterically. Today histronics are everywhere. Johanna rumbles down the stairs wearing a flannel and skinny jeans with combat boots. She smiles as she sees everyone.

"I see you met Spike." She laughs hugging Haymitch than Effie, finally putting an arm around Beetee's waist.
"I thought you were a lesbian." Haymitch says.

"Bi-sexual" She answers flatly kissing Beetee's shoulder. He squirms uncomfortably but puts an arm around her waist.

"Didn't know you were a cradle robber." Haymitch ribs. "Where's Katniss?"

"Not a good day." I tell him. He nods

After another five minutes or so Katniss saunters down the stairs. She's dressed identically to Johanna her hair in her trademark braid. She greets everyone and I place a reassuring arm around her. I love her endlessly, though on her bad days she can be exhausting. She's wearing the ring on her finger. When we arrive at the fairgrounds the rest of the group goes ahead of us. She stopped and turned to face me.

"Peeta I love you. Can we still get married tomorrow?"

"Yes. I'll always want to marry you." I pull her close to me and kiss her on the head. We rejoin others, Gale and Enobaria have joined the group along with camera men and Caesar Flickerman. Johanna is talking to him about axe throwing.

"Johanna! Can we get an exhibition?"

She smiles and grabs an axe throwing towards a bullseye marked on a tree trunk.

"Oh my! She's quite handy with that thing! Let's have a little competition amongst our heros here shall we?"

"Yes!" Enobaria agrees staring down Johanna. We went one by one throwing three axes each. Enobaria and Katniss were both quite competent. It was Gale who blew us out of the water. Johanna slaps me on the back

"That's alright you'll kill at the hammer throw."

Gale and eye lock eyes from across the field he's talking to Caesar, and watching me as though I'm a wild animal at the same time. He pats Caesar on the shoulder and walks up to me.

"You hurt her and I will kill you. I asked her if I could when you joined our squad."

I feel myself slipping.

"Good to see you too Gale." I need to find Katniss. I need her to bring me down.

Disclaimer: The next chapter will contain disturbing material.