We don't waste any time getting back to Dauntless. I don't want to be anywhere else that that doesn't feel like home anymore. I'm still nursing the wound my brother gave me when he said I wasn't his family anymore. I don't think I'll get over that any time soon. As soon as we arrive, Eric shows up walking to talk to him about training and the next rounds of initiation, so I go off on my own. I don't know where I'm going, but my feet lead me to the roof. This is where I was with Tobias when I tried to break this off with him. I thought it would be safer and easier to just pretend like it had never happened between us. I figured it would be less dangerous and give me a better chance of surviving initiation if I didn't have the distraction of Tobias Eaton's blue eyes. But after today, I realize that I can't let him go. I don't know if I'd ever be able to shut him out of my life. He's all I've got left. And as much as I love him, it terrifies me that one mistake means I could lose him forever.

The door opens and I sense him without even turning to look at him. He wraps his arms around my waist and rests his head on my shoulder. I close my eyes and breathe in his scent.

"Hey," he says pressing a kiss to my neck.

"Hi," I whisper. "How'd you know I'd be up here?"

"I could find you anywhere," he tells me. "I'm tuned in to your scent."

"That sounds creepy," I giggle.

He nuzzles my neck again, kissing me softly. "Really? Creepy?"

I grin and let out a sigh. "No," I say. "Definitely not creepy."

"I'm sorry today didn't work out as planned for you."

I turn to look at him and shake my head. "Today was just another day. And it actually taught me something really important."

"What?"

I bite my lip. "If I tell you, you have to promise not to run away."

Tobias rolls his eyes and sighs at me. "What do I have to do to prove to you that I'm not running anywhere?" he asks me. "I love you, okay? I'm not going anywhere."

I close the distance between us and press my lips to his. "I realized today that you're all I have now," I say. "And that scares me how much I need you."

His eyes soften as he studies my face and the corner of his mouth twitches up in a smile. "Why does it scare you?"

"Because I'm terrified of losing you."

I turn and bury my head into his shoulder, embarrassed by the admission and depth of my feelings. He hugs me tight against him, kissing my head. "You're never going to lose me," he says, stroking my back. "I've already told you that wherever you go, I go. You're kind of stuck with me."

"You promise?" I ask him, my words muffled.

He pulls back and lifts my chin so I'm forced to look at him. "I promise forever," he says, bowing his head to kiss me.

I tilt my head up, deepening the kiss and reach up to wrap my arms around his neck, pulling him closer to me. His hands move up my shirt and I feel moisture dampening the inside of my thighs. I pull away, resting my head against his, gasping for air. I shake my head. "Not here," I tell him. "I need you, but not here."

He groans and kisses me again before letting me go. "Go down to my room," He says. "I'll be right behind you."

I shiver from the way he's staring at me and I run to the door, making my way down to the main floor, careful not to detect any attention as I shut myself away in Tobias' room. I run to the bathroom and pull my hair out of its ponytail and do my best to tame it dripping out of my clothes. I leave my shirt on before going back to his bed and sitting down cross-legged. My heart is pounding in my chest as I wait for Tobias to join me.

The door opens and I look up, meeting his hungry gaze. His eyes travel over my body and I become even wetter. These feelings are so new to me that they scare me, but when I remember who I'm sharing these feelings with, the fear disappears. He shuts and locks the door before pulling his shirt over his head and I catch myself staring at his bare chest. Again.

His chuckle pulls me from my ogle and I look up just in time for him to pull me against him, kissing me roughly, his hands pinning me down to the bed.

"What, I'm not allowed to check out my boyfriend?" I ask, breathless.

"You're definitely allowed to check me out," he murmurs, before kissing me again.

I pull away from him to get rid of my shirt and he lets out an appreciative groan as he grinds his hips against mine. "You got something in your pocket, or are you just happy to see me?" I tease him.

He flips us so that I'm straddling him and he smirks. "Really? You're teasing me?" He asks. He places his hands between my thighs and groan as he runs his fingers against my clit. "It doesn't look like you're in any position to tease, baby."

I grind against his fingers and tilt my head back with a moan as he pushes two fingers into me. "Who's the one teasing me now?" I ask.

Tobias chuckles curves his fingers up into me, hitting that desperate spot of mine. "I'm sorry. Do you not want to be teased?"

I shake my head, looking down at me. "I need you," I tell him. "Don't you see how much I need you?"

He pulls his fingers from me and we switch spots again. He's hovering over me and kisses me roughly. "I see how much you need me," He says. "And I need you more."

He reaches over and grabs a condom from the drawer by his bed and holds it out for me. I rip it open with my teeth and help him put it on before he thrusts into me. I wrap my legs around him as his hips slam against mine.

"Can you feel it?" he asks me, his voice a growl against my skin. "Can you feel how much I need you?"

I gasp as he thrusts harder and higher inside of me, our bodies melding. "Yes," I moan. "I feel it."

He sits up and pulls me with him, and I moan feeling him deeper inside of me. I tangle my fingers in his hair and tug his head back so that our lips meet, in a hungry, passionate kiss. I rock my body against his, the tingling sensation building in my gut as we continue to collide.

"Are you close?" he asks, teasing my neck with his lips. "Tell me you're close."

My entire body is shaking as I lose total control of it as he slams into my again. The only answer I can give him is a moan of pure and total pleasure as I tighten against him, losing myself and pulling him over the edge with me.

We collapse onto the bed together, his arms wrapped tightly around me, kissing me softly.

"I love you," I tell him.

"I love you," he says. "I'm always going to love you."