I sighed watching as 3 rambunctious kids ran around, refusing to sit down for a not so healthy meal of mac-and-cheese. Felix, now 7 ran around terrozing little 3 year old Lily. She definetely was a carbon copy of her mother. From the short stature to the blue eyes. I'm proud to say though, that she was not a clothes fanatic like her mother, which had Alice locked in her room for a few days.

"Felix. Stop bugging Lily" I gave him a short look that told him not to mess with me. He pouted and let out a sigh of aggrivation; but thankfully sat down for some cheesy goodness. Aaron and Lily saw him and soon followed suit. Monkey see Monkey do. Cant deny that logic. I turned on the radio and fiddled around for a appropriate station. "stop!" Felix screamed waving his hand dramatically. "what?" he ran up to me and began messing with the dial till his preference came on.

Felix burst into song, jumping into the lyrics. "'Cause we all just wanna be big rockstars. And live in hilltop houses driving fifteen cars. The girls come easy and the drugs come cheap. We'll all stay skinny 'cause we just won't eat. And we'll hang out in the coolest bars In the VIP with the movie stars. Every good gold digger's Gonna wind up there. Every Playboy bunny With her bleach blond hair"

Soon enough everyone's joining. "... Im going to dwress my wass with the latest fashwion, get a front door key to the playboy mansion" would it be considered abuse if I smacked the kid? I turned the radio off and glared at all of them to shut up. I sighed. "at least you dont know what the playboy mansion is"

Felix gave me a 'are-you-stupid' look. "of course I know what the playboy mansion is. It's that huge mansion where tons of hot girls walk around almost all naked." I gave him a look "where'd you hear that from?" he scoffs at me. SCOFFS. The nerve.. "I dont hear" I raised a eyebrow. He smirks. "I see" I gape. "how!" he shrugs looking around nonchalantely. "Emmett shows me the magazines."

He sighs dreamily. "damn I wish I lived there" I sigh "no swearing." I look back at where Lily and Aaron were eating. They were going between us like a tennis match with muted interest. "eat your mac-and-cheese" I tell them before turning to Felix. "wait till your mom gets home" he rolls his eyes. He's like a teenage girl at the age of 7.

Alice and Rose had both gone off to work, Emmett was off doing Emmett things and James and Jacob were off on another date. Leaving me to watch the kids. I wonder what he was doing. Was he working? Doing weird things? On a date? No he couldn't be on a date, he technically just asked me to go on one a few days ago.

I still had to call him...

Maybe he thought that I meant no, but was just to nice to say it to his face. No, I have to see him. He's Aaron's doctor. Refusing would just ensure awkward silences. Yet, if this date were to go wrong it would be even more awkward and may ensue a fight. Not a physical fight of course but battle of the tempers or something.

I pull the piece of paper out. I examined the numbers, realizing it was a cell-phone. So, I just decided to text him. hi, this is Bella. Sorry for not texing you earlier, I was stuck with the kids. I chew on my lip, did that sound weird? Was I being to foreward? oh its just a text! Something in my head snapped. I clicked send and put my phone down, to nervous to wait for a response.

I went back to the kids who were know done with their food and were ready for a nap. I grabbed Aaron and Lily and got them situated in my arms before walking back to their rooms and putting them down for they're nap. Felix. Well he was a different story.

"I'm not tired" great. "well you should still go to bed, you had a big meal and you dont want to play on a full stomach." he gave me a look "I'm not tired though" I glared. "well you will be" "but I'm not" I sigh, "ok how about we watch a movie and if you fall asleep you fall asleep, does that sound good?"

He placed his pointer finger on his chin and tapped it leisurely. "I guess" he said slowly. "but I get to choose the movie" my eyes narrowed "I choose several movies and you get to pick from those." I dealed with him. He sighed, realizing he wasn't going to win this one. I wasn't going to watch porn.

I walked to the movie selections and picked out 4. Bambi, Iron Man, Elf, X-men. He sighed at the selection but choose Iron Man. I got him settled and started the movie. I couldnt concentrate. Did Edward answer? I had to check. I got up and walked the room and grabbed my phone. No new messages. "fuck"

He thought I was clingy. That had to be it. Or he found some new girl. A better girl. Tall, blond, blue eyes. Someone prettier. My stomach twisted in anguish. Whatever. He's not mine. Never was. He was just unknowingly the father to my baby. I looked over and saw Felix asleep. I fixed the blanket and turned off the movie.

I made my way to Aaron's room. I looked in and saw him sitting in his bed. "hey bud, what are you still doing up" he looked over at me with sad eyes and shrugged. I sighed and went over, picking him up. Enjoying the fact that he clung to me. He buried his head into my neck and I smoothed down his hair, bouncing slightly.

He sighed and looked up at me with his green eyes. I felt my heart break at the sadness they held. "what's wrong baby" I whispered. He bit his lip. "why dont I have a daddy" I gasped. "does he not wuv me?" he continued, tears gathering in his emerald eyes. "oh baby" I whispered, clinging to him. "he loves you very much" he sniffled into my shirt. "will I ever get my daddy?" his soft voice was muffled by my shirt but I could still hear him clearly.

"I promise baby, I'll get you your daddy if its the last thing I do"