I am officially taking Broken off of the hold list. I had lost inspiration for this story but now I've been re-inspired. Anyway, I hope that you enjoy this next chapter!
Chapter 6: Scared.
Nessie's POV
I hung up the phone after Jacob called me and we set up a place and time to meet for our date.
I had to admit that I was really nervous about going out with Jacob tonight. It wasn't the fact that I had never been on an actual date before, but it was the fact that I was still afraid of men after what happened to me. What if he tried to hurt me? What if he tried to rape me? What if he brought along his friends so they could all rape me too?
My heart started beating faster and faster. I was getting nervous to the point of having a sheer panic attack. I had to take several deep breaths in order to calm myself down. I refused to let what happened to me keep me down. I refused to let the rape ruin my life permanently. If there is anything I know it's that I'm going to come out of this a stronger person.
Yet, no matter what I told myself, I still could not help but to be nervous. I was frightened actually. I didn't know what to do. I really wish that there was someone who I could talk to about all of this. Someone who has gone through what I have gone through. Someone who would listen to me and understand exactly what I was feeling. I just feel so alone in this. I had never felt so alone in all of my life.
I started to cry. I didn't even try to stop the tears from falling. I just let them fall. When I stopped crying I continued to get ready for my date with Jacob.
I would not be leaving for a few more hours. Actually I would be walking to the restaurant myself. I didn't have a car just yet so walking was my only option. Jacob had asked for my address but I refused to give that information out. I would not give that information out until I was ready to. Right now I felt that my house was my only safe haven and I planned on keeping it that way. As long as guys didn't know where I lived they wouldn't be able to come attack me, right?
I left the house around 6:15. Our date was at 7pm. I put on a nice warm coat and boots as it had started to snow lightly.
I walked as quickly as I could. I didn't pay as much attention to where I was going as I should have because I had a map in front of my face the entire time. I hadn't known where I was going so I had to look it up online.
So it should not have been such a big surprise to me when I took a wrong turn. Just as I was about to backtrack I heard laughter. I froze. I looked behind me and saw a bunch of drunk guys leaning against a wall.
Fear took over me and I froze as the guys started walking toward me.
"Look at this girl, ain't she pretty" one guy slurred.
"It's hard to say with all of those clothes on" another guy said. He then grabbed me and forcibly removed my coat. No! Not again! Oh please god no not again!
Flashbacks of the day that Royce King raped me flooded my mind and panic completely took over. It was going to happen again! I was going to get raped again!
I screamed as loud as I could. I tried to fight the men as best as I could. I had to do something. I had to fight. I managed to kick one of them in the groin. I ran as fast as I could. Only to be stopped by one of the other guys a few seconds later.
"Let her go!" someone screamed loud. I managed to look and see that it was that blonde Cullen girl. I think her name was Rosalie. She looked absolutely menacing right now.
Even the guys were scared. They released me instantly.
It only took a few seconds for Rosalie to get over to them.
"How dare you even think about laying a hand on her!" she snarled. "You're all nothing but filthy pieces of scum for daring to even think about forcing yourselves on a woman like that. You don't deserve to live. You are all lucky that I'm not going to kill you all right now. Though death is certainly what you all deserve. Don't even think about leaving either!" Rosalie snarled.
She left the men and then walked over to me. Her eyes filled with nothing but concern.
"Renesmee are you okay?" she asked me.
"Yeah, I'm fine, thank you" It was true enough for what she was asking. Physically I was fine. Emotionally I'm not so sure though. How could I have been so unlucky to have almost been raped a second time?! All of the memories and the fears, everything all brought back to the forefront of my mind. They had never disappeared to begin with, but somehow they felt raw all over again.
"Thank you Rosalie, really. You have no idea how thankful I am-"
"Ness I heard what they were about to do to you. I couldn't not do something. Nessie would you like to come over to my house tonight? Maybe it will help you" she said.
I thought about it for a second before agreeing. I quickly cancelled my plans with Jacob and told him that an emergency came up. I felt kind of bad but after what happened I was not up to going out to dinner.
So what do you all think? It's just something to launch myself back into this story. Anyway I have a friend who just joined FF and she could use some reviews on her story it's called Bizarre Past. It's kind of similar to some of the themes in my stories. Also her FF name is TwilightSagaFanForever.
Anyway, I hope that you all enjoyed this update and I will update as soon as I can again. In the mean time please review!