The Secret Social Life of Dr. Spencer Reid Chapter 20
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It was three hours after Spencer that she finally arrived home and she saw him jump up from his position on the sofa immediately after she walked in. He cautiously moved towards her; stopping a few feet away. Neither looked at each other or said anything for several minutes, leaving an awkward tension hanging over them.
"I'm sorry." The genius whispered; she could just about hear it. Even more silence ensued, neither knowing what to say. "I was just- I'm scared."
"And I'm not? I told you and you completely freaked and left, I'm scared Spencer. What if you do that again?" Kathyrn asked him, exasperated. She was tired and fed up of this, her head hurt and she was confused. It was then that her boyfriend moved closer and looked at her.
"I was an idiot, I know. And Hotch gave me a dressing down for it, trust me. It's not that I don't want a baby, I just-" No, he couldn't do it. Couldn't say it. It was her, he knew, but he couldn't admit it; such weakness.
"You just what?" When he didn't answer or look up, she walked toward him and placed herself directly in front of him – as she was smaller than him, she could fit into his arms even when his head was hanging; that's just what she did. She hugged him and kissed his neck before stepping away and forcing him to look at her. "Spence? Tell me." There was only so long she could stay angry with him; especially when she knew something was really bothering him. He pulled her back into a hug and buried his face in to the crook of her neck.
When he looked up at her she noticed that he was crying. "I just- what if-" It would have been so much easier if she just knew, if he didn't have to tell her. "What if he or she becomes a schizophrenic, or if I turn out like my father and leave? What if our kid gets bullied or hurt? What if- what if I'm not a good dad?" Tears were streaming down his face and all she could do was stare. How was she supposed to reassure him that everything would be ok? That this was worth it? The woman just pulled him back into a hug that he willingly accepted and kissed him.
It seemed like hours before they finally let go of one another, he'd stopped crying and she was honestly thankful for it. She'd always felt awkward having to comfort someone when they were crying, no matter who the person was, she just didn't know what to do. "Spence." She started before he shook his head and led her to the sofa.
"Please, don't say anything." He warned her, he sat down and pulled her down so that she was straddling him. "I just need to feel something. Anything that isn't this." She began to tell him that it wasn't the best idea but he ignored her, kissing her. Instinctually, she responded although the kiss felt desperate and angry. It reminded her of the time he 'possessed' her because he got jealous that a guy was flirting with her and she flirted back. He wanted to remind her that she was his and only his. She figured it was kind of like now – he didn't want to leave her. Due to this, she complied. Before long, he had slid off her top, her jeans and she'd done the same for him. He flipped them over so that he was on top of her; lying on the sofa. He needed to be dominant; he had to be in control of her. He needed this. She loved the way he ran his hands down her sides, slowly and lightly. Equally, he loved when she squeezed her legs around him, it automatically made him respond and increase his speed. It was hours and a lot of sex later when they lay in their bed wrapped up in one another. They had decided that the sofa wasn't the best place after the second time so decidedly moved.
"You'll be a great dad you know?" He sighed and looked down at her about to tell her to drop it but she continued before he had a chance. "You'll only be your father if you choose to, just because he left doesn't mean you will. Do you have qualities like your father? Yes. Are you him? Only if you choose to be. Just because your mum has schizophrenia doesn't mean you'll get it and it doesn't mean our child will. And if, unfortunately, they do, then we'll cross that bridge when we come to it and do the best we can. We can't control whether our baby gets bullied or not, but we can be there for her and if, god forbid, they do then we can talk to the teachers or parents. We can do whatever we have to. There's no rule book on parenting Spence, and no-one knows how to do it, they learn to. Anyway, you have a great support network and family." Kathryn decided it would be better to say that whilst looking at him, to show that she meant it. She kissed him before saying; "I believe you'll be a great dad. Maybe even the best." They both laughed at that before he kissed her, his mood brightening. Guess there always is a light at the end of the tunnel.
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