Hello my readers, I know it's been a while but I have been majorly busy and to tell you the truth I kinda didn't want to continue this story as well as the other stories (I'm known for never finishing anything) but this past week has inspired me to write! And also I have been receiving many e-mails telling me that readers are placing this story into their favs, so I kinda felt bad and would feel ultimately guilty for not continuing a story that people apparently love to read, so here you are people the next chapter! (Btw for those of you readers who leave me reviews, let me tell you that I do read them even though I never reply (deeply sorry for not replying) and that it's ultimately the reviews that push me to write so thank you people! Because if it weren't for you guys I wouldn't have written this chapter.)

side note: A review from about I'd say two weeks ago, I'm not really sure, pointed out a mistake that I made in the previous chapters so I wanted to clarify it. I'm currenlty going to label it the 'Two Aizens' issue.

The Aizen that is Toshiro's father is still in jail facing a life sentence.

The Aizen that was with Toshiro's fiance is a totally different Aizen. (I'd like to think of that Aizen as the Mario Lopez from Nip/Tuck)

I'm sorry for the confusion that the 'Two Aizens' issue may have caused but apparently when I was writing this I didnt bother looking back (which I sometimes forget to do) so please don't kill me.

Toshiro POV

I woke up to blinding white rectangles. Where was I? Was I even alive? Was I in heaven? Because if I was I sure as hell didn't belong here for all the shit I've done…

I closed my eyes and started to open them slowly in order to let them adjust and know where I truly was. Once I managed, I realized I was in a large white room…it was so clean, and cold I'd say that I was in the-

"So you're finally awake. Welcome ." A feminine voice said from my right interrupting my thoughts, I turned my head at breakneck speed…shit was I going to feel that later. She was dressed in blue scrubs, and was apparently adjusting an I.V. flow…so I was at the hospital. She was quite attractive with her porcelain skin tone, her long dirty blonde hair which was picked up in a high ponytail and stopped at her waist, even though the scrubs on her were baggy I could tell that she had a body, a nice ass, nice tits, a pretty face, she was perfect.

"Sorry to ask but, how-"

"You've been in here for a week, after you're first visit we put you into a sedative coma since you were showing signs of stress which was interfering with the healing process." She said as she turned her focus from the I.V. to my face and gave me a radiant white smile, which also showcased her full lips. She leaned down and grabbed the clipboard on the small table next to the bed that I was laying on.

"Thanks." I said as I turned my head towards my body in order to look at the damaged that was done to my body even though I somehow couldn't remember what exactly happened. I was a loose white gown and was tucked in tight, the bed was twin sized, and I only had an I.V. on my right arm. As I looked at my left arm it had bruising…I guess they had injected me so much in that arm they had to switch. I turned my head and was about to conform my assumptions, but once I laid eyes on the nurse I immediately saw Karin. I looked down at my body and looked again at the nurse and it was Karin. I needed to sit up, I needed to hold her, I needed her, as I tried to sit up I felt a stab of pain on both of my arms and an acidic burn in my abdominal area, after trying my arms completely gave out and I fell on my back, feeling the cold sweat break out on my forehead.

"You mustn't force yourself. Even though you're out of the red zone you still need a couple more days to be at 100%." The nurse said as I closed my eyes, I heard a couple of light and quick footsteps and soon felt a velvet-like fabric on my forehead. I opened my eyes to see Karin, this time she was pat drying my forehead sweat. "There you go." She said as she smiled and walked towards the left corner of the room, towards the stainless steel trashcan, stepped on the foot pedal, and threw out the towel.

"What's your name?" I asked as I watched Karin walk back to the stand pick up the clipboard and stop to look at me.

"My name is Karin."

"What?" I said as I looked at her and closed my eyes tightly in order to make sure I wasn't losing it.

"I said my name is Kara." She said, after I opened my eyes and finally saw the blonde nurse instead of Karin.

"It was a pleasure meeting you." I said as I tried to smile, but judging by the expression that she gave most probably it looked broken.

"Trust me it was mine." She said as she turned around and walked quickly towards the white door on the mid left side of the room, placing her hand on the silver knob, and shortly stopped and turned around to look at me again. "The Dr will be with you shortly." She said with a smile as she turned to face the door once again, opened it and walked out quickly as the door slowly closed with a thud.

"Why can't I remember anything?" I asked myself aloud as I closed my eyes again while laying my head on the pillow correctly instead of towards the side. Instead of seeing darkness, all I saw was Karin's crying face…She was angry and disappointed…She wasn't smiling at me…What had I done?...She began to walk away and she turned around and stared at me, her nose had become a rosy pink, her cheeks were flushed red, her eyes were red rimmed and were still jutting out tears, as they slid down her smooth porcelain face and dripped on her shirt, she opened her mouth and said something that I couldn't hear and closed the door…everything after that became blurry. I opened my eyes, was that all I could remember? I soon heard a knock on the door, and saw that the knob was turning, peeked his head through the crack, smiled, and then opened the door fully, letting himself in and closing it behind him. He looked down at the clipboard that he was holding in his right arm against his body and smiled.

"So," Ukitake said as he grabbed a small chair on the far upper left corner of the room and pulled it up to my bedside, "How are ya Toshiro?" He said as he gave me a smile and looked down at his clipboard. "Judging by your health, it seems that you're progress is fantastic!" He said happily as he placed the clipboard on the small table on the left side of my head. I tried to smile but judging by the reaction that he gave me, he figured out that I wasn't doing so well. "What's up?" He asked seriously, placed his elbows on his knees and placed his jaw on his folded hands.

"Do I look that bad?" I said sarcastically, as I tried to figure out what was up myself, but Ukitake only gave me a grim expression. "It's nothing." I said as I turned my head to face the ceiling and closed my eyes as I tried to figure out what the hell happened.

"Well your expression seems to say otherwise, and Karin didn't walk out of this room a week ago looking as if it was nothing." Ukitake said as I opened my eyes as the memories flooded back in sequential order. I turned my face to look at him and received a smile in return. "Bingo," He said as he erased his smirk, and turned serious. "Tell me what happened."

"What happened just came back to me…" I said as I closed my eyes. "I guess, I should start from the beginning." I said as I sighed and methodically looked over everything that had just come back to me…shit, I'm such a fucking idiot…

Karin POV

I was sitting on my queen sized bed the whole night, and was holding my wooden framed alarm clock in my hands as I watched the hours pass by. The sunlight was starting to wash over the dark peach drapes that I had over the large reading window towards the left side of my room. I looked around and noticed that everything was solemn and quiet. My dresser that was placed on the wall directly in front of my bed had designs that I hadn't noticed when I bought the dark cherry wood piece. The armoire next to it had a completely different pattern, and the closet door that was to the right of both pieces was white, which blended with the color of the wall and the wall opposite, while the other two were painted red…red…a scarlet red…the red that was all over Ran…

"How was she killed?" I asked as I looked at the coroner who was walking with me down the hall towards the room where Ran was residing in. Everything was so white; it felt as if I were walking into an asylum.

"Apparently she was beaten and then pushed down the stairs. She suffered a massive hemorrhage, and internal bleeding. Her brain swelled in order to try to relieve the pressure, but it continued to swell, and the ambulance could only do so much when they arrived, but…" But it was too late…She let it hang, she didn't need to tell me…I already knew what would happen…she tried to say it calmly as she could as looked at me with a face that read 'I'm sorry for your loss'…it was times like this when I hated pity. As we began to get closer to the room I began to slow down, while the coroner continued to walk forward, her white lab coat flapping due to the speed she used as she was walking, the flaps showed off her white baggy scrubs, and her black straight hair in its ponytail moved from side to side, white contrasted with her very serious demeanor and porcelain skin. She was about five feet ahead of me when she stopped turned to the left, grabbed the silver door knob that belonged to the white door, opening it and waiting silently by the door. Once I caught up to her, I slowly turned and saw Rangiku's body laying on the metal slab that posed as the bed and examination table for all the dead bodies that were sent to the coroner's, and she had a thin white sheet covering her up to her clavicles. She had been cleaned up and was as pale as the surrounding walls and floors of the room, the only sign of her live vibrancy was her strawberry blonde hair which had also been dulled…Does death just dull everything? "Do you want to see all of her?" The Coroner that had opened the door for me said as she walked in front of me towards Rangiku and was leaning over her in order to lift the sheet.

"Don't touch her!" I said a bit louder than what I had intended to. I walked slowly towards her and looked at her closely, she looked so…peaceful…almost happy. "Do you have any scissors?" I asked as I lifted my head and looked up at the coroner which was still shocked at the sudden yell.

"Yes." She said as she turned around and opened the white cabinets behind her, grabbed the large silver scissors, and closed the cabinet, walking quickly towards me.

"Thank you." I said sincerely as I looked into her eyes, she looked at me smiled and nodded. I turned my attention back to Rangiku as I leaned in and kissed her forehead. I grabbed the scissors, a strand of hair and cut it off placing it in my dark wash skinny jeans' pocket. I looked at the coroner and gave her the scissors.

"Would you like to have her buried or cremated?" She asked as she placed the scissors in the silver sink that was underneath the cabinets.

"Cremated." I said as I turned around and walked towards the door that remained open, stopping in order to look back at Rangiku's body for one last time before she became nothing but powder.

The alarm started to ring, I turned my attention back to the clock and turned it off, it was 8:30 a.m. I placed it on the nightstand to my right, and turned my legs towards the edge of my bed where the balls of my bare feet grazed the cold floor. I bowed my head and took a deep breath before I jumped off my bed and walked towards the bathroom. I looked at myself in the mirror; my hair was in the same style it had been for a week now, as well as my clothes. I picked it up and washed my face. As I finished brushing my teeth, I turned the water to hot and let it flow down the drain while the steam filled the entire bathroom fogging up the mirror. I turned the dial, stopping the flow, opened the cabinet that was under the sink, grabbed a towel and dried my face. I placed the used towel in the marble sink and stared at the fogged mirror. The blurred vision of me…It was funny how I was kind of scared to look at myself and see how much damage her death had caused my body…It was blurred…I was about to wipe the mirror when I heard a knock on the door. Crap…He was here…On cue, as it has been…I quickly ran down the stairs and opened the door to Renji, I quickly turned around and left it open and he came in and closed it behind him like it has been for the past week, it had grown routine for us…

"I brought food." He said as he walked to kitchen…routine, huh?…it was funny how I always used to love having an everyday routine…but at this point I loathed the routine…and placed it on the granite countertop of the island. I didn't even have to tell him where everything was anymore, he knew where everything was by memory…I can't stand the routine anymore…I walked out of the kitchen and down the hall towards the living room and turned on the TV, putting it on mute the minute I saw the images of the CNN news. "It's an omelet from IHOP, with a side of hash browns." He said as he gave me a plate and sat down next to me on my leather couch.

"Thanks." I said as I placed the plate on the coffee table…I wasn't hungry…as always…maybe I should start eating?...I tried to look at the food but I felt nauseated the minute I tried to imagine the taste…

"When are you leaving to New York?" He asked as he turned his attention towards the TV, since he already knew that I hated when he stared at me…Just because I felt guilty…I had hurt him, and asked him for help even though I had turned down our date and had yelled at him to leave me alone…and yet he was still there for me, had it been Toshiro he would have walked out since he thought of me as strong-willed…even if I cried Toshiro wouldn't have cared…because that's the way he has become the way he has been for over 4 years…he wouldn't change…

"I haven't called…" I said in almost a whisper. I stood up and began to walk towards the hall.

"Wait." Renji said making me stop in my tracks and turn around to face him. "Do you want me to call?" He asked as he stood up and reached into his right jeans' pocket.

"I…"

"You don't have to thank me or pay me back…promise." He said as he smiled sweetly. All I could do was nod, how many times did I have to hurt him?...why was he still around me, while I felt like this?...why? I began to walk upstairs and just jumped into my bed and wrapped my arms around my knees. After some time I heard a knock on my room's door. I sat up and saw Renji leaning on my door, staring at me. "I got us first class tickets to New York for tomorrow at around 9:00 a.m." He said as he walked towards my bed and sat down next to me. "In short that means we gotta be there at 6:00 a.m." I felt like asking him why he was accompanying me…but I didn't have the heart to say anything at that point... "I'm going with you in order to support you…I know she was like family to you…" He said almost as if reading my mind, as he put his arm around me and pulled me into his chest…I didn't want to move…I didn't even want to cry…but somehow whenever I was with Renji that's all I did…

Renji POV

I was staring at the ceiling, as I have been for hours now…Karin's breathing was finally even which meant that she had fallen asleep after crying for hours…as she had been doing for a week…I lifted my right arm, and made sure not to disturb Karin's sleep, and took a look at my watch, 3:30pm…as always…I slowly lifted her torso, as I sat up slowly, and placed her on the bed gently. Once I stood up, I stretched out my shirt in order to loosen up the white t-shirt that was now stuck on my body due to Karin's tears; I leaned in and kissed her on the forehead as she continued to sleep...

Alright, I'm looking good, let's go. I walked out of my apartment and walked towards the elevator, walking in and pressing the button that lead to Karin's floor. Once it rung, I made sure I looked good once more in the very reflective walls of the elevator and walked towards her door, making sure I had a tight grip on the bouquet of roses that I was going to give her. I lifted my left arm, and was about to knock with my fist until-

"Go away!" I heard a rather hoarse yell from inside. What the fuck was going on? Did someone break in?

"Karin." I said as I continued to knock but all I got was the same response. "KARIN!" I yelled as I got began to have cold sweats and was beginning to think of all the situations that were happening in her penthouse. The door suddenly opened to a tear stricken Karin. He face was flushed, her nose was rosy, her eyes bloodshot and spilling tears that fell down her smooth rosy cheeks and ended up wetting the plaid shirt that she had worn the day of the restaurant. As I looked down I noticed that she was still wearing her dark wash skinny jeans of the other day, the only thing that was different was that her ponytail was now messed up and she was barefoot. "K-Karin?" I asked scared of her reaction.

"I thought I told you to leave." She said in a low tone.

"But why would I-"

"JUST LEAVE! I DON'T WANT TO HURT YOU!" She yelled as she looked into my eyes, and I noticed that the steady flow of tears had increased.

"I'm not leaving." I said as I let the bouquet of roses fall to the ground and steadily approached her, she slowly started walking backwards and shaking her head from side to side.

"You have to go." She said in almost a whisper, pleadingly at me.

"I'm not leaving; even if you force me out I'll still be standing here." I said as I stared at her intently, she looked at me and then bowed her head as the tears started hitting the floor making very small puddles. Her knees buckled and she covered her face with her hands as she began to sob loudly. I immediately took off my dress coat and placed it on her shoulders and carried her in order for her to stand and hugged her tightly…all she did was grip my shirt tightly and sob even louder…that's all she did as we stood there for hours…I didn't care about anything anymore…I just wanted her to somehow feel better…

I was climbing down the stairs when I heard the house phone start to ring. I quickly ran towards the kitchen and grabbed the white phone from the stand on the wall, and pressed on the talk button, without bothering to even look at the caller I.D.

"Hello?" I asked as I heard a machine that had steady beeps…was this call from the hospital?

Hitsugaya POV

"After I told her that she said that she might not want to work with or see me again…I don't know what to do…" I said as I finished the story, opened my eyes, and looked up at the white popcorn ceiling.

"You? You don't know what to do?" After asking that question Ukitake started to laugh as if someone was tickling him to death. I turned my head to the right in order to look at him.

"What's so funny?" I asked seriously as I glared at him, and wondered what he found so funny about my grim predicament.

"Apparently you haven't heard yourself." He said as he wiped the tears that had formed on the corners of his eyes with the back of his left hand while he placed his right on his stomach. "You're the most infamous womanizer, and yet when it comes to Karin you never know what to do? You've got to be kidding me." He said as he opened his freshly wiped eyes and smile at me.

"Sadly I'm not." I said sternly as I glared at him and turned my head in order to stare at the ceiling again.

"I'm sorry Toshiro, it was just funny." Ukitake said as he pat my right arm lightly. I sighed and decided it was best not to get stressed out…after all I had to get completely healed in order to make it up to Karin. "I don't know what to tell you…you sir, have gotten yourself into a clusterfuck of a situation." Ukitake said, making me open my eyes and stare at his face which was currently looking out the window. After a long period of silence he sighed and shifted his gaze back at me.

"Wait! Don't tell me that the man with the plan can't come up with a plan! You've got to be kidding me!" I said sarcastically as I imitated his voice, but soon stopped once I realized that he was serious.

"I really can't come up with anything…I think the only way to get her back into your partnership and back into your life would be to beg…not that it would work as well…most probably knowing Karin she would literally just kick you in the face…she's a very tough cookie you know." Ukitake said after he finished the analyzation of my situation. I could've come up with that shit on my own. "At this point…I'd only recommend to try your best and not get hurt…even though the second part would be inevitable-"

"Are you trying to give me advice, or are you trying to get me stressed out." I said seriously as I glared at him, due to the fact that all he was mentioning was me getting my ass whooped.

"Well if anything charm her." Ukitake said as he stood up and began to push the chair that he had been sitting on back towards the wall.

"That's an unlikely suggestion coming from you…" I said as I shifted my gaze from his back to the ceiling.

"I know it is…" He said as he walked back and stood next to the bed, "but right now we are seriously running out of options…wait! I've got an idea!" Ukitake said as he looked up at the ceiling as if imagining his very own personal light bulb going off…I swear there's times when I seriously doubted his state of mind…"I know what to do…but you'll need to act out your part as well in order for this to work." He said as he took one more look at the clipboard and walked towards the left side of my bed quickly grabbed the hospital phone and dialing the numbers so fast all I heard was a very long single beep.

"Alri-"

"Shh!" He said as he heard the phone being picked up, and then his face turned serious. "Hi, I'm , is Karin home?...really?...can you give her a message…oh that would be great…no, thank you…alright, have a nice day." He said as he hung up and walked slowly toward the right side of my bed and picked up his clipboard.

"Sorry to ask so vulgarly but, WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED!" I asked louder than what I had intended and in the end only received the same look that Ukitake had gotten the minute that he heard the phone being answered.

"Apparently Karin wasn't there…" He said as he turned around and walked towards the door.

"Wait!" I said making him stop the minute he had placed his hand on the silver door knob, "we can try again tomorrow right?" I asked and once Ukitake turned around I knew something was up.

"She has apparently moved on, there was a man that answered the phone." He said as he turned to face the door, opened it, and walked out. I was so shocked that the only thing that brought me back to reality was the sound of the door closing…there was no way…she can't be dating someone…that's not true…

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