Karin POV
I had been laying on the floor for hours…it was almost as if that last yell had taken out all the unleashed energy that I held within me…I was weak…vulnerable…my body felt like it weighed one hundred pounds…
"Karin, I came to check up on you-" I heard a voice say as the front door opened and closed. The voice was so distant it was almost as if I was miles away from the front door in my own home. "Karin! Are you here?" I heard the familiar voice say again as I heard footsteps. "Karin?" I heard again as I heard the footsteps climb the stairs; it was only a matter of time before- "KARIN!" The voice yelled, and I soon heard quick and heavy footsteps followed by warm strong hands grabbing my shoulders and pulling me in a sitting position. "Karin, Karin can you see me?" I heard the voice say as it became faint, all I could see was orange…Ichigo?
"I-I-I-ch" I tried to say but I couldn't hear myself.
"Hey," I heard the voice say almost as if it were a whisper as I felt light taps on my left cheek. "Hey stay with me! Come on Karin!" After that…I couldn't hear anything…
Next Day
Hitsugaya POV
"Tell me what you don't like about yourself?" The psychologist who was seated to my right in a black leather chair asked as she her black ball point pen was held in a leaning position by her right hand which was twitching to be put into use by writing on the paper on her clipboard. She was a blonde; her hair was very short, like a Mohawk with her blonde bangs coming down on her face reaching all the way to her jaw line, with some of her bangs blocking the view of her thick black framed glasses. She was wearing an all black wardrobe consisting of a black long sleeved button up blouse, with black skinny jeans and black flats; and was wearing minimal make-up.
"Dr Hitsugaya, I just asked you a question." She said sternly as she looked-up from her clipboard towards my body which was lying on her black leather loveseat. I was wearing the same thing I wore that night…and all I could do was look up at the ceiling and wonder…
"Dr Hitsugaya, obviously you don't like anything about yourself." I heard her say as I heard a soft tap. I turned my head only to see that she had placed her clipboard and pen on the small table to her right.
"That's not true." I said in a whisper.
"How could it not be true? Dr Hitsugaya your actions speak more than your words." She said as I heard her pick up her clip board. "It says here that at approximately 6:30pm you walked on the South Beach sand and placed all of your clothes on the lifeguard's stairs. You then proceeded towards the shore where you swam, but instead of continuing you swam back to shore where you choked on some of the water that you swallowed while swimming-"
"That's not true." I said again in a whisper, interrupting her.
"The report then states that the minute you saw a curvaceous woman with long black hair, you ran to her, in your birthday suit, and clung to her screaming 'Karin' and 'I'm sorry'. If that doesn't say anything about your condition I don't know what wi-"
"I wanted to kill myself." I said as I interrupted her. I quickly sat up and moved my legs towards the edge where they touched the ground, and then placed my elbows on my knees and my head in my hands. "I wanted to swim until I couldn't but I was too fucking scared…I wanted her to forgive me…I wanted to see her one last time…" I said as I began to grab and pull at my hair. "BUT I SHOULD'VE KILLED MYSELF!" I screamed as I stood up. "MAYBE IF I WOULD'VE KILLED MYSELF IT WOULD'VE BEEN ENOUGH TO BRING HER TO BY MY SIDE AGAIN!"
"Dr Hitsugaya," I heard a soft voice from behind me say, as I felt small hands pull on my shoulders, and guide me to walk backwards where I sat down again. "Death isn't an option or a road…the police brought you to the right place…you're starting anew…" She said in a soft voice as I opened my eyes I saw that she was once again sitting in her seat, while writing something on her clipboard.
"Can I leave now?" I asked…I needed to clear things up with her…I needed to see her again…
"Oh no, that is out of the question. You're staying at the hospital." She said as she finished writing and looked up at me.
"What do you mean? I'm fine." I said seriously as my fists began to clench and unclench.
"Well Dr Hitsugaya after trying to commit suicide for the second time, you're a danger to yourself and a possible danger to others." She said as she grabbed her cell phone from her pocket and dialed a number. "Yes, Hello, this is Dr Kasumi….yes, I will need a room for a pati-"
"No I don't" I said after I grabbed her cell phone and closed the call.
"Dr Hitsugaya, I need the phone…give it to me." She said as she slowly stood up, and walked towards me.
"Why would I do such a stupid thing like that?" I asked sarcastically as I dropped the phone from my right hand, letting it hit the ground, and then stepping over it hard with my right foot. "Whoops."
"You shouldn't have done that." She said seriously as she walked over towards her table and stayed there for a while. "That just proves to me that you belong in the hospital." She said as she turned around and looked at me seriously.
"No I don't." I said as I began to feel the blood in me boil. "Shut up…."
"You have no right to tell a Dr what to do…you of all people should know that."
"You're running my patience…."
"And? Either way you should relax the ambulance is going to come for you any mi-"
"I SAID I DON'T NEED TO GO TO THE HOSPITAL!" I screamed at her as I grabbed her by the shoulders and began to shake her so that she would understand. I was still shaking her when I felt someone hit my neck and then everything turned black…
Karin POV
I was running…but from what?...I stopped and looked down on myself and noticed that I was dressed in a white hospital gown and was barefoot…how strange…I touched my head and realized that my hair was picked up in a high ponytail…I looked behind me and saw that it was pitch black…I was in a white hallway…as I looked in front of me all I saw was a room…
'AHHHHHH!' I heard a loud and terrifying scream from behind me, when I turned my head to the left to look behind me I saw white...white hair…the hair rose up and then I saw his face…his teal eyes…they had a look in them that I haven't seen for a while…regret?...fear?...he continued to walk and was barefoot except he was wearing all black…
'Toshiro what are y-' I stopped asking the question when I saw his face suddenly turn serious without any expression, even his eyes lost their look…he held up a silver gun and pointed it at me...
'BANG!'
I closed my eyes after I heard the sound...and slowly opened them and looked down and saw that in my abdomen there was a clear gun wound, and the blood was starting to puddle on the floor…I touched it and then looked up to see that Toshiro's face hadn't changed, and he was still holding his gun up…
'Toshiro what are y-'
'Kill me.' He said as he interrupted me and continued to stare.
'I can't-'
'I've already hurt you enough to the point that in hours you will die…kill me.'
'I can't' I said as I felt hot tears run down the sides of my face. 'It doesn't matter how much I hate you I can't…I don't have the-'
'Yes you do, you have the will power and the guts and the gun…'
'What?' I looked down towards my right hand and saw that I was gripping a red gun.
'Now it's your turn…' I heard him say, but this time he was close, as I turned my head to left I saw that he was standing in front of me and was guiding my right hand to his heart…I tried to resist but he was just too strong…He finally placed the gun on his heart and guided my right index finger to pull the trigger…
'BANG!'
I felt more tears…his blood splatter all over my face and neck…all I could do was look in shock as he fell onto his back…I fell on my knees and crawl to him and was shocked to find a smile on his face, and his eyes looking directly at me with the gentlest gaze…
'Thank you Karin…' He said before he closed his eyes for good…
"No!" I screamed as I sat up. I saw that my legs were tucked into white sheets and that the bed I was in was very small…I looked at my right hand and saw that a needle was tapped to my hand, I followed the wire and saw that it was attached to an I.V. fluid container…As I looked back at my left it was attached to a BPM machine…I looked around and found that the room that I was in was rather large…As I looked down my bed I saw a head of spiky orange hair…Did I wake him-
"Yea, you woke me up." He said as he sat up. He was wearing a white short sleeved button down shirt, and from what I can see dark wash jeans. His face was marked with worry and he had huge bags under his eyes.
"I'm sorry…" I whispered as I looked down at my hands, but I immediately felt his hand grab my chin and gently pull it up.
"Hey it's not your fault…I can't really sleep in this place anyways…" He said as he tried to muster a smile which resulted in a grimace.
"Thanks." I said as I tried to smile too, but most probably ended with the same result. "What happened?"
"You don't remember?" He asked as he looked at me.
I rather not say….
"No."
"Well I was coming to visit you in order to invite you to my wedding, but when I walked in your room you were fainted on the floor. I called the ambulance and they brought you here. I had asked the Dr and he stated that it was due to an immense amount of stress." Ichigo said as he looked into my eyes in order to find the missing link.
"Maybe I should get a break from work…" I said as I looked down at my legs.
"Did anything happen?"
"At work?"
"How stupid do you think I am?"
"Very…" I said as I rolled my eyes at the fact that no matter how stupid he is he could still figure me out like the back of his hand.
"I see you're doing better…" He said as he stood up from his chair and stretched. "Sandra told me that you wanted out and that Toshiro went after you…the rest is a mystery." Ichigo said as he crossed his arms and looked at me.
"He didn't hit me if that's what you're thinking." I said as I laid down.
"Alright…"
"We just had an argument that's all." I said as I closed my eyes and breathed in deeply.
"An argument? You expec-"
"YES I DO!" I said louder than I had expected as I exhaled. "Sorry…I didn't mean to yell…I just need to be alone…"
"Are you sure you'll be okay?" He asked as I felt his head over mine. I opened my eyes to find that he was staring at me with worry in his eyes.
"Yes." I said as I closed my eyes and felt a warm kiss on my forehead followed by footsteps and the sound of a door opening and closing. I quickly opened my eyes to make sure that Ichigo was gone and once the coast was clear, I began to cry…
Hitsugaya POV
I woke up to find blinding lights…
"Ugh…my head…" I said to myself.
"That's the common reaction from the medication that was administered to you Dr." A feminine voice said. I looked to my left and saw that there was nurse checking a BPM machine that was apparently mine. She was stick skinny with no curves, had long curly red hair picked up in a high ponytail, and had a very girly/cute face which was framed by green eyes.
"How long am I staying here?" I asked her.
"Well until Dr Kasumi says otherwise, until then you will stay here." The nurse said as she walked over to my right to check my I.V.
"Ugh." I said as I covered my eyes with my left hand…Will I ever see her?...
I'm sorry my readers for the very long pause, but I had a horrible writer's block. So hopefully this chapter could live up your expectations. Please review (because they are very much appreciated). And most of all THANK YOU FOR TAKING THE TIME TO READ THIS!