A/N I DO NOT OWN ANYTHING! PARTS OF THIS EPISODE ARE TAKEN FROM SEASON 4 EPISODE 9 I DO NOT OWN THEM! HUGE THANK YOU TO MY AMAZING BETA ELENA RAIN!

Matt kissed her forehead and got up and went back inside. Kris sighed. Sure she was having a hard time with this, but it was harder on Matt. Jean was really the family he had left. She knew the feeling of losing every family member you've ever had and it wasn't a good feeling. She just hoped Matt didn't ever have to feel that pain.

A little while later Kris went to visit Nakya. He was facing out with his back to Kris. She reached into her pocket and pulled out a carrot. He hadn't been eating or responding to anyone and she was beginning to worry.

"Hey, Buddy, look what I got for you." She said.

The horses looked to her but then looked away.

"Aww, come on Buddy, I know it wasn't your fault. You're a good horse, it's all right."

Nakya turned and slowly went over to her.

"Hey, good boy." He pet his nose and kissed him gently. "You're a good horse, yes you're a good boy It wasn't your fault. You're a good horse."

She continued to coo and praise Nakya and he responded very well to her. She smiled. Maybe that's why he wasn't racing well. He could tell everyone was angry with him and everyone blamed him for what happen to Jean. Maybe all he needed was some love and praise?

She fed him the carrot and he ate it happily.

"Good boy." She cooed. She kissed his nose once more and left the barn.

She went into the house. "Matt? Matt?"

She met up with Matt just as he walked out of the bathroom. His eyes were red and puffy and the tear stains on his cheeks made it very obvious he had been crying.

"Oh Matt." She cooed. She pulled him into a hug and rubbed his back. "Baby, what's the matter? Is it your mother?"

Matt could only nod.

"What happen, did she get worse?"

"No." he choked out. "I just can't stop feeling scared that something terrible is going to happen to her."

"OH Matt, Baby, you've got to think positive. Jean is strong. She'll be just fine. You have to believe that."

Matt just nodded and pulled away. "She's all I have left."

"No, that isn't true. You'll always have me, and you'll always have Junior. We're here for you forever."

"Thanks Kris, but I mean the only blood family I have left."

Kris shook her head. "We don't share the same blood and we're family."

Matt sighed. "I'm sorry. I'm not doing such a good job explaining this."

Kris rubbed his back. "It's ok. I understand. She is still your mother and you will love her. The thought of her dying scares you. I understand. I've been there. But I just want you to know that if, and that's a very big if, if the worst does happen and Jean does…pass on…I'll be here for you."

Tears filled Matt's eyes once more. "I love you so much, Kris." He whimpered.

"I love you too, Matt. Do you remember what you told me after Jace left? I was scared and I was upset and you promised me that you'd never abandon me. Do you remember that?"

Matt nodded. "Yeah, of course I do."

"Well it goes both ways, I'll never abandon you either."

"Thank you, Kris."

They shared another hug as Matt cried softly into her shoulder. When they pulled away Kris wiped away his tears. "Why don't you go visit your mom at the hospital? I'm sure that will make you feel better."

"I can't just leave you here with all the horses and the work."

"Matt, it's ok. I can handle it. There isn't much more to do anyway. If it becomes too much I'll call Junior or Pablo. I promise you, I'll be fine. Just go."

Matt sighed and smiled softly. "You're amazing do you know that?"

Kris chuckled. "Thank you, but it's not necessary."

Matt smiled know she still got embarrassed by little compliments. He kissed her forehead. "Thank you, you're amazing." He said once more before leaving the house.

Kris sighed once he was gone. She was going to talk to him about Nakya but now she'd never get the chance to.

She walked out of the house, just in time to see Junior pull up. She smiled and went over to the car.

"Hey, what are you doing here?" she asked.

"I figured you and Matt could use a break and have a little picnic with me. I brought burgers and some carrots for Flame and Wildfire."

"That sounds great but Matt just left. He went to see Jean in the hospital."

Junior sighed. "How is he holding up?"

"He's scared. I don't think I've ever seen him like this before."

Junior sighed too. "Jean will be ok, Kris. You do know that right?"

Kris shrugged. "I try to tell that to Matt."

"Maybe you need to tell it to yourself more. If you believe it so will he."

Kris sighed. "It's so hard sometimes."

"I know. Come on, you need a break. Let's have lunch."

Kris smiled softly and nodded.

They headed over to the big tree where they used to meet and have lunch when they were together. It started out nice. Just some small talk to try and distract Kris from reality for a while. But after a while her responses started to sound very monotone. She just stared at the uneaten burger in front of her.

"Kris, are you listening to me?" Junior asked.

"Yeah, that sounds good." Kris answered.

"Yeah, after that I was thinking we'd go rob a bank and steal horses from other barns." Junior said.

"Great, yeah, sounds like a plan."

Junior sighed and shook his head. "Kris!" he snapped his fingers in front of her face.

She jumped. "What?"

"Where did you go just now?"

Kris sighed. "I'm sorry, Junior. I just can't stop my minding sometimes. I can't stop thinking."

"What are you thinking about?"

"Matt, Jean,…the horses, the race…everything and anything."

Junior sighed. "Well how is the training coming?"

Kris sighed. "I don't know. It's hard to focus. I know I should be at the hospital and spending all my time with Matt right now."

"No, hey, listen, the best thing you can do for Matt, is to get the horses ready to race."

Kris just sighed once more. Maybe he could help her figure out what to do. "Can I run something by you, and you tell me 100% honestly what you think?"

"Sure, what's up?"

"Well…it's just….all the comments being said about Nakya are negative lately. Then the accident happened with Jean and everyone blames the horses. I think he can sense it."

"That sounds accurate."

"I think that's why he's not running like I know he can. I think he just needs some encouragement."

"That sounds like it might be true. Have you tested it yet?"

"No, I was going to run it by Matt but he left before I got a chance to."

"Well, I'm here. Let's test it and then if it's true we can show Matt."

Kris sighed. "I don't know, Junior. I just feel…I feel so confused and stressed right now."

Junior smiled. "I was going to wait, but I think you could use some good news."

Kris gave him a confused look."What do you mean?"

Junior reached into his pocket and took out an envelope. "Part of me going away was to get closure and finally just deal with happen with Laura. So I went and I spoke to her and her father. To make a long story short, Congressmen Nichols gave this fake heartfelt apology and asked if there was anyway he could make it up to me so…"

He stopped and handed her the envelope. Kris opened it and read what was inside. Her eyes went wide. "You got me my license back?"

Junior nodded.

"Are you kidding me? Is this fake?"

Junior laughed. "I feel the trust, Kris really I do."

Kris laughed. "Oh my gosh, Junior. Thank you so much! I love it! Thank you, thank you!: she said and tackled him with a hug.

He laughed. "You're welcome. I was going to wait and give it to you when Matt was here but , it was worth it to see you laugh again."

"Thank you, Junior! I can't even begin to explain how important this is to me."

"You don't have to. I can see it in your face."

Kris smiled and hugged him tightly once more before standing up," Let's go test Nakya."

"Now there is the Kris Furillo I know and love."

He stood with her and gathered their trash and followed her back to the barn.

Just as they got him tacked and ready to go, Matt came home from the hospital. He saw them and went over to them.

"What are you doing?" he asked.

He seemed tense, almost as if he was…scared of Nakya.

"I had a breakthrough and I'd really like to try and run him. I know you blame him, everyone blames him. Just please, if not for Nakya than for me. Please, I just want to see what he can dp?"

Matt sighed. "Just one race that's it."

Kris smiled. "That's all I need."

Three of them went over to the track and got Nakya all ready to race. Lance got ready and climbed up.

"Remember, talk to him, be gentle with him, make sure he knows you like him." Kris said.

Lance nodded.

Kris went over to the gate by Junior and Matt.

Nakya didn't respond to Lance at all. In fact if anything he only seemed to be more upset. Kris looked to Matt and knew he wasn't surprised and only getting annoyed. "Matt, hand me that helmet."

Matt handed her a black helmet. She went over to Nakya and climbed on once Lance got up. She rubbed his neck. "Good boy, you're a good boy. You want to run? Do you want to run good boy?" she cooed.

In a matter of seconds Nakya was off and running literally. Kris smiled and continued to encourage him all the way through the run. Matt watched and smiled.

"She sure has a way with these horses doesn't she?" Lance said.

Matt laughed. "Yeah, she sure does."

Matt watched in awe as Nakya raced through the track. Kris was right, he was amazing.

When he finished Kris smiled and hoped down letting a ranch hand take Nakya.

"He was good." Matt started. "But we still can't use him on race day."

"What? Matt, why?" Kris asked climbed over the fence to get to the other side.

"Because we don't have a jockey who can ride him."

"I can ride him, Matt."

"Kris…"

"I got my license back!"

"What? How? I thought the board rejected your appeal?"

"They did, but Junior had a conversation with Congressmen Nichols and now I can ride."

"Kris, that's amazing!"

They shared a hug.

"Well, I guess that mean you're our new jockey."

"YES!" Kris cheered.

She hugged both Matt and Junior tightly. The guys smirked and hugged her back just as tight. Kris soon found herself sandwiched between two guys and all she could do was laugh. Jean and Pablo were back in her life. She could legally race again, she was back at RainTree for good. It was official, her life was perfect.

Junior stayed for dinner that night. They all talked and laughed together. It was just like things used to back, back before she participated in the illegal match race, back before ever entire life was shattered.

After dinner Kris, Matt, and even Junior were cleaning everything up. They had their own little system going. Junior would soap the dishes and hand them to Kris to rise, who would then hand them to Matt to dry. It was working perfectly. As Kris handed Matt the last plate she looked to the hose in her hands and smirked as an evil idea came to her.

"Hey…Junior?" she said slowly.

"Yeah?" he looked at her and smirked and sprayed him with the hose.

She started to laugh and heard Matt laughing behind her. She spun around and did the same to him and he stopped laughing.

"Matt, do you remember before I left you said we'd wait to do something to Kris, until my return, do you remember what that was?" Junior asked.

"Oh yeah, I think now is the perfect time, don't you think."

"Oh yes!"

Kris squealed and took off running. They guys chased after her. She made it as far as the living room before Matt grabbed her around the waist and spun her around. She squealed in giggles. He gently threw her onto the couch as both Matt and Junior advanced slowly towards her with her hands out wiggling their fingers.

"No, no, no!" Kris squealed.

"Ready Junior?" Matt asked.

"Oh yeah!" Junior laughed.

Just as they were about to attack her Matt's cell phone rang. He sighed and took it from his pocket and checked his caller ID. He couldn't help but gulp. "It's the hospital."

"Answer it." Junior said suddenly serious.

"Yeah, it could be good news." Kris said.

Inhaling and exhaling a deep breath Matt answered the phone. "Hello?" As Matt listened to the person on the other end he went white as a ghost. Tears filled his eyes but he refused to let them fall. O-Ok I'll be right there. Tha-Thank you for calling." He hung up and looked to his friends. "Mom had a relapse, we need to get to the hospital right away."

Without another word the three of them rushed to the hospital all just hoping and praying that Jean was ok. Kris nor Matt would survive if she died.

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