Damage done
Van called Hitomi constantly over the weekend; of course she didn't answer or return any of his calls. Meanwhile, Hitomi was beginning to become suspicious that he was visiting her window at night. She heard someone walking around outside her window but she ignored it. She wanted to believe all those times that Van said he loved her, she truly wished she could forget this even happened, she wanted to pretend he didn't cheat on her. She wanted to believe all those times he held her in his arms so protectively but she knew it was all a lie. Nothing he could say or do could change what he did, he cheated on her and her trust is hard to earn and even harder to earn back.
"It's going to be hard to avoid him when we go back to school" she thought to herself, as she evaluated her appearance the next morning. She still looked horrible, her eyes were red and puffy and she looked even paler than usual. "Maybe no one will notice" she tried to convince herself.
Van sat in his room as he tried to call Hitomi again; at this point he knew she wasn't going to answer. Yet he continued to call in case it was all a nightmare and they were still together. She deserved to be treated better than how he had, he was still beating himself up for it and he knew he had to make it up to her. Even if she didn't take him back, he just had to make it up to her. He couldn't run from his true feelings anymore he knew he loved her; he knew he couldn't live without her anymore. His phone ringing interrupted his thoughts he looked hopefully at the caller ID, he was disappointed that it was Amaya calling and not Hitomi. Amaya being the last person he wanted to talk to, he hit the ignore button. His little sister Merle was the only one he would talk to. At this point he was determined that he was not letting Hitomi go without a fight, after all he needed her in his life; he was a wreck without her.
Van dialed Hitomi's number again even though she was probably not going to answer. He was so surprised that she answered this time that he was speechless. It was silent for a long moment; "If you don't have anything to say why call?" she asked, silence. "Fine then I'm going to hang up" she said a little irritated now.
"No, don't hang up, please" he yelled into the phone louder than he had meant to, regretting it instantly.
Hitomi sighed into the phone and replied with a tired, sad voice "Please don't yell at me Van."
He hated to hear how tired, and sad she sounded, she used to be so happy, and carefree. He apologized until she cut him off "Van, please stop and tell me why you called."
"How can I make it up to you" he asked not wanting to hear her answer.
"I don't know if you can make it up to me Van" she answered like he expected her to.
Van was silent, "Is there anything else you wanted Van?"
"Just to hear your voice" he said sadly.
"Van, I'm sorry goodbye" she said before hanging up.