Thank you for so many reviews! I was kind of unsure about where to go with this chapter and what happens in what order but I got there eventually. If there is something you don't like about it, just let me know.
Brazos: I agree with your idea about Jasper getting a therapist so I'll introduce one in a later chapter.
BlackDiamond15: How did your exam on Tuesday go?
Opinion & Jamaica: I originally had this chapter going in a different direction but because you two have requested it, I decided to try it out.
Disclaimer: I do not own twilight
Alice's POV
I walked downstairs into the main room after finishing my studying only to find Jasper pacing around the room with Rosalie watching him.
"What's wrong with him?" I asked.
Rosalie just shrugged as her eyes followed him. He didn't even seem to notice me. His hair was still wet from when dad got him cleaned up but he had already got fed up with the new shirt dad put on him as it was just tossed on the ground.
He didn't actually look too bad without a shirt; despite his bony figure and a few scars, he was still a little toned with a faint outline of his abs. Wait, am I checking him out?
He was whimpering rather loudly as if he wanted something but it wasn't clear what that thing was.
"Where's dad?" I asked her.
He would know what Jasper was whimpering for.
"He just left for work. He was already late because he had to deal with Jasper" Rose replied.
Could that be why he was being like this? He didn't like it when dad went to work but we had helped him become less dependent on him so why was he starting again now...unless that wasn't the reason.
"Jazz, what do you want?" I asked him.
He ignored me as he continued to pace around the room, occasionally pulling at his hair.
"I've already tried that" Rose muttered.
"What about mom? Where is she?" I asked.
She didn't have much of a bond with Jasper but perhaps she knew what was wrong with him.
"Doing the laundry. She's doing her best to get the blood stains out of Jasper's jacket" Rosalie paused for a moment. "Do you think that's what it is?" She questioned.
It definitely made sense. Jasper refused to take his jacket off before and this behavior has only just started which is not long after I had taken the jacket off him because it had blood on it. The jacket was the only thing we could get him to wear on his top half that he wouldn't take off. He was obsessed with the pockets.
With that probably being the reason, I managed to step in front of Jasper to hold him in place. He tried to move passed me but I kept my grip firm on him until he was focused on me. He whimpered a little quietly as he looked into my eyes; begging me to understand what he wanted. I put my hand around his wrist and pulled him with me.
"I'll be back in a second; I know what to do" I told Rose before I led Jasper out of the room and took him upstairs.
I took Jasper into my room and sat him down onto my bed.
"Stay there" I instructed him sternly before I left my bedroom.
I then walked into Edward's room without knocking which caused him to stop playing his piano and watch me as I open the door to his closet.
"What are you doing?" Edward asked, a little confused.
"Taking away this jacket that I brought you last Christmas. You have only worn it once and that was when you were trying to convince me that you liked it but it's obvious that you don't. I'm sure Jasper would appreciate it a lot more" I said plainly as I took it off the hanger and then walked straight back out; leaving Edward a little stunned.
I returned to my room where Jasper was surprisingly still sitting on the bed. I sat next to him and moved close so that I could put it on him. He stared deep into my eyes as I focused on putting his arms through the sleeves although I tried to ignore it. I then zipped it up so he now appeared to be fully clothed.
"Is that better? This one has pockets, too. They're a little smaller but it'll do for now" I assured him.
When I looked up from his pockets, I notice how close his face is to mine as he watched me curiously. It reminds me of movies where being this close led to a kiss but as cute as his lips were, that wasn't going to happen. Does he even know how to kiss?
Damn it, why was I even thinking about kissing him? It's not right.
I looked away and moved off the bed. Jasper slowly looked away also unexpectedly left my room. Whatever had been going on that mind of his, it caused him to stay away from me for the rest of the day; spending it by Rosalie's side, sulking.
Another night and my eyes fluttered open once again, knowing that Jasper was in here but I wasn't woken up by feeling him cuddle up against me like he usually did. No, tonight was different; I felt a bruised and wet feeling on my neck which startled me so I suddenly pushed Jasper back with a lot of force behind my hands and sat up in my bed as I looked at him.
Jasper hissed at the unexpected reaction before he suddenly moved close to me once again, only to repeat his previous actions. He brought his lips to the same spot on my neck and continued to lick and suck at it.
"Jazz, stop" I told him before I put my hand on his chest and pushed him back again but not as forceful this time.
He whimpered and tried to move forward once again but only to be pushed back again. He looked at me pleadingly, silently begging for me to let him continue but I just lie back down on my bed and pull my comforter over my head. Why did he have to do this to me? Why not anyone else? I felt Jasper trying to get under the comforter with me but I just held it tighter around my body. Hopefully, he'll just go away. We wouldn't need to worry about him disappearing again because dad had locked all the upstairs windows to stop him from getting on top of the roof again
Unfortunately, ignoring him didn't seem to work. In fact, it just seemed to be making things worse; I now felt him tugging on my comforter but going by the growling noises he was making, I could tell that he wasn't using his hands; he was using his teeth and I was not willing to let him chew up another one of my things.
"Jasper, stop it! Go and bother Rosalie!" I yelled at him in a whisper.
I wanted to keep my voice quiet to avoid waking up anyone else.
"Ali" Jasper whispered as his desperate eyes deepened into mine.
With my attention on him, he slowly pulled the rest of the comforter off my body before he moved closer to me once again. He whimpered as he rubbed his head against my shoulder and I knew that he was asking for me to wrap my arms around him but I was learning Jasper's behavior well and if I did so, one thing would turn into another. It was so hard to be mad at him when he was like this but I just couldn't encourage him. It wasn't his fault though, he didn't know any better.
"This is going to be the last night, Jazz. I can't keep doing this" I told him.
In the morning, I'll ask dad to install a lock on my door but I won't go into detail as to why. I'll just say that Jasper is chewing my stuff at night which is partly true but I don't know what would happen if dad found out the whole truth and I didn't want to take the risk either. Would he be mad at Jasper?
After a lot of hesitation and debating, I couldn't control my arms as they wrapped around Jasper and pull him closer to my body. He accepted the comfort desperately as he closed his eyes. I stroked his soft hair after learning that he liked it when Rose or I paid attention to it. I figured it out because touching it always caused him to purr which was kind of cute. I freed one of my hands so I could pull the comforter back over our bodies.
"Night Jazz" I whispered to him.
It wasn't long before I was woken up again but this time; I lay as still as possible when I come to realization what Jasper was doing. He was slowly moving his body against mine but that wasn't all that had me in shock; he was hard. I could feel it every time he rubbed it up against me.
"Jazz" I whispered.
The sound of my voice didn't stop him; he just carried on. I slowly moved away from him and turned around to face him. He tried to move closer but I just held out a hand to stop him. Why couldn't he just let me sleep? Why the hell had he been doing that? I looked at the clock to see what the time was to find that it read 4:27. With my attention focused on the time, Jasper took advantage of this and moved closer.
What was I going to do? He probably had no idea how to deal with his 'problem' either. Perhaps it'll just go down if I wait it out. I don't know much about guys and their 'business'. I awkwardly looked away from him and leaned my head against the headboard. Jasper was crouched directly in front of me and once again, his blue eyes were looking deeply into mine.
He pressed himself against me and panted lightly. Was it wrong of me to say that it actually felt good? What the hell am I thinking? Of course it was wrong. He was still moving his hips against me but I had no idea what to do.
When Jasper noticed my lack or response he stopped for a moment and looked at me with those intimidating eyes again; almost as if he was trying to hypnotise me into doing something. But then they softened as he looked away. It was the same way he did when I moved away from the 'almost kissing him' situation many hours before. It reminded me that he was interacting with me once again after many hours of pretending that I wasn't there.
With a sad sigh I moved closer to him and put my hand on his chest to get his attention. He looked at me again and watched my hand as I slowly lowered it to his abdomen and then reached the waist band of his trousers. I stopped for a moment as I tried to process the information of what I was about to do. I had never done this before but at the same time; I really wanted to do this. Jasper obviously wanted me to do something as I noticed the tent that had occurred.
With a little more courage, I slid my hand underneath his trousers and I felt him. My hands were a little shaky due to nerves but my hands were actually touching him! And it didn't feel gross like I used to think it would. So this is why people do it all the time?
Jasper whimpered a little making me realise that touching him the way I was now wasn't enough. I pulled his shaft out where I got a good look at it. I had seen a few images in sex ed but that's about it. I have never seen one in real life so I'm not even sure what people consider big or small but to me, it was a good size. Jasper caught my attention with another whimper so I began to move my hand up and down making Jasper pant a little as he leaned his head against my shoulder. His fist clenched tightly onto my shirt as he silently begged me to carry on. Well at least I seemed to be doing this right.
Jasper's breathing seemed to pick up as my hand sped up too. He also began to lick and suck the side of my neck with the occasional moan.
A few more minutes went by until his breathing suddenly hitched and he came onto my hand and the bed sheets. It was almost 5 in the morning and I needed to wash my hand and clean the bed sheets before my parents get suspicious.
Oh god, I hope they don't find out about what just happened. I can't believe I even did that. I lightly pushed Jasper away from me with my clean hand as he still rested his forehead against my shoulder. He watched me desperately as I rushed out of my room to wash my hands.
It felt good at the time but now I have come to the realization of what just happened, I have to keep him away from me. He had no idea what is happening and what if next time he gets aroused in front of someone? I had to stop this strange attraction he had towards me.
After washing my hands, I washed my face too just to refresh my mind. What the hell had just happened?
Okay, so like I said, lemons was requested but I would just like to point out that Alice is just 14 so I'm not going to be writing any actual sex scenes but she is at a curious age whereas Jasper has obvious sexual feelings for Alice but he is still too inexperienced with the human world to understand what he is doing. (He understands the whole 'mating' thing but he's struggling to realise that he needs 'permission' to do it. Don't worry though, this story will NOT contain rape)
I really want to hear your views about what went on between Alice and Jasper? Was it okay? Should it never happen again? Please REVIEW
Also, because I kinda suck at story ratings, does this chapter make my story rating change to M?