A/N: Sorry about this long author's note you can skip it if you like. I want to say thank you for all those you sent their sympathy and understanding. I have learned an important lesson this week and it took the loss of two of my closest friends. I learned life is to short. So I thought I would share some good news with the people who have been following my stories. After many hours of just laying on Jake. I am now officially engaged to Jake. We are both going to finish college. I am getting my degree in photography, and starting in the fall I am going to start classes in creative writing. Jake is going to finish his degree in investment banking. We decided we want it all everything life has to offer us we will be happy to except, including a family someday even tho we have to adopt. Life will get better.
Jane awoke laying on top of Maura. Lifting her head up she could tell is was still dark out. She carefully pulled herself trying not to wake the smaller women, but instantly missing the close contact. Sitting there a few minutes Jane couldn't help, but wonder had she ruined it all.
Any chance she had with Maura was it gone, because of one night with Dean, or did she still have some kind of chance with being with her. Looking down at her flat stomach Jane laid her hand there and thought to herself she knew what she had to do weather or not she would be more then friends with the blonde Jane's mind was made up there would be no going back or changing her mind now.
"Maur, come one lets go to bed." Jane said slightly shaking the blonde. "Come on this couch is going to kill your back."
Maura slowly woke up noticing Jane was sitting above her on the edge of the couch.
"Jane, is everything ok? Are you ok?" Maura asked sitting up.
"Maura, I love you, I love you more then a friend and I would love the chance to be more then friends with you." Jane sighed waiting for Maura's reaction. "I made my choice about the baby Maura I am going to keep him or her. It might be my only chance I don't care what ma says."
"Jane, is this what you really want?" Maura asked softly. "If you don't want to I completely understand I mean you have your job and family."
"Yes, Maura this is what I really want. I want to be with you and I want to keep my baby." Jane leaned in and kissed Maura's lips to prove her point. "You make me lose all self-control. Yes, I have tried to distance myself, to protect myself but I am your best-friend. I have to try something. We both owe ourselves this."
"So we we're really going to do this?" Maura asked
"Yes, Maura and I honestly don't care what my family thinks. Ma's already mad so I finally realized that it doesn't matter what they think. As long as I am happy."
"What about your family Jane?" The blonde asked. "How will they react? What if they don't like us seeing each other?"
"Honestly Maura, I don't care what they think. If they don't like the fact that I am un-married and pregnant then they don't have to be part of mine or the babies lives, and if they don't want us together then they don't belong in our lives. I could care less if they don't want me seeing you. I love you and if they can't see that it's their problem not ours."
"I'm glad you decided to give us a try, and even more happy you choose to keep the baby." Maura smiled.
Maura reached up and embraced the detective. Holding Maura, Jane was filled with an overwhelming sense of comfort. Never in her life had she felt so at peace. Thinking about the argument to come with her mother it knowing it maybe painful and bitter. Jane jerks back from the hug, Realizing they were still sitting on the couch in the middle of the night.
"Let's get some more sleep I called us off for tomorrow when I called today and since its Friday we don't have to go to work till Monday." Jane said standing up, and taking Maura's hand.
"When were you going to tell me you called us off?" Maura asked standing up and folding the blanket they were using.
"I don't know I guess I wanted to spend time with you before I had to go to work and tell everyone I was pregnant." Jane sighed and picked up their glasses from the juice they were drinking.
Jane walked back into the living room where Maura was turning everything off. Jane wrapped her arms around the smaller women.
"What are you doing, Jane?" Maura asked trying to turn in her arms.
"Nothing I just want to be able to wrap my arms around you as much as I can before I can't" Jane kissed her check.
Jane couldn't help, but smile finally she had the women she loved in her arms. Finally she felt complete. Standing in Maura kitchen holding the smaller women Jane could really see a future with her and the child she was carrying. Pushing Maura away slightly and turning her around, Jane looked at Maura's lips.
Jane took the leap faith and made the move herself leaning in to kiss Maura. It was their first time so she put all her emotions into it. She felt Maura's tongue slide across her bottom lip seeking entrance which she willingly allowed. She heard Maura moan lightly as their tongues touched for the first time in a heated and passionate kiss.
Breaking apart they pressed their foreheads together staring into each others eyes minutes passed before either spoke. Maura broke the silence first.
"Come on Jane let's get you to bed. You need you rest." Maura smiled.
"I'll only go if I get to sleep next to you again." Jane crossed her arms like a child getting ready to fight.
"I wouldn't have it any other way, Jane. I want you close to me always more now then ever in case you need something in the night or something happens. Don't ever hesitant to wake me up Jane I mean it." Maura tried to give Jane the famous Rizzoli glare she wasn't very good at it Jane just smiled back at her.
"Maura, if I need something in the night that I can get myself I will not wake you. Now let's get ready for bed I'm exhausted." Jane started walking toward the bedroom.
Once they crawled in bed Maura carefully curled up against Jane. Laying her head on her shoulder and her hand on the brunettes abdomen Maura let out a soft sigh when Jane laid her hand on top of hers. They both fell into a peaceful sleep both not knowing what they would face in the weeks to come.
Not the best I have every done. Been having trouble finding the right words the past week. Sorry if you don't think it goes well with what else i have written
As always feel free to review good or bad i can take it