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This chapter takes on quite a serious subject that teens, kids, and adults are currently going through in their lives.
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Just a heads up next chapter maybe a short chapter because I'm going on vacation soon. So yeah! Without a further ado, here is Backstory!
Lucy's POV
I was walking down the hallway, gripping my textbooks close to me. Since Beau went berserk on me the other day. He's been taking his distance away from me. Does that mean our relationship's over? What was he getting so worked up for? It's just money?
I went to my locker, twisted in my combination. It opened, I put in my textbooks. I close it, and I turn around and bumped into someone. I jolted backward, it was Mikayla Lancaster and her crew. One of the co-captains of the cheer squad, and apparently future prom queen, in her fantasy. Mikayla was one of the populars, just like Beau. I personally don't like her. She is one of those stuck up, snobby girls. But she also has that mark of 'filth' on her forehead.
"Hey, Lucy." she greeted, "I heard that Beau went berserk on you. I always knew he was rough." she giggled amongst her fellow cheerleaders.
"What do you mean, rough?" I questioned,
"I mean in bed." she answered,
"You slept with Beau?" my voice all confused.
"Yeah, I mean you guys broke up right? I figured, you wouldn't care if I told you." she laughed, and her fellow followers did also. I felt the anger fill inside me. I felt like tearing her apart, and feeding her to the lions. I could feel my hand shape into a fist. "You're not mad, right?"
"Mikayla, of course I'm not mad. Well not as mad as you're parents are going to be." I commented,
"What do you mean?" she asked with a confused face.
"I mean, you're parents must be mad that their daughter will grow up to be a prostitute. Sleeping with the principal just to get into college." I spat at her, "That's a bit selfish isn't it?" Her friend's mouths dropped to the floor, and so did Mikayla's. She looks around, and people in the hallway were looking at us. She turns her attention back to me, and suddenly laughs. She inched toward my face.
"You sure have crossed the line, emo girl." she grits her teeth.
"I think you already did it by sleeping with my boyfriend." I smirked, and she lunged at me. We both landed on the floor, and she threw punches at me. Pulling my hair, and scratching me. Was she like some cat or something? She continued the punch me, I could feel pain rushing all around my body. My face, arm, stomach, everything were in pain.
"Bitch! Bitch! Bitch! You're a fucking bitch!" she screamed at me, and I resisted from punching back. I heard whistles, and the physical education teacher, pulls us apart.
"Counselor's office now!" he yelled at us, and dragged both of us to Mr. Flanagan's office.
I walked out of the counselor's office, with Mikayla walking behind me. I confessed that Mikayla was sleeping with the principle to get into college, and I was off the hook for no fighting back. Mikayla was expelled, and she was escorted out of school. I proceeded to Chemistry class.
When Chemistry class was over, and saw Beau in the halls talking with his friend. I walked straight up to him, and pulled his shoulder to face me. I swung my hand, and slapped him right across his face.
"You lying, cheater!" I shouted in his face. "You cheated on me by, sleeping with Mikayla Lancaster!" I pause for a breath
"To think we had a connection. We're so done." I finished, and walked the direction of my next class.
"Do you have any idea what you've started with me?" he called out, and I turned around. "I never even wanted to date you in the first place! I did it just to mess with you. Actually I do it to every girl in the whole school!" he laughs,
"And now, you just embarrassed me in front of everyone. Now, you're going to pay. I'm going to make your life a living fucking, hell for you." he emphasized, "So get ready Stone. Get ready to meet the devil."
I wake from my sleep from hitting my head on something hard. I get up to see I was in the freeway, cars were passing me by. The wind was blowing through my hair.
"Oh, you're awake! Good morning!" I hear Kendall's voice. I turn to the sound, to see him driving. He was wearing dark ray ban shades, a white muscle tank, and a blue overshirt. I slap him upside the head, and the car swerves. Kendall steadies the wheel, and returns the
"What the hell is wrong with you? We could've gotten into a car crash!" he cursed out loud.
"Me? What's wrongs with you? Is this how you date girls? You kidnap them?" I shout at him,
"What? No!" he objected,
"Well you kidnapped me!" I added,
"Not exactly. You brother allowed you to come with me. Your brother seems nice but, odd at the same time. He just welcomed a stranger into your house to take you with him on the beach trip." he smiles, through the rearview mirror.
"You know, you could've woken me up?" I say with a hint of sarcasm,
"I know but, you slept heavy. Plus if I woke you up, you'd probably punch me." he laughs, I sort of understood what he meant about that.
"Ugh, Hayden." I cursed out loud. I climbed over to the passenger seat, and buckled in. "Where did you get this car?"
"Uh...it's a graduation present." he says,
"To yourself?" I raise my eyebrows,
"I'm not stuck up, you know. If you got to know me, I'm not that 'pretty guy' you picture me as." he exclaimed, and he makes an exit on I-42. "I...uh...talked to your brother earlier. He asked me if I had something to do with your personality. What's up with that? He said ever since you started living with him, you changed." I looked away from him for a moment, I gripped my forearm.
"Like I said, you wouldn't understand." I answer,
"Well, I want to understand." he spoke, "You know, I want to be your friend. I want you to be able to trust me."
"How can I know, that you're not what I think you are." I bite my bottom lip. The car stops at a stoplight.
"Believe me, if you're afraid to fall. I'll be there to catch." he says, and takes my hand in his. I stare into his eyes. "Just trust me." Both of our eyes meet, just like my first day of school. My chocolate brown eyes would meet his emerald green ones. Until we hear a car honk behind us. He takes his eyes, and hand from mine, and returns to driving. I can notice him glancing from the road to me. We sat there silent until we reached our destination, it was the beach. I felt a shiver run down my spine. We drove into Laguna Beach area, there were quite a lot of people on the public beach. A car drove next to us the window rolled down, and it was Logan.
"Let's find a private spot to park!" he hollered over to us. Kendall held out a thumbs up, and followed behind them. We ended up finding a spot just up road from Laguna Beach but, it was private property. We continued up the road, and found a little path off the main road that seemed to lead to the beach. We turned left, and followed the road. The little dirty road led us to a small area near the ocean. No one was around, just us and the ocean. We finally parked the car a good distance from the ocean, everyone got out of their cars. The ocean seemed nice, the cool ocean breeze blew against my skin. I wanted to swim but, I remembered I that day.
After I told Beau we were over, I went swimming at our school's pool. There weren't a lot of people at that time. Probably five to 8 people, until Beau and his friend came in. He spotted me, and smirked. I tried to stay away from him but, one of his friends held me in the wrist to keep me from escaping. He swam toward him, and he didn't even hesitate. He put his hand on my head, and pushed my underwater. I held my breath to I would stay longer but, sooner or later the water inserted into my mouth, I could feel myself drowning in the water. My breath was starting to get smaller until he pulled me back up. I coughed out the water, and he patted my back. As if he didn't know what he did. He acted like an angel went people noticed. I felt chills run down my spine once more.
Kendall's POV
I breathe in the cool air, and smiled.
"I can't stand it anymore! Let's get soaked!" I shouted, and the guys cheered as they charged toward the ocean. I took off my shirt, and hung it on my jeep, and followed behind them. Once I was in the water, I could feel the cold water splashing on my warm skin. Best feeling ever! "Kendall!" Logan calls out to me, and I made my way over to him.
"Let's drag the girls into the water." he whispered, and I grinned.
"I like your thinking Mitchell. You said you brought squirt guns, right?" I agreed, and he nodded, "Good." I smile, and we pump fists. Logan and I got out of the water, and walked up to Jo, and Camille.
"You guys going to swim?" I asked,
"Maybe later." Jo answered, as she takes her things out of the car. I see Logan sneak through the back, and gets the squirt guns.
"I need to find my sunblock." Camille added, I look at Logan, and he nods. We grabbed the girls by the hips, and carried them to the water.
"Oh my god! Kendall don't!" Jo screamed, and I threw her to the water. She crashed and her she was soaked. Logan followed and both of the, we're in the water.
"It's so cold!" Camille cried out, and the guys and I splashed water on them both. Logan handed me a squirt gun, and I filled it with water, and squirted it at everyone. We laughed, and after a few minutes of being in the water I was good. I left the them and headed back to shore. I see Lucy just sitting on the sand far from the water, just watching the ocean. I walk over and sit next to her.
"You want to get in? I'm offering a free throw in?" I laughed, and she glare. "I think I might know what will make you happy." I smile, and went to my car, and took out her guitar. Her face lightens up, and I hand it to her.
"Play a few chords for me." I say, and she strums a few chords,and smiles. "There's that smile." I pinch her cheeks, and she swaps my hand away from her face, I laugh. I continue to watch her play the guitar. I watch her facial expression as she goes with the flow of the music. Going in depth with the rhythm, and sound."You should teach me. I've been wanting to learn guitar for a while now." I lied
"I thought you have people for that?" she gawks,
"Nope, just the guys, Gustavo, and Kelly. Plus, I want you to teach me. I can tell that your devoted to music, and you play well." I compliment her, she hands me her guitar. I put my left hand on the neck, and my right hand on the six strings.
"Put you middle finger on the fourth string second fret. Then your pointer finger on the sixth string second fret also. Then lastly, put your ring finger on the fifth string, third fret. Now strum with your right hand." she commands, and I do what I was told. I misplace my finger on the first fret on purpose, Luc immediately notices. "Second fret." she giggles a little, and I smile. I couldn't help but smile on how she laughed, and smiled. I feel a rushing feeling inside me, my heart warming, I feel a smile always appear on my face. Could it be? Could it be I'm falling for this beautiful girl in front of me? Then I hear a snapping sound, I go back to reality and Lucy was snapping her fingers in front of me.
"Earth to Kendall? You there?" her eyebrows raised in confusion.
"Yeah, uh sorry. Just...uh...spaced out." I laugh a little, and I strum ,a nice cool sound arouses from the guitar.
"You just created a D chord." she claps her hands, and so do I. "You want to hear a new song that I've been writing? It's not done but, I've got a few of the lyrics down." I offered, and she just shrugs. I put my hands on a few frets, and began singing.
" sound of your voice as it whispers into my ear. Eyes shine in the moonlight, the cool sound that I hear. Ooh, you and I here at midnight, was all I could've asked for-or. Just you and I, the moonlight in your eyes. Oh, what a wonderful night! A wonderful night!" I sang, and I stopped my strumming, she slapped my hand, and took my guitar away from me.
"You liar, you do know how to play the guitar!" she commented,
"Okay, I may have lied. It's just that face you made when you were teaching me, it just made me smile. Your inspiration in music, you devotion it's astounding." I hear footsteps in the sand, and I look up.
"I'm a hungry!" Carlos complains,
"Well we could grill the fish, and chicken I bought earlier?" Jo recommends, and we all agree on eating. I offered to gather sticks of wood or grass. I hear footsteps from behind, and I see Jo catching up to me.
"Kendall! Wait up!" she calls out, as she approaches me. "Need help?"
"I'd appreciate it thanks." I grin, and we proceed to searching. I look at the ground, and pulled out little grass in the sand.
"So, how's the new album going?" Jo asks,
"Good so far. We're almost done. Just a few more tweaks, and we'll be able to release the album mid-June maybe." I answer, and I pulled more grass. In my left hand I had a good hand full of grass. I see a twig, and pick it up. We continue until we got enough. Jo walks over to me, and gives me her pile. We began to walk back and I held a small pile of twigs, and grass in my arms.
"So, I was wondering are you going to go to Prom?" she asks at of the blue.
"Of course, why?" I question,
"I was just asking because I don't have a date yet, and I'm still waiting for someone to...oh I don't know...ask me?" she nudges my arm, and then I remembered James going to ask Jo. So I played a long.
"Well that someone of yours is closer than you think." I add, and her smile was as big as can be. From one end of her face to the other.
"Really?" and I nod. We return to the our little camp, and I find a good distance away from the cars to make a fire hole. I set down my pile of grass and dug a hole in the sand. I dug to about half a foot deep, and a foot of width. I toss in the pile of grass then the twigs on top.
"Logan hand me the matches!" I call out, and Logan rushes over to me, and hands me a box of matches. I take out a stick, and quick run the flint on the tinder, and a small light of fire immersed. I toss it in, and watched the grass gets a hold of the fire, then the fire grew into a nice fire. Jo walks over with the raw fish, and chicken on a steel spider rack, and puts it on top of the flame. Everyone gathered around the fire, and Lucy offered stayed near it to flip over the food. I see Carlos make a big hump from the sand, and laid his head back against, to make a bed.
"It's weird how life just passes us by, you know?" James began, "I remember just yesterday it was our first day at Palm Woods. I mean, now we're graduating high school."
"Those were good times. I remember we would get yelled at by Mrs. Kimberly for pranking Logan in the hallways." Carlos smiles,
"Which I hated! You guys would make me accidentally throw a cupcake at Coach Perkins, which was scary because he;s like the size of hulk." Logan complained,
"But it was funny right?" I patted Logan in the back, "I guess, plus the face he made looked like a chinese wonton." Logan chuckled, and so did I.
"Don't you wish you could go back to those memories and relive them?" Camille asks, we all nodded in agreement.
"Do you think we'll still be together? Even if we're separated?" Jo begins to get teared up, pretending that she's not crying but, she was.
"Aw, Jo!" I say, and pull her in for a hug. "We can hangout!" I attempt to cheer her up.
"Really?" she sniffles,
"Of course, right guys?" I ask everyone else, and they nod.
"Hey, I think the food is ready!" Lucy calls out to us, and we head over to her. The fresh smell of fish, and chicken fills our noses, and we all began to eat. After we were done, we put our trash into a trash bag.
"Camille, and I are going to catch some rays. Want to join us Lucy?" Jo informs Lucy,
"Uh...nah. I"m good in my long sleeve shirt." she replies, and Jo and Camille lie down on the sand. The guys go near the water to boogie board. I walk Logan's board tumble, and Logan lands on his face in the wet sand. I chuckled a little. I look at Lucy who was looking out into the ocean.
"Wanna go for a ride into town? Buy a few things, you know?" I ask, and she takes a moment to think. "Sure, why not?" she grins, and we both make our way to my jeep. I turn around, and call out to Jo.
"Jo, we're going to buy a few things!" I holler at her, and she just waves her hand. We make our way to the car, and we drove out onto the main road.
Lucy's POV
We drive up to a small nearby gas station. I get out of the car, and so does Kendall. I begin to head towards the store but, I notice that Kendall went to fill up.
"You go on ahead. I'll catch up." he noted, and I went on ahead. I walk through the door, and the whole store makes a 'ding-dong' sound to notify that someone entered their store. I was greeted by the clerk in the front, and I walked up and down the aisle. I walked passed the fountain drink area when, some dude accidentally tripped on the counter corner, and spilt his non covered drink on me. My whole shirt felt wet, and a bit sticky.
"Oh crap, I'm so sorry. Please forgive me I'm a klutz." he apologizes, and I hold out my hand.
"It's okay." I say, and I walk to the bathroom. I go a stall, and lock the door behind me. I take off my shirt, and twisted it to squeeze out the liquid. Drops fell into the toilet bowl. After squeezing it a few times, and feel the material. It was still a bit wet. I thought about for a moment. I can't go out in just my undershirt, people would look at my cuts. I bit my bottom lip, and took out my phone. I dialled Kendall's number. I hear the rings, and kendall's voice occurs.
"Hello?" I hear Kendall's voice,
"Hey, Kendall. Do you have a spare long sleeve shirt I can use? Some idiot spilt his drink on me inside the store." I explained,
"Uh, long sleeve? I only have like t-shirts in my bag. Will that do?" he asks, I grip my left hand.
"Ye-yeah. It's fine. Just put it near the women's restroom. I'll get it." I direct, and he ends the call. I put on my wet long sleeve, and wait near the bathroom door. After a few minutes, I peek out through the door. I see a black shirt, rolled like a scroll. I pick it up and went back to the stall. I get a view of the shirt. It was a black t-shirt that had 'Bon Jovi' in nice bold lettering, and the Bon Jovi logo. Which was a heart being stabbed with a sword. I smile, a little. Instead of wearing the shirt, I just put it over my long sleeve. I walk out, and I meet up Kendall at the cashier.
"I thought your long sleeve was wet?" he said, as he moves a step in the line.
"It is. I just feel comfortable covering my skin." I replied,
"Come on, just wear the shirt I gave you. You'll feel even more comfortable if you wore it. You wouldn't feel hot. Just wear it." he points at the Bon Jovi shirt.
"M-maybe later tonight." I finalize, he sighs, and gets to the cashier. He handed the money, and the clerk hands back the change. I didn't notice what he bought. He bought a cooler with ice, and several pints of Haagen Dazs ice cream flavors.
"Good idea on buying ice cream." I agreed, and he nodded. We walk out to the jeep, and we drive out of the gas station.
"Need to buy anything else?" he asked, and I nodded no. We proceeded back to the beach spot. We arrive back before dusk, I see everyone gathered around the campfire. I help Kendall carry the cooler.
"Who wants ice cream?" Kendall suggests, and everyone's faces lightens up. We both set the cooler down, and hand out the spoons. "We've got, classic chocolate, sassy strawberry, marvelous mint chip, mango miracle, crazy coffee, cute cookies and cream, and lastly vanilla!" he laughs, for every flavor he does a little dance with each pint. For chocolate he did the waltz, for coffee he just did the harlem shake. Everyone bursted laughing at each move he did. Even I laughed at Kendall's dancing. I take mango, and open the lid.
"Oo mango! Mind if we share Lucy?" James rushes over to me,
"Sure." I grin, and he sit next to me, I hold the pint, and we both take turns taking a chunk of ice cream.
"How about we sing a few songs for you girls?" Kendall recommends, "Lucy, mind if I borrow your guitar again?" I nod, and Kendall rushes to get my guitar, and rushes back. He takes a seat in the sand, and strums lightly, then begins playing.
"Wait, is this what I think you're playing?" James whispers over to Kendall.
"Just sing!" he rushes, "Now I have restart." He strums the guitar again.
Music Sounds Better with You by Big Time Rush
(Written by Big TIme Rush)
Better with you, yeah
I tried to write this down
The words just don't come out
It's hard to say how you feel
Been down the longest road
Said yes when I meant no
I lost control of the wheel
Cause you know that
Things get so bad
You've got my back
Make me wanna sing, and girl I'll sing about ya
No sweeter sound than what I've found
No perfect love could be more perfect than us
Oooo baby
It feels like
It feels like
Music sounds better with you
I notice Kendall's eyes glance at me as he sang, and he smiled, as he sang 'music sounds better with you'. I purse my lips slowly, hiding my little grin inside of me.
Baby it feels right
It feels right
Everything's better with you
They finish their little sample of their song, and Jo, Camille, and I clapped our hands. James takes another spoonful of ice cream from the point. I see Carlos gulping down his chocolate ice cream like it was liquid. When he sets the pint down, the area surrounding Carlos's mouth was covered with chocolate.
"Carlos, come on? Wipe your face please! I don't want it to be messy!" Logan hands Carlos a napkin, and Carlos wipes the chocolate stain off his face. I take a spoonful of mango ice cream, and pop it in my mouth. I taste the sweet, delicious mango flavor melt on my tongue. I take another, spoonful and continued taking in more. Until I noticed I ate a lot of spoonfuls.
"Here, James you have the rest." I offer it to him,
"Really? Thanks!" he smiles, and I smile back. I stand up, and walked over to the other side of the jeep. I changed into the shirt Kendall gave me, and put my long sleeve shirt in my bag. I see everyone laughing while eating their ice cream. I grin, and decided to take a walk around the beach. I walked until I found a cliff overseeing the beach. I sat near the edge of the cliff, so my legs would dangle over the beach. I watch as the sun slowly sank into the ocean horizon. I lean back, and set my hands behind me.
"Whatcha doing up here all alone?" I hear a voice, I turn to see Kendall. I quickly stood up, and put my hands over my cuts.
"W-what are you doing here? You should be down at the beach with the others." I stutter, as I folded my arms.
"I wanted to check up on you." he added, then he notices that I took off my long sleeve. He walks over to me.
"See, doesn't it feel nice not wearing long sleeves all the time?" he smiles, then his smile faded. I look at him, he was looking at my arms. He quickly grabs my hand and pulls it out of my fold. He views the cuts on right forearm. He grips my right wrists, I look at him once again, now his eyes staring straight at me.
"Lucy, what's this?" he points at me cuts, "Who the hell did this to you?" he shouts at me,
"K-Kendall, I-" he cuts me off, "Don't Kendall me. Tell me who did this to you." he interrupts,
"Me." I confess, and he lets go of my wrist. "T-this is what I've been hiding. Reason why I don't want to take off my jacket."
"Why, why would you do something like this? I thought you would be smarter then this." he scolds me,
"I knew it. This is why I told you, that you wouldn't understand." I spat back, he looks at me with worried eyes,
"Okay, Lucy look. What I said earlier, about me wanting you to trust me. I want to be your friend. Just, please explain this to me. W-why would you harm yourself?" He directs to my cuts. I purse my lips, and began telling him.
"T-there was this guy, I dated back in my sophomore year in Atlanta. We dated for about the whole year. I borrowed money from him, for me to buy an electric guitar. I borrowed about fifty dollars to buy my guitar. I promised him that I would pay him back. I wanted to get a job but, my parents to notice. After that I broke up with him, he told me that he would make my life a living hell." I hesitate slightly, I pause for a moment.
"He would abuse me whenever no one was looking, him and his friends. They would hit me, slap me and lots of other things during that abusive stage. As if I wasn't even a real person. After they would do that, he would always tell me, to never speak to anyone about it. Because if I did, this abuse would just double by the minute. I would come home, feeling hurt, paralyzed, and in pain. I would cry for lots of nights. Until I just left all my struggles through cutting." I shiver at the feeling of remembering the painful memories.
"The moment I cut the sharp blade on my skin, and watched the blood come out. Something inside of me made me feel at ease. I-I don't know why. Every abusive act he did to me. I would cut myself, to find some kind of peace, or something out of it." I explained. After hearing my story, Kendall takes my right arm and examines it.
"A girl like you never deserves a piece of trash like him. Never." Kendall's voice stern, and cold. "Just promise me. That you'd never do this again. I-I want you to be able to heal from all that oyu went through. I want, no, will make sure that you would never experience that pain and struggle, ever again." he promises,
"Y-you can't protect me from everything." I objected, he to my hands in his.
"I can try." he finalize, and in that moment I trusted him. I put my arms around him, and hugged him tight. I could feel a tear fall onto my cheeks. His hand around my back, returning his favor.
"Thank you." I thanked, and I release him. I look his eye, still green as ever. He suddenly took his hand, and tucked me hair behind my right ear.
"You're beautiful." he smiles, I bite my bottom lip and smile back. "You will find a guy that should ruin your lipstick, not your mascara."
Kendall offers his hand out to me, and I gladly accept it. "Come on, let's head back down with everyone else." he recommends, and we walk back to everyone. Kendall and I hand in hand.
I wrote this to everyone out there in the world who is dealing with abuse, sexual abuse, drug or alcohol abuse, self-harm, suicidal thoughts, depression. Don't worry, it gets better. Don't keep it inside of you, talk to someone, a parent, a teacher, anyone that can help you through it.
Once again, thank you for reading my story! (: It really means a lot. As always Feedback is appreciated! -Vivienne