Chapter 2:

Naruto sat down beside Hinata. They had been friends since forever. They were almost each others opposites, but he liked her anyway. When he had been younger he had had a lot of girl friends. He thought that was how it should be. He thought he had to be like all the others, but it always felt wrong. It got worse when they hit puberty.

His body began to change and he suddenly felt repulsed by his it. All the other girls began getting interested in makeup, boys, parties and how to look more feminine. But not him. Whenever he let the other girls doll him up he felt even more wrong. Like it wasn't his reflection in the mirror anymore. Like he was looking at someone else. But unfortunately that wasn't so. It was him in the mirror and he just had to deal with it.

For a long time he thought that it was normal. That the other girls had just gotten over it or that he was just more self conscious. He was sure it would disappear one day... it just didn't. It got worse and worse the more feminine his body became. He stopped wearing girly clothes, and slowly started wearing more and more boyish clothes instead. He cut his long blond hair that he had only kept because that was how girls looked. Girls had long hair, wore make up and skirts.

It happened so gradually that people didn't really question him. People just looked at him as if he was a tomboy. He soon distanced himself from them. It felt wrong somehow, but he stayed with Hinata. She wasn't like the other gossiping girly girls. She accepted him as he slowly changed and finally realized what had been wrong all along. He had been nervous abut telling her, but she just smiled and told him that she wasn't surprised. From that day on he was slowly becoming more and more comfortable with himself.

"I'm so looking forward to seeing who you will take home with you" Kiba teased.

"Actually I'm too" Naruto sighed deeply and felt the restriction from the binder.

"Why is it so important too you two?"

"I know you Naruto. I know how confused you have been about boys, so I'm a bit curious about your type" She fiddled with her fingers. She was right. Naruto was a bit curious too about exactly what his type was.

"Then I'll let you know, but I'm sure I won't bring anyone home. You both should know that would be impossible" They heard the bitter tone in his voice and gave him a sympathetic smile.

"We know, we're just trying to treat you normally" Kiba tried to sound upbeat to lift the suddenly heavy atmosphere. Naruto gave him a small smile. He knew how hard they were trying and he was so happy to know them because of it. They had been so accepting to everything. But he wasn't normal. He couldn't bring someone home and have sex with them. They wouldn't really be attracted to his body. He sighed again and felt the binder tightening around his ribs. All this talk was making him too conscious about the uncomfortable press all around his upper body.

The teacher came in and started the lesson and Naruto happily tried to concentrate on the words instead of the memories. When class was over he waved at Kiba and Hinata and hurried over to his next class. He found a seat and waited for the lesson to start. The ticking of the clock sounded too loud and reminded him that it got closer and closer till tonight. He ruffled his hair and rested his head on the table. He had no idea why this was making him so nervous.

Maybe it was the fact that it was a bar that was mainly for men and therefore this was the first time people would actually see him as he wanted them too. It was like a debut. He wasn't sure if they would accept him or see right through the illusion. Because no matter how much he wanted too he was a boy and he never would be one. His body would always be a little different. He had almost accepted that fact… the question was just… would his partner also accept it. Would the person he ended up liking accept him as he was and still like him, still be attracted to him. He wasn't sure and that frightened him. He concentrated on the small conversations going on around him to distract himself until the teacher came.

When the class was finally over, Naruto rubbed his eyes. This class had been unbelievably boring. He put his things back into his back and went towards the canteen. He looked around to find the table Kiba and Hinata was occupying. He found them and walked over and sat down. They were engrossed in a conversation and Naruto stayed quiet. He began eating but somehow he got tuned in on a conversation that was happening behind him.

Sakura and Ino were happily discussion about which boy was the hottest in the school. He remembered when he was having those conversations with them. He remembered how he felt more normal but also a bit confused because of them. He had been happy because finally he had a similarity with the other girls. They could all talk about how hot boys were and he felt normal. But a part of him was also a bit confused. He knew he saw them a bit different.

He could still remember the day he became conscious about it. It had been a huge shock for him and he was scared. He knew that the other girls definitely didn't think like this. He had looked at a boy and while the other girls was fanning themselves over how hot his broad shoulders and muscular chest was, Naruto felt envious. He had touched his squeeze breasts and wondered why he wasn't flat and firm like that guy was. He had kept that part from the other girls and felt repulsed by himself. How could he think something like that? It wasn't normal. A hard pat on the back brought him back to the present.

"What are you thinking about, you're kinda staring into space?" Kiba teased.

"Nothing, so how are we gonan do this thing tonight? Are you joining me or am I going alone?"

"You're going alone dude. I'm not going to a gay bar, I don't want some guy rubbing himself up against me.. No offense." Naruto couldn't help but laugh. They had been to a party once where Naruto had been so drunk he had forgotten that it wasn't appropriate to rub himself against another boy while dancing. Luckily it had just been Kiba and after a really awkward couple of days they could just laugh it off.

"Yeah, it's going to be weird that it's actually allowed in there"

"So you really are into girl, huh?" Saskura's voice interrupted them. Naruto frowned

"No" Sakura crossed her arms

"Don't lie. We just heard you were going to a gay bar"

"I can't believe we were friends with you." Ino said behind her. Naruto felt like he was being hit. He was seen as a lesbian.

"I like boys, but even so I would never had liked any of you" The harsh words didn't stop the two girls.

"You're a girl who dresses like a boy, so you have to like girls. Who would look like that if they wanted the attention of guys?"

"She has always been weird" SHE…GIRL the words almost hurt inside him.

"Why don't you skanks just walk away again? It's not like there's anyone here who likes you" They just flipped their hair and walked away.

"Don't let it get to you. They don't know anything" Hinata put her hand on Naruto's arm to try and comfort him.

"Not let it get to me. How can I not, Hinata? Tell me that?" Naruto almost yelled. "How can I ignore the fact that people are probably just seeing me as a girl in boys clothing. I can't stand that." He could feel the tears sting. This was another part of himself he hated. His emotions. He was always so emotional, sometimes he couldn't control them, and they overwhelmed him. He went to the bathroom and wanted to lock himself into one of the stalls. The problem was just he couldn't really use either one. So he ended up kicking the door to the girls restroom hard and went to find somewhere quiet he could sit until he had calmed down.

I hope you find it interesting. I don't know when I can upload another chapter... But please review, so I can get a feel for how it's going.