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"What's going on? Are we too late?" I whispered when Phil was far enough ahead of us
I was on the verge of a panic attack. Knowing that we almost made it, but knowing I was too late to say goodbye. Edward squeezed my hand and looked at the back of Phil's head.
"I wish Jasper had come with us. If you don't relax, you're going to hyperventilate"
"Edward" I scolded
"Everything is fine, her illness had gotten worse and she had trouble breathing so your mom decided it would be best to bring her in"
"Oh no" I stopped dead in my tracks and started breathing heavy
Edward sighed but wound and arm around my waist to keep me walking. We made it to the car and we immediately climbed in back.
"Bells" Phil broke the silence after 10 minutes of driving down the dark road "I know this was a lot to take in over the phone. But you have no idea how much this means to your mom that you came out so soon. She wasn't sure if you'd be willing to come out, with the new baby and all. And in all honesty, I think she's taking this worse then your grandmother"
"They need me here" was my only response and it was the only thing I could think of
Thankfully Edward had been smart to get a night flight so we wouldn't have to worry about the sun, but I don't know what he planned to do for the time remaining. The rest of the ride was silent but when we pulled up to hospital I started panicking. I did the only thing I knew how and tried to think up valid excuses as to why I couldn't go in.
"Wait" I started "it's late. Won't she be sleeping, we should wait till tomorrow"
"She'll be up. She's been sleeping weird hours because of the chemo and your mom told her you were coming so…"
"Oh" I tried to sound relieved
Okay Bella it was time to stop being a baby and do this. That's your grandmother in their and she needs you. I've didn't come all this way just so I could turn back around. The longer I put this off the harder its going to be.
"You ready?" Phil asked leading us to the door
I nodded and grabbed tighter hold of Edward's hand.
"Stay" I whispered
"Always"
As soon as we walked through the doors the familiar smell of hospital came flaring up into my nostrils. From the cleaning products, the sick, and the elderly, the smell was almost too powerful and my nose wrinkled up in disgust. After an elevator ride up to the 4th floor, Phil led us to the last door on the right and I saw my aunt standing in the hallway on the phone. My little cousin Emma was sitting on her father's lap in one of the chairs. She didn't look that sad, but then again she was still too little to really understand what's happening. Once she saw me coming she jumped off her father's lap and ran towards me.
"Bella" she yelled and as she got closer I could see she'd been crying
She slammed into me and I felt Edward hold onto my back so I wouldn't fall over. She held onto my neck tightly, so I knew she must know a little about what's going on.
"Is grandma going to die?" she cried
"I don't know sweetie"
I lied right to her face, of course I knew. But I couldn't tell a 4 year old that her grandmother is going to die. Could I? No, that wasn't my job.
"I missed you and mommy said that we don't have to worry until the whole family shows up and you had to fly here. I think you live the farthest away"
"What did everyone tell you exactly?"
"That grandma is really sick and she's going to heaven with grandpa and all the angels"
"That's right sweetie"
She laid her head on my shoulder as I guided us towards the room. My aunt noticed me and quickly ended her call.
"Bella I'm so glad you guys could make it" she cried pulling me into a hug "Your mom's inside"
I went to pass Emma over but she clung on. "You'll see Bella tomorrow she's going to visit grandma and its past your bedtime anyways"
"It was good seeing you again" I said
"Maybe we can all get together and do breakfast tomorrow before we head back up here, bring back something for grandma huh?"
"Yeah that sounds nice" I agreed
"Okay well see you tomorrow"
I nodded and watched them as they walked towards the elevators. Knowing it was time I pushed open the hospital door. My mother was sitting holding her hand, silently crying. She didn't turn around when we entered but I took this time to look at the sickly woman lying in bed. I didn't even recognize her. She was pale, and really skinny. Her eyes were sunken in and her face had no emotion. It looked like if you touched her, she'd break.
"Mom?" I whispered
She wiped her eyes and turned towards me. She pulled me into a hug then Edward.
"I'm surprised you got here so quick" she laughed trying to lighten the mood
"Is that my grandbaby?" I heard a weak voice
"It's me" I whispered
My mom gestured for me to take her seat while she pulled Edward closer to her. I sat down and grabbed her hand noticing that it was cold.
"How are you feeling?"
"I've been better" she smiled "You look good"
"Grandma we're talking about you here, not me"
"Come on, people have been talking about me for days. I want to hear how you've been"
"I've got something to show you" I smiled
I wanted to show her a picture of Ryan and Abby. I knew it would cheer her up and take her mind off things for a little while. I turned to Edward to see him and my mom talking silently to each other. I caught onto a couple words like funeral, burial, and her will. I shivered at the thought of her lying underground.
"Edward can I see your phone?"
"Yea"
He walked over and handed me his phone while I quickly scrolled through the pictures till I found one of Ryan.
"This is Ryan" I told her putting the phone in front o f her
"Oh my goodness, he's a beauty, he looks just like his father" she grinned
I smiled and looked at Edward and my mom who seemed to be pleased. After a while we took a couple minutes sifting through other pictures. I never noticed it before but Edward seemed to have a lot of pictures. Most of them were of the kids but I was in quite a few too.
"You guys make such a beautiful family"
"Thanks" I smiled
I was suddenly glad we came. I was proud of myself that I could cheer her up just talking about how good my life was. I could tell she was getting tired and my mom took her seat back while I went and sat on Edward's lap on the other side of the room.
"Mom we're going to head home soon. But we'll back first thing in the morning with some breakfast"
"Alright"
And that's when she took a deep breath and had a coughing fit. I started panicking as did my mom who quickly sat her bed up and handed her water.
"Mom, take deep breaths" she told her "Bella go get a nurse"
I just stood there watching my mom try and calm her. My feet couldn't move. I heard Edward say something then he disappeared out the door. I felt a lump in my throat and bolted out the door. I leaned against the wall and started crying into my hands. No matter how good she looked for even a second. She could not escape the sickness. It was still slowly taking her life whether I made her smile or not. I heard the sound of feet running and I looked up to see a nurse rushing to the room.
"She had another coughing fit" my mother explained
I sunk down to my knees and I soon felt someone wrap their arms around me.
"I don't know what to say to make you feel better" he admitted
"Me neither" I picked my head up and he wiped my tears
He sat down next to me and I leaned my head on his shoulder. I was suddenly mad that we couldn't go anywhere. We had to wait for my mom to bring us back to her house. I hated not having our own car.
"I want to leave" I stood up and started pacing
"Love, I don't have a car we…" Edward started
"I want leave now" I cried
I buried my face in my hands while Edward stood up and wrapped me in a hug. He knew nothing he could say would make this better. But being in his arms helped
"I can't stand here helpless and where's Phil? He's never around. My mom needs him the most right now…and he disappears"
"I think he's down in the café. Plus your mom needs you. Do you want to see the kids?"
I nodded and went to sit in his lap. I pulled out his phone that I still had and scrolled to the house number. Edward took the phone from me and held it out so we could both be seen. Lucky for us they picked up on the first ring and Carlisle's face appeared on the screen.
"Hi guys, I see you made it there okay"
"Yea we did we're at the hospital now" Edward informed
"How is she?"
I knew this question was meant for me "She's…holding on"
"I'm sorry honey, you just stay strong"
"I'll try" I forced out a smile
"Now I know you didn't call to see us… hold on a second"
He placed the phone down but was back in 2 seconds with Abby and Esme who had Ryan.
"Hi baby" I cooed
Abby's face cheered up as soon as she heard my voice. She reached over and taped the screen and I heard Edward laugh behind me.
"Mommy" she called out
"Daddy and I miss you very much, we'll be home really soon to see you"
"Have you been good?" Edward asked
"She's been nothing but trouble" Esme laughed jokingly
Edward laughed also "Okay well off to bed okay? Mommy and I have to go now okay? I love you"
"I love you guys so much" I smiled
Esme took Abby from Carlisle and disappeared up the stairs. I really missed them and we were only gone about 4 hours. I needed to learn to not be so clingy to them.
"Keep in touch. The rest of them are ready to head out as soon as you call. We'll see you guys tomorrow" Carlisle said before disconnecting the call.
I took a deep breath to calm myself down. My head lay back against his shoulder as I just sat their playing with his fingers.
"You okay?" he asked nuzzling his face in my neck
"I will be"
I heard shuffling inside the room then the door shut. I looked up to see my mom wiping her tears.
"She's sleeping. The nurse gave her a sedative to calm her down and put her to sleep"
"Has she had one that bad before?" Edward asked
"Not that bad. I hate to say it but it's just going to go downhill from here"
He nodded and kissed the side of my head
"What's our next step" he continued
"Keeping her comfortable and being with her. That's all we can do"
I could feel my mom's eyes burning into mine but I couldn't look at her.
"You ready to go?" she asked
Once again Edward answered for me and I felt him help me up from the ground and tow me towards the elevators. No one said anything, but then again what could you say? I stayed close to Edward because frankly, I probably would've started hysterically crying or screaming any minute. Like before the ride home was silent and I didn't make a comment when I saw Phil in the driver's seat. Always shows up at the best times. Once at the house, Edward brought in our bags.
"Mom I think I'm heading right to bed" I told her
"Okay sweetie, make sure you're up early for breakfast tomorrow"
I nodded and she pulled me into a tight hug.
"Everything will be okay, we'll get through this" she whispered
"I know"
I made my way up the stairs where Edward was unpacking our things in our old room.
"I'm heading in the shower if you want to join me"
"Yeah I'll be right in" he said turning to look at me
I walked into the bathroom and turned the water on hot. I was thankful that Edward had already unpacked my toiletries. I quickly undressed and jumped in the shower. I welcomed the hot water running down my back as it washed it away my worries. I quickly massaged some soap into my hair. I heard the door open and Edward stepped into the shower. I immediately wrapped my arm around his waist and he leaned his forehead against mine.
"I'm so sorry you have to go through this" he whispered
"Please, I don't want to talk about it anymore. That's all this trip is going to be about and I just want to relax with you tonight"
He smiled and leaned down to kiss me. It felt so good to be alone with him. My fingers ran down his bare chest and I felt him shiver. He wrapped an arm around my waist, pulling me closer.
"I love you" i said in between kisses
"I love you too"
He moved his lips to my neck and I moaned softly at the sensation. I wanted him now and my body was reacting. I needed him to make me feel better, to take my mind off things just for a little while. My fingernails scraped across his back trying to pull him closer.
"Bella what are doing?" he gasped at my sudden aggressiveness
"Please, I need you" I breathed
"Bella" he moaned
"Please"
He lifted me up so my legs wound around his waist as he sat down on the bottom of the shower floor. One of his hands found my lower back while the other dug into my thigh.
My lips glued onto his as he took me on the shower floor.
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