p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"strongspan style="font-size: 14pt; line-height: 21.4667px; font-family: Georgia;"A/N: /span/strongspan style="font-size: 14pt; line-height: 21.4667px; font-family: Georgia;"To see sneak peeks of future chapters, find me on Instagram ( tiggermom023) and/or Twitter ( tigger_mom023). I DO like to respond to people, so don't be afraid to say hi either!/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 14pt; line-height: 21.4667px; font-family: Georgia;"Please remember: I strongDO NOT/strong own Jai Courtney nor the song Angel With A Shotgun. The song is owned by the band, The Cab. If you've never heard it, check it out. I adore that song right now and listen to it probably about 5 to 10 times a day./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 14pt; line-height: 21.4667px; font-family: Georgia;"I will have a new Eric/Tris songfic series up soon as well. It is going to be called The Love Heartbreak Series. It will consist mostly of song fics, but will also include little tidbits in between for chapters to give you more details. So definitely keep an eye out for that!/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 14pt; line-height: 21.4667px; font-family: Georgia;"Lastly, in case you were worried, this chapter is nowhere strongnear/strong the end of this fic! I still have plenty of things planned up my sleeve for these two. ;)/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 14pt; line-height: 21.4667px; font-family: Georgia;"Enjoy! xo/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"strongspan style="font-size: 14pt; line-height: 21.4667px; font-family: Georgia;" /span/strong/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"strongspan style="font-size: 14pt; line-height: 21.4667px; font-family: Georgia;"Chapter Seven – The Bad News/span/strong/p
p style="margin-right: 0in; margin-left: 0in; font-size: 12pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman';"strongspan style="font-family: Georgia;"Kayla/span/strong/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;"Summer was only two weeks from ending, and I knew Jai and I would have to say our goodbyes soon. It saddened me because we never talked about what we would do after summer was over and he went back to work while I went back to the States. We had fun though. We had sex quite often, and I even returned the favor to him from the first night once. I still couldn't believe that my boyfriend was Jai Courtney, let alone that I was having sex with him. This man was like a God to me before I came to Australia, and now he's my boyfriend and the guy I lost my virginity to. Susanna dropped me off at his place after she had made plans with her guy, and as I walked in he was on the phone. He looked at me and mouthed 'sorry' as he held up one finger, gesturing to me to hang on for a minute as he finished his phone call. After he got off the phone, I stood up and we walked to one another, meeting halfway in between where we previously stood. He kissed my lips softly and embraced me in a hug./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""How are you, love?" he asked. I had a feeling something wasn't right, but I didn't change the subject./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""I'm good, how are you?" I asked./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""I'm okay. Dinner is almost finished, but why don't we go sit down? I need to talk to you about something." he looked so sincere, almost sorrowful. I knew something was wrong, wrong enough to upset him a great deal. He sat on the end of the couch./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""What's going on?" I asked as I sat on the couch beside him. He put his arm around me and looked at me. I could see the pain in his eyes, and I wondered what was causing it./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""I just got off the phone with my agent, and she said that I have to leave for the next movie earlier than we had originally planned." I felt a weight on my heart that I'd never felt before. Taking a deep breath, I asked another question that I thought would have a heartbreaking answer./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""How much earlier?" I asked. As the words left my lips, I saw the pain in his eyes get stronger./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""Friday," he said simply. Today was Wednesday. I felt nauseous as the news hit me harder. My boyfriend had to leave, and I didn't know if we were even going to stay together./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""That's in two days." I pointed out the obvious. He must have noticed the fear in my eyes./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""This isn't going to change anything with us," I heard the sincerity in his voice. "I don't want us to break up. If I wanted a summer fling, I wouldn't have asked you to be my girlfriend in the first place," he confessed. Tears began welling up in my eyes, but I fought them away as hard as I could. He must have noticed them though because he put his arms around me and held me. As soon as my head hit his chest I lost control and started crying hard. "It's gonna be okay baby, I promise you we will get through this," he whispered as he held me./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;"We stood there for what felt like a few hours as I cried, and before I knew it I was so tired from crying that I couldn't even stay awake anymore. When I woke up, I turned over to see him lying next to me, looking at me lovingly./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""Hi, you," he said quietly./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""Hi," I replied. "What time is it?" I asked./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""Two in the morning," he replied. "Want me to turn on a light or do you want to go back to sleep?" he asked./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""A light would be nice, please," I said. I heard him move and then a click, and then there was light in the room. "I'm gonna miss you." I blurted out. He looked into my eyes and I felt my heart break all over again./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""I'm gonna miss you too, sweetheart. But I truly think we can get through this," he sounded so confident. "When I have time off I can come to see you, and when you have time off I can fly you out to wherever I'm at," he explained./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""You know," I paused, breaking eye contact with him to stare at the bedsheet. "We haven't talked about where this is going." I looked back up at him after I finished my words./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""Well, let's talk about it then." he sat up and took one of my hands to help me sit up too./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""I'm scared I'm just going to be something that holds you back." I felt bad for saying it, but it was the truth./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""Don't think of it that way," he said simply. "You're who I want to be with. If that means I need to take time away or not take a new movie then so be it." he looked into my eyes as he spoke./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""You'd do that for me?" I asked, surprised./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""I'd do that for emus/em, and for you." he smiled at me. I leaned forward and kissed him. It hit me that now would be the perfect time to confess that I love him and I open my mouth to say something, but out of fear I stop myself. "What babe?" he noticed the face I made./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""I was about to say something, but lost my train of thought." I lied. Of course, I was going to lie. It was far too soon to be saying those words and I didn't want him to know I'd even thought about saying them yet. He chuckled at me and put his arm around me. I snuggled into him and laid my head on his chest. We sat and talked for a few hours before both of us dozed off./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;"When I woke up 6 hours later, I smelled something very sweet. I got up and wandered my way to the kitchen, following the aroma. When I got there I saw Jai singing and dancing to a song playing on his laptop, which was sitting on the counter away from where he was cooking./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;" /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px; text-align: center;" align="center"emspan style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;"If love's a fight then I shall diebr /with my heart on the trigger/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px; text-align: center;" align="center"emspan style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;"They say before you start a war,br /you better know what you're fighting /Well, baby, you are all that I adore,br /if love is what you need, a soldier I will /br /I'm an angel with a shotgun,br /fighting 'til the war's won,br /I don't care if heaven won't take me /I'll throw away my faith, babe, just to keep you /Don't you know you're everything I havebr /and I, wanna live, not just survive, tonight./span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px; text-align: justify;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;" /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px; text-align: justify;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;"I couldn't contain my giggles anymore, seeing him this way was beyond cute. He must have heard my giggles over the blaring music though because he whipped around to see me./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px; text-align: justify;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""Hi," he grinned nervously./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px; text-align: justify;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""Hi," I smiled back. "You look like a deer caught in headlights." I pointed out, giggling a little./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px; text-align: justify;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""I thought you were asleep." he replied, his facial expression like a child who just got caught with his hand in the cookie jar. I giggled a little harder./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px; text-align: justify;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""So emthis/em is what you do when I'm not around?" I asked, highly amused./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px; text-align: justify;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""Maybe." I couldn't help but crack up laughing when he grinned at me like a Cheshire cat./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px; text-align: justify;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""You are a trip," I pointed out. "What's for breakfast?" I walked over by the stove and saw three pans going at once. In the first pan, I saw French toast; the second had bacon and the third had sausage links. I inhaled the wonderful aroma and closed my eyes as I /"It smells amazing in here." I opened my eyes to look at him. He smiled proudly and planted a kiss on my lips./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px; text-align: justify;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""I enjoy cooking for you," he told me./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px; text-align: justify;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""And you are wonderful at it." I complimented him. He planted another kiss on my lips and resumed cooking./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px; text-align: justify;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""You go sit down, I'm going to finish up cooking and then I'll make you a plate," he said, stepping over to the laptop to close it. After he finished cooking, he grabbed a plate out of the microwave that had a stack of pancakes on it and put it on the counter near the stove. I watch him grab two plates out of the cabinet and set one of them on the countertop. He began putting a little bit of each food item onto the plate before bringing it over to me. I thanked him with a smile and waited for him to make his plate and come sit with me. When he sat down, I leaned over and kissed him before we both started to enjoy the breakfast he had cooked./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px; text-align: justify;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""This is emamazing/em!" I exclaimed. "How did you get so good at this?" I asked. "If I ever tried to make pancakes I'd end up over-cooking or burning at least one side."/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px; text-align: justify;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""Lots and lots of practice." he grinned proudly before putting a bite of French toast into his mouth./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px; text-align: justify;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""Well, I love how you have perfected your practice." I think that was the first time either of us ever used 'love' about anything involving either of us… and I felt like it was perfect. He didn't seem to mind it either, as he looked at me with the most loving look I'd ever seen./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px; text-align: justify;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""It's not perfect emyet/em, but thank you." he smiled at me. "So, what do you want to do today?" he asked. It took me some time to think about it. I knew there were many things we could do: go to the arcade, go see a movie, walk on the beach, have a water fight, go to the aquarium, and a dozen other things. But I just wanted one on one time with my boyfriend. He was leaving this place in less than 48 hours, and I was staying here. The thought moved to the front of my mind and I felt like my heart was sinking into my stomach. Jai's voice brought me out of my thoughts about as fast as my mind had gotten me into /"Baby, are you okay?" he asked, the worry clear on his face./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px; text-align: justify;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""I'm alright." I lied. I didn't want to tell him that knowing he was leaving and I wouldn't see him for who knows how long was tearing me apart. I didn't want to tell him that knowing I was going to be so very far away from him made me want to curl up into a ball and cry like a child. I didn't want this to be the moment that I told him I was head over heels in love with him and that was what was causing me to feel this way. No, no I don't. Do I? Yes. Yes, indeed I do love him. What a revelation to have less than 48 hours before the love of your life leaves for months in a row. Dammit. And all this time I was so introverted I didn't realize that he could read right through me and the look on my face./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px; text-align: justify;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""No you're not," he told me. I heard his words and couldn't respond before he spoke again. "You're thinking about Friday." he pointed out blatantly. I sighed in defeat and held back my tears. I didn't want to ruin breakfast./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px; text-align: justify;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""Why don't we finish breakfast and then we can talk about where my head is at, okay?" I asked, hoping it was a good enough compromise. He nodded and we both continued to eat. When we were done, he picked up the plates and put them in the sink, turning on the water. I stood up to come to help him, but he told me to go sit down on the couch in the living room so we could talk while he rinsed off plates and loaded the dishwasher. Doing as asked, I sat down on the couch and waited for him to sit down next to me./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""What's on your mind?" he asked me, "And be honest." I couldn't figure out where to start. What was I going to tell him?br /emI'm gonna miss you more than you /No, I can't tell him that. He'll think I'm /emNo, he won't./embr /Yes, he /Why am I arguing with myself? I need to stop it./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""I'm not looking forward to Friday." I blurted out, unable to think of what I emreally/em wanted to say. Or maybe I just didn't want to say what I really should have said. I don't know./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""I'm not either," I felt his hand slide on top of mine, which was resting on my leg just above my knee. "I don't want to leave you." he put his hand on my face and gently turned my head until my eyes met his. I could see so many emotions in him simply from looking into his eyes and realized that was all I needed to confess my feelings./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""I think I'm falling for you," the words left my mouth so fast I couldn't stop them. I wasn't sure I wanted to though, either. "The thought of us being separated for long periods tears me up and makes my heart try to make a new home for itself in my stomach," I told him. Who in the hell was this girl talking with my voice? It sure didn't seem like me. I think I had a 'deer in the headlights' look on my face. I felt like I did, anyway. It went away when I felt his soft lips on mine, though. Everything went away when I felt it. I was happy./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""We emwill/em make this work. Wanna know how I know?" he asked./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""How?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""Because I feel the same way about you that you do about me." he smiled at me. I kissed him this time. I know I should probably tell him that I love him since it's the perfect time, but I don't want to ruin this moment. I'd rather leave it at 'I'm falling for you' and hold off on professing my love for him./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;"I spent the rest of the evening in his arms on the couch. We watched a few movies together – one of them being a chick flick that had me crying because it hit so close to home with him leaving in just over a day now. He held me close and let me cry, reassuring me the entire time that we would be okay and we could get through it. It was killing me to know that I was going to have to figure out a way to be without him after falling so /What in the hell was the matter with me? Before I met him the day he saved my life at the beach, I never knew this man and didn't even feel like I needed to be emnear/em him. Why did this change so fast? Why did I, all of a sudden, feel like I would be miserable without him?br /emIts love, you You're in love with /emI looked over at him, watching him as he watched the movie for a moment. As I watched him, it hit me that the little voice in my head was right. I hadn't fallen for him. I was in love with him. Sonuvabitch… I'll be damned./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 14pt; line-height: 21.4667px; font-family: Georgia;"Please remember: I strongDO NOT/strong own Jai Courtney nor the song Angel With A Shotgun. The song is owned by the band, The Cab. If you've never heard it, check it out. I adore that song right now and listen to it probably about 5 to 10 times a day./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 14pt; line-height: 21.4667px; font-family: Georgia;"I will have a new Eric/Tris songfic series up soon as well. It is going to be called The Love Heartbreak Series. It will consist mostly of song fics, but will also include little tidbits in between for chapters to give you more details. So definitely keep an eye out for that!/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 14pt; line-height: 21.4667px; font-family: Georgia;"Lastly, in case you were worried, this chapter is nowhere strongnear/strong the end of this fic! I still have plenty of things planned up my sleeve for these two. ;)/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 14pt; line-height: 21.4667px; font-family: Georgia;"Enjoy! xo/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"strongspan style="font-size: 14pt; line-height: 21.4667px; font-family: Georgia;" /span/strong/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"strongspan style="font-size: 14pt; line-height: 21.4667px; font-family: Georgia;"Chapter Seven – The Bad News/span/strong/p
p style="margin-right: 0in; margin-left: 0in; font-size: 12pt; font-family: 'Times New Roman';"strongspan style="font-family: Georgia;"Kayla/span/strong/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;"Summer was only two weeks from ending, and I knew Jai and I would have to say our goodbyes soon. It saddened me because we never talked about what we would do after summer was over and he went back to work while I went back to the States. We had fun though. We had sex quite often, and I even returned the favor to him from the first night once. I still couldn't believe that my boyfriend was Jai Courtney, let alone that I was having sex with him. This man was like a God to me before I came to Australia, and now he's my boyfriend and the guy I lost my virginity to. Susanna dropped me off at his place after she had made plans with her guy, and as I walked in he was on the phone. He looked at me and mouthed 'sorry' as he held up one finger, gesturing to me to hang on for a minute as he finished his phone call. After he got off the phone, I stood up and we walked to one another, meeting halfway in between where we previously stood. He kissed my lips softly and embraced me in a hug./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""How are you, love?" he asked. I had a feeling something wasn't right, but I didn't change the subject./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""I'm good, how are you?" I asked./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""I'm okay. Dinner is almost finished, but why don't we go sit down? I need to talk to you about something." he looked so sincere, almost sorrowful. I knew something was wrong, wrong enough to upset him a great deal. He sat on the end of the couch./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""What's going on?" I asked as I sat on the couch beside him. He put his arm around me and looked at me. I could see the pain in his eyes, and I wondered what was causing it./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""I just got off the phone with my agent, and she said that I have to leave for the next movie earlier than we had originally planned." I felt a weight on my heart that I'd never felt before. Taking a deep breath, I asked another question that I thought would have a heartbreaking answer./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""How much earlier?" I asked. As the words left my lips, I saw the pain in his eyes get stronger./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""Friday," he said simply. Today was Wednesday. I felt nauseous as the news hit me harder. My boyfriend had to leave, and I didn't know if we were even going to stay together./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""That's in two days." I pointed out the obvious. He must have noticed the fear in my eyes./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""This isn't going to change anything with us," I heard the sincerity in his voice. "I don't want us to break up. If I wanted a summer fling, I wouldn't have asked you to be my girlfriend in the first place," he confessed. Tears began welling up in my eyes, but I fought them away as hard as I could. He must have noticed them though because he put his arms around me and held me. As soon as my head hit his chest I lost control and started crying hard. "It's gonna be okay baby, I promise you we will get through this," he whispered as he held me./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;"We stood there for what felt like a few hours as I cried, and before I knew it I was so tired from crying that I couldn't even stay awake anymore. When I woke up, I turned over to see him lying next to me, looking at me lovingly./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""Hi, you," he said quietly./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""Hi," I replied. "What time is it?" I asked./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""Two in the morning," he replied. "Want me to turn on a light or do you want to go back to sleep?" he asked./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""A light would be nice, please," I said. I heard him move and then a click, and then there was light in the room. "I'm gonna miss you." I blurted out. He looked into my eyes and I felt my heart break all over again./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""I'm gonna miss you too, sweetheart. But I truly think we can get through this," he sounded so confident. "When I have time off I can come to see you, and when you have time off I can fly you out to wherever I'm at," he explained./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""You know," I paused, breaking eye contact with him to stare at the bedsheet. "We haven't talked about where this is going." I looked back up at him after I finished my words./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""Well, let's talk about it then." he sat up and took one of my hands to help me sit up too./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""I'm scared I'm just going to be something that holds you back." I felt bad for saying it, but it was the truth./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""Don't think of it that way," he said simply. "You're who I want to be with. If that means I need to take time away or not take a new movie then so be it." he looked into my eyes as he spoke./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""You'd do that for me?" I asked, surprised./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""I'd do that for emus/em, and for you." he smiled at me. I leaned forward and kissed him. It hit me that now would be the perfect time to confess that I love him and I open my mouth to say something, but out of fear I stop myself. "What babe?" he noticed the face I made./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""I was about to say something, but lost my train of thought." I lied. Of course, I was going to lie. It was far too soon to be saying those words and I didn't want him to know I'd even thought about saying them yet. He chuckled at me and put his arm around me. I snuggled into him and laid my head on his chest. We sat and talked for a few hours before both of us dozed off./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;"When I woke up 6 hours later, I smelled something very sweet. I got up and wandered my way to the kitchen, following the aroma. When I got there I saw Jai singing and dancing to a song playing on his laptop, which was sitting on the counter away from where he was cooking./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;" /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px; text-align: center;" align="center"emspan style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;"If love's a fight then I shall diebr /with my heart on the trigger/span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px; text-align: center;" align="center"emspan style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;"They say before you start a war,br /you better know what you're fighting /Well, baby, you are all that I adore,br /if love is what you need, a soldier I will /br /I'm an angel with a shotgun,br /fighting 'til the war's won,br /I don't care if heaven won't take me /I'll throw away my faith, babe, just to keep you /Don't you know you're everything I havebr /and I, wanna live, not just survive, tonight./span/em/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px; text-align: justify;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;" /span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px; text-align: justify;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;"I couldn't contain my giggles anymore, seeing him this way was beyond cute. He must have heard my giggles over the blaring music though because he whipped around to see me./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px; text-align: justify;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""Hi," he grinned nervously./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px; text-align: justify;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""Hi," I smiled back. "You look like a deer caught in headlights." I pointed out, giggling a little./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px; text-align: justify;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""I thought you were asleep." he replied, his facial expression like a child who just got caught with his hand in the cookie jar. I giggled a little harder./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px; text-align: justify;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""So emthis/em is what you do when I'm not around?" I asked, highly amused./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px; text-align: justify;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""Maybe." I couldn't help but crack up laughing when he grinned at me like a Cheshire cat./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px; text-align: justify;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""You are a trip," I pointed out. "What's for breakfast?" I walked over by the stove and saw three pans going at once. In the first pan, I saw French toast; the second had bacon and the third had sausage links. I inhaled the wonderful aroma and closed my eyes as I /"It smells amazing in here." I opened my eyes to look at him. He smiled proudly and planted a kiss on my lips./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px; text-align: justify;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""I enjoy cooking for you," he told me./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px; text-align: justify;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""And you are wonderful at it." I complimented him. He planted another kiss on my lips and resumed cooking./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px; text-align: justify;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""You go sit down, I'm going to finish up cooking and then I'll make you a plate," he said, stepping over to the laptop to close it. After he finished cooking, he grabbed a plate out of the microwave that had a stack of pancakes on it and put it on the counter near the stove. I watch him grab two plates out of the cabinet and set one of them on the countertop. He began putting a little bit of each food item onto the plate before bringing it over to me. I thanked him with a smile and waited for him to make his plate and come sit with me. When he sat down, I leaned over and kissed him before we both started to enjoy the breakfast he had cooked./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px; text-align: justify;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""This is emamazing/em!" I exclaimed. "How did you get so good at this?" I asked. "If I ever tried to make pancakes I'd end up over-cooking or burning at least one side."/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px; text-align: justify;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""Lots and lots of practice." he grinned proudly before putting a bite of French toast into his mouth./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px; text-align: justify;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""Well, I love how you have perfected your practice." I think that was the first time either of us ever used 'love' about anything involving either of us… and I felt like it was perfect. He didn't seem to mind it either, as he looked at me with the most loving look I'd ever seen./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px; text-align: justify;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""It's not perfect emyet/em, but thank you." he smiled at me. "So, what do you want to do today?" he asked. It took me some time to think about it. I knew there were many things we could do: go to the arcade, go see a movie, walk on the beach, have a water fight, go to the aquarium, and a dozen other things. But I just wanted one on one time with my boyfriend. He was leaving this place in less than 48 hours, and I was staying here. The thought moved to the front of my mind and I felt like my heart was sinking into my stomach. Jai's voice brought me out of my thoughts about as fast as my mind had gotten me into /"Baby, are you okay?" he asked, the worry clear on his face./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px; text-align: justify;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""I'm alright." I lied. I didn't want to tell him that knowing he was leaving and I wouldn't see him for who knows how long was tearing me apart. I didn't want to tell him that knowing I was going to be so very far away from him made me want to curl up into a ball and cry like a child. I didn't want this to be the moment that I told him I was head over heels in love with him and that was what was causing me to feel this way. No, no I don't. Do I? Yes. Yes, indeed I do love him. What a revelation to have less than 48 hours before the love of your life leaves for months in a row. Dammit. And all this time I was so introverted I didn't realize that he could read right through me and the look on my face./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px; text-align: justify;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""No you're not," he told me. I heard his words and couldn't respond before he spoke again. "You're thinking about Friday." he pointed out blatantly. I sighed in defeat and held back my tears. I didn't want to ruin breakfast./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px; text-align: justify;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""Why don't we finish breakfast and then we can talk about where my head is at, okay?" I asked, hoping it was a good enough compromise. He nodded and we both continued to eat. When we were done, he picked up the plates and put them in the sink, turning on the water. I stood up to come to help him, but he told me to go sit down on the couch in the living room so we could talk while he rinsed off plates and loaded the dishwasher. Doing as asked, I sat down on the couch and waited for him to sit down next to me./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""What's on your mind?" he asked me, "And be honest." I couldn't figure out where to start. What was I going to tell him?br /emI'm gonna miss you more than you /No, I can't tell him that. He'll think I'm /emNo, he won't./embr /Yes, he /Why am I arguing with myself? I need to stop it./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""I'm not looking forward to Friday." I blurted out, unable to think of what I emreally/em wanted to say. Or maybe I just didn't want to say what I really should have said. I don't know./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""I'm not either," I felt his hand slide on top of mine, which was resting on my leg just above my knee. "I don't want to leave you." he put his hand on my face and gently turned my head until my eyes met his. I could see so many emotions in him simply from looking into his eyes and realized that was all I needed to confess my feelings./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""I think I'm falling for you," the words left my mouth so fast I couldn't stop them. I wasn't sure I wanted to though, either. "The thought of us being separated for long periods tears me up and makes my heart try to make a new home for itself in my stomach," I told him. Who in the hell was this girl talking with my voice? It sure didn't seem like me. I think I had a 'deer in the headlights' look on my face. I felt like I did, anyway. It went away when I felt his soft lips on mine, though. Everything went away when I felt it. I was happy./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""We emwill/em make this work. Wanna know how I know?" he asked./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""How?"/span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;""Because I feel the same way about you that you do about me." he smiled at me. I kissed him this time. I know I should probably tell him that I love him since it's the perfect time, but I don't want to ruin this moment. I'd rather leave it at 'I'm falling for you' and hold off on professing my love for him./span/p
p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri; line-height: 16.8667px;"span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 18.4px; font-family: Georgia;"I spent the rest of the evening in his arms on the couch. We watched a few movies together – one of them being a chick flick that had me crying because it hit so close to home with him leaving in just over a day now. He held me close and let me cry, reassuring me the entire time that we would be okay and we could get through it. It was killing me to know that I was going to have to figure out a way to be without him after falling so /What in the hell was the matter with me? Before I met him the day he saved my life at the beach, I never knew this man and didn't even feel like I needed to be emnear/em him. Why did this change so fast? Why did I, all of a sudden, feel like I would be miserable without him?br /emIts love, you You're in love with /emI looked over at him, watching him as he watched the movie for a moment. As I watched him, it hit me that the little voice in my head was right. I hadn't fallen for him. I was in love with him. Sonuvabitch… I'll be damned./span/p