It's been about a week since I've gotten drunk and things are getting back to normal, well sort of. Edward and I talk just about every night. Our feeling, fears, or just about anything that was on our minds. I had to admit that it was helping; it was like our own form of therapy. Edward was bringing Abby outside to play while I tried to get Ryan to sleep. He had been up all night with a cough and we didn't want it to turn into a full blown cold.

"How is my little man?" Edward whispered coming to lean down next to me

"Tired" I laughed quietly as we looked down at our son fighting with his eyelids

I rocked him gently as Edward stroked his cheek.

"He doesn't feel warm"

"No but he doesn't want to eat either"

"Daddy" Abby yelled running into the room

Ryan jumped and started crying, clearly not happy with his sister's yelling. I stood up to rock him and Edward grabbed Abby in his arms.

"Hey, why are you yelling? You just scared your brother; mommy was trying to get him to sleep"

"Outside" she said pointing towards the door

"Okay, calm down" turning to me "I'll just be in the front yard, call me if you need anything"

"Okay" I laughed setting Ryan in his crib

The Cullen's finally found out what happened and why we've been so distant. We had gone over the other night to explain it.

Edward sat next to me squeezing my hand as I took deep breaths trying to calm my racing heart. The family had all gathered into their large living room waiting for us to talk. As soon as we walked through the door Alice started talking about adding an extra room for the new baby. It took everything I had in me not to cry, though she knew something was wrong.

"What's going on?" Alice asked

My eyes wondered over to Rosalie who had Ryan clutched to her chest while trying to rock him to sleep. Esme was helping Abby eat a chocolate chip cookie that they made earlier.

"Bella?" Edward whispered nudging my arm with his shoulder

"Well you all know how I've been acting so…distant lately?" I continued once they nodded "Well after I told you I was pregnant, later that night I had a...I had a...mis…I had a miscarriage"

My face fell into my hands and I started to violently shake with sobs. No one said a word; I think they were just in shock. Edward surprisingly didn't lean over to comfort me and when I peeked at him, he had his hand over his face, leaning against the arm of the couch. Rosalie passed Ryan over to Emmett a wrapped me in a hug.

"Bella I'm so sorry" she sobbed "Don't worry everything will be okay"

Alice's small frame hugged my knees but I tried desperately to hold my emotions in for the sake of Edward. By the looks of him, he was breaking down. He eventually got up, grabbing Abigail, and walked into the kitchen.

"He won't talk to me" I whispered to them "This is the 3rd time he's gotten up and walked away. I feel like he can't deal with this. His only option is to walk away from the situation"
I got up off the couch and walked into the kitchen to follow my distraught husband. I found him leaning up against the counter while silently rubbing his daughter's back. He looked up when I came in, at least that was something.

"We can't keep doing this" I crossed my arms over my chest "We need to talk this out"

He sighed and moved Abby to his hip and opened up his arm to me. I smiled slightly and walked into his embrace.

"You're right love" he placed Abby on the floor when she started to fuss "You knew, from the first day I met you that I'm not good at expressing my feelings"

"No you're not but I know it would make you feel better"

He held me around the waist but one of his hands rested on my stomach and he rubbed it softly. I let a tear slip and it fell onto his hand. He was staring at my stomach like he was waiting for something to happen. Sadly we both knew that wasn't true.

"Edward, we need to except the fact that this happened and to do that we need to talk about it"

"I love you" he whispered, resting his forehead against mine "So damn much"

"Then agree with me that we need to talk…together" I pleaded

"Agreed"

I was pulled out of my daydream by crying.

"Bella!" Edward called panicked

I ran out of the room, thinking that something was wrong and when I got out there I was right. Edward was holding Abby on the ground, one hand on her forehead the other on her lip. She looked traumatized as Edward was rocking her and kissing her hair. I ran over to them and immediately saw that she was screaming and struggling to get up.

"What happened?" I asked panicked

"She was running up the path and she tripped. I had my back turned for one second and I heard her fall but I couldn't get there in time. I'm a vampire for crying out loud and I can't even watch my own daughter without her getting hurt"

"Edward it's okay, she'll be fine" I tried to calm him "Kids fall all the time"

He pulled his hand back from her lip and I could see that it was split open and gushing blood.

"Oh god" I gasped cupping my hand under her mouth

Edward pulled his other hand back and right above her eyes was a huge blue and purple bruise with a cut that was also bleeding. He placed his hand right back on her head trying to control the swelling.

"That's a big bump" he hissed

"Let's get her inside" I said grabbing her out Edward's arms and cradling her to my chest.

He ran ahead to the kitchen while I set her on the counter going to wipe her lip. After I got most of the blood off, Edward kept a firm grip on it so it would stop bleeding.

"Do you think she'll need stitches?" I asked

"If we can get the bleeding to stop then no" he said lifting the cloth to check "Looks like it's slowing already"

"Concussion?" I continued

"Her pupils look normal and she didn't hit her head that hard"

"Mommy" she cried reaching out for me

"I'm right here honey" I hushed sitting her on my lap

After she knew I was holding her, she barely moved as Edward cleaned the cut on her forehead and rested his hand there. She must've been really scared and in a lot of pain.

"Jeez, people are going to think I'm beating her"

"Edward!" I gasped appalled

"It was just a comment Bella"

He cleaned the kitchen up, ridding any traces of blood while I ran a bath for her. When I tried to put her in she clung to me. I ended up having to sit on the side of the tub washing her hair and body. She flinched when I gently ran the cloth over her eye. I also noticed that she had a scrap on her knee, but it didn't break the skin.

"I want to put some Neosporin on her eye, get rid of any bacteria" Edward said walking into the bathroom.

"Look" I held out her leg so he could see

"Aw my poor baby" he sighed running his fingers over it lightly

I wrapped her in a soft blue towel and Edward carefully rubbed the medicine in and stuck a band-aid on. He then helped me put her in some fleece feet pajamas. She looked like she was about to fall asleep, it was her nap time after all.

"Edward, hand me a brush"

He spun grabbing the baby brush on the counter. I lightly ran the brush lightly through her curls and she seemed to like it.

"She is not going to feel good in the morning" he sighed kissing her head and taking her off me

"Mommy!" she cried out again

"I'm going to get you some milk then I'll lay down with you okay?" I cooed quietly

I quickly rummaged through the fridge to get her a drink and hurried back to our bedroom. Edward was lying down, rubbing her stomach as she continued to cry. I turned the T.V on and put a movie in while I sat on the bed.

"She's half asleep" he whispered

She took her drink from me and scrambled into my lap. I brushed her hair back and wrapped my arms around her. Edward tucked her blanket and stuffed teddy under her arm as her eyes drooped.

"She's very clingy to you" he observed

"She just wanted mommy" I shrugged "I think she was just scared"

He moved closer and leaned his head on my shoulder also rubbing Abby's leg. With both of her parent's near her, she drifted into a peaceful sleep.

"Edward can you grab me a tissue, her lip is still bleeding a little" I wiped the blood with my finger tip until he came back.

While I was waiting my head felt like it was floating and my vision was blurry. I rested my head back on the headboard and took a deep breath. Edward came back and handed me a tissue.

"Can you make me a sandwich or something please?" I asked "I haven't eaten anything all day"

"Yea sure" he leaned down to give me a kiss before sprinting out of the room

My eyes moved down to my daughter who was fast asleep and curled under the blanket. I carefully placed her down next to me and left the room, shutting the door behind me. I found my husband in the kitchen making me a sandwich.

"Able to escape?" he laughed once he head me

"Yeah, she's knocked out"

I took a seat at the island and he sat next to me, placing my food down. He wrapped his arms around my waist and placed his head on my shoulder.

"I love you" he whispered

"I love you too"

I turned my head so I could delicately place a kiss on his lips. It's been a while since we were so close with each other. He's tried, but I always tell him that I'm tired or not in the mood. With that thought I hesitated against his lips and he pulled back.

"I feel another therapy session coming on"

"No, I'm fine…I just" I shrugged

"You can tell me. Come on, we've taken a lot of steps forward. Don't start going backwards now"

"Sorry" I muttered

Tears started falling down my face and I heard him sigh and curse before he lifted me off the seat and into his lap.

"I'm sorry, love. It seems all I'm doing lately is causing tears to roll down that beautiful face of yours"

"I thought I cried myself out by now" I sniffed "Nothing's wrong, I just realized that we haven't been that close in a while"

"I know what you mean. Why don't we go lay down together. I think you could use a nap anyways"

"Yea sure"

Once in our bedroom I changed into a light purple nightgown and turned Abigail's movie off. Edward carefully picked her up from our bed and tucked her into her own. I noticed him looking over her lip and eye.

"Any better?" I whispered

"Bleeding stopped but it's going to look worse tomorrow. Remind not to bring her in public until this heals" he cracked a smile, leaning over to kiss her

"I don't like you making those types of jokes"

"I'm sorry that was the last one"

I jumped into bed and curled myself into a ball. I heard Edward close our bedroom door and lay down next to me. I sat up on my elbow so I could see his face.

"Ryan okay?"

"Yeah he seems to be breathing better and he doesn't have a fever. He'll be fine, just a stuffy nose"

"Take that off" I whined tugging at his shirt

He smirked and it was off in one swift movement. I ran my fingers over his sculpted abs and he shivered. My hands then moved down the button of his jeans.

"Bella" he groaned

"We're married, we're allowed" I laughed

"You know that's not what I meant by that"

"Come on, I want to cuddle with you"

"Okay then you next. I'm not the only one that's going to strip here"

He reached over and lifted the hem of my nightgown up above my head; I was just left in my bra and panties. His hand rested on my thigh as we both just relaxed. We haven't had skin to skin contact in a while. His arm wrapped around my shoulder to bring me closer and my eyes eventually closed.

"Bella?" Edward called "Are you ready to go?"

I rolled over, almost forgetting that we were visiting my father today. We had told him about the miscarriage and he took it almost as bad as Edward and I did.

"That was a nice nap" I laughed

The ride to Charlie's was quiet and peaceful. The kids were awake and alert and I was in a better mood.

We got out of the car and Charlie was already by the door waiting to greet us. Edward handed me Ryan while he had Abby.

"Hi sweetheart" he smiled pulling me into a hug "How are you feeling?"

"Better" I answered simply

Once Edward walked in with Abby, Charlie immediately gasped

"What happened to her?"

"She fell outside; believe me when I tell you it's not as bad as it looks"

The rest of the day went by rather smooth. The kids were well behaved and Ryan was taking his nap in the playpen we left here and Abby was with my dad outside.

I moved to sit down since I was feeling light headed again. I just thought it was because I didn't each much, plus having to take care of Ryan all night. I put my head in between my hands and took a deep breath.

"Bella" Edward called

"Mmm" I groaned

"What's wrong" he sat down next to me rubbing my back "Do you feel sick?"

"Just really light headed and dizzy"

"This has been going on for a couple days; I hope you're not coming down with something"

"I don't feel sick just…tired"

I moved to lie down on his lap and his hand went to my forehead.

"You don't feel warm" he observed

I turned so I was facing his stomach and ran my hand over his cotton shirt. His arm wrapped around my waist, pulling me closer. His hands continued to rub my back, lolling me into a light sleep. Suddenly a sharp pain shot through my back but I kept still for Edward's sake. Right after it passed I felt the most unbelievable movement in my stomach. I stilled as I took in what it felt like. A baby, it felt like a baby kicking. It was the same feeling I had when pregnant with Abby and Ryan, it was the most amazing feeling. I started crying and Edward's hands froze as I sat up.

"What's wrong?" he asked

I just shook my head, wiping my tears and placing his hands on my stomach. Confused he tried to resist.

"Edward feel" I pleaded

"Bella, honey, I thought we were getting past this. There is nothing…"

He shut up and I knew we both felt it as another soft flutter occurred. He looked the same way I'm sure I did, shocked. We were both there when I was bleeding uncontrollably. We were both there when Carlisle confirmed that our baby slipped from us. But there was no denying that something or someone was now growing inside me.

"Edward"

"I don't believe it" he shook his head, a small smile appearing "It's a miracle"