Here's the next chapter, I'm going to skip around to different time frames to get the story moving more quickly. If you don't like it like that then let me know and I'll change it. Thanks for everyone sticking with me! Please review, I keep losing reviewers!
"Bella I don't see anything"
Our heads just stared at the screen in sorrow. There was no denying that both Edward and I had felt some movement. Carlisle wasn't too convinced as the screen showed that nothing was there.
"Are you absolutely sure you felt something Edward?" he asked
"I'm sure"
He spent another minute moving the wand around but nothing showed up. He probably thought we were crazy or something. I knew that we felt something so why didn't we see it? He finally shut the monitor off and handed Edward a napkin.
"I don't know what to tell you. There is nothing there, not even I trace of the miscarriage. Maybe you just wanted a baby so bad that you really believed you felt something"
I sat up and pulled my shirt back down
"I'm not crazy" I cried I sat up and pulled my shirt back down and Edward stroked my back
"I didn't say you were. I think that you just wanted something so bad that…"
"Carlisle, we both felt something. Not just a nudge but a kick" Edward was just as desperate as I was
"All I can say is that if you feel it again then let me know"
Back at our cottage I was sitting on the floor with the kids while Edward was out hunting. He was opposed- well more like outraged when I told him I wanted to be left alone. I told him that I needed space and I was more then capable of taking care of myself and our children. Ryan was a splitting image of Edward. His hair was a perfect tousled brown, and his eyes were beautiful. No doubt Edward looked like him as a baby. Abigail looked like him as well, with her golden eyes and flawless skin. Though she had my hair and behavior, she was just as clumsy.
"Ryan look at mommy" I waved a block at him "Come help me build"
He just smiled and threw the block at the tower that I started for him. Abby thought this was funny and started throwing her blocks as well.
"Hey, stop that" I scolded, this child needed some serious discipline
She hasn't shown any signs of a special gift but Edward's been trying to control Ryan's shield. He's still too little to understand it, but Edward taught him the word 'danger', and if said his shield will expand. The washer buzzed and I lifted myself off the floor to get the laundry. Usually Edward did all the housework-since he was faster- but I needed to do something. Ryan started whining, so Abby must have been torturing him.
"Hold on baby I'm coming"
I quickly placed the clothes in a basket and raced back to the living room. Abby was picking Ryan up by the arms and dragging him around the living room.
"Don't pick him up like that" I grabbed him from her "You might hurt him"
I placed him in the playpen with his blanket, hoping he'd take a nap. I then turned around to pull Abby into my arms.
"Why don't you come and help me fold daddy's clothes"
I placed her on the bed and dumped the basket full of clothes on her. She laughed and started kicking them off. I wish we had more moments like this with them. Her head was healing and it looked more like a bruise now. She found her blanket in the mess and wrapped it around her, closing her eyes.
"Tired?" I cooed
She nodded and placed her thumb in her mouth. I cradled her in my arms and brought her into her room.
"Well this is good, both of you taking a nap at the same time. Maybe daddy and I will get some alone time"
I placed her in her crib and turned the night light on, closing the shades. I leaned down to kiss her in the forehead.
"Daddy?"
"He went out; I'll have him give you a kiss when he gets home"
She seemed satisfied with my answer and rolled over to face the inside of her crib. We really needed to get her a big girl bed. But it's not like we would need a crib anymore.
"I love you" I whispered
I walked back into the living room and of course Ryan was passed out in his playpen. I leaned down to pick him and brought him into his room. I was surprised when he didn't stir at all. I quickly shut the door and continued putting clothes away in the corresponding rooms. I went back into Ryan's room to put his clothes away when I felt cold arms wrap around my waist and I jumped.
"Edward, don't do that!"
"If you knew it was me then why did you jump?" he laughed
"Because you scared me"
"I'm sorry" he nuzzled my neck "Both kids taking a nap at the same time- that's a new record"
"I told Abby you'd come in to give her a kiss when you got home"
"Okay, go wait in the living room; I want to talk to you"
I just looked at him weird as I watched him disappear into our daughter's room. I grabbed a blanket out of the closet and curled up on the couch.
"I'm surprised" he whispered after I minute "We never get alone time"
"I told you I could handle them by myself" I scoffed crossing my arms
He sighed and sat on the couch next me and I curled up in his lap.
"I never said you couldn't. I just like it when my family's there if something goes wrong"
I shrugged it off and scooted closer to him. He wrapped the blanket closer around me and his hand played with a strand of my hair.
"So about yesterday…" he started
"What about yesterday" I countered
"I'm so sorry that you had to go through that again. I just don't understand what happened… I mean we both felt something"
"Carlisle was probably right like he always is. We just wanted it so bad that we thought it was really happening"
"It just doesn't make sense"
"It will all work out in the end" I smiled lightly "So did you find anything good to eat?"
"No, just a couple elk and a cougar"
"That's good"
"So both kids are asleep and we're all alone. What should we do?" he joked
"I can think of a few ideas"
His body hovered over mine and his hand tangled in my hair. My lips never left his until I needed to breathe. He held me so carefully and I loved the contact between us.
It's been about two weeks and nothing's happened. We were beginning to think that Carlisle was right and we just imagined it. Edward wasn't too convinced though, he was sure that I was still pregnant.
"Both kids are fine mom" I laughed "Abby's talking a lot and getting into everything. Ryan is just like Edward"
"Oh I miss them both so much. I bet Abigail is just a little mischief. You were at that age"
"She is, believe me. We went out to eat the other night and Edward ended up chasing her through the restaurant. We defiantly won't be going out to eat anytime soon"
"Oh that's just the cutest thing" she laughed
"How are you doing?" I asked
"I'm alright, it's hard sometimes but I make it through. You know, everyone still talks about how happy they were that you guys came"
"I'm happy that we did"
"How are you doing, sweetheart?"
"I'm okay…"
"Are you sure, you went through something that might take a while to come to terms with"
"Mom, I'm okay. Edward and I have been talking a lot and it's really helped"
"That's good"
"When are you going to come visit?" I desperately needed to change the subject
"I'm not sure baby, but soon"
Edward walked into the room with his coat on and nodded towards the door.
"Hey, mom I got to go. We're taking the kids to the aquarium today"
"Sounds like fun, send me pictures okay"
"I will, call you later?" I laughed
"Of course… I love you"
"Love you too, bye"
"That sounded like it went well" Edward said
"Yea it did"
"Ready to go?" he asked
"Yep"
I grabbed my coat on the rack and grabbed Abby's hand. She looked so cute in her pink rain boots and raincoat. Edward was holding Ryan and he had his dinosaur coat on. We walked out to the car and we each placed them into their car seats. Edward put the strollers in the trunk and handed the kids juice cups before climbing in the front.
"Are you ready to see some fish?" I asked
"Alright let's go" Edward smiled
The ride to the aquarium was short and a huge dolphin hovered the archway leading into the park. I haven't been here in since I was little and I was excited to be here. Once we got the kids out of the car they looked up in amazement. Thankfully it was cloudy out today so there weren't that many people here.
"Okay what first?" I asked after we got settled
"Um… we can go to the tanks and see the sharks, dolphins and fish"
We walked up to the tunnel and suddenly we were surrounded by marine life. Beautiful assortments of colored fish were all round us.
"Mommy"
I turned and saw Abby pointing at a shark
"That's a shark" Edward smiled kneeling down next to her
"Scary" she laughed hiding her eyes
"Don't worry; daddy won't let it get you"
She giggled and put her hand up against the cloth. Edward looked a little wary having her that close but he didn't make a move to pull her away. I pushed Ryan to where a crowd of people where laughing at something. There was a dolphin that was swimming right by the glass.
"Aw look baby" I cooed pointing towards it
His eyes never left the dolphin as it swam right up to us. I loved being able to bring our kids out like this. They both enjoyed just being a family and having me and Edward by their sides. After an hour of checking out the frogs and penguins Ryan yawned.
"You can't be tired already" Edward smiled kissing his forehead "I have something else planned for the day"
"Like what?"
"You'll see, why don't we get some lunch before they fall asleep"
We switched and he held Ryan while I pushed Abby until we found a little stand that had hot dogs and burgers. Abby ate rather quickly while I tried to get Ryan to eat his mashed bananas.
"I really want to know what you have planned"
"You'll find out soon enough" he smirked
"You're such a tease"
The park was getting crowded as the day went on and the kids were getting restless. I guess after 3 hours of looking at fish they were getting tired.
"Bella, can you follow me please?"
"Okay"
He led us into a back room where 2 staff members were standing by a pool. Sitting right in the pool was a dolphin.
"Edward" I gasped covering my mouth "You didn't"
One of the staff members was in the pool and gently petting the dolphin.
"Mommy fishy" Abby cried
"I see"
Edward knelt down and the dolphin screeched with excitement. I'm surprised it didn't try to swim away from him.
"Okay just hold your hand in the water" the women grabbed Ryan's hand to help him pet it
His face lit up and he laughed when it squirted water at him. I followed them and the other women grabbed Abby from me to help her. I sat next to Edward on the side of the pool and grabbed his hand. Both Abby and Ryan looked so happy and I was so thankful that he had arranged this.
"Thank you" I whispered
"You're welcome" his smile lit up his face
I noticed that another staff was holding a camera and getting the whole thing on tape. At least we would have a memory of this. I was surprised when the dolphin swam over to us and literally came out of the water towards me.
"Whoa" I laughed reaching out to run my hand across the smooth blubber
Edward laughed and held onto me as I leaned back a little. The dolphin made an unusual squeal and pressed it mouth right on my stomach.
"I'm sorry" the women nudged the dolphin away from me
"No it's fine" I assured them and turned to stare at Edward
He looked just as confused. There was no way that was an accident and we both knew it. It was hard to pull the kids away but it was getting late and they were tired. We got them each a stuffed dolphin and I t-shirt. I smiled as the both fell asleep walking back to the car. The ride home was definitely quiet so that meant Edward could talk.
"That was rather odd" he said after pulling out of the parking lot
"Yep" I nodded
"You know that wasn't a coincidence. Dolphin's are very smart; it could be a good sign…"
"Edward…just stop it, please! It doesn't mean anything. Just stop… stop thinking that I'm pregnant and stop looking at me like my stomach is going to swell up like a balloon any second. You heard what Carlisle said and I wish you would just accept it. You're making this harder on us" I cried wiping my eyes
He didn't respond and I just continued to stare out the window. He sighed and concentrated on driving, obviously upset with the way I was acting. We pulled up to the in the next hour and I helped him get the kids settled in for the night but no words were spoken, not even a look. It was only 4 o'clock and they'd probably be up all night. I quickly jumped in the shower and let my mind wander to something other then babies for once. That's when I heard Edward slam the front door shut on his way out. When I hurried out the shower to look for him he was sitting on the porch, head in his hands.
"Edward?" I called
The wind blew and I wrapped my towel around me tighter. He didn't make a move when I sat next to him on the step. I noticed that he had the baby monitor clutched in his hand and I smiled at that. Even when he was angry, the kid's safety was always first. Although he could probably hear them from a mile away.
"I'm so sorry Edward. I didn't mean to yell at you like that... I'm just trying to get over it and you keep bringing it up"
He didn't make any acknowledgement that he heard me so I decided to continue.
"I wish you would try and get over it too…"
"Bella stop!" he growled "You don't need to try and make me feel better about myself. I'm sorry for making you feel like that"
"I know you want this so bad but it just wasn't meant to be"
"Yes, but my feelings and assumptions haven't changed on the matter" he countered
"I know" I whispered
He placed his hand on my thigh then his eyes grew wide. I blushed when I noticed I was still in a towel and my hair was soaked.
"Get back inside, you're going to get sick!" he scolded lifting me up
I rolled my eyes at him and hurried into the house.
I was lying on couch reading Wuthering Heights yet again. Things have been pretty boring lately. I've been really tired and Abby has decided that she doesn't like sleeping at night anymore. She learned to climb out of her crib and Edward found her in the kitchen trying to get her juice cup. Wanting a snack I moved to get up when I felt it. There was a strange fluttering in my stomach again.
"Edward" I yelled "Come here, hurry!"
My hands were shaking as they lay over my stomach. The kicking was more intense this time and it wasn't stopping. He rushed into the bedroom a panicked expression on his face.
"What's wrong?"
"I swear it's not in my head this time. Our baby is alive and well"
He walked over slowly and placed his hand on my abdomen. His face lit up and I knew he felt it too.
"I feel it" he gasped in wonder
"It's real, it always was" I cried
"But how?"
"You're the one with 3 medical degrees" I laughed
"I love you"
"I love you too"
He placed the most delicate kiss on my lips, yet it held all the passion I needed. Our lives had been filled with many up and quite a few downs. We've had quite a few downs in the last couple months. Looks like fate was in our hands tonight and I was okay with it.