Edward's POV

The picture rested carefully between my icy pale fingers. I've been staring at this picture for over an hour now. I memorized every detail to engrave it in my mind. The thin piece of paper held everything that I needed and wanted. Arms snaked around my naked chest and lips kissed my neck. Her skin was warm due to the blankets she's been huddled under.

"Come lay down with me, I can't sleep without you near" my wife whined "You've been staring at that picture for an hour"

"Sorry…I just still can't believe it"

Bella took the picture out of my grasp and looked at it for a minute before placing it on the nightstand. I glued my lips to hers and lowered her back on the bed bringing the covers with us.

"Me neither but you can look at the real thing for hours in nine months"

Carlisle had finally come to a conclusion on what had happened. It was true that Bella did have a miscarriage but she is pregnant. She was pregnant with twins…yes twins and one fetus was not fully developed. The second baby was still too small to monitor and wasn't showing up on the screen until today. Since Carlisle had printed out the ultrasound picture I haven't stopped staring at it. We haven't told anyone yet but I'm pretty sure Bella can't hold off much longer.

"I can't wait" I whispered against her lips

After she found out one of the twins didn't survive, it took me a while to calm her down. As always she thought it was her fault and she could've done something to prevent it. I had to remind her that she was still carrying our baby and everything would be fine. I was pulled out of my thoughts by Bella's fingernails running up and down my sides. I did the same and ran my fingertips along her upper thigh causing goose bumps. Even in the dark she was the most beautiful sight.

"That tickles" she laughed taking her lips off mine

I laughed and moved so my head was lying in the crook of her neck. I felt her smile against me and run her fingers through my hair. I started to kiss up her neck but I heard Abby moving around. I stopped my movements, pushing away from my wife.

"What's wrong?" she asked sitting up

"Our daughter climbed her way out of the crib and is on her way to the kitchen" I laughed getting up

"I didn't hear her"

"You were quite distracted love" I tapped the end of her nose

I smiled as she turned around and curled herself in the blankets and closed her eyes. As I made my way through the kitchen I saw that my daughter wasn't only smart enough to escape her crib, she managed to get the fridge open.

"What are you doing out of bed?" I called to her sternly

She jumped at the sound of my voice and started jumping up to reach her juice cup. I sighed and walked over to pick her up.

"Juice" she whined still reaching

"No juice, you can have milk" I rubbed her back lovingly "It's way past your bedtime"

I grabbed a spare sippy cup from the cabinet and filled it with milk. It smelt absolutely awful, I couldn't believe she actually drank this. I brought her back to her crib and tucked her in.

"You need to stay in here. No getting out of your crib okay?" I cooed "If you need something you tell daddy"

I leaned down to place a kiss on her cheek and she was asleep before I left the room. I went to check on Ryan and was pleased to see him sleeping peacefully with his green and blue blanket tucked around him. I made my way back to our room and of course Bella was already snoring.

"Jeez I'm all alone tonight"

I climbed back in bed trying not to disturb my sleeping beauty next to me. I hesitantly reached out to rest my hand on her stomach. She shifted on her back and her stomach was straight up in the air. I carefully rested my ear above her and I could hear our baby's tiny heartbeat.

"Nine more months" I whispered

Nine more months until I could hold our last baby we would ever have together. There was no way Bella was going to hold off on me changing her after this. Our kids are immortal and I would not let her miss out, I wanted us to be forever. Looking at her peaceful face I wish at some times I could sleep. Escape life for just a little while. I reached up to stroke her cheek and she shifted under my hand, opening her eyes slightly.

"Whoa, did I fall asleep?" she yawned

"Yeah, but it's the middle of night you're allowed" I laughed stroking her hair

"True" she sighed closing her eyes again

"Bella?" I asked hesitantly

"What Edward?" her eyes remained shut

"Do you think that I'll be able to handle another baby? I mean I can barely keep a handle on Abigail. She's climbing out of her crib and walking around the house and she gets into everything. What if Ryan and his shield get out of control? What if the baby has some super power that I can't handle? It's been a while since I've held a newborn, what if I hold him/her too tight?"

I took a deep breath as I let my insecurities roll off my chest. Bella sat up and I could feel her eyes burning in the back of my head.

"Where the hell did that come from?

"I'm just nervous" I put my head in my hands "How could I not be?"

"Honey, she's in her terrible two's what do you expect?" Ryan shield is in control because of you. If the baby has a special gift then we'll deal with it then… and since when are you scared of holding a newborn?"

"Since now"

"You'll be fine love, I promise you that" she placed her hand on my back and smoothed out my tense muscles. "You have your whole family and you have me. You're not doing this alone"

"I know but I already feel like I failed this time. Bella, you had a miscarriage and it resulted in the loss of our baby. Maybe if I'd taken you to Carlisle sooner it could've been prevented"

I felt Bella's hands leave my skin and I turned to face her but I saw she had gotten very upset when I mentioned her miscarriage. Her eyes began to leak of never ending tears, her breath becoming uneven.

"I'm sorry sweetheart" I scooted over so I could lean my head in the crook of her neck "I didn't mean to make you upset"

"I'm okay" she whispered

I leaned over to grab a Kleenex and helped her wipe here eyes dry. She surprised me by ripping it from my grasp and doing it herself.

"I didn't mean to touch upon that subject" I countered

"I'm fine, Edward" she said more sternly "Can I go back to bed now, please?"

"Of course"

She crawled away from me and covered herself in the layers of blankets that were on the bed. I moved to lie next to her but I could tell she wasn't going to sleep anytime soon. She was just avoiding the subject all together. This was a rarity in our relationship when she pushed me away. I knew I just had to give her time and she would come around too let me in. I have a long night ahead of me and it was only 1am. After a while she did fall asleep but by that point I could see the sun start to rise over the clouds. I watched her toss and turn knowing it was a nightmare she was having. She started whimpering about the baby and I knew she needed to talk to someone. If my wife could trust her husband to talk to her about this,then who would she trust? I leaned over to comfort her but pulled my hand back quickly.

"Dada" Ryan cried

I hurried out of bed and went to grab him. He was the only one who had slept the whole night through. He was sitting up in his crib and I was surprised when his shield was surrounding him. I went to grab him and his shield dropped once he was in my arms. I looked around and listened but I didn't hear or sense anything threatening.

"Hey what is it buddy?" I asked him "Huh?"

I peeked in on Abigail to make sure she was fine then turned back to my son. He seemed unaware of what he'd just done and that had me nervous. He couldn't just go around flashing his shield to people in public.

"Let's go in the living room while we wait for everyone to wake up huh?"

I plopped him on the floor where the kid's toys still hadn't been cleaned from the day before. He grabbed the blocks and started stacking them. He surprised me by building a pretty sturdy tower. It scared me how much his mind was developed at such a young age. I ran my hand through his hair just watching him.

"You are growing up right before my eyes" I lifted him on my lap and kiss the top of his head

"You're excited for a new baby right?"

"Baby?" he asked turning his head to look at me

"Mommy has a baby in her tummy and daddy's scared" I admitted to my son

"Scared" he repeated

"So is mommy"

I turned my head to see Bella leaning up against the wall. He arms were folded across her chest and I wondered how long she was standing there before I noticed.

"But we'll get through it" she continued

Carlisle, Esme, and Charlie were currently at our house. He said he had something to tell us. I handed Bella a glass of water and took a seat next to her, rubbing her arm.

"I want to talk to you about your options"'

"What options?" I asked

"I'd like to recommend Bella to a high risk prenatal doctor" he said slowly

"What?" she gasped sitting up "I thought everything was fine. I want you to be my doctor. You're the only one I trust"

"I know sweetheart, but I've never had to deal with something like this before. I'd rather you be in the care of a doctor that has done this many times before and knows what to expect. You know I wouldn't mention it unless I felt like I could trust them with you"

"Bella" Esme spoke up "We think of you as our daughter and we'd never do anything to endanger you and our grandchild"

"Bells you have to trust that Carlisle knows what he's talking about. If he feels safer having you see another doctor then…" Charlie added

"And I'll still be there, it's not like I won't have any input"

"I trust you" she sighed leaning against me "Hey dad, I have some left over pasta in the fridge I can heat up for you"

"Sure Bells, that sounds great"

She got up and walked into the kitchen Charlie hot on her tail. I turned back to mother and father.

"Everything is fine right?" I asked

"From what I know she is completely healthy. We'll know more in a couple days when we go and met with doctor Mills"

Do you trust him?"

"I do Edward, I've known for years and he's had experience with this before"

Esme came over and rubbed out the tension between my shoulders I leaned my back on the sofa and rested my eyes.

"She'll be okay son" she sighed

"Why can't she just go through a normal pregnancy?"

"Because the father is a vampire"