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*Doing a time skip with this chapter*

"Happy mother's day" I heard as I awoke

I sat up in bed to see my lovely husband and my kids carrying in a tray of breakfast for me. It smelled absolutely delicious which was good because I'm starving.

"Hey guys"

Ryan and Abby jumped up on the bed and sat next to me. I gave them each a kiss on the cheek as Edward placed the tray of food on my lap and leaned down to give me a kiss.

"Thank you" I smiled at him

"You're welcome"

"Did you guys help daddy make all this food?"

"Daddy used the over though" Abby told me "It was hot"

"I stirred the eggs" Ryan said

"You did such a good job" I said taking a bite off eggs, they were really good

The kids didn't want to leave so I ended up giving them half of my breakfast. They had some French toast, eggs, fruit, and home fries. Finally Edward laughed and seemed to notice that I wasn't eating much.

"Okay guys let's have mommy actually eat some of the breakfast. Remember she has to feed the baby too" he laughed

It's been about 3 months since I almost went into labor and no one lets me forget it. Dr. Thomason had since put me on bed rest because my body was just not handling the pregnancy well. I mean sure each pregnancy was harder than the last but this has Edward driving me crazy. I'm the only one who isn't constantly worrying. Well, I'm hoping that the baby will be okay but he/she is half vampire. This pregnancy wasn't normal. None of my pregnancies were. He won't let me do anything and every time I get up he freaks out. There is no way in hell I'm staying in bed for 2 more months.

"I forgot your pills" Edward's voice brought me out my thoughts

"I'll get them"

"No you won't, I will" he was out the door before I could argue

"Daddy's nuts" I told my kids making them laugh

"I heard that"

"You were meant to"

I scooted myself out of bed and started to get dressed for the day. Even though it was mother's day I really wanted to get the baby's room situated. Yes we have everything we'll need but nothing was in the right spot. We had taken the crib apart, for space issues, so we need to figure out where it will go.

"Here you are my dear" he handed me my pills I had to take

"Thank you"

"You are supposed to be on bed rest" he argued and wrapped his arms around me in an attempt to pick me up

"Don't you dare pick me up" I threatened. I was having a baby and I was being treated as one

"What are you so stubborn?" he sighed "I don't want you going into premature labor"

"Even if I did- which I won't- then I'm sure the baby would be fine"

"I hope you're right about the one" he let go of my waist

"Can we go out today?"

"I don't think…"

"Oh come on! Please please please!" I begged

"How about we just go to the big house for a little while later on"

"Fine" I pouted. It wasn't what I had in mind but anything to get out of the house

We spent a majority of the day just lounging around the house. Edward pulled down the tote with all the baby things so I spent some time separating the clothes. I placed the girl clothes on one side and the boys in the other. They'd be easy to get to once the baby got here. I also trashed anything with a stain and they were mostly Abby's clothes. Since she was the first Edward and I weren't really good on keeping the food in her mouth and off her outfits.

"Mommy what are you doing?" Abby asked coming to sit on my lap

"Taking out clothes for the new baby" I showed her a pink onesie that she wore on her first day of life "You used to fit in this"

"But it's so little" she held it up to herself

"Ya you were a tiny baby, so was Ryan. I don't think that would even fit your arm anymore"

"Will the baby wear this?"

"If it's a girl yes" I promised

"If the baby is a boy will he wear Ryan's old clothes?"

"Yes he will" I kissed her cheek "I love you"

"Love you too"

Once we arrived the kids were immediately whisked away by their aunts and uncles. I'm not sure where they went but I assume Abby was going to become a dress up doll very soon. Strangely she liked it, not sure where she got that from.

"Bella honey I thought you were supposed to be on bed rest?" Esme asked

"I can't sit in bed with him waiting on me hand and foot anymore and I needed to get out of the house"

"Well I just made some chocolate chip cookies that I was going to bring over if you want one"

"Sure, thanks" I smiled at her

"While you guys are here I want to talk to you" Carlisle sighed sitting down

"About what?" Edward asked

"Well you guys know that we need to discuss Bella being changed" he started "Part of the Volturi's problem is that she is still human. We need to discuss a time in place where we think it will be appropriate to change her"

"Well I haven't really given it much thought considering everything else that's going on" Edward told him "I mean obviously I know it has to happen"

Esme came back with a plate of cookies and a glass of milk. I smiled my thanks at her and she joined Carlisle on the couch.

"When do you want to be changed?" Carlisle asked

"I don't know" I shrugged "I'm going to be breastfeeding so…"

"About 6 months after the birth then"

"Yes" I agreed

"Or longer" Edward interjected "Are you sure that you don't want to spend the first year of our baby's life human? After you're changed, who knows how long it will be before you can control yourself. The baby can't be without its mother"

"I don't know what I want" I whispered "I want to be there but how do we know when the Volturi will intervene? I can't be away from my child that long but I won't hurt them either. How do we know that?"

"We don't. Every vampire is different. You may not feel any bloodlust towards the baby. We just don't know yet" Carlisle told me "Why don't we focus on the where for right now. Do you want to be changed at home? Far away?"

"I don't know. Maybe at home but maybe far away so I can adjust?" I shrugged again

Edward looked at me with a concerned look

"Do we keep the kids away so they can't hear you? Who do you want there with you?" he kept the questions coming and it was making me more aggravated. We still had so many things to figure out. So many things that Edward and I never even thought about, much less made decisions on.

"I want Edward with me" I grabbed his hand

"I won't leave your side" he promised

"What should we tell your dad?"

"Carlisle I don't know yet. I haven't thought about anything yet" I put my head in my hands

"I'm sorry. I don't mean to overwhelm you but you guys should really sit down and have a serious conversation"

I looked up at my husband and he looked as distraught as I did. I didn't realize how much we actually had to talk about and it kind of freaked me out. My hands caressed my stomach protectively. I used Edward's leg to help me stand up.

"I'll be right back" I announced

"Where are you going?" he asked

"For a walk" I tried to keep my voice even

"Are you okay?" Esme asked

"I just need a minute, don't worry I won't be far" I promised

I grabbed my jacket and walked towards the backyard. I needed a minute with my own thoughts and not have anyone in my ear. I could hear the kids in the playroom that the family built for them. I hope I would be able to play with them after I was turned. What if I could be near them for a while? Edward had told me once that it could take nearly a year or longer for a newborn to be under control. There was no way I could stay away from my kids that long. They wouldn't remember me.

"There is no way I'm missing any moments of your life" I whispered caressing my bump "Mommy will make sure of it"

I made my way over to the swinging seat that was on the edge of the yard. Edward didn't usually like having me this far from the house without him so I knew he'd be out here soon. I looked to the woods wondering if the Volturi were watching us, it always felt like they were.

"Bella?" I heard him ask "You ran out kind of fast"

He took a seat next to me and I put my feet in his lap. I knew we had to talk.

"I'm alright I just felt like my mind was going to explode"

"Carlisle feels bad about upsetting you"

"I'm not upset"

"Bella" he scolded

"Okay maybe I'm more scared than upset"

"What are you scared about?"

"What if the kids forget about me?"

"Bella honey, why would they forget you?"

"Once I'm changed I won't be able to be near them. You said that it could take year, maybe more until newborns can control themselves. I can't leave them for that long"

"You won't and we'll make sure of that. And knowing you you'll adjust quickly. And because they're half vampire, their blood might not even tempt you. I was scared to when Abby was born but her blood didn't tempt me in the least. My bloodlust was overcome by me becoming a father" he smiled

I smiled to and wrapped my arms around him.

"I want to be changed at home" I told him

"I know"

"And I don't want the kids near me"

"Then we'll arrange for them to go somewhere with the rest of the family"

"I don't know about my dad"

"That one we can figure out later" he kissed my temple

My hands continuously rubbed my swollen stomach when I got another thought.

"Can you tell if the baby is a boy or girl by their thoughts?"

He sat up and placed both his hands on either side of my stomach and concentrated. His brow wrinkled in confusion and he shook his head.

"Not really it's all really confusing and I can't make anything out. I thought you didn't want to know?"
"I don't, I was just curious" I shrugged

"Bella honey!" Esme stuck her head out the door "The kids are hungry so I'm going to throw some burgers on the grill, do you want one?"

"Sure, with cheese please" I smiled at her

"Got it"

"Come on daddy" I stood up and held my hand out for Edward "Duty calls"

The kids were sitting at the kitchen island watching Esme make them supper. The burgers smelled delicious and it made my mouth water. Edward handed them their juice cups and bowl of goldfish while they waited.

"Jeez, you guys are hungry. Did mommy and daddy forget to feed you lunch?" Emmett laughed coming up behind them

"They had a late breakfast and are having an early supper" I defended

"Sure thing, come on Jazz let's throw the ball around" they headed out the back door

Esme placed my burger on a roll and handed me my plate. She and Edward cut the kid's burgers

Up and they drowned it in ketchup.

"What do you guys say?"

"Thank you" they both said taking another bite

We tried to get them to wind down after supper. I put on a movie for them and they laid down on the floor. I was helping Esme clean up dinner.

"We didn't mean to overwhelm you"

"No, I know. Edward and I have just been putting off"

"We don't want to rush you but once you have the baby I know you won't want to do anything but stare at his/her face"

"I can't wait" I smiled